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It was past eight o'clock, and Xia Yue hadn't come back yet. Chi Lidong called several times, but he didn't answer.

Every year, I kept asking: "Why hasn't Dad come back? In the morning, he said that he could come back early today, and that he could accompany me to fight Lightning McQueen."

Chi Lidong also remembered that when he sent Xia Yue to Guomao in the morning, Xia Yue said that he could finish work earlier today, and that he could... that.

He coaxed Niannian that "Dad is going to be busy with work", and played with Lego blocks for a while. When Niannian was tired from playing, he took a bath with him and sent him to bed. The child was still very unhappy before going to bed. Said: "Dad doesn't mean anything, Mommy, you must criticize him when he comes back."

Chi Lidong said: "You can come tomorrow." What qualifications does he have to criticize Xia Yue?

Xia Sinian said sternly: "You can't spoil him too much, people are spoiled."

Chi Lidong: "..." Among him and Xia Yue, the spoiled one is definitely not Xia Yue.

He helped Xia Sinian turn off the light in the room, and then gently closed the door to come out. Mrs. Chi was waiting at the door, and whispered: "Asleep? You should carry it to my place. If you wake up at night, you will be afraid." what to do?"

Chi Lidong said: "Xia Yue said that he has been sleeping by himself since last summer. He only slept with you for two nights when he first came here to see your relatives. The little boy is used to sleeping by himself, so he always sleeps with adults. He is not happy yet. You can rest assured that you can sleep on your bed, and if he makes any noise at night, I can hear him."

Mrs. Chi had no choice but to give up and said, "Why hasn't Xiaoxia come back? She's on a business trip and works overtime every day like this. This foreigner's company is really good enough."

Chi Lidong said: "I'll call him again and ask, maybe there is some entertainment."

Mrs. Chi urged: "Are you still standing there stupidly? Hurry up and call him, ask him where he is, and pick him up."

Chi Lidong agreed and said, "Don't worry about it, go to sleep."

He pushed his mother back into the room, said good night, and called Xia Yue when he came out, but he still didn't answer. He always got through, but no one answered.

Don't you really get drunk for entertainment, right?

He thought about it, called Lian Ye, and asked, "Who is Xia Yue talking to today? He hasn't come back yet, and no one answered the phone."

Lian Ye said: "With a local investor in Beijing. If my younger brother wasn't in the hospital, I would have gone with him in the afternoon. Has he not gone back yet? We should be able to finish the conversation in the afternoon. Those two schedules I'm very nervous, there should be no dinner arrangements for the evening."

Chi Lidong said: "Could it be an appointment with the two friends you brought from Hong Kong? Xia Yue seems to value them."

Lian Ye said: "Well, I'll help you get in touch and ask, and I'll call you back later."

Chi Lidong hurriedly thanked him, and while waiting for a reply after hanging up, he remembered that he had made Xia Yue angry during the day, because of the beating of Xiao Lian, Xiao Jia was involved, he pulled out the carrot and brought out the mud, and Wang Qi The old case was pulled out, and Xia Yue was already very unhappy at that time, but he only thought that Xia Yue was jealous.Later, Li Tang went again. Not only did he forget about Xiao Jia, but because Xia Yue took the initiative to talk to Li Tang, he showed Xia Yue an angry face... Comrade Chi Laogou, are you crazy?

Maybe Xia Yue was still angry, that's why he didn't want to come back to see him, and he didn't answer his phone call because he didn't have any entertainment at all, and it wasn't for work.

Sure enough, Lian Ye quickly called back and said, "He's not with those two, and they haven't met each other today."

Chi Lidong had no choice but to say, "Thank you for bothering you so late."

Lian Ye said, "May I ask, are you fighting again?"

Chi Lidong didn't know how to answer this question, and said, "No...it's my fault."

Lian Ye said: "He is under a lot of pressure, and his temper may be worse than usual. You still have to accommodate him more."

Chi Lidong felt very guilty, and said, "It's all because he accommodates me."

Lian Ye said: "It's good that you are like this now, cherish it a lot."

Chi Lidong: "Thank you, I will. Is your brother's eyes better?"

Lian Ye's tone changed suddenly, from a humble and intimate friend to a violent brother, he said: "Don't talk about him, maybe it will be better if you are really blind, or I will wait for him to fall asleep tonight." From now on, poke the blind with your own hands."

Chi Lidong: "..."

He couldn't control how the two brothers got along, and his concern was limited. He said goodbye to Lian Ye hurriedly, then called his uncle and asked if Xia Yue had been to their place, but it turned out that he hadn't.

Call Xia Yue's phone again, it is already turned off.I don't know if it was turned off actively, or passively turned off when there was no power.

With Xia Yue's temper, it is very possible that he doesn't want to go home and hide in some hotel.

After ten o'clock in the evening, Chi Lidong contacted almost all the hotel friends he knew, to see if Xia Yue stayed in their hotel, China World Trade Center did not, Hilton did not, Pangu Seven Star did not... He asked all over the high-end hotels, and he went to inquire again Like Atour and Orange Crystal, I even asked a few Home Inns and Seven Days at the end. The lower the middle and low-end, because there are too many stores, the more difficult it is to get accurate information. At the end of the question, he was tired and felt that Xia Yue was really tired. It is impossible to run to live in a chain hotel just because you are angry with him.

At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, he waited impatiently at home and couldn't stay any longer. He drove out to look for it, went around their alma mater a few times, and walked around the streets near SOHO a few times, and then went to Gongti, Sanlitun, 798... He could think of places where Xia Yue might go, but he didn't find any.

The stars in the sky were blinking, Chi Lidong was driving alone, looking around the road without blinking, hoping to find his Xia Yue in the next second.

Someone called in, and he glanced at the screen. It wasn't Xia Yue's name. As for who it was, he didn't have enough brainpower to care about this issue at the moment, so he clicked on it casually, and said, "Hello."

The man on the phone said, "What's the matter? Have you been drinking?"

Chi Lidong thought, the voice was a bit familiar, it was...he looked at the screen again, it was Wang Qi.

Because he didn't speak for a long time, Wang Qi could only continue talking to himself: "What are you doing? Are you really drunk?"

Chi Lidong said: "I didn't drink, it's so late, what do you want me to do?"

Wang Qi: "I'm fine. I just heard that you are looking for people all over the world tonight. What's going on?"

Chi Lidong: "..."

Wang Qi: "I don't ask who you are looking for and why you are looking for it. Did you find it?"

Chi Lidong: "Not yet, I'm looking for it."

Wang Qi: "Does he have a car? Did he drive today?"

Chi Lidong: "It's open."

Wang Qi: "Tell me the license plate number, and I'll ask for you to see where the car is parked now. If you have the car, you won't be far away."

After thinking about it, Chi Lidong said the license plate number of his uncle's Haval, and said, "I'm causing you trouble."

Wang Qidao: "You're being polite to me? Hang up first, and I'll tell you after I ask."

After more than ten minutes, he called back and told Chi Lidong: "It's in the parking lot of Chang'an No. [-]."

Chi Lidong was stunned immediately.

Wang Qidao: "I remember you have a house there?"

Chi Lidong said: "I'll hang up first, and I'll contact you later when I'm free."

He couldn't wait to hear what Wang Qi had to say, so he threw the phone away and immediately turned the car to Chang'an No. [-].

This is the house he and Xia Yue planned to use as their new home in the winter of last year. The hard decoration has been completed, and more than half of the furniture has been added. As long as the formaldehyde is gone, they can move from SOHO to start a new life together. .After Xia Yue left, he never cared about the house again, and almost forgot about it.

The road was unimpeded in the middle of the night, and he arrived very quickly. When he was looking for a place to park in the parking lot, he saw the Haval.

Go upstairs, open the door and go in. The joy of finding Xia Yue, the second he saw the situation at home, turned into a ghost, and shouted sharply: "Xia Yue, come down!"

Xia Yue actually stepped on a dining chair, lying on the edge of the wide open window, his upper body was already stuck out of the window, the night wind from outside poured in, making the gauze curtain beside him flutter uncontrollably.When he heard the sound, he probably wanted to look back, but his feet were not stable, so the dining chair shook, and the others followed suit, as if he was about to fall out of the window in a second.

Chi Lidong was so frightened that his heart would rush out of Tianling Gai, he ran forward with a few strides, dragged the man off the chair, pressed him in front of him and hugged him tightly, cursing sadly and angrily: "You What the hell are you doing! What is this going to do! Are you going to..."

He suddenly couldn't make a sound, his throat was completely choked by the intense emotion. After a while, he gave up the language and burst into tears. The crying was extremely tragic and earth-shattering. Didn't he know that he was like this, crying must be extremely uncomfortable Cute and even annoying, but what can I do?He was so frightened that he didn't know what else to do besides cry at this moment.

After a long time, Xia Yue said: "I just want to blow some air."

Chi Lidong thought, blowing the air?What about the past, what about the countless extreme sports without protection measures in these years?

He didn't stop crying until there were no more tears to shed. His eyes hurt and his heart hurt.Living seems to be very meaningless.

He said hoarsely, "Baby, don't love me anymore."

Xia Yue didn't seem to hear clearly: "...huh?"

Chi Lidong said: "If it wasn't for me, your sister wouldn't have insisted on giving you a baby. If she hadn't given birth, she wouldn't have committed suicide due to postpartum depression. I killed her."

Xia Yue: "That's not the case..."

He struggled to get up, Chi Lidong pressed his head on his chest, and said: "Listen to me, I lied to you all, when I took you to Chengdu to play, the idea was to trick you into bed , I didn’t like you at that time, I just wanted to sleep with you, and I wanted to coax you to be willing, so I ran away as soon as you said you were going to come out of the closet. Take it for a day."

Xia Yue: "...Really."

Chi Lidong said: "It's the same now, I actually still like...I also like Wang Qi, and I don't like you that much. It's because he doesn't like me that I take you. I like him more than you."

In an instant, he felt a surge of heat in his chest.Xia Yue was probably crying.

He said, "Don't cry."

Xia Yue said: "I didn't cry."

Chi Lidong said: "Do you... hate me a little?"

Xia Yue said: "It's not just a little bit."

Chi Lidong: "Then you have to hate it a little more. I just called Wang Qi just now. I was able to find this place because of his help. He stayed up late at night to help me find someone. Tell me, does he mean something to me? ?”

Xia Yue: "...don't say it."

Chi Lidong said: "I will continue to disappoint you, no matter how much you give, I will not cherish it, it is too easy for me to get you, do you understand?"

Xia Yue: "I understand, do you want me to hate you so much? Are you not afraid that I will retaliate against you?"

Chi Lidong said: "Come here, and pay back all the damage I caused you."

He thought he had no more tears to shed, but he didn't expect there to be. While crying, he looked at the open window and said, "I hope you hate me. If that's the case, at least you can see me sad. You will be happy. I hope you will be happy in the future."

Before that, he had many fears, fearing that Xia Yue would not love him, fearing that Xia Yue would retaliate against him, fearing that Xia Yue would pull away and leave him at any time.

But these things became less scary. The moment he saw Xia Yue crumbling by the window, he realized that the thing that frightened him the most was not that Xia Yue didn't love him, but that Xia Yue had loved him for more than ten years. , maybe never happy.