A ventriloquist is reborn in the 21st century

Yu Jinshao's sexual orientation is public. The outside world and his family know that Yu's family has lived abroad for many years. He is open-minded and doesn't interfere with his feelings much. However, he is 36 in a blink of an eye, but he is still alone. The family members are always worried. Every time he goes back to the United States, his parents and elders will always mention a few insinuating words, but Yu Jinshao has someone in his heart and doesn't want to let go, and that person doesn't like him, and he always comes and goes, always in a stalemate.

In the midsummer of this year, Yu Jinshao and Ji Shinian went to City G to check the island project. They lived in the famous Seaview Hotel in Province G. When he came back from outside that day, he saw a person he didn't want to see—he saw Qin Yu Feng, seeing him and Ji Shinian together, these two people who were hysterical and desperate in the past, when they meet again now, there is actually a calm and breezy chatter and laughter.

They were sitting in the pavilion by the sea, the tall and handsome man, all his youthfulness had been worn away by time, his face carved with a knife and ax was soaked in the indifference and vicissitudes of the years, he looked very different from many years ago , but the way they looked at each other still showed a forbearing feeling, that feeling was like wine that has been hoarded for years, after many years, it has not been worn away by time, but it has become stronger and stronger.

Looking at them getting along, Yu Jinshao couldn't help feeling worried, but he thought that after so many years had passed, no matter how strong the relationship was, it probably wouldn't be able to make any big waves, but he didn't expect that it was just a few days Getting along with each other, the two actually had a tendency to rekindle their old relationship.

……

That day when Yu Jinshao came back from outside, he drove by the street and met Yang Bei. Under the dark night, a thin man walked slowly on the long street. Black and blue, his eyes looked so dull.

Although the years have endowed him with more refined eyebrows and eyes, they have also erased the indomitable and indomitable vigor of those years.

"Xiao Bei." Yu Jinshao got off the car and walked towards him with big strides, "Why are you here?"

Yang Bei's body stiffened for a moment, and he raised his head slightly. When he saw him, his eyes showed surprise, but he couldn't say a word. He just confessed to Ji Shinian about these years, and he couldn't breathe because of the pressure in his heart. The guilty, unwilling, remorseful and repressed feelings seemed to be finally let go in an instant, but his heart was also suddenly empty.

Yu Jinshao was taken aback by the ashes on his face, and without thinking, he stretched out his hands to support the man's crumbling body, "Xiao Bei, what's wrong with you, what's wrong, tell me, what's the problem? If you tell me, maybe I can be of help..."

Yang Bei saw deep worry and distress in his eyes, and his heart felt sour, those emptiness and discomfort swept over his body and mind for a moment, and at that moment, he finally stopped struggling, he slightly Leaning his head in Yu Jinshao's arms, his uncontrollable emotions burst out like a flood of beasts, and when they broke through his body, they all turned into salty liquid and poured out of his eyes.

Feeling the wetness on his shoulders, Yu Jinshao's heart became numb in an instant. He waved his hands and hugged Yang Bei's body in a panic, and comforted him softly over and over again. The two stood in the deep night, wrapped in the cool wind. Moisture invaded, Yu Jinshao reached out and touched the hair of the man in his arms, and said, "It's raining, where do you live, I'll take you home."

Yang Bei stopped crying, raised his head from Yu Jinshao's shoulder, and said hoarsely, "Jinshao, have a drink with me."

"Okay." Yu Jinshao responded lightly, he stretched out his fingers to wipe away the moisture from the corners of his eyes, then took his hand and led him to his car, not forgetting to fasten his seat belt carefully .

Yang Bei sat in the co-pilot silently, allowing Yu Jinshao to drive the car around and take him to an unknown place. He had already been told that the other party would take him to the bar, but Yu Jinshao passed by the supermarket and bought a Wine, took him to the beach.

The drizzle is like a child's tears. It comes quickly and goes faster, but after a while, it stops, and the ground is not even completely wet. At this moment, the seaside at night is a bit wet and cold, but it just neutralizes it In the scorching heat of the day, the lights from tall buildings in the distance sprinkled on the sandy ground, revealing a faint luster.

Yu Jinshao pulled Yang Bei to sit on the floor, then opened a bottle of wine and passed it over: "When you are in a bad mood, it's good to let off steam, drink it at ease, I'll be there when I'm drunk!"

Yang Bei reached out to take the wine jar, but his eyes fell on the elegant and gentle face of the other party. He took a sip of the wine and whispered, "Thank you, Jinshao."

Yu Jinshao also opened a bottle for himself, a slight smile appeared on the corner of his lips, but his tone concealed an imperceptible bitterness and bitterness: "Thank you for telling me."

"I, I figured it out," Yang Bei was silent for a while, and then said suddenly, "I knew it was impossible, but I should have looked away."

Yu Jinshao didn't understand. He was always smart and intelligent, but when facing this man who was nearly ten years younger than him, his brain often short-circuited. After a while, he realized what the other person meant, but he But he didn't know what to say, he opened his mouth, and just squeezed out a sentence from his throat, "Xiaobei..."

Yang Bei turned his eyes away and looked at the sea in the distance. There were no stars or moon tonight, and the distance was nothing but the darkness of the sea and sky. Just like his dazed and empty heart, he stretched out a hand and placed it close to him. The position of the heart, slowly said: "The things I have been stubborn for so many years have almost become a long-cherished wish, a support for life, and now they are gone overnight, and I feel so empty in my heart. Why are you alive?"

Yu Jinshao's heart sank, and the wine in his hand fell on the sand. He reached out and grabbed Yang Bei's hand in a panic, as if the weak person beside him would disappear with the night wind if he wasn't careful: "Are you talking?" What, what nonsense are you talking about? Are you trying to figure it out? You can’t live without him, right?” Yu Jinshao growled uncontrollably.

Yang Bei was horrified by the strong emotion in his eyes. He stared blankly at Yu Jinshao's red eyes. He saw strong worry and pain in the eyes of the other party. He realized later that his words had misunderstood him. What, with a thought in his mind, there seemed to be waves in the stagnant Xinhu Lake, and something flowed in like a warm hot spring: "Jin Shao." Yang Bei opened his mouth and called his name softly, "It's not what you think."

"Then what do you mean?"

There was a smile on Yang Bei's lips that he didn't know was far-fetched or sincere, and said, "I'll be fine, and I won't be overwhelmed. I will live a good life in the future."

"Really, really?" Yu Jinshao witnessed Yang Bei's desperate years, and also understood the strong and forbearing feelings in his heart. He really couldn't believe Yang Bei's letting go like a willow.

"Well, really, I'm still so young, I can't live in hopeless obsession all my life, can I?" Yang Bei said slowly but firmly, not only to reassure the person who cares about him, but also to convince himself.

Yu Jinshao breathed a sigh of relief, he slowly let go of the hand holding Yang Bei's shoulder, but in the next second, he was caught off guard by the clear eyes of the young man, Yang Bei who was so bright and peaceful was something he had never seen before. I have seen it, but I am also deeply attracted.

As if bewitched, Yu Jinshao raised the hand that he hadn't put down yet, and hugged Yang Bei's thin body into his arms. He hugged him so tightly, as if he couldn't rub the other person's body into his own.

Yang Bei felt the warmth and love from that broad body, and his body, which was cooled by the sea breeze, gradually warmed up, and his heart was also filled with waves. At that moment, he was shocked to find that the scene in his mind What flashed across the screen was not the handsome face of the person he couldn't ask for, but the person in front of him who had been with him for many years. During these years, he seemed to have seen all his frustrations and embarrassments, but he still couldn't leave him. The abandoned ones stay by their side.

As if seeing the sun through the clouds, after letting go of those obsessions, he suddenly realized what he had neglected and missed all these years.

In his life, he has experienced so many wanderings. What he longs for most is clearly a stable home, a person who can accompany each other, care for each other, and support each other. My heart plunged into a hopeless relationship that I couldn't get what I wanted, and I didn't know how to turn back no matter how hard I fell.

At this moment, sadness, bitterness, sadness, guilt, remorse... all kinds of emotions came to him like a hurricane sweeping the waves, and his heart seemed to be blocked by a huge reef, and his whole heart was full of blood. Dripping, he hugged Yu Jinshao back tightly, tears welling up in his eyes.

"Why should I be so stubborn, why didn't I wake up earlier, if I could turn around earlier and see you earlier, wouldn't it be..." His voice was choked up, almost crying, "So many things in the middle wouldn't have happened , I am such a disaster, I have made my brother suffer for so many years, and I have failed you in vain, for so many years."

Yu Jinshao listened to his incoherent cries and confessions, his heart ached as if his entire chest was tangled up, he gently patted Yang Bei's thin back, "Xiaobei, you are fine, you don't even know how good you are, don't Everything is on my own body, the matter between the two of them, I can't blame you completely, after all, it's just that I don't trust you enough... I like you, and I also like your stubbornness. , Those are all voluntary, I am very happy if you can let me stay by your side and not push me away."

Yang Bei mourned in his heart, listening to his gentle words, all the emotions in his heart surged more violently, he did not regret falling in love with someone he shouldn't love, but he regretted his many years of obsession, hurting others and himself.

Under the night, these two men, who were more than ten years apart, hugged each other tightly. One was crying without image, and the other was flustered and at a loss.

I don't know how long it took until Yue's side face appeared in the dark sky, and Yang Bei gradually calmed down. He lifted his head from Yu Jinshao's body, then reached out and wiped the embarrassing moisture on his face, "Jinshao , let's try it!" Yang Bei said softly.

Yu Jinshao was stunned. This short sentence was transmitted from his eardrum to the auditory nerve, and then to the brain. The reflex arc seemed to be so long as to circle the earth several times. With the meaning in a sentence, his heart beat violently, as if it was about to break through his chest, and the intensity made him speechless for a while.

Yang Bei fixedly looked at Yu Jinshao's handsome and elegant face, then he stretched out a hand, gently placed it on Yu Jinshao's face, and said in a very serious tone: "This is not gratitude, nor is it impulsive. I, Yang Bei, have been blind for so many years. , I just found out...I found out the place you occupy in my heart, Jin Shao, do you know? Over the years, whenever I feel lonely and helpless, I always think of you inadvertently, but I always have no doubts I took that as a kind of trust and habit, but after thinking about it carefully, I realized that before I knew it, you had already walked into my heart..."

"My father left when I can't remember anything, and my mother left early. In fact, my dream since I was a child was to have a stable and warm home." Yang Bei took a deep breath, trying his best to hide the tension in his heart , He has grown up so much, he has never confessed to anyone, this is the first and only time, so even though he knows that the other party will probably not refuse, he is still uncontrollably nervous, "I don't know if it's too late to say this now It’s late, but if I can realize this wish in the future, I hope that in my wish, my family will have you, Jinshao, if you are willing, I will definitely treat you well in the future.”

He said every word, so serious and sincere, simple and clumsy words, listening to Yu Jinshao's ears, fell in Yu Jinshao's heart, but it was more beautiful and moving than the pledge of eternal love. At this moment, he was really glad that he did not give up, He has used a long time to prove that the person he loves with all his heart is a person truly worthy of love. After a long wait, he finally got his wish.

It's just like thousands of nights, he walked alone in the dark night, but he never expected that with that inadvertent glance, he met the person he loved, and when he was caught off guard, God gave him such a blessing surprise.

The so-called being obsessed with the situation is clear to the onlooker, the so-called love or not, you are not afraid of not loving, what you are afraid of is loving someone, but you don't know it, and they, just at the age that is still too late, understand their own heart, fortunately it is not too late , luckily when I turned around, you were still by my side...

The author has something to say: I’m done with the Eight Classics, and I’m done with this chapter, whether you’re satisfied or not~

Went to the new article~(￣▽￣～)~

Finally, let me recommend my serialized article "He's Pregnant with My Child" and the pre-accepted "20 Years After Rebirth" with a straight face

Thank you for your support_(:з」∠)_～