fantasy land

Xie Tiao's daily life has added snowballs.

Xueqiu has a very good personality. Maybe it's because the stray puppy cherishes happiness more. Except for the fuss when he first arrived at home, he eats and sleeps well at other times. When he is free, he sticks to Xie Tiao and reads books with him.

Sometimes Xie Tiao couldn't take care of him when he went to the hospital, so he would trouble the housekeeper to take him out for a walk. The housekeeper at home was an old man from the Qi family. He had taken Dabao before, so he was familiar with it. It is not the old building that is lonely without the smell of fireworks.

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On Friday, Xie Tiao went out early in the morning. Instead of going to the hospital, he went to a certain temple on the outskirts of the city.

Xie Tiao didn’t ask the driver to drop him off when he went out. He went to the shopping mall first, bought a bunch of biscuits and fruits, took the bus alone, and passed by. After getting off the bus at the temple, he had to walk for a while. There were farmlands on both sides of the road, and a greenhouse was set up to plant a piece of it. green,

The winter in Beidu is longer than that in other places. The winter comes early and the snow disappears late. The whole Beidu is wrapped in dry and cold wind for most of the time.Maybe the long snow season in the northern capital is coming, and the temperature is even lower.Just like today, although it hasn't snowed yet, passers-by on the road have already put on thick winter clothes and wrapped them more tightly.The road was cold, Xie Tiao also wrapped his coat tightly.

It took a while to reach the temple.When he arrived, he stood in front of the big archway at the gate of the temple for a while before going in.

He found the permanent resident in the temple, clasped his hands together and reported the number C67.

The permanent resident folded his palms together facing Xie Tiao, and led him to the hall behind. The four walls were densely packed with memorial tablets, and the smell of incense sticks in the hall slowly came out. Xie Tiao laid out the prepared sacrifices , Insert three incense sticks.

He knelt on the futon and bowed his head.

"Dead Xie Chunqiu" is written squarely on the top of the tablet

About seven or eight years ago, the name Xie Chunqiu often appeared in the art world.He was born in a regular Academy of Fine Arts. He studied under a famous family and studied in gold plating. He was once a well-known painter in the circle. Later, after getting married, he founded the "Spring and Autumn Studio", selling paintings while accepting students.

Xie Chunqiu is different from most painters in that he is sociable and has always been open to money.Because of this relationship, he often went out to the entertainment places of the rich, until later he became addicted to gambling and drugs, and owed a lot of debt.In the end, he took risks for drug abuse and went to jail.

When he died, Xie Tiao had no money to buy him a cemetery, so he sprinkled half of his ashes into the river and placed the other half in this small temple.

Xie Tiao knelt there, remembering that night in the winter, he stood numbly in the funeral parlor and watched his father's body being pushed in, and finally a box came out.

After Xie Chunqiu was cremated, he didn't have the money to buy a cemetery, and Sister Lang kindly helped him move out the fake cemetery.How to do it?In the end, the uncle at the gate of the funeral home saw that he was so pitiful standing there, called him over, and told him that a certain temple on the outskirts of the city could accept this kind of memorial tablet, and put the ashes in a pottery basin and deposit them there. Thousands of dollars.

It was midnight and there was no taxi on the road. Besides, the taxi driver saw him walking out of the funeral home with a sad face, holding a box in his hand. Everyone was so frightened that they stepped on the accelerator. Who would dare to take him? ?In such a cold weather, he hugged his father, walked all night, and finally reached the riverside.

The Liejiang River passed through Beidu, the wide river surface, the cold wind at that time blew on Xie Tiao's face like ice, making his face numb and his heart numb.

He opened the wooden box and saw the powder, called ashes, in the dim light.

He had heard that a large amount of ashes would be left behind after cremation. What the funeral home left for the family was only a small part of the commemorative significance, and most of the burning residues were disposed of by the funeral home.What he is holding in his hand at this moment is warm gravel, and it seems that it has nothing to do with Xie Chunqiu who abandoned his wife and went astray.

He let go, and the gravel slipped from his fingers.Smooth as running water and quicksand.

The next second, Xie Tiao grabbed a handful of ashes and threw them into the Lie River.

The ashes scattered in the wind, Xie Tiao couldn't see the route they scattered in the dark, he just felt refreshed, as if his life had come to an end and everything had disappeared.

Up to now, he is kneeling and looking at the place where the photo should have been placed is empty, and his heart is blank.

Does he regret it?

No regrets, not at all.

From his father's domestic violence against his wife, cheating, drug abuse, and gambling, from the time he dragged his wife and children into the water when he didn't fall into it enough, Xie Tiao has long since denied his father.

In fact, Xie Chunqiu was already in poor health in prison. Long-term drug use has had an irreversible impact on his body. The time in prison is just lingering. He asked to see Xie Tiao many times, but Xie Tiao kept refusing. Even when the prison director tactfully proposed that the family members could apply for medical parole, Xie Tiao also refused.

Why didn't his father think about the end of his wife and children when he was doing something wrong?Why don't you care about your innocent family members.

Do you think that you can be forgiven if you die, or that you can be forgiven if you go to prison and get sick?

People who have done wrong things don't know how to repent until they die. Why should such people be forgiven?

People who have done wrong things think that all wounds can be smoothed away after death, and all the evils they have done can dissipate with the decay of their bodies?

Impossible, wrong is wrong, gone is gone, why?

And even if Xie Tiao forgave him, he still wouldn't be able to pay the thousands of dollars for keeping the bones.

When a person dies, he dies. What's the point of leaving a corpse?

After half of the ashes in the small wooden box were left, Xie Tiao sat down by the river.He felt powerlessness in his body.Taking revenge on a handful of ashes would not bring him happiness, and even knowing that Xie Chunqiu's death did not bring him any relief, he just felt powerless and unfeeling, just like the previous grievances, what happened to him and his mother, So many years of struggling to cope with life have consumed most of his emotions, and now only numbness and exhaustion are left.

He thought of his mother.If mom was awake and hugged Xie Chunqiu's ashes with him, would she cry?Will she be heartbroken?Would he say that the ashes were thrown into the river as he did, or would he hold him in his hands and bury him with tears?

Maybe his mother is such a kind-hearted woman, facing her former husband, no matter what, she will never let her father be worshiped like a lonely ghost.

At dawn, Xie Tiao went to the temple introduced to him by the concierge of the funeral parlor, spent a sum of money to buy a memorial tablet, and later continued for a few more years when he had more money.

At this moment, the noon sun shines on the ground, warming even the normally shady apse.Xie Tiao was still kneeling on the ground, looking at the polished blue bricks on the ground, he found that his mentality towards his father was now peaceful.The hatred that went deep into the bone marrow, and the pain of being suffocated by being pushed on the ground and trampled into the mud by life were all weakened, he was even able to kneel down to Xie Chunqiu, make a sacrifice, and offer an injection of incense.

It was already afternoon when Xie Tiao returned to Puhang Hospital. Xie Tiao’s condition was normal that day. Xie Tiao pulled a chair and sat beside her mother’s bed. I went to see him, today is one year since his death, please wake up soon, okay?"

Of course Xie Tiao's mother would not respond to him, and Xie Tiao continued to lower his head, discussing softly as if Xie's mother could really hear him: "When he died last year, I threw half of his ashes into the Jiang Li, but thinking of you, I kept half of it for you to take care of. You wake up, you can beat him or scold him, and I will go with you." Xie Tiao's voice was soft, as if he was coaxing a ruckus children.Just like his mother, she was just unhappy and didn't want to wake up. "If you wake up, we will go to see him if you want to see him. If you don't want to see him, you can go home. Let's go home, mother."

"Or if you don't want to go home, let's go out to play and travel, okay?" He then wiped his mother's hand, "You used to always want to go to Suzhou, Hangzhou, Dunhuang, Sichuan and Chongqing, and you also want to go abroad , but I'm too busy, always complaining to me about not having enough vacations." He chuckled, "When you get better, let's go together, shall we?"

Still silent, only the sound of his breathing in the ward.

Xie Tiao slowly lowered his head, resting his head on his mother's hand, feeling the gentle warmth from his mother, which is not hot.

Body temperature should be the only response Mother Xie can give at this moment.

From the beginning to the end, he never thought that today was his birthday.

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Qi Heng returned to the company to manage the shipping business.

Kiya's business is mainly in international shipping, real estate and food, and the holding group mainly manages investment affairs. Of course, the general public generally only know Kiya who opened a store and sold biscuits, and Kiya whose stocks have always been strong.

After Boss Qi returned to work, the company assigned an assistant named Xiao Feng. Xiao Feng is Guan Peisheng who just graduated this year. He said that he has a good personality. When asked by HR if he would like to be an assistant to Boss Qi, he readily agreed up.She was a little girl, and she was quick-witted and quick-witted, so Qi Hengzhi managed to keep her with her.

But today, Xiao Feng winked at Lin Tang who was passing by. She knew that Lin Tang was a roundworm in the stomach of the little boss, so she quickly caught him and asked, "What's wrong with the little boss today? Why did you ask me about the afternoon meeting arrangements three times this morning? Push back the meeting time in Eastern Europe?"

Xiao Wang, who was in charge of finance next to him, happened to pass by with the documents, and added, "I also find it strange that I gave the process to the little boss for approval this morning, and asked me for details several times. I was so scared that I thought something was wrong. It's over."

Anyone with a discerning eye can see that Qi Hengzhi is not in the state today. After listening to Lin Tang, he smiled secretly and comforted him, "It's okay, you just talk to him about the important things today, and wait for the rest in two days. "He whispered mysteriously, "Today, it's different!" He didn't know what he said in a low voice, and a group of people let out a philosophical "oh" sound, and then they dispersed.

It's just that even Qi Jingzhi could see that something was wrong with Qi Hengzhi's state, and asked if it was a problem with the weather.

He himself didn't feel anything. After four o'clock in the afternoon, he left the company after sorting out his affairs.Leaving behind a trail of surprised subordinates, they went straight to a certain electronics flagship store in Tianyue City.