save him

Throughout the night, Yan Yu hugged Ji Li tightly, without any slack, feeling, the palm of his back slid down, silently soothing, listening to the beating of his heart in his chest, gaining a short and paralyzing peace of mind.

Not insomnia, just not wanting to sleep at all.

It was another early morning, as usual, Ji Li lazily pushed Yan Yu to get up: "Brother Yu, I'm hungry and want to drink some porridge."

"Yeah." Yan Yu propped up his upper body, holding his hand unwilling to let go, "Come with me to the kitchen."

"Do you want to be so clingy?" Ji Li said, and went to the kitchen with Yan Yu.

Yan Yu was skilled at washing rice and cooking porridge. Ji Li couldn't help him, so he picked up the seasoning jars one by one and looked at them, sighing: "If I don't taste it, I can't tell the difference between salt and sugar."

"I cook, you don't have to tell the difference." Yan Yu looked at the tired Ji Li.

"It would be nice to know you earlier," Ji Li said, "It always feels like I wasted many years of my life."

Ji Li's unintentional words made Yan Yu's smooth movements stop, and he stared at the rice in the pot without saying a word.

"Hurry up, hurry up, I'm hungry!" Ji Li urged.

After breakfast, as they said last night, when the two of them arrived at the hospital, Lu Siyue seemed to have been prepared for a long time, and said a little unbearably: "Yan Yu already knows?"

Sitting on the stool, Ji Li patted Yan Yu's hand on his shoulder: "I know everything, just treat it as you want."

"..." Lu Siyue paused, "Yan Yu, can you go out for a while, I want to chat with Ji Li alone."

Yan Yu became nervous: "You say, I can accept it no matter what."

Ji Li really didn't look like someone who came to see a doctor. I don't know if he was pretending to relax or really didn't care. He seemed to be a passer-by watching others. He who needed comfort the most, but he always paid attention to Yan Yu's thoughts.

"There are many kinds of advanced gastric cancer, and Ji Li's is not necessarily the worst." Lu Siyue lowered her eyes, "Chemotherapy can be used now, to be honest, it may not work, and the side effects are also very serious. I know your personalities. , I don’t want to give you unnecessary hopes.”

Yan Yu's eyes widened, and he didn't know where to start.

"Does that mean there are doctors?" Ji Li smiled.

"Well, if the effect of chemotherapy is good, we can perform surgery," Lu Siyue typed out the medicine list for Ji Li on the computer, "I will prescribe some medicine for you first, and then I will think about the chemotherapy plan carefully. If there is hope, don't give up. "

"Brother Yu," Ji Li raised his head, his eyes crescent-shaped with a smile, "it's nothing, it's the same as a cold, take medicine on time, and you'll recover."

For the first time, Yan Yu felt that he was so useless, he couldn't do anything, he couldn't say anything, and he even needed Ji Li's comfort.

It was really uncomfortable.

Yan Yu rubbed the top of his hair: "Well, it will be fine soon."

"In public places, be careful." Lu Siyue's abrupt words made the atmosphere less heavy.

Lu Siyue has been busy for a long time, preparing the prescriptions.After taking the medicine, Ji Li lifted the medicine bag with his index finger, and said painfully: "There are so many bottles and cans, and I have to eat three meals a day. I will be full immediately after eating just these."

Walking out of the hospital, there were quite a few pedestrians on the road, Yan Yu held Ji Li's hand as if no one was there: "Go to the supermarket to buy candy, taking medicine will not be so bitter."

"I don't like sweets." Ji Li walked beside him, also not caring about the strange eyes of others, "Kiss me more, the medicine will not be so bad."

Yan Yu hooked his lips bitterly, looked at Ji Li's pale face holding back a smile, lifted his chin, and kissed him.

Life is still the same, according to the old saying, no matter what happens, the earth will rotate, the sun rises and sets every day, and the mission of the day is completed between day and night.

Yan Yu's current focus is on Ji Li, but Ji Li is not happy, always reminding: "Brother Yu, I don't want you to be there for me 24 hours a day, I'm fine, you have to work hard and live well, just like before. good."

After starting chemotherapy, Ji Li said nothing to let Yan Yu accompany him. Chemotherapy is too painful, and it is better for one person to suffer than two people to suffer.The two took a step back, Yan Yu waited for Ji Li to finish chemotherapy every time at the hospital gate.

It's so hard...

Yan Yu stood by the gate of the hospital, staring at the door intently, waiting for a familiar figure to appear.

Why him, why not me? !

Yan Yu stood still, knowing that Ji Li was suffering, and the pain in his heart was about to swallow him up.

Do people who come and go in the hospital have such a story, or pretend to be someone like him?I sincerely wish that everyone can live a long life, and live a long life with their loved ones.

After waiting for as long as a century, Yan Yu finally couldn't bear it anymore, bought a pack of cigarettes, stood in the corner and pulled out one to his mouth, touched his pocket, and was in a daze for a while, remembering that he didn't know how to smoke at all, let alone carry one with him. Bring a lighter.

I found an enthusiastic passer-by and borrowed a lighter to light my first cigarette in my life. The smell is not too pungent. I want to try whether it is as magical as people say, and I can forget my troubles for a short time.

"Eh……"

Through the thin smoke, Ji Li was walking slowly from the hospital gate.

Yan Yu hurried to meet him, and the cigarette in his mouth was sucked away by Ji Li.

"What kind of cigarettes are you smoking? This patient can't smell the smell of smoke." Ji Li threw the cigarettes into the trash can next to him. His bony hands, bruises on the back, and a new infusion patch reminded him of the completion of the second chemotherapy.

At the end of the first chemotherapy, Yan Yu was called by Lu Siyue.

"I fainted, and chemotherapy is not acceptable to ordinary people." Lu Siyue said sadly, "If you can't persuade him, you just don't want to be hospitalized. However, if you are hospitalized, it will make you feel gloomy and it will not be good for the treatment. He will be happier when you are by your side. "

Yan Yuheng hugged Ji Li, who was light and fluffy: "Is the situation okay?"

"How can you tell just after the end." Lu Siyue said, "I don't know how to describe Ji Li, stubborn, when you broke up, his body was tortured by me very poorly, the consequences of not taking good care of his body! "

"But the consequences are too serious..." Lu Siyue was not a cute girl who liked photography in private when she was at work.She is a female doctor who is used to the warmth and coldness of the world.At this time, she couldn't help the redness of her eyes and suppressed tears.

Yan Yu looked down at Ji Li's peaceful sleeping face: "I'm sorry."

"You are all right, I, a bystander, can see clearly," Lu Siyue sat back on the chair, and took out a photo from the drawer, "Ji Li is too bitter, and you are his everything after grandma passed away. He is afraid Losing you is even more afraid of delaying you."

That photo was a photo of him and Ji Li, after it was edited, it became more three-dimensional and beautiful.

"Treat him well," Lu Siyue helped him put the photo in his pocket, "No matter what the future holds, I will try my best to help."

During the second chemotherapy session, Ji Li's condition was quite good, his pale face regained some energy, and he ate two bowls of dinner at night.

"I think I'm getting better soon," Ji Li put down the bowl and chopsticks, and said contentedly, "Brother Yu, look at me, I ate two bowls of rice, how good is it?"

"Excellent, keep it up." Yan Yu chuckled reluctantly.

"Hey hey." Ji Li approached him, "I just said I'll be fine."

This night, Ji Li regained his energy and became unscrupulous. He hugged Yan Yu to ask for more, but nothing was enough. The two of them tacitly merged into one, forgetting their troubles heartily.

"Brother Yu, I want more." Ji Li nestled in his arms, his whole body was unbelievably soft.

"Going to bed soon, it's already very late." Yan Yu restrained the impulse in his heart, worried that Ji Li would be overwhelmed by too much intensity.

"My boyfriend is skilled." Ji Li said.

"Well, I'm asleep." Ji Li pulled up the quilt and covered it up.

"Hey," Ji Li chuckled twice, stopped suddenly, pushed Yan Yu away, and staggered off the bed.

"Ji Li!!!!" Yan Yu got off the bed, and Ji Li lay on the ground covering his mouth.

Before his hands touched him, Ji Li had already turned his body to the side, and the bright red blood flowed out from his fingers accompanied by coughing.

"Ji Li..." Yan Yu didn't dare to speak too loudly, put his hand on the back of his hand, and took off his hand that restrained himself from vomiting blood.

"Cough...Yu, Yu, cough, Brother Yu, it's okay, no, it's not serious." Ji Li smiled, and the blood was bleeding more and more, and there was no tendency to stop.

"Ji Li, Ji Li, don't talk, I'll call an ambulance." Yan Yu's movements were as chaotic as his thoughts, and he wanted to touch the phone, but he touched the light switch, which plunged the bedroom into darkness.

Press again to turn on the light.

Ji Li clutched his abdomen, curled up on the ground with his whole body naked, the bleeding had subsided, he whispered, "Brother Yu, don't call an ambulance, it's fine, it's late at night...the ambulance is here, I can't afford to worry about it .”

"Ji Li...Ji Li." Yan Yu wanted to hug him, but he didn't dare. The current Ji Li is too fragile, like a newborn baby who needs to be carefully cared for.

Ji Li stood up, leaned against the bed, and struggled to pick up the mirror by the bedside, wiping off the traces of blood on his face: "This color, lipstick, cough... so ugly."

"I...I" Yan Yu clenched his fingers into fists, and the feeling of fear made him speak intermittently, "How can I save you? Tell me, please."

Usually strong, he almost knelt on the ground.

"Brother Yu, you're being hypocritical, I'm getting goosebumps," Ji Li smiled weakly, his chest heaving violently due to the pain, "Look at me."

Yan Yu looked at him devoutly.

"You can only kneel to me once in your life." Ji Li bit every word hard, "That's when you propose to me."

After saying this, Ji Li took a deep breath as if he was out of strength, pushed away Yan Yu who was approaching again, rummaged in the bedside table, and found a velvet box, his smile deepened as if he was not stained with worldly affairs.

"This is..." Yan Yu thought of the things in the box and froze.

Ji Li put the box in Yan Yu's palm: "The pair of rings you wanted to give me before, you found them in the box in the dormitory before you went abroad. Sitting on the ground feels so uncomfortable..."

Ji Li didn't want to look too delicate, but after trying several times, he still didn't have the strength to climb onto the bed, so Yan Yu still carried him up.

The smell of blood didn't affect Ji Li's peaceful lying in Yan Yu's arms: "Where did I just say..."

Yan Yu was so distressed that he felt numb: "The box."

"Oh, yes," Ji Li adjusted his sleeping position, his voice hoarse, "The ring I found in the box, and the gloves you always borrowed from me, the books in public classes... so many memories, you can throw them away as you like."

"I was wrong," Yan Yu touched his face, "you hit me."

"I have no strength, I can't move~" Ji Li was sleepy, and Rong Yu had to listen carefully to hear his murmur clearly now that it was silent in the middle of the night.

"I want to spend my whole life with Brother Yu..."

Tears poured out uncontrollably, damp and hot and bitter, Yan Yu almost gritted his teeth, so he didn't let the crying break the tranquility of the night.

The author has something to say:

I don’t think it’s too cruel hahaha, satisfying my imagination~