middle aged

When he woke up the next morning, Mo Fanfan found that he was the only one left in the apartment. If it wasn't for the soreness all over his body, especially the swelling feeling in the unspeakable part, he might really have thought he was having a dream.Looking at the mobile phone next to the bed, it was already 08:30 in the morning.Fortunately, there was no class on Monday morning, otherwise, given his current physical condition, he would be really restless.

A small yellow sticky note was pressed under the small alarm clock by the bed, and Qi Yunze's handwriting that hadn't changed for many years was vividly written on the paper: "I'm going to work first, there's cooked millet porridge and steamed eggs in the kitchen, I'll go after I'm done eating." Go to class." Mo Pingfan put a warm smile on the corner of his mouth, and put the note back on the bedside table. Although his waist was still sore and his legs hurt, he still managed to get out of bed, opened the curtains of the small apartment, and a ray of warm sunlight shot down When he came in, he was wearing white home clothes, leaning against the railing by the window, holding hot millet porridge in his hand, the sun was so beautiful, it shone on him like a dazzling oil painting from the Renaissance, bright but faintly Gleaming with unreal beauty...

After that day, Mo Fanfan still lived according to his daily schedule in the laboratory, classroom, and apartment. Unlike the men and women who were in love in the university, the matter of falling in love seemed to have no effect on him. It's just that every early morning and every evening, he would receive a call from Qi Yunze for about half an hour, chatting about a day's life and trivial matters at work.He also knew that that half an hour was the time Qi Yunze drove to and from get off work.What's more, there are WeChat chats that pop up occasionally throughout the day, funny little videos shared, funny little jokes, and some words of concern about my own life.

Every weekend, Qi Yunze would come to see him in the small apartment, and Mo Pingfan also knew that this was the time he squeezed out of sending Qi Han to learn Taekwondo. In just two hours, the two of them often just lingered on the bed It was over, and when Qi Yunze left, he would always think about helping him prepare lunch.

Mo Pingfan really wanted Qi Yunze to stay for lunch, but he never opened his mouth, because even if he did, what was waiting for him was only a sorry face.

Mo Pingfan talked about this deformed love, but he was quite satisfied, although he was a little lonely when he fell asleep alone in the dead of night, although he felt a little sad every time he looked at his back, although he still wanted to see him every day and eat together live together.But things have come to this point, and it is really rare to have the current relationship. Mo Fanfan feels that he can be satisfied in this little love.

This relationship didn't last long, and Mo Pingfan told Matsumoto that he thought he would make a fuss on the other side of the phone, but there was no change on the tight face that had remained unchanged for thousands of years.

"Xiaofan, since the last time we met you didn't want to go back to Japan with me, I have a hunch that the two of you will come together to some extent."

"...How did you know then?"

"You and him were considered first love at that time. You remember so deeply, unless he is a prodigal, he will always have a place for you in his heart. So, as long as you have the opportunity to be alone together, I I feel that it may be difficult for you to control yourself."

"...Brother, you..."

"Don't talk, let me ask you, have you guys slept?"

Mo Pingfan blushed and said nothing

But Matsumoto on the other side can see clearly

"Hey..., you, you have to push yourself into the fire pit, why bother, Xiaofan, you guys...do you know how difficult this road is?"

"He treats me very well. He calls me every day. He also cares about me very much. He comes to see me once a week..." Mo Fanfan seemed to be defending Qi Yunze, but when he made the statement, he could only Only when you hide from your family can you come to see your own truth.

"Xiaofan, you probably won't be able to listen to what senior brother is telling you now, but you should calm down and think about it carefully, you know him well, will he give up his children?"

"..." Mo Pingfan stopped talking.

"If he won't give up on his children, then he can only give up on you! If you don't leave now, the more time passes, the more you will be hurt. Do you have to torture yourself until you are covered in bruises?!"

"Brother...don't say it." Mo Fanfan choked up a little: "I know what you said, but I just can't control myself. For more than ten years, even if there is someone by my side, I feel lonely. Only When I was with him, I felt better, I really can't control so much now, I really have had enough of the old days..."

"..." Matsumoto on the other side of the phone stopped talking, and was silent for a long time, "You, you can do it yourself. If you really can't make it through, go back to Japan. I can't do anything for you. When you come back, at least I can give you something. A place to cry."

"Thank you...brother."

"I love you so much, even if there is an abyss in front of me, I will jump into it without hesitation, because the days without you are more terrifying than the abyss." On the first snow day of this year, Mo Fanfan wrote in his diary After writing such a sentence, the unquestionable persistence is revealed in the handsome handwriting.In the small apartment, it was so quiet that even a needle could be heard falling. Mo Fanfan sat alone on the sofa, put down his diary, and looked at the snowflakes slowly falling outside the window.

After the snow fell all night, the whole school turned white. On Sunday morning, Mo Fanfan opened the window of the small apartment and looked at everything covered in silver in front of him, as well as the downstairs, which was wrapped like a snowball. people.

The man looked up at the window of the small apartment, and happened to meet Mo Fanfan's eyes. He raised the steamed bun fried dough stick spicy soup in his hand like a child, and smiled proudly at the corner of his mouth as if showing off. Pingfan waved at him, and the man trotted to the door of the unit. After a while, Mo Pingfan heard a knock on the door.

"Da da, breakfast." Qi Yunze held the freshly baked breakfast from the school's early shop in his hand, like a child showing off, grinning at Mo Fanfan.

"Come in, it's freezing outside."

Qi Yunze entered the house, took off his coat, and walked to the kitchen familiarly.

"Why are you here so early today?" Leaning against the kitchen door, Mo Fanfan liked to watch the back of this man busy in the kitchen the most.

"It's snowing, Xiaohan's Taekwondo class is suspended once, and I came here early in the morning."

"How did you drive here with such thick snow?"

"Drive slowly, it's not impossible to drive."

With such a thick snow, the teachers of interest classes have suspended classes for the children. Qi Yunze said it was easy, but it took a lot of effort to drive this way.And coming here so early, it probably wasn't even dawn when I went out.Mo Pingfan thought about it.

The man poured the hot and spicy soup from the plastic bag into the pot, turned on the gas stove, and when the hot and spicy soup was warmed up, he added two more poached eggs in it.

"The proprietress of your school's breakfast shop is very good at business. Look at the few traces of egg whites floating in this hot and spicy soup. It's ashamed to say that there are eggs." Qi Yunze said while stirring the hot and spicy soup in the pot. .

"The stores in the school are not cheap, and the materials will be less."

"It is estimated that the logistics department of your school has a lot of greed."

"Who knows?" After receiving the hot and spicy soup, Mo Fanfan took the buns out of the microwave and brought them to the small tea table in the living room.

"After dinner, let's go for a walk in the school." Qi Yunze said while chewing the buns

"It's so cold, are you sure you want to go out?"

"It's rare for the first snow to fall so heavily. Go out and take pictures of the snow scene. How can the two elders freeze?"

Mo Fanfan thought about it, so after finishing his meal, he took out his army green long down jacket, put on the scarf hanging on the hanger in the entrance, changed his shoes, and planned to go out.

"Wait," Qi Yunze took off the gray and white cashmere scarf around his neck, and put it around Mo Pingfan's neck, "This one is warmer." After speaking, he hung the scarf left by Teru Matsumoto back on the clothes rack.Pulling Mo Fanfan out the door.

This was originally at 08:30 on Sunday morning, and with the snow falling all night, the students of Z University rarely came out for activities at this time. The school, which was originally lively, became quiet under the snow. ,grace.The snow scene was pleasant, and Qi Yunze was walking and taking pictures with his mobile phone. His only regret was that he forgot to bring his SLR camera out from home.The flawless snow scene on the phone is unbelievably beautiful, but for Qi Yunze, no matter how beautiful the snow scene is, it can't compare to the person in the camera that makes him worry.The side face of him looking up at the scenery, the smile of him stepping on the snow with his head down, the gentle expression in the corners of his eyes when he looked at himself.When Mo Pingfan didn't know, Qi Yunze recorded his beauty with the lens of his mobile phone, and then secretly put it in the small encrypted photo album in the mobile phone, so no one knew about it.

"Bang..." After looking down at the phone for just a few seconds, a snowball hit him.

Looking up, the instigator was gloating at him with a snowball in his hand, "Bang..." Another snowball hit him.Qi Yunze immediately squatted on the ground, rolled a snowball on the ground, and fought back.

"Haha, I can't hit me." Mo Pingfan just rejoiced when a snowball the size of a fist appeared in front of his eyes again.

"Ha..." Mo Fanfan dodged sideways, and the snowball flew out, brushing his right cheek.

"Hey, you fouled, why did you hit two in a row?"

"Haha, who stipulated that this cannot be done."

Seeing the snowballs flying over one after another, Mo Fanfan hurriedly hid behind a tree beside him, "Swish, swish," several snowballs flew over the tree trunk one after another. Mo Fanfan squatted down and used the The snow accumulated a huge snowball.Just waiting for Qi Yunze's snowball attack to be a little lighter.Mo Fanfan turned around from behind the tree with the snowball wrapped in both hands, "Little boy, let's see if I don't blow you away."

Hey?What about people?

There was a vast expanse of white in front of him, and Qi Yunze's figure didn't know where to go.

"Bang..." After a muffled sound, Mo Fanfan only felt the tree above his head shake twice, and then, the snow that had accumulated on the tree all night fell down.In an instant, his body was covered with snow.

"Hahaha, living little snowman"

"You...look I won't kill you!" With his feet buried in the snowdrift, Mo Fanfan threw the snowball hard at Qi Yunze who was screaming. How could he have thought that Mo Fanfan would have such a must-have in his hand after his trick succeeded? Killing technique, when he was smiling proudly, a big snowball flew towards his face, and "pa..." hit the target.The target then falls to the ground.Mo Fanfan avenged the ambush, pulled out his foot forcefully, pulled himself out of the snowdrift, and walked to the guy who was hit by his snowball.

"Get up and go home." He held out his hand

"..." Qi Yunze lay on the ground, seeing that he was silent, stretched out his right hand to grab Mo Pingfan's hand, exerting a little force.Mo Fanfan staggered and threw himself on Qi Yunze.

The familiar face is close at hand, and the soft lips are within reach.The four eyes met, all the worries and obsessions were silent.