bear's daughter-in-law

Chapter 37

"What's the matter, what's the matter?" He hurriedly ran over and picked me up and put me on the bed, "Why did you get off the ground, didn't you just go to the toilet, and you still have to go?"

I didn't care about my blushing and heartbeat, I grabbed his arm and didn't let go, so that he could stay with me instead of chatting with others.

"Huh? Talk, do you want to drink water? Or do you want to eat something?"

Damn it, I'm usually so clever, wishing I would take the initiative to lean over you and cling to you when I was far away from you, but this time I took the initiative to put it in my arms, and even pretended to be serious, it's really incomprehensible.

I pushed him away and yelled back angrily, "Don't worry about it."

"What's the matter with you, why don't you feel uncomfortable and tell me."

"It's nothing, you go out." I pulled the quilt and lay down, turned my back and ignored him.

He stood for a while without saying anything, and walked out silently.

It can't be said that I don't understand him more and more, but that I can't accept myself more and more.

I really hate myself like this.

This may be the rhythm of "work" that people often say. In fact, I don't want to be like this, but I can't control it. There is fire forward and water behind, and now I just can't stay in place.

This kind of mood is like a raging fire burning in my heart, and sometimes a little rain will rain down, but it can't extinguish the raging flame at all.

Water and fire are incompatible, fighting each other.

Do you really want to believe in the matter of love for a long time?

Or is it that I have this thing attached to me.

I tossed and smashed the bed with a bang, and my feet hurt, but I couldn't sleep. I got up again, slowly moved to the door, opened the door gently, and saw that the light had disappeared, and the sofa was empty. of.

I panicked, did I drive him away again with my psychotic approach? Since when did he become so fragile? Isn’t it just a little angry tone? Can't take it anymore?

I dragged a broken leg and jumped out the door, turned on the light in the living room and searched around, no one, no parents' room, no balcony, no kitchen, and left again?

are you a ghostAlways come and go without a trace.

Are you a dead person? If you really want to leave, won’t you say hello? If I can eat it, what can you do? Are you so afraid of me? Am I so unreasonable?

Go away, don't come to me again, look for me, and never see you again.

This time I will completely let you bye, get out of my world completely, don't fucking harass me again, after messing with me, then fucking go away, what kind of man, you big bastard.

I sat on the ground blankly, swore never to see him again, and scolded him in my heart, maybe such a ruthless person was playing tricks on me.

What likes me, what I am yours, what must chase me, it’s all bullshit, I just giggled at my phone before, maybe I’m going out to mess around, such a person, it’s not worth me to think about it, if it’s true Still can't adapt to this world.

It's better to go back, go back to the world I am familiar with, where I still have my work and study, and...my...love.

Ran Meng, I'm sorry, I always think of you at such times. If you knew that I am such a person, you would definitely not want to talk to me anymore. Even I hate myself, let alone others.

I didn't sleep much that night. My phone was next to my pillow. It wasn't on, and I didn't dial it out. Looking back at the impulsive temperature that day, I still feel like stirring in my heart. Yes, it's just impulsive. There's nothing to worry about. What's so memorable, don't men always think in that way, and he has done it before, so what can I not forgive.

The unforgivable is myself.

As the sun rose, my whole back hurt from not sleeping well. I opened the door to go to the toilet and found a figure suddenly in the kitchen.

Is it my eyesight?

Still hallucinating.

Didn't he leave, why did he come back, when did he come back, and how did he get in?Are you really a ghost, you can walk through walls.

I jumped over excitedly and almost fell, "You...you..."

He put down the bowl in his hand and came to support me, tiredness and thick dark circles appeared on his face, "Slow down, why did you wake up so early, it's only seven o'clock, come, sit here first." Help me to sit on the sofa Down, holding his hand, breathing his breath, you know it's true.

"Aren't you... gone?" She kept staring at him, lest he would disappear again in the next second, completely forgetting the oath she made before.

"Grandma was hospitalized for high blood pressure and angina pectoris last night. Mom called me and told me to come over. She didn't tell you because she didn't want to disturb your sleep." Otherwise, he looked so bad, it turned out that he didn't sleep all night.

"How is grandma, are you okay?" I was also a little anxious, because I had never seen him with such a dignified expression.

"The blood pressure has temporarily stabilized, and angina pectoris is an old problem. I have to stay in the hospital for a few days for observation."

"What's going on, why did you suddenly get sick?"

"Hey, when people get old, they will get sick more often. In addition to the overnutrition they eat during the New Year, blood pressure will rise all of a sudden," he said, getting up and going to the kitchen. "Don't worry, it will be fine soon, my mother is there Look at it, I just ran over to get you something to eat, oh, I took your key and put it on the coffee table, you can come and eat after washing, I have to go to the hospital in a while, and I have to do a color Doppler ultrasound today , my mother can't accompany her when she has shifts, so I can only go."

"Can you do it alone?" Now that you live in a hospital, you know best. There are no three or four people, and you can't run away at all. There are no hospitals with as many people, and there are queues at every window.

He brought out the porridge and fried an egg, "And my dad, my second uncle has gone to his father-in-law's house, and I think he can come back today. I won't be so busy when there are more people, you alone Don't move around at home. I will put all the things you need in front of you in a while. It is very dangerous for you to jump on one leg like this. I can't stand the computer, my eyes can't bear it, I'll come here as soon as I have free time..."

He babbled a lot like a Tang monk, giving instructions while he was busy. For the first time, I felt that this kind of nagging was actually quite good. My heart was sweet and at ease, just like my father always complained about my mother's words Many, but the eyes and the corners of the mouth can't hide the love for his mother, and suddenly one day without such trivial words, he is still not used to it.

"Don't worry about me. I don't feel so much pain today. Besides, when my parents come back today, you will take good care of grandma in the hospital so that uncle and aunt won't be too tired." I don't want him to be too tired, although I still have to I don't know which side my heart is facing, but after all, he has no obligation to take care of me like this.

"Yangyang..." He came over again and grabbed my hand, "Believe me, I am not a person who is easy to change, nor is I easy to compromise. I don't care about the outside world, what is the vision, what is the world, I only care about you , I know you can't fix your heart now, but I believe there will be a day when you will tell me 'you are in love with me', hehe, maybe I am too confident, but I believe in myself like this The feeling, I love you, Yangyang."

The heat from the corners of his lips almost touched my tear glands. Although this is not the first time he has said such a confession, it sounds like it has some ominous meaning today.

Could it be that grandma was hospitalized because of this incident?

I didn't want to make him more worried, so I kept my doubts to myself.

This kiss was very short. When I opened my eyes, he was already changing his shoes.

"Yu Zisheng, I might..."

"Don't tell me yet, and don't tell me at this juncture. Let's talk about it after my family affairs are settled, Yangyang, remember what I said, I love you."

The sound of the door closing with a 'bang' was like an explosion of the earth, clearly separating the two sides.

Yu Zisheng, I might... fall in love with you.