seal to be opened

Fang You walked slowly towards the table covered with sealed letters, looking at the carefully folded letterheads, each with their names clearly written on them, some for Bai Ming, some for Ai Ziqing Some for his parents, some for Shan Cong, some for Wan'er, and some even for that man named An Luo whom he didn't know.The one in the middle, with four beautiful characters on the envelope, "Fang You's own letter", is placed so solemnly, and the letter is waiting to be opened.

Fang You stretched out his hand to the envelope, he used to tightly hold the hand of Zhengshan, the famous sword that has defeated countless people, but now he felt that the letter was like a heavy weight, which made him trembling and difficult to lift.

Fang You my love,

Forgive my selfish leaving without saying goodbye, but please don't be sad because this is what I've always wanted and I'm glad to finally have this permanent break.

What you heard from Shan Cong may be about some heart problems I once had.What you have never heard of, and what I have never told anyone, is that the heart disease has long been suffering for many years, and it has become a piece of demons in my heart. Inside my head, calling me to seek relief.Only when I look into your eyes can I find a small piece of pure land that it has not touched.I have long been exhausted from fighting against it, and I am miserable.Begging to die has always been my greatest wish.

I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.If it is possible, I hope that I can not explain anything, and only leave the three words "I love you" on this letter.But I know that even if you don't love me, you will feel sad because of me, and embarrassing you is the last thing in the world I don't want to do.I know that you still have unresolved feelings for Chen Feng, and I'm afraid it won't be true in this life, because ordinary people are like this, the people and things that can't be obtained are the people and things that are always attached to, and I am the same for you.One day, Chen Feng once said to me, Fang You really loved me very much. You were not around at the time. I remember telling him that your love for me is like a kitten or puppy. Not one to fall in love with.At this moment, I still think so.

At the beginning when you and I met, I thought, if you still treat me well and love me in the world, maybe I can still live.But after Chen Feng appeared, I still couldn't let go of what you said to me.I don't hate you, I don't hate Chen Feng, I only hate why I can't stop admiring you.I thought that if I had a child with you, I would live for the sake of the child, raise him up, and watch my own flesh and blood become a free person, instead of being trapped in my own shadow like me.But I am too tired, I owe Wan'er, I know you will not let him be alone, because you are also the kind of person who pursues freedom by nature, you can't see that I am trapped by family affairs, so you want to get rid of me, but you can't bear to throw me away. Let me go, then let me leave.Our Wan'er is as strong and resolute as you, so he will not be wronged.I am no longer here, and I will not bring you all kinds of involvement in the tea house. Maybe Wan'er will live more comfortably.Finally let me make up my mind, knowing that I can let go, is your sentence "I betrayed you", I don't want you to betray me, I want you to love me, if you think my existence makes you feel guilty , then I would rather give up.

I'm a weak man, I don't deserve you, I've given everything I can, some you've taken, some you haven't, the last thing I can do is save me Own.I once believed that I was the person who loved you the most in this world, but now I hope that I am not. I hope that you can find someone who loves you more than me after all.

For the last time, I love you.

Ai Ziqing on

After reading this letter, Fang You's eyes, which had never been red since he buried his former teacher, were filled with tears.He didn't know that he had unknowingly brought such deep harm to that poor man who was arrogant and clever on the outside, but sensitive and fragile on the inside.He also didn't know that losing Ai Ziqing would make him feel so painful.

What's on your mind, I should know the most, but I don't know the most.Your love, I should respond most, but I have not responded.

Recalling the day when he said goodbye to Chen Feng, he asked himself: "Have you really decided to stay with Young Master Ai for the rest of your life?"

"My enthusiasm for love affairs has gone with you as long as you left." Fang You was silent for a long time, and drank the peach blossom wine in his glass, "but I will give him all the rest, so my friend Keep this life... yes, I will stay with Ziqing for this life."

At this time, those emotions that he had never dared to admit, face up to, and express, even if they surged out now, they all lost the object to confide in.He thought he didn't love, but he did. Sadly, if Ai Ziqing didn't die, he might still think that he didn't love, and he would keep thinking so.

If I never loved you, why did I mistakenly think that I was in a purgatory of ice and snow when I saw your cold corpse?Why when I hold you in my arms, do I feel like my heart stops beating like yours?Why from now on, no matter how sweet the new tea is, it will turn into bitter, scorching poison like arsenic in the mouth?why?why?

Fang You turned around and looked around, everything in the world has traces of Ai Ziqing, his green clothes, his favorite tea set, the camellia he bought, the quilt he likes to cover his face when he sleeps, he took it to wear without authorization His robe, his scent, his phantom, his echo, their bowl.

The child suddenly started crying, Fang You sighed slightly, reached out to pick up Wan'er from the cradle, and gently shook it.Except for the elders of Shimen and Bai Ming, no one in the world has ever seen his tears, but at this moment, a few water marks slid down his firm cheeks and fell into Wan'er's swaddling clothes.

"What, what...Mom...Mom!" Wan'er spit out childish language inarticulately, but Fang You could understand it.

All of this is punishment, Fang Youxin said.If God wants to punish me like this, then so be it. Has Ziqing endured such pain for so many years?Is it the same for him when I show no intention of responding to his love?

"Ziqing...I failed you...but I wanted to make it up..."

Ai Ziqing's body was finally transported back to the tea house and buried in the open space behind the wind pavilion.

Xia Yulou closed without a sound.

The only "Zhu Bi double-cutting branches" Fang Youdaxia entrusted his junior brother Bai Ming to announce the abandonment of branches at the Zhu Bi conference in a letter, and disappeared from the world since then.

Sixteen years later, there are rumors that a knight-errant who looks like Fang You, a young man holding the famous sword Zhengshan, entered the Aijia tea house.The tea house claimed to the public that the young man was the illegitimate son of Ai Shaozhuang's mainstay many years ago, and recognized his identity as the owner of the Shaozhuang.The surname of the Shaozhuang owner is Fang, and the Aijia Tea House still retains its original name.

The knight never left the tea house again.

In the tea house, one more simple tomb behind the wind pavilion has been added.