middle aged

Mo Pingfan left, and the plane in the afternoon before the Mid-Autumn Festival took away his people and Qi Yunze's soul.

In the evening of late autumn, when the sky was getting dark, Qi Yunze squatted on the curbstone of the flower bed, facing the teachers' apartment of Z University, with a cigarette in his hand, and let it burn quietly. At six or seven o'clock, the apartment building Warm yellow lights lit up inside, but the countless windows that I had memorized by heart were always dark.

Qi Yunze couldn't remember how many times he came here after work, knowing that the person was not there, but he still wanted to come and have a look.A year ago, he was holding a cigarette like this, watching in the car, looking at the shadow of the man in front of the window, he seemed to be able to smell the refreshing fragrance of the man.

Mo Pingfan has been away for two months, and Mo Hua's condition is worse than expected, and he doesn't even have time to go back to China to deal with the remaining affairs here.Japan's medical technology was not enough to extend his father's life for another year, so Mo Fanfan tried his best to send Mo Hua to the United States for treatment.And these, Qi Yunze didn't know.

Since he left, Qi Yunze wanted to pick up his phone countless times, dial his WeChat, and ask him how things are going, but often in the end, he couldn't even send a greeting.

After smoking the last cigarette in his hand, Qi Yunze locked the blank mobile phone screen, put it back into his trousers pocket, pressed the cigarette butt on the ground, and threw it into the trash can beside him. He straightened up and rubbed the two Calf numb from squatting for a long time.But when he looked up, he saw a familiar figure.

The child's tall and strong appearance stood out in the crowd of students. He stopped at the downstairs of the apartment building, and seemed to be counting something with his right hand. Qi Yunze knew that he was also checking to see if the lights were on in the dark room.Qi Yunze smiled, turned around and walked towards the parking lot at the school gate, without looking at the student any more.

After Mo Pingfan left, it was good to keep everything about him in his memory. As for the rest, Qi Yunze didn't want to care too much.After all, life must continue, and people must continue to live.

Qi Yunze felt that his living conditions might not change for many years. However, two years later, when Xiaoman took out a signed divorce agreement, he was completely messed up.

"Are you kidding me?"

"No……"

"why?"

"...Don't you realize that the two of us have no communication at all now?" Xiaoman sat on the other side of the dining table, she had just comforted the two children to sleep, her eyes were bloodshot, and she looked extremely tired up.

"It's not been a day or two since I had this idea, and the life I want now is not what I want." She said

"Heh..." Qi Yunze smiled wryly, the current life is what he wants again.

"The two of us have known each other since we met on a blind date. Everything is planned. We get married, have children, and raise children. Everyone looks at us and thinks that our family is very happy. But Yunze, think about it carefully. Think, you are with me, are you happy? You ask your own heart, is this really the day you want?"

"But what about the child?" Qi Yunze's voice was hoarse, but he didn't struggle.

"Huh..., this is the state between us. We have no communication except for the bonds of our children." A tear dripped from the corner of Xiao Man's eyes, but she quietly wiped it away: "This kind of love that is trapped in marriage I'm really fed up with the feeling in here! I don't want to be planned, I don't want to live in such a cage again! All these years with you, Qi Yunze, tell your conscience, have you really loved me? "The way the woman clenched her fists but didn't dare to cry loudly made people feel distressed, but Qi Yunze couldn't even hug her.

Ever loved?It seems not. This woman seemed to be the most suitable marriage candidate who appeared beside him at that time. He got married as if obeying the arrangement of fate, and then had a child.As for love, his heart had already been given to others, and there was no room for it.

Xiaoman had cried enough, and wiped away the tears on his own. Qi Yunze sat across from her and looked at her, and suddenly realized that he hadn't looked at his wife carefully for a long time. The nasolabial folds look heavier, and the pair of delicate little hands in the past now look red, swollen and rough, and the eyes, the soft eyes in the past, have completely changed, becoming strong and resolute. Qi Yunze couldn't recognize it at all.

"Sign it, I've made up my mind, instead of being trapped in this siege, I'd rather go out by myself. I've been too depressed these years, you understand, because you've been as depressed as I am."

"...You go to rest first, let me think about it." Qi Yunze slightly trembled as his fingers lightly pressed on the divorce agreement.

"..." Xiao Man wanted to say something more, but seeing Qi Yunze's ashen complexion, she didn't want to say a word, and went to the bedroom and closed the door. She was already used to falling asleep alone.

"Pa..." Qi Yunze lit a cigarette, and after taking a deep breath into his lungs, he felt a little clearer in his head.Usually he hardly smokes in the living room for the sake of his children, but now, he can't help it.

Thinking about this nearly ten-year marriage, apart from the two children, there are not many good pictures left. The communication between him and his wife has become less and less. In the past two years, it has almost reached the point where there is nothing to say. When not at home, this home is like an ice hole, people shivering from the cold, and he and Xiaoman seem to be separated by a thick glass wall, they can see each other, but it is always difficult to integrate into each other world.But his wife is much braver than herself, at least she has the courage to choose the life she wants.

At three o'clock in the morning, after smoking half a pack of cigarettes, Qi Yunze finally picked up the pen on one side and wrote his name on the divorce agreement in one go.

When going through the divorce procedures at the Civil Affairs Bureau, the two of them may be the most peaceful couple. When waiting in line, those couples who were crying and arguing, in fact, not many divorced, but like them In this way, there was no dispute at all, but one by one they all took out the red book.

"My child is young, it's better to follow you than to follow me." Qi Yunze looked down at Lu Yashi, Xiaoman wanted the custody of the two children, although he was reluctant, he agreed: "You are still living in that house, Most of the family’s money is also left to you, and the two children spend a lot, and I will send money to you on time every month.” At the alley in front of the Civil Affairs Bureau, Qi Yunze whispered to Xiaoman: “We are divorced. Let’s talk to them slowly about the matter, Qi Han has grown up, it’s easier to handle, Beibei may not be able to accept it for a while, if you need anything, please call me in time. I will visit them often.” His eyes glowed There was a burst of mist, and the tip of his nose was a little sore. Thinking of his little daughter, his heart always twitched.

"What are you going to do next?" Xiaoman asked, clutching the red notebook tightly.

"……I do not know either."

"You told your parents... have your parents told you?"

"Not yet, take your time. The old couple are getting older. I'm afraid I'm too anxious to speak, and the two of them can't bear it."

"Where will you live in the future?"

"Isn't there a small apartment next to the company? My parents bought it for investment in the early years. It was vacant for a long time after the previous tenant stopped renting it. Let me settle down there first. I will pack my things in the past two days. If it's convenient, you can take the child to your parents' house in the next two days."

"...Okay." Xiaoman raised his head and looked at Qi Yunze. Although she didn't love him, he was also the man who gave birth to two children with her. He was divorced, although he was relieved to see him. Looking haggard, Xiaoman also felt a kind of unexplainable distress in his heart.

"Take care of yourself...I'm leaving" Xiaoman said

"Hmm..." Qi Yunze reached out to stop a taxi, and after sending Xiao Man away, he looked at the red book in his hand, the words "divorce certificate" gilded on the book seemed extremely ironic at the moment.For some reason, the most golden ten years of his life were wasted by him like this.Alone at this age, I don't know whether it is freedom or misery.

Qi Yunze walked slowly along the side of the road. Around the Civil Affairs Bureau, there were many young couples who just got married and came out hand in hand, and there were also lonely middle-aged divorcees like him.

"I'm sorry, I really can't go on living these days. I've never been a person who likes to settle down. You have changed too much before and after marriage. If you want me to live like this for the rest of my life, I'd rather die!" In the distance, a couple who just came out of the Civil Affairs Bureau were still arguing. The woman's voice sounded familiar, but Qi Yunze couldn't think of who it was for a while.

"Okay, look at your 36-year-old woman. Who would want you without me? I'm afraid of you. It's just right to break up with you. There are a lot of young girls waiting for me. Also, put the wedding Return all the betrothal gifts!" The appearance of the man begging for money in the street was so ugly that Qi Yunze couldn't help but take a second look.

"Hmph, just pay it back. Your current appearance makes me feel sick. Divorcing you is the wisest choice I have made in these years."

"You stinky bitch!" The man saw that he was not a good person at first glance, and under the anger, he raised his hand on the street and was about to hit someone.

But that woman had a tough personality. Seeing that the man was about to make a move, she kicked the man between his legs. Baozi, kneeling on the street while clutching his unspeakable parts, Qi Yunze couldn't help swallowing, and subconsciously clamped his thighs.

"Ah...damn, you shrew!" The man was wailing and cursing on the side of the street, but the woman, as if she didn't care about the pointing eyes of passers-by, spat at the man, turned around and left.

When she turned around, Qi Yunze could see clearly that it was none other than his old classmate for many years - Ouyang Xiaoxiao.

To be able to meet an "ex-lover" after a divorce, Qi Yunze felt that he should buy a lottery ticket today.

The author has something to say:

This article will end tomorrow.This is the author's first time writing an article, and the structure of the writing style is indeed very sloppy.However, although this subject matter is very cold, it can be regarded as the author's true love. In terms of material life, modern people's lives are indeed much richer, but in the spiritual world, it is difficult to have the long-term love of the pen-and-paper era.Many marriages come together not because of love, but because of fit.

In fact, when I first sketched the character of Xiaoman, I wanted to write about the self-breakthrough of a woman trapped in a besieged city in her married life.However, because her skill is really not good enough, the description about her is indeed lacking a lot.

Anyway, thank you to those who have seen this article, who can accompany the author to finish the article, and bow deeply to all the little cuties who have read my article, thank you!