Acknowledge

The sky had just turned pale, and Gu Xi woke up tossed and tossed by the complicated dream. Gu Xiao still held him in the same position as when he just fell asleep last night, making his whole arms and legs stiff and numb.

The body moved to the side, the blood quickly spread throughout the body like a sprint, and the numb hands and feet slowly regained consciousness.

Gu Xiao was awakened by his subtle movements, opened his sleepy eyes and looked closely at Gu Xi, "Are you awake? It's still early, let's sleep a little longer."

"...I'm not sleepy anymore." Gu Xi stood up and pulled Gu Xiao's arm away.

"Xiao Xi." Gu Xiao pulled Gu Xi back, "It was my fault last night, so don't be angry with me, okay?"

Gu Xi didn't answer directly, but pushed away Gu Xiao's hand, put on cotton pads and stood up, "...I'm going to wash up."

When Gu Pingshao and Zhang Hui walked out of the room and saw that the two brothers were already having breakfast, they were both surprised.

"The sun came out from the west, you got up so early?" Gu Pingshao sat down at the table.

"Dad, Mom." Gu Xi greeted.

"There is porridge in the pot." Gu Xiao said.

Zhang Hui scooped up two bowls of meat porridge and put them on the table, "Are you planning to go somewhere for a while?"

"I'm going to the library." Gu Xi replied.

Gu Xiao glanced at Gu Xi, then lowered his head to drink the porridge.

After breakfast, Gu Xi got dressed and was ready to go out. Gu Xiao grabbed him and asked him what he would like to eat for lunch. He dodged his eyes and said it was fine, and then ran out of the door.

Gu Xiao looked at the empty and curved palm, and smiled bitterly.

Last night, his big confession did not change Hui Xi's words, but instead made Gu Xi afraid of him, shivering and avoiding everything about him.He wanted to follow, but he didn't dare to follow.

He was afraid of driving Gu Xi into a hurry, Gu Xi didn't even see him, and hid in a place where he couldn't find him at all.He could only worry and hesitate, but he couldn't get any news.

If he hadn't seen him kissing Ji at the bar last night, seeing Ji sending him home and still reluctantly downstairs, he wouldn't be so impulsive all of a sudden.

When Gu Xi came back at noon, Gu Xiao greeted him for dinner, and even packed the meal and placed it in front of him.The hot food was obviously freshly prepared, and it was still steaming even on a cold day.

"Is it cold outside?" Gu Xiao handed the chopsticks to Gu Xi.

"It's okay." Gu Xi raised his eyes to the level of the chopsticks, and after taking them, he began to bury his head in his meal.

"Are you still going out this afternoon?" Gu Xiao asked again.

Gu Xi nodded and took a bite of rice.

Gu Xiao put a small piece of braised pork into his bowl, and said softly, "Don't just eat, there are so many dishes."

Gu Xi didn't make a sound, and silently bit the piece of meat into his mouth.He kept praying in his heart that Gu Xiao would not be so considerate to him, he dared not speak, he was afraid that he would not be able to control his mouth, and accidentally said what was in his heart.

In the afternoon, Gu Xi was going to go out again, Gu Xiao anxiously asked if he could go together, Gu Xi hesitated, and finally said in a low voice: You don't want to go.

Gu Xi didn't go home for dinner in the evening, and only opened the door quietly when he was going to sleep. Seeing that Gu Xiao was already lying on the bed, he thought that Gu Xiao had already fallen asleep.But he didn't know, Gu Xiao just opened his eyes motionless.

The next day Gu Xi got up very early. He went out before his parents got up. He didn't come home at noon, but he ate dinner at home.Except for not talking to Gu Xiao during the dinner, it was the same as usual, and my parents didn't see any clues.

On the third morning, Gu Xiao also got up early, and stopped Gu Xi who was washing up and was about to leave, "You don't have to hide from me like this, if parents notice something, we can't explain it."

"I know, I just want to read more books during the holiday," Gu Xi said and was about to go out again. When he touched the doorknob, he didn't immediately open it. He struggled to turn his head and said hesitantly, "...Gu Xiao... I... I have always... put you..."

"I know, you treat me like an older brother, I didn't ask you to respond to me," Gu Xiao approached him, pinching his face with both hands, "but can you try to accept me? You don't dislike me, we Isn't it good to get along like back then?"

"It's different, it's not right for us to do this!"

"...Because you have someone else in your heart, right?"

"no……"

"Then shall we be together?"

"...I, I'm going out." There is no way to communicate with Gu Xiao on this matter. Every word of Gu Xiao shakes his determination. He can't even control himself. How to do it Advise Gu Xiao to give up.

As Gu Xiao said, parents should not find out, so Gu Xi would usually go home before his parents came home, pretending to be at home all day and get along with Gu Xiao in harmony.

After dinner, Gu Xi moved all the dishes and chopsticks to the kitchen to wash. After half of the washing, Gu Xiao suddenly went to the kitchen to find water to drink. After turning out the cup, he did not leave. Instead, he stood beside Gu Xi and watched him wash the dishes.

Just when Gu Xi couldn't figure it out and could only wash faster, Gu Xiao suddenly asked him: "Xiaoxi, are you still going to the library tonight?"

"……go."

Gu Xiao seemed to want to say something more, but Gu Xi didn't look up at him, and was washing the dishes quickly by himself.Finally, Gu Xiao squeezed the cup, turned around and left.

Gu Xi slightly turned his head to look at Gu Xiao's lonely figure, and wanted to stop him for a while, but he tried his best to suppress the urge, turned around and rubbed the dishes clumsily.

Most of the following days were spent in avoidance, every time he was at home Gu Xiao would ask him if he would go out, and his answer was always "yes", and then Gu Xiao turned away listlessly.But Gu Xiao didn't know that every time he turned around, Gu Xi would secretly turn his head to look at him, frowned and clenched his fists until they turned white.

Gu Xi wouldn't go home at noon, so he had a meal near the library, and then went to the library to occupy a place in a daze.I can't read the book, and my mind is full of the disappointed look that Gu Xiao may have cooked his favorite dishes at home and waited for him to go back, but only waited for a text message, or the look of Gu Xiao eating alone, my heart hurts so much.

Later, it seemed that Gu Xiao was not at home anymore. Once when Gu Xi came home at noon, he thought he would see Gu Xiao had prepared a table of meals waiting for him, but when he opened the door, there was silence.As he walked into the kitchen, he put his frozen hands to his mouth and breathed, trying to recover the temperature quickly.

Gu Xiao is not at home, which means he has to cook by himself.

But he can only cook noodles.

Just as he was hesitating about what dish to cook the noodles with, the door suddenly opened, and while Gu Xi was still breathing and thinking, Gu Xiao had already walked in front of him.

Gu Xi stared blankly at Gu Xiao, "I, forgot to bring notes..."

Gu Xiao raised his hand to hold Gu Xi's hand in his hand, and the warmth spread from his hand to Gu Xi's whole body in an instant.

But at the same moment, Gu Xi yanked away his hand like an electric shock, and at the same time hurried to the desk, opened the refrigerator helplessly, and asked in a panic, "Well, have you eaten yet?"

"Don't be afraid of me, okay?" Gu Xiao said.

"It's quite early at this point, you probably haven't eaten yet, or..."

"Gu Xi."

Gu Xiao suddenly interrupted Gu Xi, walked behind him, and put his hands on his shoulders.

Gu Xi trembled, but did not break free.

"I thought you would at least treat our relationship tactfully, but I didn't expect you to be so resistant, and even make you so afraid of me, and you have been avoiding me since you noticed it... I like you, I want to be with you, It’s not just brothers getting along like that.”

——Gu Xiao, stop talking.

"How much I want to be close to you and live together like a lover, but you have someone you like, you don't like me, you can't accept me appearing in your life in another capacity, I am not reconciled, but I There is no other way."

——No, I thought about it too, Gu Xiao.

"I can't see you suffering so much, so I won't force you, I won't bother you anymore... But Gu Xi, I'm sorry, I still can't be your brother well... I can't face you but I can only be peaceful Look, I don't even know how a good brother should treat his younger brother. If you can't touch, you can't hug, I don't know what kind of way we can get along with each other."

Gu Xi used all his strength to hold down his jumping heart at that moment, he really wanted to turn around and hug him, thinking of going crazy.

"Try hard to suppress all thoughts and restrain all impulses. You have to think twice about your words. In the end, only a few words are left, and your actions must be thoughtful. In the end, you don't act. This state is worse than that of strangers."

After finishing speaking, Gu Xiao took his hands away, walked to the side and took out some ingredients from the refrigerator, and then went to the side to slowly prepare lunch.