I'm sick for Mr. Lu

When Lu Zelin walked into the ward, he heard Chen Zhihao telling Su Xingyu: "Stop tossing around! Rest well when you are asked to rest. Don't make fun of your body!"

Su Xingyu's tone was mild, unlike Chen Zhihao's almost yelling, he said slowly, "I have nothing to do."

"Why don't you lie down and watch TV and play games?"

"Too depraved."

"Then you read a book?"

"No, tired eyes."

"Then go to sleep! Don't try to get out of this ward!"

"I just went for a walk outside. I didn't even leave the hospital. I really don't know what you are anxious about."

"I didn't forbid you to go out for a walk, but if you go out for five hours and people can't find where you are, it's too much!" Chen Zhihao said in a serious voice, "And the food provided by the hospital is the best. Scientific and nutritious, but you eat so little, how can you?!"

"Calm down." Su Xingyu sighed, "If you are so impatient, you will scare the other patients."

"........."

Lu Zelin went in.As soon as Su Xingyu saw him, he averted his eyes and said nothing.

Chen Zhihao saw Lu Zelin following Su Xingyu's line of sight, coughed a few times in embarrassment, and then left with an excuse: "Okay, anyway, you're fine, so don't leave the ward, I'll see you later."

Su Xingyu nodded.

Su Xingyu has never been a person who is good at making noise, and he doesn't like making noise either.Since the last time he vented out of a dream, he woke up again, and it was like this now.

He no longer spoke about the loss of his child, and always had an expression of neither joy nor sadness, and he continued to do whatever he wanted, even though Lu Zelin could see that he was sad, he didn't have a chance to comfort him.

Lu Zelin knew that Su Xingyu didn't want to talk to him, every time he came, Su Xingyu didn't even want to look at him.But Lu Zelin still came every day, whenever he was free.The food in the hospital didn't suit Su Xingyu's appetite. He didn't have much appetite. When he saw the food in the hospital, he always picked and picked the food and only ate a few mouthfuls.After a few days, let alone how the recovery is going, I have lost a lot of weight.Lu Zelin couldn't bear to see it, so he brought some of Su Xingyu's usual favorites.

While opening the lunch box, he said two words: "Today..."

He was interrupted severely by Su Xingyu: "You go out."

In the past few days, Su Xingyu said to him the most, "Go out", "Leave", "I don't want to see you", "I don't want to eat what you brought", Lu Zelin is used to it.

So now, he also has a way to deal with Su Xingyu.Lu Zelin continued to put the dishes in the lunch box in front of him one by one, and said: "I know you are not happy to see me now, but no matter what, you always have to eat. You should eat some, and wait for you to eat." , I'll go."

Lu Zelin handed the chopsticks to Su Xingyu.Su Xingyu knew that if he didn't eat a mouthful, Lu Zelin would not leave.But he still refused to take a good look at Lu Zelin. After reluctantly taking the chopsticks, he began to challenge the dishes again.

Su Xingyu was really not hungry, he suspected that his hunger had also disappeared.

Lu Zelin helped him serve a bowl of soup: "This fish soup is your favorite, take a sip."

Su Xingyu took it, took a sip, and then put it down.He used to like this fish soup, but drinking it now, he can't drink any taste worthy of his praise. He doesn't know what he liked about this fish soup before.

Lu Zelin looked at him as if he just pursed his lips, and asked, "Isn't the taste right?"

Su Xingyu said concisely: "It doesn't taste good."

"Then eat fish?" Lu Zelin watched Su Xingyu pick and choose among the green vegetables, and finally dipped some minced garlic that was just used for seasoning with his chopsticks and put it into his mouth... How can this work, and the rice that Su Xingyu eats can be eaten It is clear that the number is in grains, Lu Zelin hopes that he can eat more, "And this tofu, you have always liked this method, it is tender and soft, take a bite."

Su Xingyu clicked his tongue, and frowned: "You are so annoying, I said I don't want to eat." Then he put down the chopsticks, and Su Xingyu was about to get out of bed.

Lu Zelin quickly put down the things in his hands, and grabbed Su Xingyu: "Where are you going?"

Su Xingyu said angrily: "If you don't want to leave, you can keep it. I'll go, okay? I get angry when I see you. How can I eat? If you have an appetite, you can eat by yourself. Anyway, I don't have an appetite."

"Okay, okay, then I won't force you to eat, you sit down, you eat slowly, I just don't talk."

Su Xingyu was pushed back on the bed by Lu Zelin.After half an hour, he only ate a few mouthfuls of rice. From Lu Zelin's point of view, it was like putting rice into his mouth one by one.He wanted to say something, but every time he opened his mouth, he held back.

In the end, Su Xingyu put down his chopsticks, except that the bowl of eggs had obviously been touched, the other dishes were similar to when Lu Zelin brought them over.Lu Zelin couldn't hold back, and asked, "Is this enough for you?"

"Do you want me to spit it out and return it to you?"

"..." Lu Zelin didn't dare to say any more, and just asked, "Then do you have anything else you want to eat? Except for what Dr. Chen forbids, I will bring you whatever else you want."

"No need." Su Xingyu gave the order to evict the guest, "I'm going to rest and sleep, you can go."

Lu Zelin said helplessly, "Okay, then you can rest."

He put the lunch box away, and really didn't want to leave—in fact, he wouldn't leave either. Every time Su Xingyu was sleeping, he would go outside for a while, and when Su Xingyu fell asleep, he would sneak in and watch.

But this time Su Xingyu said: "Next time..."

"Ok?"

"...bring me my sketchbook."

Su Xingyu taught himself to draw while studying.Although he wasn't very good at painting, and he seldom drew again because he didn't have time, but he was always reluctant to let it go, and took out two strokes when he was free.

Now that he hasn't been discharged from the hospital, Chen Zhihao looks like he won't let him go easily. Su Xingyu has nothing to do, so he just remembered that he can draw.

This was the first time that Su Xingyu asked Lu Zelin to do something during this period of time. Lu Zelin was very happy, and wished that Su Xingyu would ask him to do more: "Okay, I will definitely bring it here for you."

But the phone rang inappropriately, and when he was happy, work came to disturb him.This time I had to leave.Complaining about the incompetence of his subordinates in his heart, but unable to show it in front of Su Xingyu, Lu Zelin only said: "There is something wrong with the company, I have to leave first."

Su Xingyu leaned on the bed, and sat up when he heard this sentence: "Are you leaving?"

Lu Zelin was overwhelmed by the flattery. Su Xingyu didn't pay any attention to him when he said that before. He was stupefied for a while, and only nodded: "Yes..."

"Just now you asked me what I want to eat, and I said no. Now that I think about it, I still have it. I want to eat the crispy meat pie at the gate of the community. You can wait or come back tomorrow. Bring me one."

"Is that the shop that doesn't open until after four in the afternoon?"

"Correct."

"That shop is not very good, the cake is too greasy..."

"Do you bring it or not?"

"……bring."

Lu Zelin went out and walked to the front desk on that floor, where there were two nurses.Su Xingyu had a special nurse to look after him, but when Lu Zelin came over, she would leave consciously.

Lu Zelin said to the nurse who was looking at Su Xingyu: "I'm leaving, and I will probably come back after four o'clock in the afternoon. Please look at Ward 019."

The little nurse nodded: "No problem, I will watch."

Although Su Xingyu's performance these days has been normal, Lu Zelin still dare not forget Chen Zhihao's reminder to him. He is afraid that something will happen to Su Xingyu if he doesn't notice.This is also one of the reasons why Chen Zhihao insisted that Su Xingyu stay in the hospital for observation for a few more days. Sometimes the more flawless the surface, the more disturbing it is.

Every ten minutes or half an hour, the little nurse would go to Su Xingyu's place to take a look to make sure that Su Xingyu was in the ward and that nothing happened.She also knew that this was a patient that Dr. Chen cared about very much, and she had no intention of slacking off.

It was almost three o'clock, when she went to collect the medicine tray left in Su Xingyu's ward 10 minutes ago, she found that Su Xingyu had already fallen asleep after taking the medicine - this medicine has some sleep aid ingredients, it is normal to fall asleep after taking it.

But at this time another nurse ran in, and said to her in a low voice but panickedly: "Several critically ill patients came to the emergency room at once, and there are not enough manpower now, please ask us to help..."

The little nurse hesitated: "But Doctor Chen wants me to only look after this patient, I can't leave..."

"Isn't he always fine? Now he's asleep again, and nothing will happen... Besides, the emergency room is more important now. Go to the emergency room first, and it won't take too long..."

"but……"

"Okay, let's go, can't you be more flexible and prioritize..."

The little nurse was hurriedly pulled away by another person.

And Su Xingyu, after they left the ward, opened his eyes.

Lu Zelin also returned home around three o'clock.

He shouldn't have come back so early, the crispy meat pie shop didn't open until after four o'clock, and he came back late, just in time to help Su Xingyu get a sketchbook.

But after 02:30, he always felt that something was wrong.

There was no reason, just an indescribable feeling, he just felt his heart was tight and uncomfortable.

So I went home early.He just wanted to go to see Su Xingyu first, and bring a sketchbook so he can explain himself. As for the crispy meat pie, he can come back to buy it tomorrow.

He went to the study and put down the book he just bought.

Just passing by the bookstore, Lu Zelin hesitated for a few seconds and walked in when he saw the poster at the door promoting children's books. When he came out 10 minutes later, he bought a few books under the Hotsellers tab - "How to Be a Good Dad", "Thirty Things a New Dad Must Know", "If you want to be a qualified dad, you must Those details that cannot be ignored".

Back to a month ago, he didn't believe that one day he would buy this type of book.But now, when he saw this kind of book, he even chose for a while, and finally bought these "entry-level" books.

He put the book in his drawer.To be honest, he didn't know if he would read it, and he wasn't sure if he would still have a chance to use it after he really learned it.But the unspeakable regret and guilt made him want to step into the field of "father" - at least, he wanted to know if he had a chance to be a good father.

Putting down these books, Lu Zelin went to find Su Xingyu's sketchbook.Su Xingyu's things are always neatly placed, and Lu Zelin has no trouble finding them.He took his sketchbook and the can of pencils beside him, ready to go to the hospital.

Lu Zelin drove the car by himself.

Along the way, a searing sense of anxiety enveloped him.It seems that something bad is about to happen, which is an ominous omen.However, there were so many red lights, and each time was only two or three seconds away, he couldn't hide, so he had to be locked in the red lights obediently.

It was only around 03:30 to the hospital.

Lu Zelin strode quickly to Su Xingyu's ward.Pushing open the door, he found that Su Xingyu was not inside—this shouldn't be something that would scare him, after all, it is very possible that Su Xingyu went out for a walk or something else.

But at that time, seeing the empty ward, Lu Zelin was only afraid.

He yelled Su Xingyu's name a few times, purely subconsciously.Then he anxiously walked from the room to the corridor like a trapped animal, and then walked back from the corridor to the ward—where would Su Xingyu go?Where did he go?

He tried to think of the best, maybe the nurse accompanied him out?

He wanted to go out to find a nurse, but just as he was about to step out of the ward, he finally saw the closed bathroom.

Lu Zelin took a few steps back stiffly, walked to the door, and reached out to open it...

is locked.

It was locked from the inside.

Lu Zelin slammed on the door vigorously: "Xingyu! Xingyu!"

The last sliver of rationality was dominated by impulse, Lu Zelin kicked the door with his foot, moved a stool and smashed it, and finally smashed the door lock under the violent blow.

The door slowly opened, and what Lu Zelin saw was Su Xingyu lying in a pool of blood—there were no sharp objects in the room, but who would have thought that Su Xingyu would smash the glass and use this thick and blunt fragment to cut his own body? neck...

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