Xiyang Mourning

Zheng Yang didn't know why he was inexplicably sleepy, tears gradually blurred his vision, and he just fell asleep on the floor.

Zheng Yang fell asleep in a daze for an unknown amount of time, and suddenly felt something covering him, and then the original coldness disappeared without a trace.Zheng Yang felt something touching his face, and then he fell into a deep sleep again.

Zheng Yang had a dream, a dream he knew he was dreaming.He dreams of his master, who is strapped to face a screen, and he walks in.He froze when he saw what was on the screen, and it was him on the screen.

It was the picture of him being stripped off by Qinglin. He turned his head stiffly and saw Cheng Xi watching.He walked quickly to the screen to block it, and begged to Cheng Xi who was opposite, "Please don't watch... Please..."

But he still saw Cheng Xi's tears falling drop by drop, and he saw Cheng Xi turn his head and yell at someone in the dark.

Cheng Xi struggled desperately, he told the unknown corner to let go of Zheng Yang, he begged them to let Zheng Yang go, he asked them what the hell they wanted.In the end, he stared at the screen with a sad and desperate expression, saying sorry word by word.Zheng Yang looked at Cheng Xi who had tears and snot all over his face, and suddenly smiled.He suddenly knelt on the ground and walked to Cheng Xi's side step by step. He put his forehead on Cheng Xi's knee, like a coquettish puppy.

Zheng Yang also cried, he hugged Cheng Xi's feet and cried, then he looked up, looked at Cheng Xi's distressed face and smiled softly.

"I'm glad...Master"

It turned out that you were crying and sad for me at that time. It turned out that there was distress and despair in your eyes but no sympathy or disgust. It turned out that I would be so happy when I saw it.

After that, everything disappeared, just like the wind blowing all over the city. When the wind blows, it will dissipate gracefully and fly into the distance.

Then a room appeared, in which were him and Cheng Xi.He was unconscious, and his master was sitting next to him.

He watched the master holding his hand and telling him something, he could hear it vaguely, but he could see the tenderness on Cheng Xi's face and the light in his eyes.

He couldn't help approaching, and Cheng Xi's ramblings filled his mind.

He heard the master call him stupid and that he would feel distressed.

He suddenly remembered what he heard when he just woke up that day.

"Are you stupid? You can do whatever they ask you to do... You are so smart, but why are you so stupid when you meet me?"

I'm not stupid, it's because of you, master.

"Do you know... I will feel bad"

"That's right, how do you know...I don't even know myself"

"I know that I treated you badly before, you don't blame me, I dare to treat you like that, it's just because you love me, I always knew it"

"I like you... Zheng Yang, I don't know when it started, I really didn't mean to not know, I just... don't believe it, you know? Zheng Yang"

"Zheng Yang...why do you like me? I don't have anything, I don't treat you well...will...treat you like that for others"

"You said...how many sins did you commit in your previous life to like me...you say...how are you so stupid?"

Hearing these words, Zheng Yang slowly walked to his bed, he looked at himself in a coma, he was jealous of him, jealous that he could get the gentleness of his master.

He walked to Cheng Xi's side, knelt down and covered Cheng Xi's hand with his own, looking up at Cheng Xi and telling his thoughts tenderly.

"I know...I'm selfish...I feel like you're blocking my freedom and my future...I know, you're just scared, it's...I made you scared, sorry..."

"Qin Haoling said, I failed the love of two men, he was right"

No, master, you have not let me down, I have been relying on you to survive.Zheng Yang secretly kissed Cheng Xi's hand holding him

"You used to wait for me to wake up like this. Today... no, I will wait for you to wake up in the future. I will make breakfast for you, and I will hug you to sleep... I will treat you well... You trust me... Zheng Yang."

"Master... thank you"

Zheng Yang suddenly had an urge to kiss Cheng Xi, but the next moment he really stood up and kissed Cheng Xi's forehead, and then everything disappeared, only he maintained his original posture and kissed a non-existent people.

Then there was a white mist, and then the fog cleared, and it was still him and Cheng Xi who appeared.He saw Cheng Xi holding him, he saw the pain and worry on Cheng Xi's face, but he begged his master to leave him.He told about his pain, he told his master about his suffering, but he couldn't see the change of Cheng Xi's expression, from worry and anxiety to guilt and distress, and finally to sadness.

Zheng Yang watched the change of Cheng Xi's face, watched the light in Cheng Xi's eyes slowly go out, and watched Cheng Xi still gently stroke his hair.

Zheng Yang felt that the blue veins on his hands and forehead were throbbing, and every cell in his body was screaming, "Kill him! Kill him! Kill him!!"

How dare he, how dare he hurt the master's heart like this, how dare he!

He wanted to kill the crying self, he wished he could strangle himself to death!But he couldn't do it, he couldn't change it, because he knew that at that time, he also hurt Cheng Xi's heart.

Zheng Yang looked angrily and powerlessly at Cheng Xi's pain, watched them kiss, and finally Cheng Xi spit out "but as you like"

This time Zheng Yang didn't do anything, he just quietly watched the scene disappear, and there was no scene after that, he stood alone in his own dream.

Zheng Yang squatted with his head in his arms, and he stared at the ground in a daze. What did he do?Why did he do this? He was raped by Qinglin, so he felt inferior, he avoided, he hurt the master, he made the master feel guilty and distressed...

When his master was willing to love him, he gave up when his master felt guilty...

Why is this so?

Why is this!

Why is this! !

Thinking of the past half a month, if he is so sad, what about the master?So what about the master who thought he had killed him?How uncomfortable he must be...

"I like you, when you are clean..."

"I like you, when you are clean..."

"I like you……"

Where is the sound coming from?

"I like you, when you are clean..."

"No... no, no, no..."

"I like you, when you are clean..."

"Ahhhhhh!" Zheng Yang pressed his ears tightly, "Don't listen...don't listen!"

"Hey, go to sleep"

What sound... so sleepy...

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