guarding you for seven years

I still love you. After countless times of pain, I kept telling myself to let go, but I couldn't let go. -- summer green

Fifth YearNO.5

Sun Shike gripped the coffee cup tightly, "I know all about you and Xiao Zi." Sun Shike always felt that it was difficult to express the relationship between Xia Lu and Xiao Zi.

"So?" Xia Lu asked calmly. This was what she had thought a long time ago. The secret she had hidden for so many years was finally discovered. She thought she would panic, but she didn't expect that when all this came, she unexpectedly will be so indifferent.

"Xia Lu, it's impossible for you and Xiao Zi, you..." Sun Shike didn't continue, he took a deep breath, he must not get excited, he must not.

"We are all girls, I know." Xia Lu's words hit Sun Shike's heart word by word, "But, so what?" Xia Lu's bright almond eyes shone, and there was a kind of fearlessness in them.

"The only thing you are proud of is that Xiao Zi chose you, so you are now showing off to me as a winner?" Xia Lu never thought that she would say such mean words.

After Xia Lu said this, she regretted it. Thinking about it carefully, what's wrong with Sun Shike?He and Xiao Zi are in love with each other, what right do I have to blame him?

"That's not what I mean. I think no matter what, we are all classmates and friends. I just hope that we can all be well." Sun Shike explained, but the explanation became more and more unclear.

"I won't break you up, and you don't have to worry, I won't say anything I shouldn't to Xiao Zi." Xia Lu took a sip of coffee, why is the normally sweet coffee bitter now?It must be that the clerk put less sugar.

"Xia Lu, turn around. Liu Yao is a nice person. You should know what he thinks of you for so long. Try to accept him, and you will get your own happiness." Sun Shike slowed down her tone.

Xia Lu suddenly felt that Sun Shike was very ridiculous, put it down?It's easier said than done, if I could let go of myself, would I still have today?

"Sun Shike, do you know what I hate about you the most?" Xia Lu frowned and said, "False, especially hypocritical." Xia Lu bit every word very hard.

Sun Shike couldn't say a word anymore, he really had selfish intentions, he didn't want Xia Lu to pester Xiao Zi, and he had no way of predicting how much Xiao Zi cared about Xia Lu.

"What you can think of, I have already thought of it. That's why Xiao Zi is still your girlfriend. If I am willing to fight with you, do you think you can compete with me?" Xia Lu's voice was a little low.

Sun Shike's body was a little stiff, yes, if Xia Lu wanted to fight, what chance would she have of winning?

"Xiao Zi is just a sister to you, she doesn't know how to..." He couldn't continue, leaning on the back of the seat, stroking his forehead with his right hand, his mind was in chaos.

"I won't argue with you, because I don't want Xiao Zi to be attacked by gossip and moral public opinion after being with me, and I won't let her face her family and parents silently. So, you can still be happy with her. She is together." Xia Lu put down the coffee cup in her hand, looked out of the window, the lush trees blocked her view, her heart was beating slowly, and the numbness gradually spread, Xia Lu felt that she could not say the words 'I wish you happiness'.

"Xia Lu, I'm sorry, I love Xiao Zi, so..." I will not leave, I will let Xiao Zi stay away from you.Sun Shike didn't say the rest, stood up and left, while Xia Lu sat in the cafe and slowly finished her cup of coffee.

Xia Lu sat quietly in the corner of the bookstore and read a book all afternoon, but the book on the table was not turned. She actually said that in front of Sun Shike on purpose. If Sun Shike can withstand the pressure she gave, then Xiao Zi Maybe they found a trustworthy person, if they broke up due to their own reasons, then it can only show that Sun Shike is not Xiao Zi's beloved.

For the first time, Xia Lu faced the word "homosexuality". How could it be so sad that she was gay?If their parents know that they are gay, will they be very sad, or will they be very angry, or will they not want to recognize their daughter?

Xia Lu told her mother that she had something to do, and left the bookstore.She took the bus alone to the food street where she and Xiao Zi often went. She ate the conch powder that Xiao Zi liked the most, which was very spicy.There was a burning sensation in her stomach, but she insisted on finishing it, because it was Xiao Zi's favorite taste.

As night fell, Xia Lu unexpectedly arrived at Xiao Zi's community. She sat on the bush-covered rest chair, looked at the lit lights, and finally fixed on the light of Xiao Zi's house, for a long time Can't move my eyes.

What are you doing?The last time I glanced under the streetlight, you looked beautiful again.Are you watching TV with your mother now?

Xia Lu used the index fingers and thumbs of both hands to frame a square against the lights of Xiao Zi's house. Looking through the square, she saw the figure on the window shaking. Xia Lu raised the corners of her mouth and murmured softly, "Is that you?" It should be. It's good to see your shadow on the window. I'm downstairs from your house now, and I miss you very much."

August in the north has entered early autumn, and the night breeze is slightly cool, which just blows away the boredom in Xia Lu's heart. It's ten o'clock.

"I'm leaving, or I won't be able to catch the last train, Xiao Zi, goodbye." Xia Lu waved to the light on the window, as if Xiao Zi would see her movements, so she took it very seriously.

There were only a few people on the last bus, and Xia Lu was sitting by the window, looking at the bright lights and colorful lights of this city, she actually felt a little bored, such a beautiful city would not tolerate her, because she likes girls.

When Xia Lu received her mother's call for the third time, she had already arrived at the gate of the community. She hadn't returned home so late, and her mother was already worried.

Xia Lu hung up the phone, feeling even more guilty. She used to think that she was a qualified daughter, at least she would not cause trouble for her parents, but now, she felt that she was not qualified at all, although she still would not cause trouble like before. , But it can no longer be their hope.

Xia Lu walked into the community, lowered her head and fiddled with her mobile phone, she didn't see a person coming from the opposite side, neither of them paid attention, one accidentally bumped into each other, Xia Lu's mobile phone fell to the ground.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." The other party apologized immediately, and bent down to pick up the phone for Xia Lu. Xia Lu stared blankly at the person in front of her, opened her mouth, and called out softly, "Liu Yao."

Liu Yao paused when he picked up the phone, and looked up to see the face he was looking forward to day and night, for a moment, he didn't know whether to be happy or surprised.

"Xia Lu?" Liu Yao stood up slowly, and took a closer look at the person in front of him through the streetlight. It was really Xia Lu. "You... are back." Liu Yao was in a daze, Xia Lu in front of him looked like a person in an illusion, could he be dreaming? "Well, I came back yesterday." Xia Lu smiled, her bright almond eyes curved, which made Liu Yao realize that the person in front of her was really Xia Lu.

"You said you wouldn't come back for the holiday, I thought I wouldn't see you this holiday." Liu Yao handed the phone to Xia Lu, looking at the wine-red short-haired man, feeling disappointed mixed with happiness.

Xia Lu didn't answer Liu Yao's question, but instead asked him, "It's so late, why are you here?"

"I..." I came to see you. I often look at the window of your room, hoping that you can suddenly open the window and stick your head out to smile at me.

Liu Yao didn't want to tell Xia Lu these things, so he said with a smile, "I have a friend who also lives in this community, I went to his house to play, and now I'm going back." Liu Yao lied, a white lie.

Xia Lu nodded, she was actually very happy to see Liu Yao, but most of the time she didn't know how to face Liu Yao, let alone how to face Liu Yao's feelings.

"Why did you come home so late? What's the matter?" Liu Yao asked softly, Xia Lu pondered for a few seconds, "I met Sun Shike in the afternoon, we talked for a while, and then I went out for a stroll by myself." Xia Lu Green face is very calm.

Liu Yao immediately understood what Sun Shike would talk about with Xia Lu, "He, he didn't do anything excessive, did he?" Liu Yao thought that Sun Shike probably had already guessed Xia Lu's feelings for Xiao Zi, and chatting with Xia Lu was nothing more than chatting Xiao Zi.

"No, he still looks like a modest gentleman." Xia Lu laughed when she said that, she has known Sun Shike for so long, it seems that he will always be like that, but today he almost failed in front of her.

"That's good, I'm afraid of him..." Liu Yao didn't finish, because he didn't know what to say.

"Are you afraid that he will hurt me because of Xiao Zi's affairs? Or are you worried that your rival will blush when we meet?" Xia Lu asked Liu Yao jokingly, which made Liu Yao feel embarrassed instead.

"Actually, it doesn't matter anymore." Xia Lu's calmness is something Liu Yao didn't expect. In the past, when Xiao Zi was mentioned, Xia Lu was always sad, but this time it seems to be different.

But Xia Lu felt that nothing had changed. She used to be too good at hiding her emotions, and even a little bit of emotional fluctuations were completely displayed on her face, but now she knows how to restrain her emotions, she still loves Xiao Zi, She would still persuade herself to let go of Xiao Zi, but whether she would let it go or not was another matter.

"It's late, go back and rest early." Xia Lu looked at the time, if she didn't go back, her mother's phone call would probably come again.

"Okay, so what are you doing tomorrow? We haven't hung out together for a long time. Last time you went to Y University and got injured again, so I didn't take you out to play." Liu Yao felt that every minute he and Xia Lu were together Incomparably precious, this will be his most precious memory from now on.

"Okay, let's call tomorrow, good night." Xia Lu shook the phone in her hand, then walked past Liu Yao to leave.

"Xia Lu." Liu Yao reached out and grabbed Xia Lu's arm, Xia Lu turned to look at Liu Yao, "I like the cup you gave me very much, and..." Liu Yao's eyes stopped on Xia Lu's hair On the bed, raised the other hand to gently rub Xia Lu's hair, "It's very beautiful, it suits you very well, good night." After speaking, Liu Yao let go of Xia Lu.

Xia Lu nodded slightly, then passed Liu Yao, and the two walked with their backs to each other.

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