stubborn love

"I'll pick you up from get off work." Gu Tianye grabbed Shen Mo's hand who didn't wear gloves, and exhaled warmly clumsily. "It's a pity that the car broke down halfway, so I had to walk over."

Gu Tianye raised his head: "Silence?"

Mo Mo just woke up like a dream, he helped Gu Tianye into the co-pilot, closed the car door frantically, turned on the heater fully: "Why are you running out in the middle of the night, I know how to get back."

"I'm afraid it's not safe for you to drive in the snow." Gu Tianye opened his innocent eyes

Shen Mo rolled his eyes, knowing that the man was talking nonsense again: "What kind of logic is this? You're here, I still have to drive."

Gu Tianye: "Okay, I just want to see you~"

silence:……

Gu Tianye: "Stop talking, go home, it's so cold"

Shen Mo couldn't help reaching out to brush off the snowflakes on Gu Tianye's bangs, and said softly: Is it cold?

"It's not cold by your side." Gu Tianye said with a smile.

Silence's heart warmed up, and his chest seemed to be filled with something.On a snowy night, all the feelings seemed to be instantly magnified.

Silence could even hear Gu Tianye's heartbeat.

So fast, so fast.

He reached out and raised Gu Tianye's soft jaw, his eyes were extremely gentle, "Amano, can I kiss you?"

Gu Tianye's expression immediately froze.

Shen Mo finally knew what the "instant coldness" described in the novel was like.

Shen Mo immediately changed his joking tone and said: It's okay, I was just joking.

After finishing speaking, he hooked Gu Tianye's arm and pulled him into the car, "Let's go home."

Gu Tianye refused Shen Shen's kiss again, which made Shen Mo extremely disappointed, and the deep disappointment in his eyes couldn't be concealed at all.

Gu Tianye was also silent, he knew that he made silence sad.

"It's too cold, let's go home quickly." He opened the car door with a silent smile and pushed Gu Tianye inside.

Turn on the heater in the car, turn on the music in silence, it’s a very soothing song, by Hiroyuki Sawano: allinall

The flowing music filled the entire carriage, Shen Mo felt the corners of his eyes were hot, and his heart felt uncomfortable.

This time he felt deeply that Gu Tianye didn't love him.

That's right, Gu Tianye treated him differently from those lovers, he showed his dependence in front of him, which he never showed in front of others.

But Gu Tianye doesn't love him, at least, that's not love.

Shen Mo took advantage of the traffic light and quietly wiped away tears with the back of his hand. He doesn't want to talk now, for fear that he won't be able to cover up his tears once he opens his mouth.

"Well... let's go eat hot pot tomorrow." Gu Tianye broke the silence as if apologizing, and said eagerly, "I know a very delicious hot pot restaurant, and I have been reading it on the Internet recently. It is a Japanese anime filming location. I heard that mandarin ducks The pot is very delicious, I will pick you up after work tomorrow, okay?"

Shen Mo sniffed awkwardly and said, "Okay, I haven't eaten hot pot for a long time."

"Yeah..." Gu Tianye became happy as if he was forgiven, and he kept talking, "Let me tell you, that animation is pretty good..."

Mo Mo knew that Gu Tianye was apologizing in another way, for a person like Gu Tianye, the three words "I'm sorry" would be impossible to say no matter what.Mo Mo didn't want to make the atmosphere too bad, after all, Gu Tianye had already stepped him down.

The two of them had their own concerns in this way, and chatted to the apartment downstairs.

Until late at night, Shen Mo entered the room, hesitated for a long time, and finally pressed Shen Yan's phone.

He always felt that there must be a special reason for Shen Yan to ask him to seduce Gu Tianye. Now he is eager to know everything about Gu Tianye and why Gu Tianye is inexplicably close and distant to him.

Even if he was ridiculed by Shen Yan for a lifetime, he didn't care anymore.

Shen Yan on the other side of the phone was obviously quite surprised that Shen Mo would still call him, and mockingly said in a cold tone: "What's the matter, Shen Ershao who ran away from home, why did you call my brother? You have nowhere to go, you have made your father and aunt so angry that you want to borrow money now?"

Unexpectedly, Shen Mo was not angry, and said calmly: "I'm fine now, I don't need to borrow money from you. I have something very important to ask you, Shen Yan, this is my first This is the last time I beg you. I hope that for the sake of brother Zeng, tell me the truth?"

"What's the matter?" Shen Yan felt that the silent tone was more serious than ever.

"About Gu Tianye, tell me everything you know." Shen Mo said, "I know you must know some things about him first, otherwise you would never have asked me to approach him without beginning or end."

Shen Yan was extremely surprised, "Why did you suddenly ask him, you two are together!"

"Yes! That's why I need you to tell the truth." The silent tone was extremely serious.

Shen Yan was stunned for a long time, and then he actually laughed, his laughter was full of bitterness: "I really didn't expect that we were both hooked, and I didn't expect him to be so persistent."

"Take the bait..." Shen Mo was stunned, the hand holding the phone was trembling slightly, "What do you mean?"

"What do you mean?! Hehe" Shen Yan smiled wryly, "It means that he also pursued me, and Gu Tianye and I also dated."

Shen Yan's words were like a basin of cold water, and he was drenched head to toe until his whole body trembled silently, and his heart ached sharply: "... have... dated... you and Gu Tianye!?"

"That's right." Shen Yan's voice was full of resentment, and he gritted his teeth, but it was clearly heard in Shen Mo's ears. "It was about half a year ago. My business was hit by him. He was negotiating, he proposed to date me, I thought I would not be at a disadvantage, so I agreed, he is a good lover, he takes care of others meticulously, I thought he really liked me, hehe..."

Shen Yan's wry smile was very piercing, I can think of how uncomfortable he must have been at the beginning "We've been dating for almost half a year, except for hugging and occasionally holding hands, he wouldn't even let me touch him, I fucking thought he was shy, but turned around I went to bed with someone, and only with women. I was still depressed at the time, I was no worse than those people, why would he refuse to sleep with me? I also changed ways to please him, and now I think about it. .”

Silence's heart jumped out, Shen Yan's situation back then was exactly the same as his current situation.

"I was just like you at the beginning. I wanted to find out why. I sent someone to investigate him and found out a lot of things... Then one day, while he was on a business trip, I searched his house, and guess what I found ?”

"You found the answer, didn't you?"

"Yes, the answer couldn't be clearer." Shen Yan calmed down a lot, and his tone calmed down, "I found a photo, it was a photo of him and another man, that man and I, no, it should be said that we look the same It is very similar, and it is written on the back of the photo that I took a photo with my younger brother in the Grand Canyon of Colorado in 2008. I checked that man, he was a university teacher, and passed away in 09.”

Shen Yan sighed, "Silence, it's impossible for me not to hate him. After I broke up with him, he has his eye on you. That's why I wanted to use you to destroy him at that time, so that he can also pay for being used by others." It’s a feeling, but I didn’t expect you to actually take the bait yourself.”

Silence's heart was completely chilled, and he couldn't say a word.

"For the sake of being brothers, don't try to change Gu Tianye. He is not the kind of person who will be moved if you treat him well. What's more, he doesn't like men at all. You can do it yourself."

After Shen Yan finished speaking, he hung up the phone.

Shen Mo just sat on the bed until dawn.Until I heard Gu Tianye's knock on the door, "Silence, have you woken up? Have breakfast."

Shen Mo stood up, staggered and opened the door.

Mo Mo's face, which had not slept all night, was extremely pale, and the moment he opened the door, he almost fell on Gu Tianye's body.Gu Tianye immediately helped him steady: "What's wrong with you." He probed the temperature of Mo Mo's forehead with his hand: "Are you feeling uncomfortable? I'll take you to the hospital."

"No" Shen Mo pushed him away, "I'll just eat something and lie down." He couldn't face Gu Tianye now, but luckily he was his elder brother's stand-in, which made Shen Mo feel less humiliated. He probably would tear Gu Tianye apart.

After all, what's the difference?No matter whose substitute it is, Gu Tianye doesn't love him.

Forget it... What's the point? I thought I had found true love, but in the end I was just pretending to be passionate. He seemed to have been pretending to be passionate all his life. He thought that Shen Feng regarded him as his own son, and he thought that Shen Yan was his own brother. Pretend to be affectionate and think...the person I like also likes me.

Shen Mo quietly drank the porridge without saying a word.

This kind of quietness is very strange, and Gu Tianye feels uneasy inexplicably, is Shen Mo still angry about what happened yesterday?

Gu Tianye said hesitantly, "Today...don't forget about eating hot pot...we..."

"Amano" put down the bowl in silence, looked up at Gu Tianye, and said seriously, "We won't eat hot pot anymore, and I won't go to work anymore, let's... Let's break up, I'll move out of your house today. "

"Why... I..." Gu Tianye didn't know why he became so flustered all of a sudden, the silent sad eyes hurt him severely.

"I just talked to Shen Yan on the phone, and he said that you have been in a relationship."

"Silence!" Gu Tianye sternly said, "I have been in a relationship with Shen Yan, but what can I say, you are not his substitute, you..."

"Who am I as a substitute, don't you know the best?" Silence interrupted with a wry smile, "Who are the two of us as substitutes, don't you know?"

"I……"

Gu Tianye's silence was like a kind of default.Silence didn't say anything anymore, he stood up and went into the room to pack his things. He had been here not long ago, and Gu Tianye bought most of the clothes for him, and he cleaned them up with a luggage bag.

Gu Tianye stood at the door in a daze, lowering his head.

Shen Mo sighed, walked over to hold his face with both hands, touched the corners of Gu Tianye's red eyes, and said slowly in the most gentle tone he could use: "Amano, I like you, and I want to be with you forever That kind of liking is the kind of liking that wants to kiss you and sleep with you, I don't want you to be wary of me touching you every day, and I don't want to feel uncomfortable, so... goodbye. "

Shen Mo opened the door and went out, disappeared all the way into the depths of the corridor without looking back, and entered the elevator.And the person who stayed there...slowly...knelt down...and hugged himself.