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BE extra one

Brother Bai Ming,

sorry.In this world, I don't feel sorry for my parents, I don't feel sorry for Fang You, I don't even feel sorry for Wan'er, because I know that Fang You will definitely take good care of our children, but I only feel that I, Ai Ziqing, will always be human , I am most sorry for you, Brother Bai Ming.

You have practiced medicine for many years, and you have saved the injured, the broken bones, and the dying, but I am afraid that you can't save me, the demonic obstacle in my heart.As early as the first time I went mad, the root of the disaster had been planted and could not be driven away. What Fang You brought me was just a pair of scissors to cut off my last thought. he.In fact, since you and I have known each other, maybe you haven't noticed that the first time I took the initiative to get close to Fang You was to ask for death, and I begged you to help me after I almost went mad, it was to ask for death, and to give birth to Wan'er desperately was also to ask for death.It's just that at the beginning, I thought that Fang You loved me, and I was a little doubtful whether God would give up torturing me. Now that I know that Fang You has never been tempted by me, then there is nothing to worry about.

When I gave birth to Wan'er, I thought that I could finally rest this time, but I heard his cry in the white mist. He was still so young, and I hadn't hugged him yet, and I hadn't seen it with my own eyes. To Fang You hug him, I am so unwilling, and I also know that if you can't save me, you will feel guilty.It's one thing for me to seek death, but if you smash your signboard, I'm afraid you will blame me for being under the nine springs.

Brother Bai, I owe you too much, and I can't repay you in this life. You saved me in times of crisis again and again, but I failed your kindness as a doctor, but please don't worry too much for me, yes For me, death is a kind of relief. You helped me, but in the end, you actually saved me.

I only have one last thing to ask you, please let Fang You spend the rest of his life with someone who can truly make him happy.I can't control his emotional likes and dislikes, but you and him are like brothers, if you open your mouth to pursue Chen Feng, I believe Fang You will back down.I love him, but it's a pity that I'm not good enough for him. You've known me so far, you should know what kind of person I really am. If you find a partner for Fang You in the future, don't lower your requirements below me.

Thousands of words can't express my apology and gratitude. May there be no afterlife, and you and I don't have to suffer in this world anymore.

Ai Ziqing on

BE extra two

An Luo,

Long time no see, hope everything is well.I know that it is impossible for this letter to be delivered to you in the end, so I will speak frankly.

I hate you.How much I loved you back then, how much I hate you now.I hate you for only treating me as an object of pleasure/pleasure, I hate you for giving up on your feelings lightly, I hate you for not being patient with me, but what I hate the most is still not being able to keep your self.

Since you left, too many things have happened, everything is bitter, and the longing is especially tormenting, but the housework is complicated, and the pain on the skin is endless. It seems that losing a marriage that can't be called a good relationship is not the most troublesome thing for me.Yet I really want to say to you with my own mouth that I have never quite forgotten you.In every one of my nightmares, you're there, like the old days, call me coral, but in the dream you always turn around and walk away, just like reality, and then the dream will wake up and I'll cry I found that I was still struggling alone.

I know that to you, the relationship between you and me is just a love affair.The world is vast, you won't stay for me, and I don't know how to keep you, but after you left, I realized how naive, how weak, and how incompetent I was.To be able to live to this day, I have tried my best. I thought I could find the person I love again, but no matter how persistent I am, I am still the same me. The one you despise and give up by you is not worthy of you I who fell in love with him.In this way, your departure may be right. Everyone in the world is living in their own mud, and I am not the only one struggling.After all, who would stay for me alone?

You and I must have no chance to see each other again in this life, I just wish you everything from your heart and your wishes come true.I owe you an apology, and I owe you another, I loved you.

Ai Ziqing on