go back and try love

The red-roofed church is located in Cap Malheureux, the northernmost town of Mauritius. Since it is far away from the hotel where he stayed, Zheng Yu booked a room nearby before taking An Wenxuan over.

This red-roofed church built by the French during the colonial period is not brilliant in itself, but this bright red dotted in the blue of the vast sea and the shade of the dense trees is particularly eye-catching, and the colors contrast each other. , so that the whole picture has an indescribable beauty, and the architectural style of the church is completely in line with the island style, fresh and pleasant.

Blue sky and white clouds, blue sea and silver sand, green grass and red tiles, plus the endless coastline, the gift of nature, and the uncanny workmanship of human beings make all these beautiful, like a fairyland, but An Wenxuan doesn't understand what he knows What is the intention of coming here?

The red-roofed church is the most popular romantic sanctuary for couples. So far, it has attracted hundreds of thousands of newcomers to go through the most important ceremony in their lives.

But what does it mean for them?

How can God bless a same-sex couple who are about to break up...

The interior of the church is simple and elegant, without luxurious decoration, only simple red tables and chairs, small and warm, as if to warn every couple who come here, no matter how passionate the love is, it will become dull after a long time, and the daily life , there is not too much thrilling, only the daily necessities, rice, oil and salt, can keep the mediocrity, can the flower of love bloom undefeated.

There were not many people in the church, and An Wenxuan was not in a very happy mood. He lowered his head and casually walked around the church. Zheng Yu followed him, less than one meter away, and he sighed leisurely: Beautiful, worthy of being a holy place for weddings!"

His hand was suddenly pulled up, and a frivolous and lazy voice rang in his ears: "Wen Xuan, let's get married again."

As if being stung by a bee, An Wenxuan immediately shook off his hand, his eyes widened, and he said angrily, "You are crazy! How can you make such a joke here!!"

Seeing An Wenxuan's tense and serious expression, Zheng Yu knew that he was jealous of Christianity's prejudice against homosexuality - homosexuality is a sin.

Putting his hands back into his trouser pockets, Zheng Yu shrugged indifferently: "Okay, I'm just kidding, don't be angry!"

An Wenxuan also felt that he had overreacted just now, so he pursed his lips uncomfortably: "I'm not angry."

Zheng Yu looked at his awkward appearance, raised his hand to touch his cheek, smiled dotingly, then turned around to look at the cross on the wall, and sighed sadly: "I think you still have a chance in the future, but, I It's never possible to get married in a church, so I want to have a good time now."

An Wenxuan frowned slightly, staring at him with some doubts: "Huh?"

The originally smiling eyes suddenly became deep and dim, as if he was talking to himself: "In the future, you will definitely meet a beautiful and gentle girl, hold her hand, come to Jesus, and receive the blessing of heaven …”

Without the hysteria of that day, he said the same thing today, with a flat tone and a leisurely look, as if he was talking about other people's affairs, but for some reason, An Wenxuan felt a pain that made it hard to breathe.

"As for me, I'm a bastard, just like what I said before—eat the marrow to know the taste," Zheng Yu turned his head slowly, his eyes were flowing like water, and there were thousands of ripples in his eyes, and he said every word, With a sense of determination, "So, in the future, it is impossible for me to touch women again, but I will not wrong myself and become an ascetic monk, because I will look for a person who has your shadow in him, even a little It is enough, I will do everything possible to catch him..."

The afternoon sun lazily shines into the church, painting the white walls a bright warm yellow, and mottled light shadows swaying on the ground, adding a sense of tranquility to this holy place.

Hearing this rascal's words, An Wenxuan felt a severe angina, as if his heart was torn apart, and it was about to shatter in the next second, but he couldn't say anything to refute it. In the end, the man looked at him in a miserable With a smile, he raised his eyebrows and frowned, filled with deep sadness: "I don't think God will bless someone like me."

At this moment, the smell of sunlight, the gentleness of light and shadow, and the warmth of the air are all unstoppable, and the grief in An Wenxuan's heart is overflowing with unreconciled greed...

Everything seems to be still, the passing past is becoming clearer in the flying memory, his badness, his goodness, his affection, his domineering, those things that have long been engraved in the bottom of my heart, with the fermentation of time, become life The most memorable page in the album, just a glance, you can't be proud of yourself.

Suddenly, there was a noise at the door, and a little girl pulled her parents in. The little girl was blond and blue-eyed, wearing a pink princess dress. The little face was more beautiful and tender, and the big eyes seemed to be talking, twinkling.

Zheng Yu's eyes lit up immediately, and without waiting for An Wenxuan's reaction, he quickly walked up to the little girl, swung his left hand behind his back and his right hand to his waist and abdomen, bowed slightly, bent his back knees in a half-kneeling pose, stretched She extended her right hand and smiled gently like a gentleman: "Pretty Lady, Would You Marry Me?"

The little girl was taken aback by the sudden 'marriage proposal', but when she took a closer look, the man in front of her turned out to be a tall and handsome Asian guy——

The truth that 'appearance is justice' applies everywhere. Even at a young age, the girl's eyes are still bent into crescent moons, and her fair and flawless face is slightly flushed. She looked up at her parents, and saw that the two of them saw This scene also made Yan Yan smile.

With the acquiescence of her parents, she happily put her little hand in Zheng Yu's, and her voice sounded like a yellow warbler beating her hooves: "YES!"

The dark orange sunlight is slowly pouring down with the warm atmosphere. Two people, one tall and one short, are walking forward slowly on the red carpet. It is really like a couple walking towards the future with love for each other. , the gentle warm wind outside the church caressed the green trees and played a beautiful melody like a wind chime. An Wenxuan stood there in a daze, becoming the most insignificant bystander, witnessing the happiness of himself and others.

——It turns out that his future will also have no place for him.

Walking in front of the cross, Zheng Yu still bowed like a gentleman, and the girl bent her right foot back a little bit, then lightly lifted the corner of her skirt, returning to the princess's etiquette, and then ran back to her parents with a giggle.

An Wenxuan's eyes were sour, you don't want to see me kissing me with other people, you don't want to know that I am in love with other people, so why not me?

Seeing through and thinking through, but unwilling to let go, pretending not to care, but not seeing the loneliness on my face,

Some things are involuntary, some pain, but you can't help yourself.

After coming out of the church, the two walked slowly along the coastline in front. In the distance, the sky was still blue and the sea was vast. Under the afterglow of the setting sun, the sea and sky were connected into a piece of golden red, like a huge dome, enveloping everything in it. Time, the cape, or the end of the world have become out of reach.

Different from the hotel's beach, the sea here is quiet and dark blue, with a mysterious charm. Waves of waves are rolling towards the shore, soaking the soles of the two people's shoes, but An Wenxuan is unconscious. It seemed that there was a big boulder on it, which was so heavy that he couldn't breathe. However, Zheng Yu seemed to have had a lot of fun, so he took off his shoes, rushed into the sea, and playfully picked up the water and splashed it on An On Wenxuan.

Being suddenly doused with water, An Wenxuan was so ashamed that he took off his shoes and rushed into the sea, chasing him into a water fight, splashing seawater on each other with hands and feet, just like that, two 20 The old men are playing like children, and the long clouds take advantage of the afterglow before the sunset to transform into various shapes in the air. This picture of the sunset shining on the coast and chasing and playing in the water is full of childlike innocence.

Perhaps when the cool sea water brushed across his cheeks, it took away the gloom in his heart. Seeing the glistening water droplets on the man's face, An Wenxuan smugly raised the corners of his mouth and made a face at him. Momentary absent-mindedness—everyone’s world has dark moments, but not everyone is lucky enough to meet such a person, he is like the first ray of sunshine in the morning, driving away the haze and making your heart extremely warm, even if He didn't do anything, just stood there silently.

Dancing in the sky and dusk, the sun is light, the sea breeze is blowing gently, and the birds are tired of returning to the boat. No matter how reluctant they are, time will not stop. Walking on the beach again with bare feet, the soles of An Wenxuan's feet are worn by the gravel. Rub your feet.

"Wenxuan, I'll carry you on my back!"

"No!" He firmly refused.

This man is crazy. Although there are not many people on the beach, he is a big man, and it is not shameful for him to be carried on his back.

"It's okay, don't be polite!" As he said, he came to grab An Wenxuan's hand.

"Who is being polite to you...Ahhhhh!!!"

Whether people like it or not, Zheng Yu pulled his arm, threw him on his back, clasped the two arms that were pulling in the air, and let An Wenxuan's feet off the ground, then put his hands Free up, grab his dangling legs, and fix them around his waist.

An Wenxuan felt his whole body spinning, and the scenery in front of him shook violently. When he came back to his senses, he realized that he was already clinging to the man's warm back: "You are fucking crazy!!"

Although he was swearing, his body was quite honest. He slowly eased his arm, wrapped it around his chest, and quietly put his head on his cheek. He just swiped through the water, and the faint fragrance smelled by the tip of his nose was radiant. The saltiness of the sea water, not facing the front face, but only seeing the back of his head, made An Wenxuan less reserved, and asked in a muffled voice, "Hey, you are so thin, can you carry me by your back?"

The person in front smiled, and his voice was still flirtatious: "Well, it's quite heavy on the back."

"Shen?" Hearing this, An Wenxuan couldn't help but blushed, and secretly checked whether he had eaten too much recently.

"I carry my whole world on my back, tell me, can it not sink?"

--Depend on!

"I said, Zheng Yu, have you used all the tricks you used to pick up girls on me?"

The man didn't answer any more, just laughed and occasionally tightened the hands on his legs, making his back more stable.

Sticking to his back, feeling the heat radiating from his body, burning his blood, An Wenxuan's heart beat fast.

On the beach, there are footprints of different shades, and the backs of the two people are infinitely elongated, as if this bloody setting sun, with the most tragic light and shadow, sings the lament of fate and welcomes the final demise.