too embarrassing

"I also wasted my time, and I was so reckless that I regarded death as home, but because I fell in love with you, I began to long for a long life."

--"In good health"

The pneumonia epidemic has been severe recently, and many medical staff have been sent to fight the epidemic in the hospital.Because Dr. Niu and Dr. Gu are not involved in their professional fields, they still stay in the hospital.

Many of their colleagues and friends have worked hard on the front line and made great efforts to fight against pneumonia. Sometimes news that a doctor was unfortunately infected will be sent back, which makes everyone feel very heavy.

That night, the first thing Dr. Gu did after returning home was to hug Dr. Niu tightly. The two of them snuggled up to each other at the door without even taking off their masks.

Like two people hugging each other for warmth.

Niu Keqing patted him on the back lightly, and asked, "What's wrong? Gu Liangzi."

Gu Yifen didn't say a word, just hugged him and refused to let go. Niu Keqing knew that silence was better than sound at this time, so he let him hug him silently for a while.

It is a very safe thing to be close to your lover's chest. Guifenin's restless heart is stable, and he is grateful to have a partner who can reach a tacit understanding with him anytime and anywhere.

He didn't even need to say why he did this, why he silently begged for a hug, Niu Keqing had already understood him and digested the difficult emotions for him.

Before going to bed at night, Gu Yifenen came out of the shower, and suddenly wrapped the whole cow with a quilt, and wrapped it into a long soft roll, leaving only one head exposed for ventilation.

Niu Keqing: "..."

He couldn't move, so he blew helplessly on the other person's face, making Dr. Gu's eyelashes tremble a few times, and asked him, "Honey, do you have something to say?"

Gu Yvening didn't respond to him, and rubbed the "beef roll noodles" vigorously, couldn't put it down, and then hugged him tightly in his arms.

Niu Keqing looked at him angrily, so he closed his eyes and pretended to sleep for a while.

He waited for a long time and there was still no sound from the other party, so he raised one eye halfway, a little annoyed: "If you don't talk again, I will fall asleep."

The thick quilt was unbearably warm, and the sound of his lover's shallow and slow breathing was hypnotic, making him feel drowsy for a while, and he could barely lift his eyelids.

After a long silence, Gu Yifening said: "When I chose to study medicine, I never thought that being a doctor should be prepared to sacrifice at any time."

If it was really because of what happened recently, Dr. Niu guessed that Dr. Gu was feeling uncomfortable and wanted to seek comfort from him.

"I know what you're thinking," Niu Keqing said, "but the world is so impermanent, the epidemic will come as soon as it is said, and doctors have the duties of doctors."

Gu Yverning sighed heavily, thoughtfully.

He has many acquaintances who are dedicated to the front line. Not only do they work hard every day, but they also have to face the risk of being infected. At the same time, they have to be separated from their family and loved ones. It is too much to bear.

Niu Keqing struggled to pull his arm out of the quilt, and gently stroked his back, "They are heroes and fighters, and everything they do is worthy of admiration."

"I know, it's just..." Dr. Gu lowered his eyes, unable to tell what kind of feeling it was, "I suddenly feel quite afraid of death."

"Everyone is afraid of death."

"I wasn't that afraid before, but after having you, I often think about it."

After the wandering heart has a belonging in the world, it will start to be tied and hooked, it will fear parting, think about life and death, and think about whether it will not be able to let go of the one it loves when it dies from this world one day.

This feeling brought a lot of thinking to Guifenin.

Niu Keqing's nose was a little sour, and he kicked him twice with difficulty, "What are you doing, talking about these, can you choose something good to say."

"Maybe it's because of getting old?" Guifenin didn't expect that he would become sentimental.

"Then you want to start health care? Middle-aged."

"Didn't it start a long time ago? Walk around the neighborhood with you every day."

Niu Keqing pinched the other person's waist, the skin was icy and cold, "I tell you to wear more clothes at night, don't sleep naked all the time, what should you do if you catch a cold? You're still young when you're running around."

"Who is going four? Who are you talking about going four?" Gu Yifaning turned over and pressed Niu Keqing, leaned down, and gnawed hard on the tender neck of the other party as a punishment.

Niu Keqing struggled desperately like a catfish, but unfortunately his whole body was tied up so that he couldn't move, and even his only exposed right hand was captured by the enemy.

"Doctor Gu, are you rebellious?"

"This is to remind Dr. Niu to be careful when talking in bed."

"Oh," Niu Keqing glanced down, and pursed his lips: "The way you remind me is to sit on my stomach?"

He deliberately arched his waist upwards, and Guifenin was jolted like he was riding a horse, and almost couldn't sit still and rolled under the bed.

"Can't you just sit?" Guifenin rubbed his butt across the quilt twice, as if scratching his boots, with a hint of provocation, "Don't you always like to sit on me like this? You still move around."

Niu Keqing's face was on fire as soon as he rubbed it against the ground. Sure enough, he was still slightly inferior to Dr. Gu in the skill of talking dirty.

But he didn't understand very well. A few minutes ago, this dog man was hugging him sadly and talking about the philosophy of life. Why did he suddenly start the midnight session of the Eighteen Bans?

"As a top, how can you seduce people better than me as a bottom?"

The slender handsome eyebrows raised slightly, Doctor Gu said in a chattering voice, "I'm so talented, there's nothing I can do about it."

Niu Keqing stared at him calmly, his eyes wandering from his shoulder collarbone to the mermaid line of his abdominal muscles, "Man, so do you want to chat with me at night, or do you want to have sex with me?"

"Can I only choose one of the two? Adults don't do multiple-choice questions," Dr. Gu said aggrievedly, pretending to carelessly pluck his soft, light hair.

Doctor Niu was sure that he was playing a beauty trick again, "Then what do you want, this adult?"

Gu Yverning smiled as a gentleman, and sincerely put forward a feasible suggestion: "Actually, we can talk while doing it, and the fun will become more like this."

Niu Keqing looked up to the sky and sighed, he really didn't want to play cross talk every time, chatting while doing it really exhausted his lung capacity, taking a breath was like taking a breath.

But that dog got excited and pulled the quilt on him and threw it under the bed.

Tens of seconds later, the thermal pajamas he was wearing were also thrown under the bed.

...

The clouds dispersed and gathered again, the nightingale flew and returned, and the evening wind had blown past the window for countless rounds.

The hour hand probably made two and a half laps.

The moonlight scratched people, sweat soaked in turbid body fluid flowed all over the body, and the whole room was filled with the breath of nostalgia.

Who is obviously exhausted, but still reluctant to fall asleep.

Gu Yifenen wrapped his hands and feet around the body of the person in his arms, and said softly: "I am very afraid of death, so we both have to live well, and don't let anyone go first."

"Okay," Niu Keqing promised him softly, "We want to live a long life and grow old together."