middle aged

In the coffee shop not far from the Civil Affairs Bureau, Qi Yunze never expected to sit with Ouyang Xiaoxiao again under such circumstances.

"What a coincidence...you are also divorced." Ouyang said with a smile, but there was a burst of relief between his brows.

"Yes." Qi Yunze rubbed the center of his brows, but he could only smile wryly. He didn't feel the sense of relief without any burden at all.

"Who suggested it?"

"Xiao Man, just two days ago, she said that married life is too depressing, not what she thought it would be."

"Oh, it's the same as me. It seems that I have been wrong about her."

"Huh?" Qi Yunze looked at Ouyang Xiaoxiao suspiciously, but couldn't figure out what she wanted to say.

"I haven't seen her a few times, and I haven't spoken much, but she looks like a gentle daughter-in-law. I don't know that there is another world hidden in her heart."

"..." Qi Yunze was speechless. Indeed, after more than ten years of marriage, he never expected that Xiaoman's heart would become so strong when he couldn't see it.

"I always thought that you would get divorced for another reason. It seems that I was thinking too much." Ouyang Xiaoxiao lowered her head and smiled, brushing a strand of long hair on the side of her face.

"what do you mean?"

"That person who is far away in Japan, you won't forget him so soon." Picking up the latte in front of him, Ouyang unpacked another bag of sugar cubes and put it in, stirring slowly with a small spoon.But he didn't even look at Qi Yunze.

"how do you know!"

"Oh, by the way, I forgot to tell you that he is now in the United States, and his father has just passed away, so he may not be in a good condition." After taking a sip of the coffee in front of him, Ouyang's voice was calm without any ripples, It's like just describing whether this cup of coffee is good or not.

"As for how I know..., you, I actually knew it when I was a teenager." Ouyang put down the coffee in his hand, his eyes finally looked at Qi Yunze, the man's face was mixed with surprise, nervousness, and even a little panic The look made her feel helpless, but a little ridiculous.

How sad it would be for a person who is clearly in love but dare not take that step, and who is trapped in a narrow room because of other people's eyes.

"When I was in school, when there was an accident at his house, the night the three of you went to see him, I was actually there too. I saw clearly what happened after you pulled him into the corner from the entrance of the alley next to him. That night, I just wanted to see him, but I didn't know that I bumped into him." Ouyang said calmly, looking at Qi Yunze all the time, but at this moment he kept his head down, clenched fists, somewhat Trembling slightly.

"Later he left. I know what you're thinking. At that time, I wouldn't deliberately pester you." Ouyang continued, his rolling eyes filled with memories: "I don't know that he will come back again, Li When Wei got married, I knew from the way you looked at him that you still couldn't forget him. Seriously, Qi Yunze, when you look at your wife, it's never like that, like looking at a rare treasure. I'm afraid that others will take a second look."

"But...!" Qi Yunze finally raised his head, his tightly clenched hands were intertwined and rubbed repeatedly.

"But what?"

"Forget it, you won't understand."

"Heh" Ouyang sneered: "Sure enough, you still haven't changed after all these years."

"..."

"You have been like an old pedant since you were a child. Do you think that you need to carry everything in this world? But seriously, if you can't even carry your own life, how can you carry other people's lives? You clearly love Look at him, but you dare not take that step. You can give him too little sense of security, and, you know, Mo Fanfan has always been a person who is too thoughtful. The two of you As long as another person is brave enough, it won't be what it is now."

"But... I still have two children after all."

"So what? What era is it now? I have a lot of divorced friends around me, and the children are still well-raised. In the married life of our parents' generation, divorce seemed to be like the sky falling. The same, but here we are, how many people still care? As long as you love them and take good care of them, how much impact can divorce or not divorce have on children? What's more, if the husband and wife have no love, the children will How do you learn to love others?" Ouyang finished speaking in one breath, and Qi Yunze, who spoke extremely fast, couldn't utter a word.

Qi Yunze felt that he was really old, not only physically, but also mentally. He was indeed like those old gentlemen who shook their heads in TV dramas, using the so-called "normal" life to lock himself in a cage. And bit by bit the cage was sealed tightly.

"What's more, you are divorced now... Seriously, your wife is braver than you." Ouyang froze slightly, as if he was thinking about something: "I still keep in touch with Mo Pingfan intermittently. I can tell you how you are doing anytime." After saying that, she got up and was ready to leave.

"Yunze, after pestering him for so long, are you really willing to let him go like this?" These were the last words Ouyang Xiaoxiao left before leaving.

Qi Yunze stayed alone in the coffee shop, sitting in the booth by the window, looking sideways at the people coming and going outside the window, slowly, the picture in front of him was gradually confused into a ball in his mind, and it resurfaced, It turned out to be the bits and pieces of his life in the past few decades.

He is 37 years old this year, and most of his best years have already passed. After wasting so many years in the years, he finally ended up in this situation of nothing.Qi Yunze looked at his own shadow on the polished and reflective glass wall, bloodshot eyes, unshaven face, and hair that was too messy to trim like a chicken coop. He suddenly thought of himself when he was 20 years old, immature and innocent, but When he dared to fight hard, he once hoped to make a career. He always believed that he had this ability, and he was sure that he would find Mo Fanfan, and he always believed that they had this fate.But now, more than ten years have passed, and he finally came to such an ending.

But for such an ending, besides himself, who else is to blame.Maybe his life should be changed to a different way of life.