Can't hold hands

At night and during the day, the same person woke me up—

Han Hui.

No one would knock on the door like a metronome except her, and like a psycho, I put on a shirt and went barefoot to open the door for her.

"Miss Han..."

She is wearing a white dress today, with ball hair and even pink lipstick. If I am not so familiar with her, I must think she is innocent and harmless.

However, the inside is broken.

she smiled at me,

"I'm here to find you for dinner, Comrade Yan Baiyi!"

I buttoned the last button and rubbed my temples, remembering the phone call she had made with me in the middle of the night.

"I don't have anything to eat at home," I sideways let her in, "come in if you want to lose weight."

"Women lose weight all the time."

When Han Hui came in, Lin Jue was still lying on the sofa without his shirt on. Fortunately, I covered him with a thin quilt with little frogs printed on it.Han Hui raised her eyebrows.

"You haven't stopped yet?"

"No."

I walked over to pat him awake, he frowned, opened my hand,

"Sleep a little longer..."

A coquettish tone.

"I'm going out first, you wake up and call me."

Lin Jue didn't know what he muttered, and I didn't know if he heard it clearly, so I shook my head.

"Tsk, you haven't weaned yet!"

Lin Jue turned over, he must not have heard her words.

Even if I'm a bad girl with Han Hui, I feel a little embarrassed.

"Let's go out to eat first, he probably won't wake up for a while."

Han Hui shrugged,

"Whatever you want!"

So I asked her to eat the [-] yuan a basket of steamed buns downstairs.

"I want a bowl of nourishing soup with wax gourd and spare ribs, a serving of siu mai, and a serving of soup dumplings." She pointed at the menu with a yellow background, not seeming to be joking.

"I like tonic recently, probably because I'm pregnant."

I rolled my eyes.

At four o'clock in the afternoon, no one came to eat steamed stuffed buns, just me and Han Hui. The boss saw that I looked familiar and had never seen Han Hui before. He thought she was my girlfriend and smiled meaningfully at me.

After she finished eating Xiaolongbao, Shaomai, and Yigu soup, I took her to the opposite door of the bun shop——

a cafe.

"Look, how much I cooperate with you!" Han Hui showed her true colors as soon as she entered the cubicle. She lay on the table, dangling her right index finger, "I pretend to be your girlfriend, and no one will ask why you are single!"

"No one asked me..." The owner of the store did, but I wasn't going to tell her.

Han Hui glanced at me.

"So when are you going to get rid of being single again?"

I ask her.

"Hmm...isn't it good to be single?" She said to herself, "...I can't answer this question for you. According to my statistics, the longest time I have been single in the past two years is... three month, I am now ready to challenge this record."

"Are you not ready to fall in love recently?"

My ability to generalize is very good, so Han Hui stopped talking.

"That woman—"

"No, no, no," she interrupted what I was going to say, and made a cross with her hands. "It has nothing to do with her, it has nothing to do with me. Personally, I don't want to play love games with others for the time being."

"What? Finally, my conscience has discovered that I don't want to hurt people anymore?"

I teased her, this person always takes pleasure in hurting other people's feelings, but he himself has no ability to love.

"I don't think I'm hurting, anyway, I never mentioned breaking up," Han Hui smiled presumptuously, "It was they who broke up with me, and I just agreed to them."

Han Hui only mentioned breaking up once, and her heart was also lost on that time.

"They brought up the breakup, didn't they? I should be the one who was hurt."

The person who proposes to break up often doesn't want to break up. This sentence is what she told me after she first proposed to break up. This is why I never proposed to Lin Jue to break up.

"Some things, if you have the courage to say it, you have to be responsible."

"You are like scum in the eyes of most people."

Han Hui shrugged, probably listening too much.

"Those girls, I don't know why they always have such magical ideas, let alone judge people by their appearance, and find that I think differently from them, I can't stand it..."

"Childishness is absolute." I interrupted her with her words.

"That's true, this kind is better," Han Hui took a sip of coffee, "What's even more unbearable is the other kind, they think I will, because of love, ahem, because of love, this kind of shit, Change yourself and become what she likes."

This is absolutely impossible, no one can, I know.

"How unbelievable, why don't they change themselves? For love?" Han Hui couldn't hold back the sarcasm on her face.

"You can consider finding someone who is a freshman and relatively mature." I know that this person likes to find students who have just graduated or even haven't graduated, and he obviously wants to play with his feelings for fun.

Maybe students are more likely to get hotheaded?

"Let's do this first. Anyway, I think it's good to be alone recently, and I don't want to find someone." She raised her eyes, saw me, and suddenly sat up straight, "Tell me about you, Yan Baiyi, Yan Baibai, you and Lin What's going on!"

Han Hui's family and Lin Jue's family are family friends, they are considered rich children, but the relationship between the two has never been good, they are simply enemies, and they look down on each other. Han Hui firmly believes in the theory that people's personalities are unchanged, so I have been persuading me to break up with him. .

Although Han Hui is not much better than Lin Jue, the best thing about her is that Han Hui's morality is much better than his, at least she doesn't mess around. have no idea.

Probably because he plays rock...

"I haven't thought about it, I haven't thought about it yet." I don't really want to bring this up, I'm afraid of regretting it, so the more important the decision is, the longer I think about it, "But it should be soon."

Getting used to life without the people you love.

"You don't need to ask about him," Han Hui's voice became much gentler, "Just search for his name on the Internet. The first three items are all about him having a house with someone, and there are men and women. The Internet is not trustworthy...even everyone knows that Lin Jue is not trustworthy."

I have heard similar words more than once or twice, but if I can stop, I will not be entangled with Lin Jue for seven years.

"Okay," I laughed, picked up the coffee and touched her cup, "Anyway, I wish you a happy single."

It was past 07:30 when we left, the street lights came on one by one, and I walked her to the subway station.

"The environment of your coffee shop is very good," Han Hui suddenly mentioned this while waiting for the subway, "I'm thinking now, should I quit my job and work in that cafe in November..."

On the way back, I was still thinking about what Han Hui said, maybe she wasn't joking.

I bought a bowl of small wontons along the way, with a light taste, Lin Jue should be up by this time.

I knew I was worthless, but when I thought of Lin Jue waiting for me at home, the corners of my mouth couldn't help but curl up.

Lin Jue and I always get together less and leave more, he is busy, and I can't go anywhere, so every tenderness is extraordinarily precious.

There was no one in the room when the door was opened.

I panicked a little.

Putting the wontons aside, I looked the house inside and out.

My heart gradually became cold, and Lin Jue left.

I told him that he would call me, but the man never took it to heart.

I took out my phone and dialed his number.

No one heard.

I was in a daze for a while, then called his agent, and after thinking about it for a while, I got connected.

"Hello, Sister Yang, I'm Yan Bairui..."

"Ah, hello, hello..."

I think my tone must be very bad, even Sister Yang, who has always spoken sharply, has a very soft voice at this time.

She told me that Lin Jue will go north to attend a performance tomorrow morning, and the plane ticket at ten o'clock tonight, and now they have arrived at the gate of the airport, there are quite a lot of people, so there is no time to answer the phone.

I thank you, say a few polite greetings, hang up the phone, I think I haven't lost my mind, everything is still in order.

Lin Jue never told me that he would leave, he just left, suddenly, I should have gotten used to it, used to Lin Jue's messy life, his leaving without saying goodbye, his indifference...

What a fuck!

I threw the phone on the table, full of irritability and nowhere to vent.

How could it be possible to get used to it?The person I love the most treats me like this, how can I get used to it!

Every time there will be pain, disappointment, like being gouged out of the heart, again and again, the heart is gone, and the love is gone...

I scratched my head and fell on the sofa, why didn't he even call me?I can't figure it out, he seems to like me...

like.

I suddenly want to laugh.

What a pale like.

As soon as Han Hui finished speaking, I seemed to have become a fool who wanted him to change for love.

Yan Bairui, you are an idiot!

I had to admit my emotional failure.

I stepped on the coffee table.

——Why don't they change themselves?

Han Hui's words have never been so deafening as at this moment.

change yourself.

I raised my hand to touch my cool cheek, and I saw the mobile phone on the table out of the corner of my eye.

Lin Jue, these two words have created my current world in my short life.

Now I will destroy it.

Breaking up is just two words.

Am I ready?I ask myself, it's 08:30 in the evening and he's going to be on the plane in an hour.

I decided to take myself more seriously, I smiled bitterly, and I will send him the text message after he gets on the plane.

Now, I have to clean up all Lin Jue's things in this room, then eat that bowl of wontons and go take a shower.

Tomorrow Monday, I have to get up early for work and rest earlier, and I am also tired.