i don't want to have children

Yu He's hands pressed tightly on his abdomen, but a steady stream of heat flowed out from the crevices of his fingers, and that place began to hurt like tearing. Yu He hugged his stomach and squatted down little by little.

He heard Du Fei's shout: "Mr. Xu." and the scream of the clerk's little girl.

Du Fei took off his clothes, folded them to the thickest, pressed them on Yu He's abdomen, and at the same time yelled at the clerk who was calling the police with a trembling voice: "Get in the car with me."

The scene was in chaos, and the streets that were originally less crowded were quickly filled with people.Fang Yi just stood there dumbly, neither moving nor running.

But Du Fei didn't care about her at all. He ran to the car with Yu He in his arms, put him in the back seat, and shouted at Xiao Xiao, the clerk who followed, "press the wound and don't move." up.

Although Du Fei's black sports jacket was folded into thick dust, blood still seeped out, sticky and wet.The clerk's little girl was afraid, and she didn't dare to move her hands.Just hold the wound tightly.

While the car was on its way to the hospital, the sound of a police car could be heard in the distance.

Yu He moved his lips weakly, "It's called Ling Dong..."

The clerk put her ears on it and asked in a crying voice: 'What are you talking about? "

Yu He held on for a while, the pain in his abdomen became more and more severe, but his consciousness gradually became blurred, and the people and things that fell into his sight existed in an upside-down and deformed way.

The clerk's little girl watched Yu He's eyes gradually lose focus, and cried, "Mr. Xu."

Before Yu He completely lost consciousness, the clearest image imprinted in his mind was him sending Chu Lingdong to the entrance in the morning.

Chu Lingdong was neatly dressed, making it impossible for Yu He, who originally wanted to fix his tie, to do so.

Chu Lingdong wrapped his arms around his waist, and kissed him on the lips: Seeing your reluctance, I comfort you.

Then he seemed to have entered a long black tunnel, and the people or things he experienced passed by his ears like a whirlwind, with bitter echoes.

Those magnified, squeezed, and distorted people and images crowded in front of his eyes, making him dizzy.

Chu Lingdong hugged him: now, and in the future, Chenchen and I belong to you.

Yu Qianli's aging gaze: Hehe, are you okay?

Chu Lingdong pulled his hand to his wet cheek: I can't bear that you fainted again.

Then there was a loud cry of a baby, which seemed to come across from the sky, from far to near, and fell into the water without a sound.

A voice came from afar: He He... He He...

Suddenly, he sat up from the bed and asked: Where is this?Who are you?

The tall man in front of the bed stared at him motionlessly: but when you wake up, you forget.I am Chu Lingdong, and you are Yu He.

At the same time, Chen Lanzhi stepped forward to get to know Yu Tang.

The location of Jieyu Hall has not changed, but the surrounding buildings have been planned several times, demolished and rebuilt.Chen Lanzhi could not arrive smoothly with the impression of 20 years ago.

But the Chinese medicine her son gave her was printed with Xie Yutang's address.

She came here by long-distance bus, and then changed cars twice before arriving here.

Even though the surrounding streets and buildings have changed beyond recognition, Jieyu Hall remains unchanged.

Several big houses surround a small courtyard.There are several cars parked in the courtyard.

It's just that it's spring and summer, and the first time she lived it was winter.

When she came here for the first time, she held eight-year-old Xu An by the hand.At that time, she took her distraught and restless son to every hospital she knew and heard about.

At the beginning, she was worried about money and dared not go to a big hospital, but she spent most of the fee in a small clinic and got nothing.They had no choice but to take Xu An to the big hospital again.But the doctor at the big hospital told her that Xu An's condition can only be completely resolved by surgery.

The amount of surgery is an astronomical figure for her.

When she was desperate, through various channels and rumors, she knew that there was a man named Jie Yutang who specialized in treating difficult and miscellaneous diseases.

Holding on to the last ray of hope, she stepped forward to understand Yu Tang.She was in the middle of the small courtyard, looking at several houses for a long time, and then she confirmed one of them, pulling Xu An to break into it.

At this moment, a middle-aged man in his forties and wearing a tunic came out from inside.

"Excuse me, is Dr. Yu in there?" she asked.

The visitor looked her up and down a few times, "Are you here to see a doctor?"

"Yeah." She quickly put on a smile.

"He is inside, but there are still a dozen people waiting inside. I think you'd better go back and come early tomorrow. Look, what time is it?"

At that time, in order to see a doctor for Xu An, she rented a house in a small county town nearby.

Although it is not far, it takes more than two hours by long-distance bus.She couldn't bear to pay a night's rent to find a place nearby.

"I'll take a look first." Unwilling to give up, she opened the door and looked inside.Sure enough, more than a dozen heads were densely packed on the chairs on both sides.

She was extremely disappointed in her heart and retreated.But he didn't go out, so he pulled Xu An and stood in the small courtyard.

It's the twelfth lunar month, the weather is gloomy, and the yard is also damp and cold.

I don't know how long I stood there, when I saw a person come out from the inside and left the small courtyard.

After five people came out, a middle-aged man in his 50s came out with a teacup.

Although it was cold, the middle-aged man put on a white coat over his sweater, and poured the diluted tea powder under a camellia tree in the yard.

After pouring, she straightened up and was about to leave. When she saw her mother and child, she hesitated and asked, "Are you here to see a doctor?"

She nodded hurriedly.

"What time is it, come back tomorrow."

"We live far away," she said.

"Are you from other places?" the man asked.

She hurriedly said yes again and again.

The man walked over slowly, looked at Xu An, and asked kindly, "Take care of the child."

"Yes yes yes. Are you Doctor Yu?"

The man didn't answer, he took Xu An's hand and took his pulse.

Chen Lanzhi immediately didn't dare to speak, and even breathed out softly, for fear of alarming him.

The man touched Xu An's wrist for a long time before letting it go, and asked kindly: "Little friend, what's your name?"

"Xu An." She hurriedly said for Xu An.The child only knew how to kick the stones under his feet without raising his head.

"how old are you?"

"Eight years old," she said.

The man's expression became even more kind, and he reached out to touch Xu An's head: "Good boy."

This person is Yu Qianli.

Meeting Yu Qianli was one of the few brilliance in Chen Lanzhi's life of suffering.

Yu Qianli told Chen Lanzhi that there is no need to force Xu An's state, just let nature take its course.Since he was born like this, there is a reason for his existence.And what she had to do was to rectify Xu An's situation.

She seems to understand what Yu Qianli said, but Yu Qianli is kind and gentle, and she is willing to believe whatever he says.

According to Xu An's physical condition, Yu Qianli adjusted Chinese medicine for him.

She began to go in and out of Jieyu Hall frequently.

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When Chu Lingdong rushed to the hospital, Yu He was undergoing various pre-operative examinations to confirm the wound.

Chu Lingdong just hurried along with the flat car.

Due to excessive blood loss, Yu He was unconscious.His abdomen had been bandaged to stop the bleeding, but his face was still bloodless, like a white paper.

Chu Lingdong's legs were floating and limp, and he went in and out for various inspections.

Her throat was blocked, and she couldn't even pronounce Yu He's name.

On the contrary, Yu Sheng was relatively calm and composed, and told Chu Lingdong that the filming and inspection were over.

Fang Yi's knife did not cause fatal injuries to Yu He, but it caused three perforations in Yu He's small intestine, requiring immediate surgical suturing.

Only then did Chu Lingdong nod and respond.

It was not until Yu He was pushed into the operating room that Chu Lingdong sat down weakly.

During these incidents, Chu Lingdong frequently felt his own powerlessness and fragility.

Yu He was kidnapped, it was like that when Chenchen gave birth prematurely, and it's still like this this time.

He wanted to give Yu He the best, but with Yu He by his side, he couldn't even guarantee the most basic life safety.

When Yu Sheng finished the formalities and came over, Chu Lingdong was sitting outside the operating room with his elbows propped on his legs, looking a little slumped.

He slowed down, walked over, and sat down beside Chu Lingdong.

"Xiao Xu is fine." Yu Sheng comforted Chu Lingdong.

Chu Lingdong nodded.After a while, "After this incident is over, I want to take their mother and son out of here."

Chu Lingdong said.

Yu Sheng was startled. "Where?"

"Anywhere. Abroad is also fine." Chu Lingdong said.

Yu Sheng knew that this matter had hit Chu Lingdong very hard.

It is true that in the past few years, Chu Lingdong has basically not had a few days of stability.

It used to be Zheng Yu and Chu Qianzi's husband and wife, and this matter finally came to an end, and Fang Yi came again.

Yu Sheng sighed.

Now is not the time for persuasion.

"That woman Fang Yi has been arrested." Yu Sheng said.

But Chu Lingdong didn't care, as if he didn't hear it.

After Fang Yi finished the murder, she stood still from the beginning to the end, witnessing everything.

She couldn't tell what it felt like, but she didn't intend to kill him at first.She just wanted to express her grievances and vent her anger.

Now, my wish has come true.

For a long time she was immersed in a kind of trance.

When the police brought Fang Yi into the police car, she smiled slightly, the corners of her mouth curved gracefully.

Three hours later, Yu He was pushed out of the operating room.Because of excessive blood loss, he still needs to be observed in the intensive care unit for one to two days. After the operation, Yu He was directly pushed into the intensive care unit.

After the operation, the intensive care unit does not allow visits.Chu Lingdong sat outside.

Yu Sheng arranged a room for him to rest in the hospital, but he couldn't sleep at all, so he sat outside the intensive care unit all night.

On the way, Yu Sheng and Du Fei came over once, and Chu Lingdong waved his hand to tell them all to go back.

Du Fei still wanted to stay, but Yu Sheng just pulled him out without saying a word.

When this happened, no one felt more uncomfortable than Chu Lingdong.

Chu Lingdong sat outside, and through the large glass windows, he could see everything in the intensive care unit.

Yu He's lonely hospital bed is like a lonely boat in the large and empty room.Surrounded by various instruments and equipment.

Chu Lingdong looked at it, and felt another sharp pain, as if a piece of his heart had been pulled off.

He didn't dare to inform Yu Qianli that the old man was too old to bear this stimulation.

When Yu He came out from here and could open his eyes and call his name, it would not be too late to inform the old man.

After sitting all night, it was not until early morning that Chu Lingdong fell asleep for a while.I vaguely had some specious dreams.

I dreamed that Yu Hehun came through, when I saw him for the first time.

It's just that he in the dream already knew that this person was Yu He, not Xu An.

Facing Yu He's question, he felt both distressed and funny: You are Yu He, and I am Chu Lingdong, don't you remember?

I woke up suddenly, looked at my watch, and squinted for only 10 minutes.

At eight o'clock in the morning, he was allowed to go in and test for 10 minutes.

Chu Lingdong changed into the isolation gown, put on a mask and a hat, and walked in.

Yu He was still in a comatose state, with water hanging on the back of his hand and various monitoring instruments attached to his body.

Chu Lingdong just stood motionless beside the hospital bed, looking at Yu He who was as thin as a leaf.

I can't say it, it's just stuck in my chest.Congested and stuffy.

He didn't wake up until the medical staff reminded the nurse that the time was up.

After coming out, I asked the medical staff: "Why are you still awake?"

The medical staff explained patiently: "The patient lost a lot of blood and underwent this operation again. It is normal to rest for a day or two."

And told Chu Lingdong not to worry too much.

But it's impossible not to worry.

As long as Yu He doesn't open his eyes, his heart can't be put back into his chest.

After coming out of the intensive care unit, Chu Lingdong went to the next room to sleep for a while.No one dared to disturb him.

After waking up, he called Wang Lirong, asked about Chenchen's situation, and was about to hang up.

Wang Lirong asked: "When will Mr. Xu come back? Didn't you book a ticket to go abroad today?"

Chu Lingdong didn't answer either, and was about to hang up the phone in a state of upset.

Wang Lirong suddenly thought of something again: "Mr. Chu, the shirt that Mr. Xu ordered for you was delivered yesterday. Can I give you some water?"

Chu Lingdong was silent for a while, and asked, "What color?"

Wang Lirong said happily at the other end: "Water red, Mr. Chu must look young when he wears it."

Chu Lingdong tugged at the corner of his mouth, but he didn't laugh.

Yu Sheng accompanied Wu Ruanruan over again, and could only look at Yu He's condition through the glass window.

I asked about the situation of the medical staff, and the medical staff still replied routinely that the patient's condition is stable and everything is normal.

A day flies by, and it is only a day for this intensive care unit.

At eight o'clock in the morning the next day, Chu Lingdong entered the intensive care unit again, and only then did he feel relieved.

Yu He closed his eyes tightly and breathed steadily.Although his face was sallow, it was not as pale as yesterday.

"Hehe..." Chu Lingdong softly called Yu He's name.

He finally called out the name stuck in his chest.

The visiting time was only 15 minutes, so Chu Lingdong tried to talk to Yu He as much as possible.

"After you wake up, let's take Chenchen and leave here, okay? Which city do you like? Which country? Anywhere is fine. I know you don't want to part with grandpa, so let's pick him up together, knowing that you also don't want to part with your job, I I will rebuild a Jieyu Hall for you..."

For so many years, he has worked tirelessly for the Chu family and has done his duty.On the one hand, it means to repay the kindness of adoptive parents, and on the other hand, as an indomitable man, he also wants to make a career change.

But now, Chu Lingdong is willing to abandon all of this, just to exchange for a peaceful and prosperous world between him and Yu He.

The blueprint drawn by Chu Lingdong made him also feel emotional, his voice was suffocated, and he raised his hand unconsciously, wanting to touch Yu He's cheek.

But when I moved my hand, I realized that I was wearing a thick isolation gown.

Feeling lost, and the visiting time has come.

Chu Lingdong yelled again unwillingly: "Hehe..."

At this moment, Yu He's eyelashes trembled suddenly, and Chu Lingdong's heartbeat accelerated suddenly, as if the heart was about to jump out of his chest.

Chu Lingdong's breathing was unsteady, and he said in a low and eager voice: "Hehe, I'm here."

The first voice he wanted Yu He to hear was his own call, and the first person he saw was his own appearance.

"Hehe..." he trembled.

Yu He slowly opened his eyes.With a row of fine eyelashes, those eyes carried an indescribable ironic smile.

Chu Lingdong's heart, which was beating violently due to excitement just now, fell silent like dead silence.

The blood then coagulated.

His whole body seemed to be dead.

After an unknown amount of time, Chu Lingdong took a deep, deep breath, and his usual indifference and composure returned to his face.

.......

Half a month later, Chu Lingdong entered the Jie Yu Hall.Yu Qianli vacated Yu He's room and gave it to Chu Lingdong.

Chu Lingdong was taking care of Lan Yuan and Xie Yutang.Usually after watching Chenchen there, I went to Jieyutang at night.

Yu Qianli saw that he was working too hard, so he cleaned up Yu He's room, so he didn't have to go back when it was late.

After the Xu An incident was over, Chu Lingdong once planned to bring Yu He back to Yu Lanyuan, and let him take care of him.

But Yu Qianli refused.

Yu He's care requires not only nurses and doctors, but also acupuncture and moxibustion performed by him every day.

What Yu Qianli said was the objective truth, Chu Lingdong had no choice but to give up.

The only change was that Yu He moved from Yu Qianli's room to Chu Lingdong's current room.

Half a month has passed since Fang Yi's incident, and Yu He is still in a deep sleep like before.

But Chu Lingdong was not in a hurry.He has a lifetime of patience, and a lifetime of years, to wait for him.

He also believed that Yu He would not let him wait with Chen Chen for so long.