bear's daughter-in-law

Chapter 39

"Where are you?" I couldn't hold back my low tone.

"In the hospital, grandma will be discharged tomorrow. I will be able to see you tomorrow for the last injection today. Do your feet still hurt these days?" Yu Zisheng's tone was as usual, except for some Except for fatigue, everything is well hidden.

I feel guilty for his concern, I can't do anything for him, I can't help anything, and I can't be a big tree for him to lean on. Even if he started everything first, how could it have nothing to do with me.

"Go to work the day after tomorrow, won't you come over tomorrow?" I asked him deliberately to see what he said.

"An office, the management is not so strict, and there is nothing to do just after the new year. Let me tell my uncle that I want to go with you a few days later. You go on the tenth day, right?"

"Yeah." I replied almost inaudibly, but he still wanted to hide it from me.

"Then I'll walk with you on the tenth day of the lunar new year. I have a companion who can help you carry things. Anyway, it won't be a few days late. It's okay. Your feet are not completely healed yet. You can't walk too much. If you are tired, just walk Rest, is the swelling gone?" I can imagine his concerned eyes and gentle caress on the other end of the phone, even though my minor illness is nothing at all, he still treats it as a major matter and is extremely nervous .

What should I say about you?

"Well, it's all gone. Is grandma in a good state of mind?"

"It's not bad. The old lady has a good foundation. She can recover after a few days of rest and eat some light food."

The body can be adjusted, but the heart can be adjusted, it must be very sad, the grandson who was brought up by himself is gay, and the old neighbor has nowhere to put his old face when he finds out.

"Yu Zisheng, I..." I miss you a little bit, the words stuck in my throat.

"What's the matter, Yangyang, what do you want to say?"

"Uh, let's make an appointment on the tenth day of the lunar new year. I'll book tickets now." I couldn't continue.

"You don't need to make an order, let me come, you take good care of your illness, Yangyang, we will meet tomorrow, wait for me at home."

"it is good."

It can be said that since I met him, I have been struggling in entanglement. I can't do Chu Ran's self-willed and self-willed, and I can't follow Yu Zisheng's calmness and integrity. Yes, I admit, I have always been cowardly and timid. .

These days I also secretly checked the content about homosexuality on the Internet. Most of them are born, only a small part are twins who have been bent, and there are some people like me who are in the wandering stage. what kind of person.

This is the most painful part.

Since the kiss, Ran Meng appeared in my mind less and less often. If it weren't for the occasional WeChat, I would have almost completely forgotten her. Thinking of this, firstly, I feel sorry for her, and secondly, I am also sorry Senior sister's kindness to me.

If he was like Chu Ran and Chen Ling, he wouldn't have had so many troubles.

In the middle of the night, I asked myself a question.

do you like him? ------- A little bit, otherwise why would I kiss him, I would miss him when I leave, and see him interacting with other people on the Internet for no reason, and I will get angry for no reason. When I am close, I can't help thinking that he can hug me , or pulled my hand, but did not dare to look him in the eye and meet him.

Could it be that I am a homosexual in my subconscious, but my brain cognition repeatedly makes some hypocritical false appearances in order to cover up something, and reminds myself deep in my brain that I like women, and when desire comes, the blood rushes , but it erupted naturally, and it was out of control, and it couldn't be stopped.

If so, then 80.00% of me is now, just not ready to admit it.

Was I influenced by Chu Ran, or was misled by Yu Zisheng, I asked myself again, when I knew that he lost his job in order to insist on his sexual orientation, and even had a falling out with his family, but he was still caring for me , Be very careful, even afraid that I was worried and didn't tell me anything. You must know that I feel very uncomfortable, thinking about how to comfort him, or make him feel that life is not so sad, and everything is still going in a good direction .

So, in that case, I like him.

As for when, which day, and when, it is unknown.

I only know that this feeling is getting stronger and stronger. Even if I can't do anything, I still want to comfort him, encourage him, and hope that he will be strong enough to go through this journey.

As for how I am, I probably have some ideas in my heart.

The next day he kept his promise, and he arrived around noon, with a big bag of fruit in his hand, and even gave his father a set of three-year-old cigarette labels, which made him very happy and praised him for his carefulness Youxin, as a veteran collector, he knows the value of this set of bids best.

"How do you know that my dad likes this?" While my parents were delighted to see such a precious gift, I secretly grabbed him and asked.

He squeezed the back of my hand with a smile, leaned into my ear and said "I won't tell you", and then participated in explaining the history of this set of bids to them.

I sat there watching this scene, and I didn't turn him into a girl anymore, and I didn't feel sorry for why he became a man anymore. I wondered if it would be good if it was such a family of four in the future. I like him, he is also sensible and knows how to please his parents, the only problem now is if my parents know that he has such thoughts for me, will they immediately burn this rare thing as waste paper, and then drive him away? Go out and warn him never to have anything to do with me again.

Thinking of this, I feel chills all over, and I dare not continue to think about it.

"Son, come over and take a look too. Look at the [-] cigarette label. Have you seen it? That's right. You don't smoke, so you must not be interested in this." After finishing speaking, Dad continued talking to Yu Zisheng talked about the history of this cigarette label, and he also promised that if there is another chance, he will definitely get another set for his father when he meets an earlier era. Look, I'm the only one who looks like a superfluous person.

With this set of treasures, my dad even threatened to have a few drinks with him today. After so many visits, I couldn’t have a good meal together. At that moment, my mom happily went to the kitchen. Dad talked to him for a while and then went to help, and he finally made time to come and see me.

Seeing that he is very complacent, he is as happy as winning the first prize.

"Is that so happy?" I asked him with raised eyebrows, and couldn't help being delighted.

He looked at the two grown-ups in the kitchen and motioned me to go to the bedroom. This time I got up and followed him in without any shyness.

As soon as I closed the door at the back, I was pulled by him and pulled into his arms. To be honest, I hoped for such an abrupt movement, and it was also what I was afraid of.

"My parents are still outside, you are strangling me."

Being held tightly by him, it was difficult for me to breathe, smelling the slight smell of disinfectant on his body, I knew that he had been soaking in the hospital these days, and felt a little distressed, so I put my hand on it.

"Let me hug for a while, even if you hit me or scold me, let me hug for a while." He said softly, rubbing against my neck from time to time, it was itchy and warm.

Maybe it's too tired, so let him hug him for a while.

"Ah~ um~ the bones... the bones are going to be broken, relax a little more, gasp...I can't breathe anymore." Of course I know what it means to embrace like parting from life and death. Although it's not parting, it also means all his Everything has to start all over again.

This is giving me a hint to trust him.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I'm sorry Yangyang, I tried too hard, I just miss you so much these days, I smell the disinfectant in the hospital every day, I almost throw up, watching those people groaning on the hospital bed, Sadness, regret, sigh, I just said silently in my heart, I want to be good, my yang and yang should also be good, we must overcome everything, come together naturally, don't wait until you are old, wait until you have no chance to do it, What I think is right, I will do what I think is right, Yangyang, are you? Do you miss me?"

Once again, I was attracted by his watery eyes, where my reflection was revealed, and the nostrils sucked slightly, and some sour smell came up, "I... seem to miss you too..."