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Later Chi Lidong often recalled this night.

On that night, his love for Xia Yue was no longer because Xia Yue first gave him a fiery heart, and what he wanted to return to Xia Yue was no longer out of guilt and tolerance.

What he hopes to get is not a Xia Yue who stays with him forever but will always be scarred in his heart. He hopes that Xia Yue will let go of the love that caused all misfortunes, and be freed from pain and entanglement as soon as possible. He hopes that Xia Yue's life will never end. The flowers are blooming like a piece of brocade, and there is no need to experience the winter of waiting and self-struggling.

It's just that at that time, he didn't understand that the significance of this night to Xia Yue was equally important.

So at that time, he didn't understand the meaning of Xia Yue's sudden desire to kiss him after he said that.

He thought the kiss was a farewell.

So he kissed fiercely and cried fiercely.

Xia Yue was very calm, and laughed at him: "You look ugly when you cry."

Chi Lidong: "I know."

Xia Yue said: "If you are so ugly, you can't be my male god."

Chi Lidong was surprised that he could still laugh, wiped his face casually, and said: "I am not worthy, but you think too well of me."

Xia Yue patted him on the shoulder and said, "I just thought too much of you, but I should have known that you were a scum."

Chi Lidong said: "Yes, I am."

Xia Yue said mockingly: "Don't think too much of yourself, the one you have a crush on can't have that kind of meaning for you, do you think everyone is as cowardly as you?"

Chi Lidong did not answer this sentence.

Xia Yue said: "What do you think I like you, you are cowardly and scumbag, and you are still so old."

Chi Lidong gave up on himself and said, "That's right, sometimes if you don't wear a suit and I take you out, people think I'm your father."

Xia Yue laughed so hard that he lowered his head, his soft hair brushed against Chi Lidong's chin, Chi Lidong raised his hand and touched the top of his head, he finally couldn't bear it, and said, "Baby, don't take everything I said just now seriously. "

Xia Yue stopped smiling, looked up at him, and said, "I've taken it seriously."

After Chi Lidong thought about it, there was nothing wrong with it, and said, "Okay."

Xia Yue stepped back, opening the distance between the two of them.

Chi Lidong could clearly see his reddish eyes and messy hair. The shirt was unbuttoned three times from the neckline, and his white chest was half covered. Looking down from the legs, it was his bare feet, with beautiful toes stepping on the dark wooden floor.

The moonlight outside the window was like silver, and the wind blew in through the open window.There is wind and moon here, but there is no wind and moon in Chi Lidong's heart.He was just thinking, how can my Xia Yue be born so well, he deserves to be admired by any man and woman in the world, the most unfortunate thing is that he hastily chose me when he was young and ignorant.

Xia Yue's eyes were red, but there was no sadness on his face. He smiled slightly, spread his hands indifferently, and said, "Chi Lidong, I think I can let go."

Chi Lidong thought that he was determined to let go of the ten years of obsession, so he said, "I'm happy for you."

Xia Yue said: "I am also very happy... won't you hug me? There will be no chance in the future."

Chi Lidong hurriedly stepped forward to hug him.

Xia Yue smiled and said, "Don't push so hard, your waist will break."

Chi Lidong didn't realize that he was working too hard, and he didn't intend to relax when he heard his words.

Xia Yue said: "Be careful, I've already started to hold grudges."

Chi Lidong didn't understand: "Huh?"

Xia Yue said: "You're right, once you decide to let go, I'll be happy to see you sad, and you won't be able to hug me again after hearing me say, are you sad?"

Chi Lidong said: "Yes, I am too sad."

Xia Yue: "Not enough, you have made me sad too many times, I want to return them all to you."

Chi Lidong said: "Okay."

Xia Yue's breathing was brisk, obviously he was in a really good mood.

Chi Lidong didn't understand that well, but he also got a lot of comfort from Xia Yue's happiness.

Xia Yue touched him and said, "I'm a little excited and want to do it."

Chi Lidong: "...are you coming?"

Xia Yue said: "No, come here, I don't like being 1 at all."

Chi Lidong couldn't explain: "Then you have been here several times?"

Xia Yue said: "I'm stupid, thinking that if you let me go, it will appear that I am different in your heart."

Chi Lidong thought, it was because you were different that he was willing to let you go.

Xia Yue said: "I don't care about those now, I just want to feel comfortable, can't I?"

It might be impossible to do anything else like Chi Lidong, but how could it be impossible to do this.

But he was very confused, Xia Yue, who said he didn't care anymore, was obviously more clingy to him in bed than before, even later when he tried to touch Xia Yue's bottom line, Xia Yue did it obediently.

The two returned home in the morning, Xia Yue went to catch up on sleep, Chi Lidong threw the two of them's clothes into the washing machine, and went to bed as well. As soon as they lay down next to Xia Yue, Xia Yue rolled over and hugged him, finding a comfortable place to sleep. position, and continued to sleep.

In the next few days, Xia Yue went to work as usual, leaving early and returning late, and everything was normal when he came back, as if nothing happened that day.

But Chi Lidong could vaguely feel that when they were getting along, Xia Yue was not as tense as before, he became much more relaxed, and the temptations that he always seemed to have towards Chi Lidong in the past were gone.

Maybe like Xia Yue said, he doesn't care anymore.

Chi Lidong thought, this is very good, very good.

He and Li Tang met once in the club, and the two solemnly changed into Sanda uniforms, put on boxing gloves, and had a fight on the ring.

To be exact, it was Li Tang who was negligent in practice who was beaten up by Chi Lidong.

Li Tang, who had been beaten before, also knew that he was still in the wrong, so he apologized eight hundred times.

Chi Lidong said: "I don't blame you anymore, it's not your fault, it's mine."

Li Tang: "How do you say that?"

Chi Lidong said: "You don't understand even if you say it, and you have to say I'm hypocritical."

He already understood most of the reasons why Xia Yue left him last year.At that time, he said that he loved Xia Yue, but he didn't even think about getting to know Xia Yue. He was afraid of knowing how bad Xia Yue had been in those years when he was not by his side, so he clearly saw the crying girl in the middle of the night with his own eyes. Xia Yue, however, never even gave him a hug or comfort, he just pretended not to see it, pretended it didn't happen, preferring to be an ostrich.Li Tang just misunderstood and recognized the wrong person, and what he misunderstood and recognized was Xia Yue's heart, which was as bright as moonlight, but he turned a blind eye to it, and even slandered it for being stained with mud, and then told its owner as if nothing had happened, I am very generous, I don't care that you fell into the mud.

Li Tang seemed to understand, but said embarrassedly: "Actually, I don't think it's hypocritical for you to fall in love now."

Chi Lidong heard some signs and said, "Is there something wrong?"

Li Tang blushed a little and said, "I like Lawyer Lian a little bit."

Chi Lidong: "...which company lawyer?"

Li Tang said: "That's it."

Chi Lidong: "..."

Li Tangdao: "I saw him in the hospital that day, and immediately recognized him as my first kiss. I don't know what's wrong, that old deer in my heart is bumping around..."

Before he could finish his sentence, Chi Lidong punched him flying and scolded angrily, "What did you hit? Did you bump into Xia Yue before? You should have seen that you had no good intentions."

Li Tang, who rushed to the street, said injustice: "No! I didn't think so when I saw Xia Yue, it was just embarrassing, really, oh, believe it or not."

Chi Lidong was very suspicious.

Li Tang got up and sat on the ground, and said: "I can't tell you clearly. Anyway, I fell in love with Lian lawyer at first sight, not at first sight. It's second time. Anyway, I just want to laugh when I see him. I don't know what he does. My heart is pounding."

Seeing that his expression did not seem to be fake, Chi Lidong reacted later: "Didn't you say you like women?"

Li Tang scratched his head and said, "I don't like men, I just like Lawyer Lian."

Chi Lidong said with contempt: "This kind of vulgar lines, Jinjiang novels are not written anymore, how do you say it?"

Li Tangdao: "Then that's what I think, so I can't say it? I saw you and your family, Xia Yue, the gay couple, and that little Jia. I really didn't feel it at all. I saw that even the lawyer had such energy. I don't know if I'm bent or not, anyway, I want to sleep with him so much that I'm dying of kidney failure."

Chi Lidong: "...don't worry about it, even lawyers are straight."

Li Tangdao: "Not necessarily, I have found out very clearly these days. When he was in school in Beijing, he liked to play very much, and he also played with men."

Chi Lidong: "..."

Li Tangdao: "I'm planning to go to Hong Kong next week, just to see if his brother's eyes are alright, if it goes well, I'll pierce the paper on the window, even if he doesn't like me, he won't refuse to have sex with me, right? You guys are pretty handsome."

"..." Chi Lidong said, "Have the two brothers returned to Hong Kong?"

Li Tangqi said: "Don't you know? Even the lawyer said that the matter he came to help Xia Yue has finished, Xia Yue should also leave Beijing these few days."

Chi Lidong was taken aback.

That night, Xia Yue frankly packed his luggage.

Chi Lidong stood aside and stared dumbfounded.so fast?leaving?The car he bought for Xia Yue hasn't arrived yet.

While folding the clothes, Xia Yue said regretfully, "This time it's too late, let's save it for next time."

Chi Lidong didn't tell him about buying a car, and said, "When is it too late?"

Xia Yue smiled and said, "I've been too busy these days, so I didn't take care of making you sad."

Chi Lidong: "...I'm very sad now."

Xia Yue looked up at him, smiled, and said, "Don't be too happy, it's not that difficult to fly from New Zealand, I'll be back anytime, and I'll play a big game when I come back, and ask if you're afraid?"

Chi Lidong was not very afraid, but he was a little bit reluctant, and said: "What about every year?"

Xia Yue said: "Of course they left with me."

Chi Lidong said: "I miss him, can I go and see him?"

Xia Yue said, "No, why should I show you my son?"

Chi Lidong: "...Okay, no, no."

Xia Yue said: "The plane is tomorrow afternoon."

Chi Lidong: "Tomorrow afternoon?! Why are you in such a hurry?!"

Xia Yue said: "Xia Sinian has been absent from school for a long time, do you want him to lose at the starting line?"

Chi Lidong said: "New Zealand is not an exam-oriented education. Besides, Niannian is so smart, he already knows the enlightenment knowledge taught in kindergarten."

Xia Yue: "So?"

Chi Lidong was speechless.so what?Can he stop Xia Yue from taking his son away?

Xia Yue said: "What do you want to say? Why don't you have the courage again?"

Chi Lidong said depressedly: "Tomorrow I will take you to the airport."

Xia Yue looked at him provocatively, and said, "Maybe when I go back this time, I can find a mother for Xia Sinian over there."

Chi Lidong knew whether he said this on purpose, or showed a sad expression cooperatively.

Xia Yue said: "When I really find it, I'll bring it back. I'm still holding a wedding in Beijing. How about asking you to be the best man?"

Chi Lidong said: "Pack up your things, I'll go play with Niannian for a while."

He got up to go out, and heard Xia Yue laughing a few times behind him.

In the afternoon of the next day, I sent Xia's father and son to the airport, and Madam Chi also went there. After saying a few words on the way, she began to cry reluctantly. Xia Sinian also cried with her, the old and the young crying together.

Xia Yue couldn't stand it anymore, and said: "Xia Sinian, you are a man, you can't cry anymore."

Xia Sinian wiped his tears and said: "But you often hide and cry secretly, why can't I?"

Xia Yue looked at Chi Lidong suspiciously, and said, "From now on, I will never do that again."

Xia Sinian said: "Then you are excellent, I can't, I reserve the right to cry."

Madam Chi was amused by him, put her arms around him, and said, "Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, and come back after the annual holiday."

When he arrived at the airport, Xia Sinian refused to leave by himself, and coquettishly wanted Chi Lidong to hug him.Chi Lidong pushed the luggage cart with one hand and hugged him with the other.

Xia Yue and Mrs. Chi stayed behind, talking in low voices.

Niannian put her arms around Chi Lidong's neck and whispered, "Mum, let me tell you a secret, you can't tell Dad."

Chi Lidong said: "Okay, I won't tell him."

Nian Nian said: "He said that I could come to Beijing again in a few months, but he didn't want me to tell you."

In a few months it will be winter holidays in New Zealand.Chi Lidong said: "Your father is always soft-hearted and treats me too well."

Nian Nian said: "He also said that you are very good to him, you both love each other very much."

Chi Lidong couldn't help smiling, and then his heart moved, and he subconsciously looked back at Xia Yue.

Is this true love? This is what true love is.

After that night, he was no longer afraid that Xia Yue would leave him, no longer afraid of Xia Yue's possible revenge. Before facing Xia Yue's similar teasing, the fear in his heart was very great every time, and he would kneel on his knees. Xia Yue emphasized his sincerity over and over again in front of him, begging Xia Yue not to scare him or play tricks on him anymore.

And those fears no longer exist.

The fullness and security in his heart at this time no longer come from Xia Yue's selfless and endless dedication, but a full and living love finally born in his heart, which makes him fearless.