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Pretending to be drunk is a skill Xia Yue is used to.

When he was 20 years old, he was proficient in this way. "Drunk" to the point where he couldn't walk, he made Chi Lidong carry him for three kilometers back to the hotel. One second he was limp on the bed like a soft boneless animal, and the next second he pushed Chi Lidong down and sat on it. Move yourself.

His shyness and boldness are both charming, and when they appear at the same time, his lethality is even greater.

Chi Lidong became agitated uncontrollably, and stroked Xia Yue's lips with his fingers. Xia Yue sucked it into his mouth cooperatively, and the skin at the corners of his eyes was soon dyed pink with emotion.

The psychological eagerness of the two to combine with each other greatly exceeds the need for physical pleasure.

Chi Lidong ripped off Xia Yue's clothes, the sound of buttons falling and cloth ripping intertwined with their panting, composing a restricted symphony.

There was no verbal teasing, nor any tricks.There are only sloppy and direct movements, and the intense heartbeats in the tightly pressed chests that cannot be distinguished from each other.

Sex is not the only way to express love, but it is undoubtedly the most direct.

It is like a beer bottle opener, the moment it is opened, the love in the heart will rush out fiercely like bubbles.

At this time, Xia Yue was just an opened beer bottle.

In Chi Lidong's gentle and violent grasping, he became very sweet and soft.No matter what Chi Lidong wants to do or how to do it, he will cooperate unconditionally in the plenary meeting, and will give extremely cute reactions, calling Chi Lidong's name in a crying voice from time to time.

After a long time.

Xia Yue leaned on Chi Lidong's body, biting Chi Lidong's Adam's apple lightly, like playing with a small toy, and he still couldn't get enough of it after biting for a long time.

Chi Lidong felt that his Adam's apple was going numb, and remembering Xia Yue's habit of smoking afterwards, he asked, "Baby, do you want a cigarette? I'll go to the living room to get one."

Xia Yue raised his head, propped his chin on the flat place between Chi Lidong's two collarbones, looked up at Chi Lidong's face with his eyes slightly upwards, there was a gentle smile in his eyes and on the corners of his lips, and said coquettishly: "I don't want it, don't go anywhere."

Chi Lidong felt the attachment he showed at this time, and his heart was quite sweet. He lifted his body up so that he could lie down more comfortably, and whispered something in his ear to tease him.He didn't answer either, and would bite Chi Lidong's Adam's apple or collarbone when he was annoyed by what he said.

It was almost dawn, and the two of them were still awake, looking at the velvet curtains that were gradually seeping in the light.

Xia Yue put his face on Chi Lidong's neck and said, "I love you."

Chi Lidong said: "Me too."

Xia Yue said: "Chi Lidong, I really love you."

Chi Lidong said: "I really love you too."

He still has a lot of serious love words to say to Xia Yue, he wants to tell Xia Yue what kind of pain and miss he has experienced in the past year of separation, and he also wants to renew a promise with Xia Yue to stay together for life.

Xia Yue said: "Why do I love you so much?"

Chi Lidong was startled, not knowing how to answer, not even sure if this was a question, or just Xia Yue's emotion.

Xia Yue said: "If I didn't love you so much, would I be happier than I am now?"

Chi Lidong wanted to say no, but he couldn't go against his will, and finally said: "It should be possible."

If possible, he hoped that Xia Yue would not drop out of school that year, would not leave the hometown where he grew up, could continue his unfinished studies in peace, completely forget that he ever knew Chi Lidong, and happily live a life that is completely his own .

"But I don't think so," Xia Yue said, "I'm not as good as you think."

Chi Lidong praised him sincerely: "You just don't know how good you are."

But Xia Yue said, "No, before I met you, I was a teenager with Internet addiction. It was so serious that my dad often scolded me anxiously, always saying that he would send me to Shandong Electrician."

Chi Lidong: "...Huh?"

Xia Yue said: "Really, it's not an exaggeration at all. I'm just a little smart, and I don't think about serious things. When I was a freshman, I took the English test CET-[-], and there was a music festival on the day of the exam. I didn't take the exam. I went to the music festival to play." Yes, but when the grades came out, my dad chased me halfway across the campus to break my hand."

Chi Lidong: "Don't you usually break your legs?"

Xia Yue smiled like a child, rubbed on Chi Lidong's shoulder, and said, "I played bass back then, even if my leg was broken, I could still play."

Chi Lidong couldn't help laughing either.

Xia Yue asked him with a smile: "Do you still remember? When we first met, I also played games every day."

He said: "Remember, you were playing legend back then, and you also played a transvestite account, and you knew your brother everywhere in the game."

Xia Yue laughed loudly, and said: "It's all just for fun, I don't know why I loved playing so much at that time."

Chi Lidong said: "At that time, I thought you were just playful."

Xia Yue said: "I am indeed, relying on my cleverness, I did well, so I simply muddled through it, and then I met you. I thought it was not good before, so I forced myself to change."

Chi Lidong laughed at himself: "Is it because you see that I am not up to date, so you feel that it is not okay to muddle along?"

"No, I understand one thing." Xia Yue raised his head, looked at Chi Lidong, and said, "Only when I am good enough in other aspects can I not care about what others say about my private life."

Chi Lidong said convincingly: "You...you are excellent, and all the orange trees in the world belong to you."

Xia Yue asked him: "Then you fell in love with me because I am excellent?"

Before Chi Lidong answered, he heard him continue: "Is it because I love you enough?"

Chi Lidong's mind wasn't spinning fast enough, he couldn't understand the meaning of this sentence, and his face was dumbstruck.

Xia Yue looked at him for a while, supported his chest muscles, slowly got up, sat on his waist and abdomen with his legs apart, and asked again: "Yes, just say yes, I won't be angry."

Chi Lidong suddenly understood that this question is not only difficult, but also terrifying, he said in confusion: "What is it? It's not! I did it because... it's because..."

Xia Yue sat on him in a posture close to that of a duck, with no clothes on, and his well-proportioned and beautiful body was very beautiful. However, as he stammered, Xia Yue's straight and stretched shoulders gradually tightened and tightened, bright His eyes seemed to have dimmed a bit.

He also sat up in a hurry, hugged Xia Yue into his arms, and said anxiously: "I'm stupid, don't be angry."

Xia Yue didn't refuse his hug, and said slowly: "If I changed my mind early and didn't like you anymore, you would have forgotten me very early. The most we can do when we meet again is to say "Long time no see" to each other. When I get home, I may report to the person at home: Honey, today I met the person I used to be, but please rest assured, I don’t feel anything when I see him now.”

Chi Lidong's ears were like five thunderclaps, what kind of terrible assumption is this? !

Xia Yue said: "The premise of your love for me is that I never let you go. Even if there are reasons you can't explain, whether it's because I'm good or something else, love doesn't happen for no reason. But this is very important. Important, even the most important, right?"

Chi Lidong was in a complicated mood and wanted to say yes, but he knew very well in his heart that what Xia Yue said was right.

"You also think that if I let go of you early, I can live a happier life." Xia Yue said, "That's what they all said, telling me not to love you anymore, saying that sooner or later I will understand that I was wrong, I was wrong Yet?"

Chi Lidong couldn't be happy, and asked, "Who are they?"

Xia Yue said: "My family and my friends all say so."

Chi Lidong couldn't get angry again, and said: "You are not wrong, they...they are also doing it for your own good."

Xia Yue said: "Before you didn't have me in your heart, they persuaded me to forget you, and later you said you love me, they persuaded me to just be like this, don't you just want to be with you? I have already got my wish, what else is there? Dissatisfied? Even my dad said that I made heaven and earth, should I do it?"

Chi Lidong: "...No."

Xia Yue said: "You are hesitating."

Chi Lidong: "..."

Xia Yue said: "You also think I did it, don't you?"

Chi Lidong said, "I haven't."

Xia Yue pushed him away, looked at his face expressionlessly, and said, "You have."

Chi Lidong: "..."

He took a deep breath and said, "I love you, is it because you love me? This question is like the chicken or the egg. We all know that there is no answer. Leaving me here alone for more than a year...why can't I think you did it?"

Xia Yue was even more expressionless, as if his face was empty.

After Chi Lidong finished speaking, he regretted it immensely. Although falling out of love is difficult, it has passed, and Xia Yue has already returned. What else can I say?Want to fall in love again?

Xia Yue stepped back, took the clothes of the two people next to him, and put them on himself indiscriminately.

Chi Lidong remembered the breakup scene more than a year ago, and it was also a sudden change afterwards. He was terrified, and hurriedly stopped him: "Don't do this, I was wrong, don't be angry, I'm talking nonsense..."

Xia Yue slapped his hand away hard, the voice was clear and loud, and he didn't feel the pain, grabbed the clothes and insisted on snatching them off, throwing them away from him, and said anxiously: "Xia Yue! What are you doing! "

Xia Yue: "..."

Chi Lidong: "...No, that's not what I meant."

Xia Yue was so angry that his lips trembled, he didn't want to put on any clothes, he jumped off naked, picked up the trousers that had been thrown on the carpet, and put them on.

Chi Lidong said sadly: "Do you have to do this?"

Xia Yue said angrily: "What about me? Do I rule the world?"

Chi Lidong didn't dare to say that about him again.

After Xia Yue put on his trousers, he also put on his shirt, which was almost unbuttoned, looked around, and said, "Where's my coat!"

Chi Lidong: "...on the sofa outside."

Xia Yue lifted his foot and left.

Chi Lidong sat on the bed aggrieved, of course he was very reluctant to part with Xia Yue, but he didn't really want to keep him anymore.Xia Yue didn't feel sorry for him at all, Xia Yue probably didn't need him, but just needed an obedient fool who would wait in place obediently no matter what happened, who couldn't complain, and couldn't say that he was having a hard time waiting.

The sound of footsteps came back again, and he quickly looked up. Xia Yue put on his coat, turned back, and stood at the door of the guest room, looking at him eeriely.

He had a thousand turns in his mind, wanting to beg for mercy at one moment, not thinking about it at another moment, thinking that there was nothing wrong with being a fool, and feeling that Xia Yue didn't love him at all.

Xia Yue suddenly roared angrily: "You abandoned me for more than ten years, and I only abandoned you for more than ten months. Why do you feel wronged?"

Chi Lidong: "..."

Xia Yue roared, his tone suddenly lowered, and said, "Anyone can accuse me of doing it, but you can't."