Can't hold hands

"Childhood is absolute, maturity is relative!"

It was Han Hui's voice on the other end of the phone. I am so familiar with this arrogant tone, but at this time...

Even if I'm still dreaming, I can guess that she probably broke up with her latest girlfriend again,

"Honey, can you please go and see what time it is?"

She wasn't listening to me at all,

"That woman, my God, you don't know, she called me naive? I'm her lover, not her two-year-old daughter,"

After I finished speaking, I felt wrong again.

"Not even a two-year-old daughter!"

I was in a daze, my head was still thinking about my daughter,

"I have to admit, Yan Baiyi, you won this time, and I really can't live with her for two months."

Hearing my name, I finally woke up a little bit, and remembered what I said to this woman more than a month ago.Except for her name, Han Hui was normal in no way, but her ex-girlfriend only wanted to find a normal person, and that would only be a disaster.

I yawned, I was so sleepy, she was so annoying, I must turn off my phone at night.

There was a lot of crackling talk over there, to the effect that her ex-girlfriend had such a strong desire to control.

"Really, she looks like my great aunt," she finally concluded. Her aunt's child was sent to a reformation center by her. "But she has no children, and she still has sex with me!"

She suddenly changed the subject,

"I'll have dinner with you tomorrow!"

So there was only a busy tone on the phone.

Oh, this savage woman!I was completely awake, glanced at my phone, at 03:30 in the morning, and secretly cursed her——

She deserves to be single for the rest of her life!

I grabbed my head and got out of bed, walked to the living room like a ghost, had a cold drink, and thought that it was time for me to cut my hair.

My encounter with Han Hui was like a movie. Eight years ago, she was a freshman and I was a sophomore.

Saying it like this is like the two of us are in a relationship. It would be fine if we could really be together, but unfortunately we were both born with the wrong gender in the eyes of each other.

It was the day before school started, and it was raining heavily. I saw Han Hui at the school gate without an umbrella. She was a pretty little girl, like a freshman, with a huge suitcase at her feet, so it was rare for me to go back to Lei Feng—— She carried the luggage under the umbrella.At that time, I didn't know the nature of this guy, but later I felt that her eyes at that time were very mocking,

"No, no, I was a good girl at the time." After a long time, I mentioned this to her, "I just thought you were going to strike up a conversation, and I thought, this senior is so handsome!"

Her voice was whiny, and she smiled shyly after she finished speaking. I gave her a vomiting face on the spot, and the good girl was afraid that she might cry.

I smiled silently, looking at the dim night light outside the window, living alone for a long time, I would feel heart palpitations in the middle of the night, I shook my head, as expected, I shouldn't recall anything in the middle of the night.

When I opened my eyes again, the phone displayed Sunday, 05:30, and the screen saver was Lin Jue.

If I don't sleep well, I tend to think wildly. When I saw Lin Jue on the phone, an idea naturally appeared in my mind. I haven't seen him for a long time.

Since when have I been satisfied just by looking at his pictures?It takes too much energy to meet him, but the photo is just right.

When I was sitting on the subway, I thought of Han Hui calling me in the middle of the night. Looking back now, it seems like I was dreaming.

That woman, let her torment!

The subway came into the station, and there was a piercing scream. The sound became louder and smaller. I followed the flow of people out, in a trance all the way. The security guard at the gate of Lin Jue Community knew me and might even say hello to me.

Standing at the door of Lin Jue's house, I came back to my senses, my heart was empty, I didn't know whether it was love or hate.

There are two people beside me, I should not be recognizable to everyone, one is my bad sister Han Hui, and the other is the star in this room, my lover, Lin Jue.

After so many years of entanglement, I thought I was used to this kind of clutch.

It takes courage to open this door.

I took a deep breath and took out the key. The door lock was a bit unfamiliar to me. After turning for a while, I opened the door of the apartment on the 27th floor.

In the next second, I was almost suffocated by the smell inside!

"Grass……"

What greeted me was indeed another scene that made all decent people want to flee.

Decent person, these three words were told to me by Han Hui. She said that Lin Jue was not a decent person, but later she directly said that he was a bastard.

Not even human anymore.

My head started to hurt. There were five or six people lying on the ground in disarray, not knowing whether to live or die. The entire restaurant could be called a garbage dump. There were all kinds of lunch boxes stacked one on top of the other, and the beer cans on the ground were enough to get fifty people drunk. ——There are only five here, and there are countless cigarette butts, lighters, and various clothes besides that...

The curtains were drawn tightly as usual, and the room was dim, and it had not been breathed for many days.

I walked through this messy restaurant holding my breath, probably kicked a few people's bodies, I don't know, it's too dark here.

The living room is not much better, it is full of unfinished scores, I really can't stand this smell, first open the curtains, balcony doors and so on.

Only then did the room brighten up, and I stood on the balcony for a while.

"Lin Jue..."

The man was lying on the sofa, as if he had no bones, he was the only one in the living room, his half-length blond hair covered his entire face.I wondered if he was fainted by the smell of his own home.

If I were a robber, everyone in their house would be unlucky, although there should be no robbers in this kind of community.

I walked over, and there was a square coffee table in front of the sofa, and I saw a white pill on it.

Ha, I took the pill in my hand, and felt cold all over for a while.I recognize this thing, I've seen it once with him, this is the second time.

This man is on drugs again.

I don't know how I'm feeling now, but it won't be very good anyway, because I can't help but kick him with my feet, and I'm not too hard.

"Well……"

Lin felt the pain and covered his stomach. He probably wanted to scold someone. He looked up with a pale face. When he saw it was me, he held back what he was going to say. After a while, his expression changed, and he stood up suddenly and ran to the bathroom. .

The man never takes care of himself.

"vomit--"

Fine, throw up.

I didn't want to care about him, and stood there for a while, feeling tired, so I just sat on the sofa.

There was an acoustic guitar next to the sofa, it was not plugged in, I took it and played a random chord, the resonance of the guitar made me want to cry.

I don't know how many times, I started to think about my relationship with Lin Jue again. Eight years is enough to make people enviable, but it is still not a time that has passed the test of time.

I still love him deeply, but I no longer want to spend the rest of my life with him.

"Don't play randomly," Lin Jue took a shower, came out to wipe his hair, his voice was slightly hoarse, but still sexy, "I have a terrible headache."

He has a good appearance, no matter how haggard he looks.

I curled my lips, changed my left hand to an F major chord, and the music quickly slowed down.

we are far apart

we are alone

Lin Jue's music is rarely so quiet.

He dried his hair, and I stopped playing the piano. The fingertips of my left hand hurt slightly. I haven’t touched the piano for a long time. I picked up the pill,

"The famous musician Lin Jue took drugs with his band in his apartment. What do you think of this news?"

Lin Jue frowned slightly,

"one hundred……"

he called me.

I sneered, grabbed the lighter on the table, lit the corner of the pill, and soon a wisp of smoke rose, and the pungent smell penetrated into the nostrils, making people uncomfortable.

"Have you ever slept with someone?"

Lin Jue stopped wiping his hair. He looked at me and threw the towel on the sofa. After a while, I heard his voice.

"I do not know."

he does not know.He didn't want to cheat at all, since sincerity can hurt people.

What should I do with him?I don't know, have you ever slept with someone and you don't feel a bit compelled? ——I really want to tease him like this, if I can say another word.

I raised my head, looked at the prints on the wall, felt suffocated, took a deep breath, and there was only pain in my chest.

"Sorry, these days have been too chaotic, and I haven't been sober."

He's still explaining.

"Ah."

I hummed softly, not having the strength to deal with him anymore.Lin Jue and I are not from the same world at all.

totally not.

Our being together will only add to our troubles.

Just like a tree is in love with a bird, and a bird is in love with a cloud.

His face appeared in front of my eyes, his hand pinched my chin, his upper body was naked, and those dark gray eyes that are unique to mixed race looked straight at me.

"sorry."

He apologized very earnestly, he was too rambunctious, he knew that as long as I saw his face, I would definitely lose all principles.

This may be the tragedy of Yan Kong.

I was thinking about it when he kissed me.

"Did you have meal?"

When Lin Jue licked my neck, I pushed him away.

"Not yet, no one cooks."

Wronged Baba.

"Go to my place."

"it is good."

He thought I forgave him, got up happily, and went to the master bedroom to touch a pure black T-shirt.

In fact, there is nothing to forgive or not to forgive, I am just a little tired.

If you can ignore the mess in the house, and forget what he said before, I don't know, Lin Jue is probably a perfect lover.

"Let's go!"

I wanted to buy some food at first, but it was past eight o'clock, even if it was Sunday, there were already people coming and going on the street. After thinking about it, I called a car and took him home.

After all, Lin Jue's face is still recognizable to a certain extent, so he can't take risks.

When I opened the refrigerator, I realized that besides the fruit, there are only dumplings left in my house, and I haven’t eaten properly for a while.I took out the boiled dumplings and fruit tea with rock sugar.

"Dumplings..."

He looked at the table with a sad face, then at me, and I gave him a blank stare.

"You can choose not to eat it," I know he doesn't like dumpling stuffing, "or just eat the dumpling skin, just to cleanse the stomach."

I saw him take a sip of the fruit tea, put down the cup, and smiled sweetly again.

"It's delicious, try it!"

I stood in front of him without speaking, Lin Jue suddenly grabbed my hand, I couldn't stand still, I knelt between his legs, so he put his arms around my waist again.

He kissed me, slowly down.

He bites my neck, it doesn't hurt but itches.

The sweetness of rock candy.

Lin Jue's breath...

"do not……"

Breathing gradually heats up, gnawing, licking and sucking... I want to push him away, but I can't bear it, it's been too long, I haven't touched him for too long.

His hands wandered over my body, my body was burning like a fire.

Extremely unbearable... I put my hand on his face, as if I saw Lin Jue eight years ago, with sunken eye sockets and blond hair.I can't even tell the time.

The author has something to say: I hope the article will be published on the first day of the Lunar New Year...Come on!