too embarrassing

"Love is like a bowl of hot water, it will cool down sooner or later. I'm leaving, hee hee."

——Mr. Niu, an enthusiastic citizen

Gu Yifening saw the aid-to-Tibet list on the bulletin board of the hospital——

"With the steadfast mission of saving lives and healing the wounded, assuming the simple original intention of practicing doctors, sending high-quality medical resources and advanced technologies to places where the country needs them most, and contributing to the medical profession and society..."

In black and white background, the name of "Niu Keqing" is on the personnel list.

Gu Yvening stood in front of the bulletin board, dazed all afternoon.

A trembling hand caressed the notice, and rubbed the words "Niu Keqing" vigorously with his fingertips, but he couldn't erase the name no matter what.

That person really wants to leave?

"Niu Keqing, you are so cruel..."

"Sir, would you like something to drink?"

"Water, thank you."

It's a dark night.

Niu Keqing was sitting on the flight to Tibet, looking quietly at the white wings and gray clouds outside through a small transparent window on the left.

The sound of the plane starting made a huge hum, the water in the glass trembled slightly, and the starry sky seemed to be within reach.

The tiredness around him reminded him that this was a long journey, and he needed to cross most of the motherland.

Niu Keqing was very confused about the upcoming life of aiding Tibet, but at the same time he was a little relieved, because he could finally escape from that city and the people in that city.

Parting from a fatherly person and being separated from a loved one is an unbearable pain, and Niu Keqing, who has experienced both at the same time, does not know what to do.

But he knew that he couldn't let himself be depressed, and couldn't immerse himself in pain, that would make him look weak.

So, he applied to be a volunteer doctor to aid Tibet, and he only spent half a day thinking about it.

It is a job that requires a strong will. He and his colleagues will radiate advanced medical resources to Tibet, help local backward hospitals and health centers, and provide assistance in all aspects.

In fact, Niu Keqing's original intention was not very great, he just wanted to transfer his beliefs, and he didn't want to let himself depend on someone to live.

Perhaps at the moment of making the decision, the free will of his youth returned. With the supreme awe of life and the incomparable weariness of the past, he made this "deviant" decision.

One year, it is an opportunity to give yourself a new metabolism.

In his mobile phone, there were countless missed calls, all of which were from that person, but Niu Keqing didn't answer any of them because it was unnecessary.

Of course, he didn't have any grudges against that person, he could even understand him.It's just human nature, self-interest, selfishness, and solipsism, these are the common points of the two of them, and it can be understood by empathy.

It's just that Niu Keqing doesn't want to make life difficult for herself anymore, and she doesn't want to embarrass the other party. If you love, you will love, if you don't love, you won't love. If you are too obsessed with love, it may be nothing in the end.

As the teacher once said to him: "Except life and death is not a big deal."

Apart from life and death in the world, everything else can be taken lightly.

Niu Keqing had a hard time when he first arrived in Tibet.

The area in need of assistance is very backward and there is a serious shortage of various medical resources. Niu Keqing and his colleagues climbed up to a plateau of more than 4000 meters and went deep into pastoral areas to deliver medical care and medicine to the poor.

The natural conditions and living conditions are very harsh. They live in small bungalows in pastoral areas most of the time. They are not used to the diet and climate, and often encounter many difficulties and dangers.

One of the most tormenting people is altitude sickness.

Chest tightness, cleft lip, nasal bleeding, and even difficulty breathing. In this state, a single cold may kill someone.

Because of his thin body, Niu Keqing has a particularly strong altitude sickness, and needs oxygen inhalation from time to time.

Colleagues were a little worried about his physical condition: "Are you sure you can survive? Doctor Niu,"

"Yes," Niu Keqing said firmly.

In order not to hold everyone back, he started an hour of slow exercise every day, insisted on improving his physique in low-oxygen areas, and at the same time regarded eating as a task that must be completed, forcing himself to consume enough energy.

Gradually, this altitude sickness was overcome.

Although the life here is very difficult, the shining moments that Niu Keqing met always make all the hardships worthwhile.

An old herdsman in the Tibetan area brought him buttered tea, which is very fragrant and strong, and can also keep out the cold. "Doctor Niu, thank you for curing me."

The old man who delivered the tea was very grateful to Niu Keqing. Some time ago, his mouth was severely ulcerated, and Dr. Niu cured him.

Niu Keqing accepted the gift of thanks with a light and affectionate expression, and smiled clearly: "No thanks, it's what I should do."

Like this old man, there are many simple-minded people here. They are warm, kind, simple and selfless, and they know how to reciprocate kindness.

When getting along with the locals, Niu Keqing always feels warm in his heart. His once broken heart was healed in these simple and touching moments.

Later, half a year later, the man was fully immersed in the new environment, and his daily life became busy and pure, not only treating patients, but also teaching local dental students.

"Mr. Niu, help me see how this case can be improved?"

"You have done a good job, and this medical plan has full marks."

"Really?" The male student was delighted.

"However, even if it is a hundred points, people can also achieve one hundred and one points. Come, let me teach you, here..."

Every time Niu Keqing looked at these students, it was as if he saw himself in college: diligent in learning, inquisitive, endlessly exploring knowledge, and full of enthusiasm and compassion for the world.

"Teacher, you see, I am also a teacher." That night, Niu Keqing sat on the bench in front of the house, looking at the bright stars in the night sky, muttering so.

He missed his old friend, so he sent his condolences to a distant star.

The man sat here alone, smoking an unlit cigarette, and suddenly felt very lonely.

But he doesn't regret coming here. People have countless ways to be lonely. In this case, why not choose a way of dedication and dedicate the lonely time to people in need.

An old woman in a pastoral area walked by with her child and greeted him warmly: "Good evening, Doctor Niu!"

Niu Keqing froze for a moment, and responded heartily: "Good evening."

Whenever these three words came out of his mouth, his heart would tremble.

It had been so many days that every time someone said "good evening" to him, he would think of that person.

Because it is true love, so how could it not be remembered?

That person's face is like a faint phantom left by the time, day and night are inseparable from his heart, and never really fade away.

He thinks about Doctor Gu every day.

However, this does not seem to be an obsession anymore.

Probably because the environment washes people's hearts. On this pure soil, facing such beautiful people every day, no matter how much hostility and filth there is in their hearts, they are enough to be washed away.

Today's Niu Keqing recalls this love, and his mood is much calmer, the heart-piercing feeling gradually fades away, and he returns to a broad-minded and normal heart.

The last time he chatted with herdsmen in Tibetan areas, a little girl asked him: "Doctor Niu, do you have a date?"

Niu Keqing shook his head: "No."

The little girl blushed and asked him, "Then...do you have someone you like?"

Niu Keqing nodded: "Yes."

"Ah?" The little girl was disappointed and surprised, "Then you are not together?"

Niu Keqing smiled, and played with the weeds on the ground with his hands: "Hey, he doesn't like me."

He said the last sentence with a smile, not a wry smile, but a calm smile, because he was really not that sad.

The mentality of each stage of life is different. When he thought of the time of constant cutting and chaos, he was no longer painful, no longer sad, but thought a lot.

He thinks that those disputes and entanglements may be experienced by everyone who pursues love, and the final result depends on how the other party responds.

In love, not being able to ask and getting what one wants are common phenomena. Since he belongs to the former, he should not force the other party, nor should he embarrass himself.

One sentence, why be stubborn.

The little girl rested her cheeks on her hands, her mouth was flattened, and she lamented that such a good doctor Niu had an unrequited love, "It's a pity...that sister must be a great beauty."

"What's there to be sorry for?" Niu Keqing gave her a brain, and said with a smile, "I've seen it all myself, but you're making me feel sorry for me?"

"Everybody wants a perfect match," muttered another little girl.

"I used to think like you too. I thought I was affectionate and almost drove that 'big beauty' crazy. Then..." Niu Keqing didn't finish speaking, deliberately teasing them.

"What happened afterwards?" "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh doctor Niu, how can you stay in suspense? You are so bad!" The cute little girls yelled.

The corner of the man's eyes rolled: "I won't tell you, just guess."

Of course, he didn't know it himself, but... let it be.