Xu Yiqing goes to the rest of the year

Zhu Shengsheng's perspective

In the past ten years, I have been looking for warmth in the ice and snow, and looking for light in the dark and dim.

I don’t remember what my original name was. I just remember that my mother’s name is Fang Sheng, and my father’s name is Zhu Yansheng, so I used their homophones to change my name. As for the time to change my name, it was my father’s One week after my mother's car accident, I stayed at Bai's house for three days.

My parents died in a car accident. I was supposed to be raised by my grandma. Fortunately, my parents’ friends thought it was not easy for my grandma to take care of me alone, so they adopted me and brought me to the Bai family.

This incident is fortunate for the elderly grandma, and it is supreme luck for me.

I don't believe in love at first sight, but it just so happened that my eyes that were red from crying met his shining eyes that day, and when his warm fingers caressed my red and swollen eye circles, my cold heart, There was a little bit of looseness, and that was the first time I felt the temperature of my blood after my parents passed away.

But just a little bit, not enough to make my heart beat again.After my parents passed away, I still feel cold in the summer and dark in the day,

I hid in the house alone, and I didn’t go out to see anyone for a whole year. Every day, I lay down in that room and looked at the garden opposite. Grandma came to persuade me, Uncle Bai and Uncle Bai came to comfort me, and the servant sister came to take care of me Past me, only Bai Chuan sat by the window with me, and watched the scene outside the window with me without saying a word. At that time, when I turned my head, I could see his upturned eyelashes when he smiled when he looked at me .It turns out that he understands that all I need is company.

After a spring, summer, autumn and winter, I started to go to school with Bai Chuan, make friends, play games together, and skip classes together. People around me said that my smile increased. In fact, it was because Bai Chuan was always smiling. I couldn't help laughing together.

Bai Chuan said that he doesn’t like sleeping alone in winter, so I don’t have to be awakened by nightmares alone at night. Bai Chuan said that he likes to sleep with things in his arms, so whenever I tremble with tears, I will be embraced by someone .Bai Chuan said that he doesn't like parties, so he is always by my side when others are having fun.Bai Chuan doesn't like to drink milk tea, so when I finish drinking one cup, he will always hand me another cup of his own...

I have never thought that there is a person who happens to like or dislike him, all of which I like.

I will never forget that at noon that day, the midsummer sun made my eyelids slightly hot. The moment I opened my eyes, I saw the smiling eyes of Bai Chuan on the opposite side. There was light in his eyes, and he surrounded me alone. Shining brightly, like finely divided stars, precipitated with the fluorescence of a lifetime.Staring into his eyes, in this midsummer environment where cicadas are constantly chirping, I can only hear the sound of my heart "thumping".

During the long search, a crack opened in the darkness, and Bai Chuan squeezed in unexpectedly.

Bai Chuan, I like you.

So on the following Christmas, I quietly kissed him who was sleeping next to me, and then left the Bai family the next day.

I like him, for me, it is the supreme luck, for him, and for the Bai family, it is unacceptable and intolerable.So for the Bai family, there is another good thing, that Bai Chuan doesn't like me, and I can't ruin the Bai family because of myself.

But I can't do without him, I rented a house by myself, sometimes he would visit me, just like a good friend, I became his subordinate, helping him with chores, like the best partner, later, I accidentally climbed into his bed. Drinking and having sex is a bad excuse, but we both use it with peace of mind. If there is a first time, there will be a second time. I may still be his best bed partner.

Later, Bai Chuan got engaged. The day before the engagement, he held my hand, smiled complicatedly, and said, "Zhu Shengsheng, if you say you don't want my engagement, I will reject everything."

Every time I see him smile, I can't help laughing, so I grinned, ripped off his hand, and wished him happiness for a long time.

When he turned around, he pulled me into his arms, and every bite was so hard that it hurt.

He didn't know that Aunt Bai had just approached me in the morning. Facing this kind-faced person who raised me up, I couldn't refuse her. Bai Chuan is the only child in the family, and Uncle Bai simply couldn't tolerate his son falling in love with someone. Man, I have no way to let Bai Chuan ruin his future.

Looking at Bai Chuan's back before he left, I lay down on the bed, touched my bruised and purple skin that was bitten by him, and said with a smile: "Bai Chuan, I don't want to like you anymore."

I don't like you, and you don't like me either.

The figure of Bai Chuan left without even pausing.

He really didn't care.

Actually, what I most wanted to say at the time was that he looked so handsome in a white suit.

Then nothing changed, he still worked with me, ate, and warmed the bed as usual.

Only then did I realize that facing the person you love, you can't refuse any request from him.Then I thought, so be it, as he likes it and waits for him to get bored.

Until one day later, with a slap on his face, he still smiled at me and said, "Zhu Shengsheng, I have severed the father-son relationship with my father."

"Stay with me."

I stood there stupidly, staring at his pretty smile, and unconsciously laughed out.

"it is good."

On my birthday that year, I made a wish, hoping that I would be Bai Chuan's childhood partner, assistant at work, best man at marriage, and godfather to his children.

On my 28th birthday, I made a wish that I would be Bai Chuan's forever partner.

Because it just so happens, Bai Chuan, you are the warmth, and you are the light.

Shirakawa Perspective

When I saw Zhu Shengsheng for the first time, his eye circles were red and swollen, his skin was pale and thin, and he stood there without saying a word, as if he couldn't even force a smile.I don't know whether the sudden throbbing in my heart was because I was confused by his pitiful rabbit-like expression, or because I felt sorry for the loneliness of his parents' death, so I couldn't help but caressed his eyes, and then met him in astonishment. I can't take my eyes off him anymore.

When he first came, he was very quiet, every day except for being in a daze, he was in a daze, like a puppet with a broken thread.Every day when I go to school, I always look back at him sitting by the window looking at the garden in a daze, what posture he was in in the morning, and when I came back from school, he was still in that posture.

I always feel that my few remaining feelings of compassion seem to be used on Zhu Shengsheng, so I am afraid that he will be lonely, so I will sit with him by the window every day after school, he looks into the distance, and I look at him.

I knew that he dared not sleep alone every night, and often kept the lights on all night, so I used the excuse of being afraid of the cold to sleep on the same bed with him.He sleeps very honestly. In addition to unconsciously curling up and curling up again, he often dreamed in the past few months. When he woke up in the dream, he would secretly hide in the bathroom alone. I often pretended to be asleep, and then when he came back , and pulled him into my arms.

Habit is a terrible thing. When I realized this, I couldn't leave Zhu Shengsheng in my eyes.

It’s like I deliberately downgraded him to the same class or even to the same desk, just to see how he sleeps and murmurs on the desk every noon. When the root hair is on it, it is quiet and beautiful, like a fairy.

Just look at it, and it's here.Zhu Shengsheng’s birthday happened to be Christmas that year, and I stared at his pious face illuminated by the candlelight, his closed eyes and eyelashes trembling, as if making some grand and huge wish.

Later that night, he kissed me quietly, the soft and cold touch suddenly made my heart flutter, and I thought, I might like him.

It's just that before I had time to confirm this relationship, he left suddenly.No longer in the same room with me, sleeping on the same bed, I realized that I might be really afraid of the cold.

He began to carefully draw boundaries with me, and my temper became worse and worse. Even I didn't know why I suddenly felt angry without warning, until that day he was drunk and hugged him desperately. When I was with me, my heart suddenly settled down. He rubbed against my neck, which was itchy and comfortable. I lowered my head, trying to get closer, but he suddenly raised his head and kissed me, just like what fell in that year. Like the gentle and cold touch on my cheek, I realized in a daze that I had never forgotten to desire him.

I know it's not a good thing to take advantage of someone's danger, but he was the one who got drunk first and then had sex.

This feeling is too good, a dizzying feeling that eats into the bone marrow, especially when I see him blushing under me and calling my name over and over again.From then on, I thought, this person can only be mine.

The real decision to leave the Bai family was the night before the engagement, when his eyes were red but he smiled and said to me that he wished me happiness for a long time,

When he pretended to be relaxed and said to me not to like me anymore, at that time, I really realized that I couldn't do without him.

When I had a showdown with them, the old man said that I was nothing if I left the Bai family, and no one would continue to curry favor with me and treat me well.

I laughed it off.

He didn't know that the person I hugged with his slap in the face later regarded me as his whole world, and I only needed him to be good.