Lucid dreaming

Li Zhaowei hid the remaining half box of air bombs in the closet.Cosi couldn't find a working gas bomb, and frequently fiddled with the empty shell casings.Li Zhaowei pretended not to see his movements, took out a hot glue gun, and proposed to glue the shell casings into a small tank.

In the past, Ko Xi would have applauded, but now, Ko Xi only stared at him with a pair of anxious eyes.Those eyes were black and bottomless, like big holes burned in silk.In just two weeks, Koshi seemed to have had his soul changed by that thing, and what remained in the house was like a shriveled skin.

Li Zhaowei just gritted his teeth and pretended not to see it, so it would definitely work.Ke Xi's eyes slowly became sober. For the first time in a month, he stood in front of the bedroom window, opened a gap in the curtain and looked down.

Seeing that he was engrossed, Li Zhaowei followed and looked outside side by side. Sure enough, summer was here, and the fountain in the community was gurgling to wash the rockery.It rained a few nights ago, countless rose flowers fell to the ground, and a little bit of light powder floated in the water, as if it could flow all the way to the peaceful and peaceful Anning River in the sky.

Ke Xi stared blankly, then suddenly said, "Brother Yan, is it June or July?"

Li Zhaowei thought for a while and said, "The end of August, almost September."

The corner of Ke Xi's mouth twitched, like a smile, but also like pain touching the skin. "It's been a long time, Du Hang."

A tiny spot of sunlight perched on the back of Kosi's hand.Li Zhaowei stretched out his hand to cover the spot of light, and nodded silently. Ke Xi slightly moved his eyes and looked at him: "But last time...it didn't seem to solve anything, why didn't he come anymore?"

Li Zhaowei could not answer this question.He selfishly hoped that Du Hang was hit by a car that day and died.Ke Xi waited for a while, his eyes shifted, he looked over Li Zhaowei's shoulder to look around the room, and said, "Why doesn't he come anymore? Did he go to school?"

It's been over two weeks since school started.However, Li Zhaowei has not turned on the phone at all recently, so naturally I don't know if anyone is looking for him.

"School hasn't started yet," he said. "School won't start until three days later."

Ke Xi stared at him blankly. Li Zhaowei gritted his teeth and smiled at him. After a while, Ke Xi sighed: "I haven't done my homework yet. I must do my homework today. Where's the homework?"

Three weeks ago, part of the homework was on the dining table and part in the study.Now he doesn't know where those papers and reference books are put.

"The study."

They found all the papers that the housekeeper had piled up in the study, and sat side by side at the big table as before.Seeing the conic section equation again feels like a world away, but I haven't done it for three weeks, and those problems seem a little strange.

Barely doing some math, Li Zhaowei saw Ke Xi maintaining a motionless posture from the corner of his eye, holding the pen stiffly with his fingers, his eyes almost touching the paper, he put down the pen and asked, "What's wrong?"

"I don't know..." Ke Xi said with difficulty, "What is this question..."

Mathematics has never been Koshi's strong suit.Li Zhaowei put down his pen and looked at it. It was a trigonometric function problem that couldn't be simpler.He pointed to the stem of the question and said, "Trigonometric functions. Think about it, this formula that converts cosx to 1/2 is that..."

"cos?"

Cosi seemed to be repeating something he had never heard before.Li Zhaowei looked at him suspiciously, and said, "Yes, did you forget the trigonometric formula?"

"Formulas for trigonometric functions..."

Ke Xi moved his eyes: "Brother Yan, I...I...can't remember..."

Li Zhaowei could clearly see the fear on his face.That kind of fear made Li Zhaowei flustered for no reason. "If you can't remember it, think about it slowly." He said in an inducing tone, "If you really can't remember it, let's recite it again..."

"I can't read," said Kosi. "I can see every word, but I can't read anything. That shouldn't be, is it? But I can't remember what you said, it's not right, it's No. They are dangling in front of my eyes, Brother Yan, you tell them to stop, this is not normal..."

He was speaking faster and faster, his fingers were clenched convulsively, his nails that hadn't been cut for a few weeks pierced into his palms sharply, and suddenly he lowered his head heavily and hit the table, making a loud noise. "stop!"

"Ke Xi!" Li Zhaowei put his hand between him and the table in time to prevent him from hitting him again. Ke Xi's second headbutt hit his arm, and the skin in contact with the table felt a hard pain.

"It's fine if you can't remember it. Think about it later. Don't worry."

"How can I not be in a hurry!" Ke Xi shouted back with five times the voice, "I'm not feeling well, Brother Yan! What about that thing? You give it to me, hurry up. I feel...I feel very uncomfortable now..."

His voice became hoarse, his breathing was rapid, his cheeks flushed sickly, and his body shook back and forth involuntarily. Li Zhaowei grabbed his arm, feeling the muscles in his arm tense for a moment, and then returned to relaxation.

"No, Ke Xi, bear with it, look at me, look at me..."

Ke Xi waved Li Zhaowei away as soon as he raised his hand, climbed off the chair unsteadily, circled blankly in the middle of the study, and swayed from side to side towards the living room.Li Zhaowei stepped in front of him first, grabbed his upper arms again, and made Ke Xiyang look up at him.

Ke Xi's eyes became even darker, because his pupils began to dilate; his expression was like turbulent water waves, every tiny muscle was trembling, and his fiery breath sprayed all the way to Li Zhaowei's face.Li Zhaowei involuntarily let go of his fingers and said, "Ke Xi, I...I'll get it for you right now."

Ke Xi's greedy expression made him suspect that the person he knew before was not the same person at all.

It took all three gas bombs for Kosh to stop.Li Zhaowei didn't dare to approach him, and stood at the door watching anxiously, seeing that he seemed to have finally calmed down, and asked, "Are you okay?"

He was just talking normally, even in a lower volume than normal, but Ke Xi jumped up as if he heard a loud voice, looked around in panic, looked at the cream gun in his hand, and looked at Li Zhaowei, his face was full of pain. Frightened, it was the Kosi he was familiar with.

Li Zhaowei said again: "It's me, are you okay?"

Ke Xi dropped the cream gun as if scalded, took a few steps back, sat on the ground, rubbed his hands back and forth in his hair several times, and whispered, "Brother Yan."

"I'm here." Li Zhaowei said.

"It's not right." Ke Xi whispered, "It's all wrong. It shouldn't be like this, it's not normal. You shouldn't have given me this, you shouldn't have allowed me to ask for this. I trust you so much, Yan elder brother……"

Li Zhaowei seemed to have been stabbed by a needle: "What did you say?"

Kosi raised his head, and there were four red nails on each of his pale cheeks.He stared at Li Zhaowei for a long time, and finally shook his head.

"It doesn't matter, those. Brother Yan, can you tie me to the sofa? I heard that this can help you get rid of drugs. It seems that it will be fine after the addiction."

"You're not taking drugs!" Li Zhaowei reflexively said.

Ke Xi laughed, half ironic, half funny, he raised his arm, the fine rash was clearly visible under the bright sunlight: "Do you believe it? This kind of thing won't grow on healthy people, right?"

"That wouldn't be..."

Even Li Zhaowei himself couldn't finish the sentence.Confession and bitterness clogged his throat.Ke Xi said just now that he used to trust him so much.

His dark, tearful eyes were like a spell, and there was nothing to hide from his thoughts in them.

"Aren't you going to continue to lie to me? Brother Yan?"

Li Zhaowei has handcuffs.Although when buying this pair of cuffs, he didn't expect that they would be used in this way in the end.They were a pair of leather bracelets covered with black feathers. They were exquisite, small, and beautiful, and could beautify white skin.

There was no handy tool at home, so he searched for a while and found the iron wire left in the cupboard for some reason.

Kosi played with the fur bracelet back and forth, showing a faint smile. "Like a girl's adornment," he remarked.He wanted to wrap the bracelet around his wrist, but his fingers couldn't move, and he couldn't fasten the metal buckle of the bracelet, slipping off the buckle again and again.

His fingers were shaking, his arms were shaking, his whole body was shaking.But not out of excitement, but out of an uncontrollable nervous reflex.

Li Zhaowei silently took the feather bracelet, first wrapped Ke Xi's wrist with a handkerchief, and then put the ring on Ke Xi's wrist.Ke Xi watched his sensitive movements and said, "Thank you, Brother Yan."

Without saying a word, Li Zhaowei tied the bracelet twice with a wire, and then wrapped the wire around the sofa in the bedroom.Ke Xi let him tie her up without moving, watched the thin wires gradually become black twists, and asked again: "Brother Yan, why are you crying?"

If he didn't say anything, Li Zhaowei didn't realize that he was crying yet.He raised his hand to touch his face, and it turned out that the cold and wet thing on his face was tears.He sniffed and said, "I'm sorry. I thought I was doing you a favor by bringing you out to live, but, I... I ended up hurting you..."

"No." Ke Xi still did not raise his eyes, "You have done enough for me, blame myself, not you. Have you tied it up yet?"

Li Zhaowei twisted the ends of the wire together and nodded.Ke Xi smiled slightly and said, "Brother Yan, I'm sorry. No matter what noise you hear, don't come in."

"But you always have to eat and drink water. I can't come in after meal time, can I?"

He wanted to make a wisecrack, but it didn't sound funny at all.Ke Xi still curled up the corners of his mouth in a face-saving manner, and said, "It's okay, it's not that I didn't eat a meal or two. I won't die of hunger."

His attitude made Li Zhaowei unable to refute.Li Zhaowei got up and walked out of the bedroom, closed the door, slid along the cold door and sat on the ground, holding his head.

He couldn't ignore Kosi's hoarse screams.Li Zhaowei pressed his ears tightly in the study, every word on the paper was swimming, he couldn't understand it, and he couldn't understand it either.All his attention was on the sound of struggling in the bedroom.

Koshi will die.If things went on like this, Kosi would surely die.

This is not the right way at all, he should ask for help.But who can he turn to for help, and who is willing to help him.

Unable to sit still, Li Zhaowei stood up, circling back and forth in the study, pulling his hair anxiously.He hoped that this was a dream, that this matter would pass quickly.He hopes that he is sitting in the classroom of No. 33 Middle School, or the classroom of Bailu Middle School.

Ke Xi let out another terrible scream, and Li Zhaowei rushed out of the study, rushed to the bedroom, and pushed open the bedroom door.

The sofa was full of scuff marks, the wire was deeply sunken into the wood, the bracelet was cut off by the wire, and the handkerchief that had never been used was stained with blood one by one. Kosh leaned back on the sofa, hastily Breathing, looking at him with half-closed eyes.

Blood trickled down his wrist and stained the pale rug.Bright red flowers bloomed on the white carpet.

The sofa was full of scuff marks, the wire was deeply sunken into the wood, the bracelet was cut off by the wire, and the handkerchief that had never been used was stained with blood one by one. Kosh leaned back on the sofa, hastily Breathing, looking at him with half-closed eyes.

Blood trickled down his wrist and stained the pale rug.Bright red flowers bloomed on the white carpet.

Both the premonition and the dream were true, and he personally hurt Ke Xi, who he didn't want to hurt the most.

Li Zhaowei took a step back, then another step, and slammed the bedroom door shut.

This is not something he can take on, and things should not have come to an end.

He is incompetent and weak, and everything will become unmanageable in his hands.

He should follow his mother's advice, let an agency help him prepare for the English test, and apply to schools with the help of his sister and mother.

He shouldn't think he can save others.

His Koshi, his life, his soul.It has gone to the point of no return.And he just wanted to escape by himself in a flash.Li Zhaowei collapsed on the floor of the living room and cried loudly.