too embarrassing

"In the stranger's dream, we were together, but we didn't know each other."

——Amihai

After a crazy night, they closed their eyes in the second half of the night like exhausted beasts, and slept quietly.

It was different from the time when they had just finished making love. At that time, they hugged each other and gasped, which was the aftertaste of both orgasms.

However, after cooling down, they consciously separated from each other, keeping a safe distance between each other, as if separated by an insurmountable boundary line.

Just like now, they sleep on one side of the bed, and you are on the left and the other is on the right, just like two strangers sharing the bed.

Same bed, but different dreams.

The cold moonlight shone in through the window, sprinkled in this lonely room, and projected their figures lying on their sides on the snow-white wall.

The two shadows are close to each other, but the owner of the shadows is separated, back to back, there seems to be an invisible barrier in between, not only separating people, but also hearts.

When sex is over, boundaries should have been drawn.The best way to keep a distance is to put an end to the body temperature of the other person you are attached to.

—they know it well.

In the silent darkness, Niu Keqing slowly opened his eyes, he couldn't fall asleep, even though his body was extremely tired, he couldn't fall asleep peacefully.

He was just pretending to sleep.

The man turned over very lightly, turned his face to Guifenin's back, and stared at the sleeping man next to him in silence.

Guifenin's light-colored hair was scattered on the pillow, and the silky nightgown slid off his upper shoulders, revealing a small corner of his snow-white back.

A ray of moonlight slanted in from the gap in the window, and draped over his protruding shoulders like a tulle, exuding a clean and inviolable beauty.

As if fascinated by a ghost, Niu Keqing stretched out his hand silently, tracing the outline of Gu Yifaning's back from the air.

From the earlobe to the nape of the neck, and then from the shoulder blades to the waist and hips, an undulating curve is slowly drawn, carefully controlling the distance and proportion.

This person, so close and so far away, was clearly within reach, but Niu Keqing didn't even dare to touch it with his fingertips.

Like the world's most useless coward, like the world's most incompetent coward, all courage becomes worthless.

In fact, Niu Keqing is a sensible person, he clearly knows what kind of relationship this is——

Deformed, distorted, abnormal relationship that exists only to solve carnal desires.

But it is precisely this kind of relationship that should be kept pure. There is no need for redundant feelings to be a burden, and it will not be reduced to being interfered with in life. It is really a free and pleasant relationship.

In other words, the relationship without responsibility is the easiest.

Ever since, Gu Yifening did a good job, going to bed with Niu Keqing for the purpose of maintaining "purity", but the latter had some impure thoughts instead.

Therefore, there is no doubt that Niu Keqing needs to adjust his position in this relationship.

what kind of position?

Not friends, not partners, they're just friends with benefits who won't even have a kiss.

The essence of conspiracy is sex and desire, so how can love and affection come from?

There should be no unnecessary and redundant things.

The bright moonlight was hidden behind the thick clouds, and the room became darker.

In this long silent night, Niu Keqing sighed alone, and silently withdrew his hand.

*

Sleeping until midnight, probably because he was afraid of the cold, Guifenin turned over half asleep, moved twice, and crossed the invisible dividing line in the middle.

He leaned towards Niu Keqing, the only source of heat around him, put one hand on his waist, and subconsciously pressed his feet against his calves.

Like a vine wrapped around a stove.

Niu Keqing froze for a moment, and asked tentatively, "Are you... awake?"

The other party didn't respond, and let out a shallow breathing sound, brushing against the tip of Niu Keqing's nose, probably in a deep sleep.

The dense fan-like eyelashes trembled, and the blue eyeballs covered by the eyelids rolled, oh, maybe they were still dreaming sweet dreams.

Breathing a sigh of relief, Niu Keqing carefully wanted to take the other party's hand away from his body, because he was afraid that after waking up Gu Yifening, the intimate contact between the two parties would cause embarrassment.

But the action seemed to startle Dr. Gu in his sleep. He uttered a dreamy whisper, frowned, and then directly hugged Niu Keqing into his arms.

Niu Keqing: "..."

Immediately, he didn't dare to move any more, like a soft pillow being held in Guifenin's arms, and even his breathing rate slowed down.

Confirming that the other party was in a deep sleep, he gently pulled the quilt for Gu Yifenen, covering the other party's waist and abdomen that was prone to cold.

Niu Keqing curled up his limbs, touched his forehead to Gu Yifening's chest, touched the warm skin between his eyebrows, and could clearly feel the ups and downs of the other's breathing.

Just pretend that you don’t know anything, just pretend that we are all asleep.

Let's go quietly.

The night was extremely quiet, except for the sound of the second hand of the alarm clock "tapping and tapping", Niu Keqing could also hear Gu Yifening's heartbeat, one after another.

When a person is sleeping, the heartbeat is calm and gentle, with hot blood flowing in the heart, like the gurgling water of a mountain stream, like the warm breeze in spring.

"Pounding", "pounding", "pounding".

Smooth, clear and lively.

It was as if a fluctuating electrocardiogram appeared in front of Niu Keqing's eyes, with a light red curve, ups and downs, which was a unique jumping frequency in this world.

It was only then that Niu Keqing realized that there was something more heart-pounding than sex——

Surrounded in a warm embrace, listening closely to each other's heartbeat.

I can't bear to sleep.

Probably because of the warmth in his body, Niu Keqing couldn't help his eyelids fight, and finally fell into a deep sleep until the day came and the sun rose.

In the early morning, Niu Ke woke up and opened his eyes one by one. The curtains in the room were drawn tightly. If the alarm clock was not ringing non-stop, he would have thought he was still in the middle of the night.

He came back to his senses, turned off the noisy alarm clock, looked at the slightly sunken bed beside him, and was a little dazed.

As a single person, waking up alone is the norm, but last night...he slept with someone.

But now, that person has left.

In fact, when he hugged Guifenin last night, he had expected the scene when he woke up——

The two woke up at the same time, looked at each other and smiled, kissed the forehead affectionately in the morning, and went to wash up after a while.

They can have a heart-to-heart breakfast face to face, chat about what big news has happened in the medical field, and then go to work in the hospital talking and laughing together.

But expectations are expectations after all. Excessive fantasies only exist in non-nutritive brain supplements. No matter how lingering and hot the night before, it is nothing but a ecstatic illusion.

Once the sun rises, all he can see after waking up is a cold, empty bed, as if yesterday's warmth was just an illusion.

The warmth felt in that person's arms disappeared, and Niu Keqing seemed to be given the loudest slap in the empty bed——

Don't have illusions.

He thought again: Maybe for Gu Ifening, he was just a quilt that he wanted to hug tightly when he was afraid of the cold, and when it was not cold, he would consciously put it aside and no longer need it.

Niu Keqing sat up propped up, his mind was still in a daze, and his psoas and legs were a little sore.

Last night, he and Guifenin fucked and fucked, and almost collapsed the bed, and his body was really a little bit unbearable.

"Ah..." Niu Keqing raised his hand and patted his drowsy head, trying to wake himself up.

Turning his head, he saw a small note on the desk lamp on the bedside table——

"Morning, let's go first. Thank you Doctor Niu for allowing me to stay overnight last night and covering me with the quilt."

The handwriting hasn't changed at all, it's still the delicate lower case script, exactly the same as it was in college.

Niu Keqing laughed helplessly for the first time in the morning, "Why is this person... After so many years, he still likes to leave notes..."

He crumpled the note into a small ball, and was about to throw it into the trash can, but the moment he stretched out his hand, he stopped.

I was a little bit reluctant.

After hesitating for a while, Niu Keqing smoothed out the useless waste paper, folded it neatly, and put it in the drawer next to it, just like a little boy is collecting a precious love letter.

However, the moment he closed the drawer, he was stunned for a moment: What stupid thing is this doing?If Gu Yifenen found out, he would have to laugh at him to death.

Those who care will always be laughed at too seriously by those who don't.

"I really..." Niu Keqing opened the drawer again, took out the small note that was put in just a second ago, and murmured: "It's so stupid..."

He clearly understood Guifenin in his heart——

That ancient beauty is a prodigal son in love, and knows how to get out in time.It is the fundamental means for this kind of people to avoid all troubles without emotion.

He is gentle and humorous, has a very gentlemanly demeanor, and knows how to speak sweetly... These shining points are just the means he uses to seduce people's hearts.

Even if it's just a purely physical relationship, Guifenin is extremely considerate to his bed partner by his pillow. He is superficial and tries his best to play a gentle and considerate role every time.

But afterward, people go without a trace.

Some children who have just come out to play have not seen many people's hearts, and will naively mistake this kind of "considerateness" shown in the show as "true love", and take a chance, thinking that they will be the only one for this Mr. Gu in the rest of his life.

At this time, Guifenin always said the sexiest words in the sexiest voice: "That's it, us."

The moved sparrows comforted themselves sadly: at least, the sunken place on the bed was the trace of his warmth from last night.

But Niu Keqing is different from those naive people. He has been in this circle a lot, and has a clear understanding of people like Gu Yifening, so he has long warned himself not to be addicted, not to be tempted.

Yes, the rules of the game are already there: try to enjoy what you can have, and don't have any hope for others.

He, Niu Keqing, has never been a hypocritical person, let alone a bird who worries about gains and losses and hurts the spring and autumn.

——Probably having figured this out, he tore up the note in his hand little by little, and threw it into the trash can at his feet.

The shreds of paper were scattered and fell into the trash can.Niu Keqing didn't take a second look, just turned his head, stared at the extra pillow on the bed, and said lightly, "Morning."

The man got up, walked to the window with his slippers on, and opened the curtains from the center to the two sides. The bright sunlight instantly filled the entire room, illuminating every corner.

Morning came as expected.

"The weather is fine," he lazily twisted his sore waist, considering whether to buy some plasters for the elderly.

After taking a clean shower, putting on a white shirt and black trousers, and a high-end brand-name tie, Niu Keqing dressed himself up in his usual casual look, and went to work in a chic and dignified manner.

Even if it's just an illusion.