I heard they all love me

There was a bang in Chu Li's head, like an earthquake of magnitude seven or eight.Ning Weidong said that Jiang Xingjian liked him, but after a sudden storm, it would be fine if he calmed down, but what Jiang Xingjian said collapsed his life cognition in the past 20 years.Chu Li stood there in a daze amidst the mess, looking at Jiang Xingjian in astonishment, suspecting that he had auditory hallucinations.

He subconsciously repeated: "What did you say?"

Jiang Xingjian didn't answer immediately, but held Chu Li's hand first.It was a scorching summer day, but Chu Li's hands were as cold as ice, as if a chill penetrated into Jiang Xingjian's heart through his skin.He carefully put Chu Li's hand in his palm, making sure that Chu Li would not leave him even if he was emotional, and then said softly, "I have no blood relationship with Xing Zhe."

Chu Li trembled slightly unconsciously, and almost immediately decided in his heart that he was not a child of the Jiang family.In fact, he should have thought of it a long time ago, his father's estrangement from him since he was a child, and the private whispers of his servants, don't they all prove this point?He subconsciously felt that this was the right way, so his father's attitude had been explained, and even his not so "fair and honest" past seemed to be normal.

He immediately thought of another question: "My mother..."

"Xiao Li, it's me." Jiang Xingjian interrupted him, aggravated his voice, held Chu Li's hand slightly, and confirmed, "Xiao Li, it's my child, not my father's."

"..."

Shock appeared on Chu Li's face again, and it froze into a ridiculous expression.Chu Li opened his mouth, but he couldn't seem to find his own voice. He wondered in a daze, how could it be Jiang Xingjian?Obviously Jiang Xingjian was his father's proudest son, and he was the person he yearned for and admired since he was a child.He longed to be close to Jiang Xingjian, but because of his background, he felt inferior in front of the other party.All kinds of growing up situations have formed his complex emotions of jealousy, unwillingness, and longing when facing Jiang Xingjian.He fumbled in front of Jiang Xingjian like a clown for a long time, and finally put his life in it, but Jiang Xingjian told him that he was not his father's child? !

"Xiao Li!" Jiang Xingjian called out worriedly.

This was the main reason why Jiang Xingjian couldn't speak to Chu Li because of the loss.He didn't know how to explain to Chu Li how he used to occupy the magpie's nest, especially even if the explanation was clear, it would be useless to Chu Li today.Even in this matter, he is actually considered "innocent".Jiang Xingjian thought with a wry smile, and then this thought was replaced by a huge distress from the bottom of his heart.He reached out and pulled Chu Li into his arms, feeling the thin body in his arms, and said apologetically, "I'm sorry."

Chu Li came back to his senses in a trance, and asked softly, "When?"

"Before Xingzhe's accident."

Jiang Xingjian said in a low voice.Although Chu Li didn't speak clearly, Jiang Xingjian subconsciously knew what Chu Li wanted to ask.He tightened his arms and hugged Chu Li even tighter.

Those days were the darkest of his life.He remembered clearly that he had just received a call from his uncle not long after he had left to visit his grandmother in the hospital that day.On the phone, my uncle's voice was very urgent, saying that my grandmother's condition had suddenly turned critical and needed immediate rescue, but my grandmother refused to enter the emergency room and insisted on seeing him.Before he even had time to hang up the phone, he hurried back to the hospital, drove the car to the limit all the way, and ran through countless red lights before rushing to his grandmother.

When he arrived, his grandmother drove all the doctors and nurses around him out of the ward, leaving him alone.At that time, he already had a bad premonition, but he only thought that his grandmother was about to confess his last words.It's just that he didn't expect that grandma took his hand and said that there was a secret hidden in her heart for many years, and now she was afraid that it would die, and she could no longer keep this secret from him.

People come and go in the hospital, but the ward seems to be a separate world, quiet and silent.He couldn't hear any sound, only saw grandma struggling to open her mouth, intermittently telling the secret that had been hidden for many years.At that moment, he felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave, and he felt a loud "crash" in his heart, and something collapsed.

He didn't have time to digest his grandmother's words, so he called for a doctor stiffly.When grandma was sent to the emergency room, great desolation rose from the bottom of my heart little by little.He stood outside the emergency room, worrying about his grandmother's condition, while thinking dully about what his grandmother said.For a moment, he even had an untimely joy in his heart—if he wasn't his father's child, would the biggest obstacle between him and Xing Zhe be gone, and he could pursue Xing Zhe unscrupulously and accompany Xing Zhe calmly? Zhe's side.

With all kinds of thoughts, his mind was in a mess, and he didn't know how long he stood outside in a daze before he heard the doctor say that the rescue was over, and that grandma was lucky to be able to stabilize her condition.Joy just flashed in his heart, and he had to face a difficult problem: how to confess his life experience to his father and Xing Zhe?This involves the Xie family, how can we resolve this matter without conflict?

During that time, his grandmother's condition was unstable, which involved most of his time and energy.He didn't dare to leave the hospital, and couldn't find a chance to confess to his father and Xing Zhe.It wasn't until Xing Zhe returned home because of Qin Mu's troubles that he took the time to meet Xing Zhe in a hurry, which was also the last time the two met.

At that time, he was worried about the grandmother in the hospital, and he lost his mind because of jealousy. He didn't even have time to explain to Xing Zhe, so he left Xing Zhe and went back to the hospital impatiently.If he knew... Jiang Xingjian thought painfully, how could he be willing to break up with Xingzhe.

He still remembered the night when he rushed to the scene of the car accident, he felt like a walking dead.Great fear enveloped him, and he pushed the approaching policeman away with trembling hands, hoping that the policeman had misunderstood the person.But it's a pity... fate will not be merciful because of people's pain.

Standing there, he felt as if his heart had been gouged out by something.Despair was like a tide drowning him. He thought he should be crying, but the tears couldn't fall.He just watched quietly, his heart withered a little bit, and he no longer had any joy in living.

Until... Chu Li returned to his side.

Jiang Xingjian lowered his head and stuck close to Chu Li, suppressing the anxiety in his heart, and said in a deep voice: "I have lost Xingzhe, and I can't lose you again."

……

After being led down the mountain by Jiang Xingjian, Chu Li didn't speak any more.

Jiang Xingjian held Chu Li's hand like taking care of a child, and said to him softly, "The car is parked in front, Xiao Li, what do you want to eat at night, we will stop by to buy materials and go back to make it."

What answered him was Chu Li's silence.

Jiang Xingjian didn't care, and just held Chu Li's hand tightly.What could be more desperate than losing Xing Zhe, now that "Xing Zhe" is by his side, even if he refuses to talk to him, he wants to cry happily.The long-term uneasiness finally settled today, as long as he knew that Xingzhe was back.

From a distance, Jiang Xingjian saw his own car, and also saw Ning Weidong in front of the car.The eyes of the two intertwined, like males vying for mating rights, and at the same time calmed down.Ning Weidong's eyes fell on the hands held by Jiang Xingjian and Chu Li, and while jealous in his heart, he forced himself to think, even if Jiang Xingjian found Chu Li, so what?Even if Chu Li does not recognize him, he cannot deny the fact that he is Xing Zhe.How could the two be brothers, how could they be together!

He stepped forward shyly, and called cautiously, "Okay...Chu Li."

It's not that Ning Weidong doesn't know how to wink, it's just that Chu Li wasn't worth his time before.Now that he guessed Chu Li's identity, he seemed to be back in the past.With just one look from Xing Zhe, he knew what the other party wanted, and he tried every means to make Xing Zhe happy.Now that Xing Zhe obviously rejects him, he is willing to take a step back and treat Xing Zhe as Chu Li for the time being.

Ning Weidong tried to get closer to Chu Li, but Chu Li glanced at him indifferently, and quickly looked away.

The mood fluctuated several times in a day, and Chu Li was imprisoned tightly like a strong cage.He didn't want to talk, or even think about anything, but just followed Jiang Xingjian habitually.Chu Li got into the car dumbly, and Jiang Xingjian fastened the seat belt, closed his eyes and curled up into a ball.

The soft back of the chair supports him, bringing him a rare sense of security.At this moment, he didn't need to think about Qin Mu, Ning Weidong, or Jiang Xingjian, as long as he closed his eyes according to his own mind.

"Xiaoli..."

Jiang Xingjian was talking softly beside him, but Chu Li didn't seem to hear anything.He stubbornly put a thick cocoon on himself, and he was clearly divided into a different world from Jiang Xingjian.He curled up in his cocoon, occasionally thinking of the days when he was still Jiang Xingzhe.At that time, he didn't know anything, and in the eyes of others, he was probably ignorant like a fool, but he was still complacent, thinking that life was extremely beautiful.Although not everything goes his way, he doesn't care much.

He has money and leisure, and he has a friend like Ning Weidong.The only two unsatisfactory things were that Jiang Xingjian was pressed on his head, and Qin Mu didn't like him very much.For the former, as long as he doesn't provoke Jiang Xingjian, Jiang Xingjian doesn't seem to bother to talk to him.For the latter, he felt that Qin Mu would be moved sooner or later because he was sincere, and he didn't need to worry.

Who knows... After a few months, Chu Li looked back at the past again, only to feel that Jiang Xingzhe's life was already unfamiliar and beyond recognition.What he thinks are all lies, and what he insists on is the jokes of others after dinner.Everyone around him wore masks, only he was stupid and heartless like a joke.

He opened his eyes mockingly, looked at Ning Weidong who was getting away from the car, and suddenly said, "I want to see Grandma Xie."

Jiang Xingjian held Chu Li's hand and said, "Okay!"