too embarrassing

"I heard oh,

The sound of something important breaking,

not Pata,

But bang. "

——"Confession"

That night, Niu Keqing had a dream.

The dream was the scene where he confessed to Gu Yifenen.

It's just that in this dream, he became very humble and regretful, and all his last stubbornness and dignity disappeared.

After Dr. Gu uttered those ruthless and decisive words, he took the other person's hand, like a loser who surrendered, and couldn't wait to admit his "mistake"——

"I was wrong, sorry."

"I take it back."

"I don't like you, not at all."

"I will not love you, I dare not love you."

"Please, don't drive me away."

He knelt bitterly in front of Guifenin, like a person who didn't know how to control his emotions, crying loudly, with a sad face, and no self-esteem at all.

However, that person was indifferent, and just stared at him from above, his light blue eyes were like cold blades for murder, disgusting, indifferent, ruthless, and evasive...

The gentle and considerate doctor Gu disappeared, and took away all the good things he had done to him, leaving nothing behind.

"Ah—" Waking up from the dream in a trance, Niu Keqing was not awakened by shock, but by pain.

The man burst into tears, his heart throbbed with pain, and he could only gasp for breath to relieve the heart-piercing pain.

What's wrong with liking someone?

But it would be wrong to like Guifenin.

He overestimated his own importance and underestimated that person's cruelty, so he foolishly turned his secret love into an open love, and permanently turned this relationship into an unrequited love.

He who committed this mistake will not be forgiven, he will only be expelled, driven to an extremely cold place where no grass grows, and he will never be able to love that person passionately again.

However, he couldn't admit his mistakes and beg for mercy like in his dream.

He can't be that humble.

Contrary to the lovelorn Niu Keqing, Gu Yifening slept peacefully that night.

When he woke up the next day, he still felt that he was in great shape, almost perfect.

Has it been affected?

No, it's very good.

He ate a delicious breakfast, washed, shaved, and dressed to go to work. He looked radiant and personable, and his mood was as bright as the sun today.

Still can't help wanting to hum a song.

Everything is working as usual.

Except for a little bit of weirdness, he always looked at his watch subconsciously, and looked at it frequently.Other people who bow their heads look at their mobile phones, but he looks at his watch.

I watched it eight times while eating breakfast, five times while getting dressed, thirteen times while driving, and six times while taking the elevator...

After work breaks, lunch breaks, occasional smoking, writing work reports...all the time he cares about and doesn't care about, he will subconsciously look at his watch.

what's on the tableHave time.

Every time he saw the time on the watch, Guifenin would be slightly startled and distressed for no reason——

How did time pass so slowly?

Slowly, slowly, the hour and minute hands are always refusing to move, they can't even be pushed, and walking around seems to have passed a century.

Has it been less than ten hours since he and Niu Keqing ended their relationship?

Is it less than twelve hours?

Less than thirteen and a half hours?

Just under sixteen hours and four ten minutes?

……

Why does it always feel like it's been a long time?

It's as if every minute and every second has been infinitely extended, everything around me has been slowed down, the heartbeat has also slowed down, and the thoughts have also slowed down.

After looking down at his watch for the 180th eighth time, Guifenin finally realized that he was actually... not good at all.

In fact, he was in terrible shape.

I slept well last night after taking sleeping pills. I forgot to squeeze toothpaste when I brushed my teeth. I scratched the corner of my mouth when I shave. Almost ran a red light while driving...

He is lying to himself.

He just pretended to be good, pretended to be like every time before, and after getting rid of his bed partner, he was unburdened, refreshed, and then happily rushed to the next relationship.

But this time, there seemed to be something wrong with him.

The train went off track and turned over.

The appearance of Niu Keqing crying and laughing has always been lingering in his mind, like an indelible memory, deeply branded on every nerve of him.

Eyes open, eyes closed, can see.

That person has always been as arrogant as a crane, and his fake gentle skin is invulnerable, how can he show weakness to this extent...

What kind of terrible thing is love that can turn a person into this?Is it poison?Is it witchcraft?

Why did you show a fragile look in front of me, which made my heart tingle, why did you drag me into the water?

Niu Keqing is no longer the original Niu Keqing, what about me?Am I still the original me?

......

All kinds of intertwined thoughts are intertwined, more difficult to understand than a pile of tangled wool, and Guifenin's heart is in a mess.

Sting like a bee sting.

He couldn't think about it anymore, he couldn't care about it anymore, he forcibly supported the vitality of his body, trying to whitewash himself a little easier, pretending to be a normal person, living and working normally as usual.

...But, everything around him is against him.

In the morning, Director Liang said that he wanted to have a root canal treatment recently.When Guifenin heard this, he raised his mouth subconsciously, saying that he knew a friend in the dentistry department.

Director Liang nodded again and again and said, "Okay, okay, please introduce us."

Guifenin picked up the phone, opened the address book, and put it down silently after a few seconds.

He said, I remembered wrongly, I don't have such a friend.

The man rubbed his blue eyes twice, walked out of the department feeling lost, and went to the hospital cafeteria for lunch.After working hard all morning, he was hungry and queued for a long time just to have a hot meal.

When it was finally his turn, the aunt who took the meal shook the spoon twice, and warmly recommended: "Handsome guy, the stir-fried beef with green peppers is delicious today."

It was "cow" and "green". Doctor Gu lost his appetite and left the dining hall without even eating.

His stomach was empty, but he planned to buy something to drink, so he walked to a vending machine.

He looked at the Sprite-Cola orange soda inside, and suddenly remembered that a dentist told him that carbonated beverages damage teeth.

So, he wanted to drink Coke, he bought a bottle of coffee.

After unscrewing the bottle cap, Guifenin froze for a moment before remembering which dentist had said this.

However, the above are just the tip of the iceberg.

More often, Niu Keqing was like a curse, lingering in his mind lingeringly.

He felt dazed.

A dentist surnamed Niu played a trick on him.

Gu Yifening didn't believe in evil, he suppressed his emotions and tried hard to control his thoughts, but once he let down his vigilance, Niu Keqing began to run amok in his world again.

So he put on the headphones and brainwashed himself with a hodgepodge of various music. The man leaned on the chair for a morning rest, trying to fall asleep while listening to the music.

When you wake up, you should be able to forget about it.

5 minute later.

"Doctor Gu."

Niu Keqing was talking in his head.

Guifenin took off his earphones.

For the first time, he experienced the feeling that his brain was out of his control. Niu Keqing's eyes, body, voice, and everything about Niu Keqing played in his mind like a video tape.

It made him so irritated that he wanted to stamp his foot against the wall and howl.

Obviously he was the one who offered to separate from the other party, but when he lost this relationship, he actually cared too much.

Is it because what's lost is especially thought-provoking?

fart!

He was not like this before, every time he got rid of a friend with sex, he was very chic, and he was able to get out of it every time, and it was the same this time!

Yes yes, it's over, it's over, it's just a friend with benefits, what is it?What can he liquidate?

Guifenin returned to the lounge, leaned against the back of the chair sluggishly, squeezed the bridge of his nose with his fingers, and reminded himself: "It's over, it's over, it's over..."

Then he looked at his watch again.

Has it only been nineteen hours and five minutes?

After get off work, Guifenin drove around the city, lap after lap.In the middle of winter, he opened the car windows, trying to wake himself up with the cold wind.

The man drove through the bustling streets and the secluded bridge, and didn't return to the community until after eleven o'clock.

Coming out of the open parking lot, he happened to meet Niu Keqing...and another man.

Niu Keqing was drunk, supported by Qu Jiawen with both hands, his head drooped weakly, and his footsteps were vain.

Looking at it like this, it looks like the body was picked up by a womanizer after drinking too much.

"Hey, I'll go, do you know how much you weigh? I'm almost exhausted..." Qu Jiawen really wanted to throw his bad friend on the street to fend for himself.

Niu Keqing blushed twice on his face, and said to him: "I can walk by myself, but my feet are a little soft. If you are too tired, you can sleep at my house tonight."

A bystander with an ancient surname: ...? !

There are too many misunderstandings caused by angle problems.

At this moment, in Gu Yifening's eyes, Niu Keqing and the strange man were sticking tightly together, just like two pieces of double-sided tape stuck together.

Doctor Niu's slender waist was hugged tightly, and that salty pig's hand would sometimes press on his buttocks, groping randomly.The strange man was still trying his best to take advantage of it, and from time to time, his broken mouth touched Dr. Niu's face and ears, taking advantage of everything.

The world is going down!Moral bankruptcy!Bad conduct!frenzied!shameless!There is no pardon!Don't keep women's morals!

Gu Yfening knew that he and Niu Keqing had separated, that he should act as if he hadn't heard or seen anything, and knew that everything about Niu Keqing had nothing to do with him...

The rising blood and the sinking rationality are constantly fighting and fighting fiercely.

"Hold!"

The so-called upbringing, demeanor, and reason were all burnt out by the anger. Guifenin gritted his back teeth and swears angrily.

The man stared angrily, clenched his fists tightly, and walked straight towards the pair of "dog men and men".