twin stars

Feng Xiangjie

Xiao Bang returned to Hangcheng after graduating from a foreign university. I thought I could finally breathe a sigh of relief and let him be independent. Who knew he would become an actor after graduation!I have been in the film and television industry for decades, and I know the hardships and difficulties of being an actor.In addition to personal talent, many times it depends on luck, opportunities and connections.Bad luck, sometimes even if you have talent, it is difficult to get ahead.And actors are no better than other industries.In other industries, the longer you enter the industry, the deeper your qualifications and the more you are valued. Most of the actors' vitality and glory period are when they are young, and the older they are, the more they are neglected.For example, now I don't have many suitable roles to play.I don't expect him to be rich, I just hope he has a stable job, stable income and a stable life, so I don't want him to engage in a career like an actor with ups and downs, or even a difficult career.Besides, I have long wanted to quit the film and television industry, trying to avoid people and things from the past, but Xiaobang wanted to step in.I was very upset about this and had a cold war with him for months.

"You are an actor yourself, Xiaobangzi inherited his father's career, why not? I support him! Besides, the child has a child's life, you can't always decide the fate for him. Even if your original intention is for his own good, have you considered him? Have you ever heard his opinion? You always say that a boy should take responsibility, so whether he succeeds or fails, it is his choice, and he will bear it himself. Don’t deprive him of the opportunity to choose.” Enron After many years Experience, experience and vision are not what they used to be, she can be independent, and she is no longer the little girl who only obeyed me in the past.Parents-in-law also support Xiaobang as an actor.There were a few votes for it, and I was the only one who voted against it, and although I was very reluctant, I finally had no choice but to compromise.

Since my son is going to be an actor, I, as a father, have to do some work to support him.Personal connections in the entertainment industry are very important. I started to get in touch with friends in the entertainment industry that I hadn’t seen for a long time, and I started to use my previous network to find opportunities for Xiaobang.If friends in the circle come to me for filming, I will try my best to agree.Kong Lee once asked me to do a cameo in one of his films about boxing.I heard that he invited Xiao Yi at the same time, but I still have the same condition: I can't act on the same stage, I can only shoot separately.He agreed, but he didn't expect that in the end he actually edited the scenes of me and Xiaoyi together.

Seeing Xiao Yi in the movie, I was filled with emotion.He and I also filmed a boxing-themed movie "The Boxer", and it has been more than 30 years since then...

Director Du, who is famous for shooting gangster films, invited me to be a guest star in his new film.Let's meet at a coffee shop.After chatting a few words, he suddenly became a little hesitant.

"Brother Jie, actually... I have an appointment with a friend!" Before the words finished, the receptionist ushered a newly arrived guest to our seats.It's Xiaoyi!His hair was cut very short, he was dressed in a dark suit, his face was as cold as a cliff, and his whole body exuded a lonely atmosphere, just like when I first saw him.We're all about to be in our 60s, but he looks like he's in his 40s.He always looks younger than his actual age, and in his 20s, he still has the mentality of a teenager.

I was so flustered that I didn't know what to do, I hurriedly picked up a cup of tea and lowered my head to sip.He was also very surprised to see me. After a while, his face returned to his stern face. He bowed and sat on the other side of Director Du, folded his arms, and stared coldly at the teacup on the tea table in silence.

The atmosphere was stiff and cold!

"Ahem, this guest appearance, the two actually only have one scene together. It's mainly about the two characters in the movie. After much deliberation, I still think it's most suitable for the two seniors to act. So the salary is not an issue, you just have to ask the price! Director Du clapped his hands and said with a smile on his face.

I peeked at Xiao Yi, his face was ugly, is he still angry because I didn't attend Zhang Dao's funeral?He still doesn't understand my heart!My heart began to ache.

"Uh..." I suppressed my emotions and said, "I've actually shot a lot of gangster movies. I thought about it, but it's still not suitable. Forget it! I have something to do, so I'm leaving first." Then, I got up and said want to leave.

"Oh, Brother Jie, that's not what you said just now." Director Du grabbed my arm in desperation to prevent me from leaving: "It's been so many years, what else can't you think about? Didn't you both say that you don't know each other? ?”

He actually mentioned what I said at the fan meeting, and he mentioned it in front of Xiao Yi. I was very embarrassed: "This, this is two different things! I, I didn't mean that..."

"Humph!" At this moment, Xiao Yi stood up suddenly, snorted coldly and said, "He won't shoot, I will! I don't want a paycheck either, just shoot!" He said, staring at me with resentful eyes, as if Two sharp swords were thrown at me.

My heart ached from being stabbed, and I whispered to Director Du: "I'm sorry..." Then I fled the coffee shop with his hand off.

My car was driving very slowly between the busy streets of the city.Noisy human voices were isolated, and my heart was alone in the car.

Xiao Yi spends most of his time in Canada. It is so rare for me to see him, but I still can't calm down and have a good talk with him.It is said that at the age of 50 you know your destiny. I have already passed 50, and I thought I had accepted my fate, but in my heart, I was still unwilling.

I have always believed that one thing will be unyielding and persevering to implement and realize; if I believe in a person, I will also persevere in pursuing and obtaining it.If you can't get it, you will never be reconciled!Because I was not reconciled, I couldn't get along with him calmly.I can't change myself, and I can't change the established facts!In this life, this is probably the only way to go!

The Zhao Group organizes a television company anniversary celebration reception.I remembered that I attended the annual meeting of Zhao Film Company with Xiao Yi many years ago. He once forced me to sing together on the stage, but because the two of them sang too badly, they were kicked off by others.Warmth, joy, sadness... All kinds of emotions filled my feverish head, and I said to the people around me through the alcohol: "I have always loved him, but I never told him, he still doesn't know! 30 years, 50 years Years... I will always love, always love!"

Lei Yi

Ajie left the coffee shop, and I collapsed on the sofa decadently.Why?Why do you want to see him very much, but why are you so unhappy when you meet him?I still can't contain my resentment.Such a rare opportunity to meet, I screwed up again!Not once can catch him!

Director Du saw that I was depressed and kept comforting me.I said that I don't want a salary, but he still forced me to give me a car.

When starring in a movie directed by Du, Brother Ma Wu and A Sen came to visit the set.

The makeup artist was doing my makeup, and the two of them were standing at the makeup table behind me chatting.

"Have you heard? The Zhao Group held an anniversary celebration not long ago, Ajie..." Brother Ma Wu deliberately lowered his voice, but I could still hear: "Ajie said to others at the celebration, 'I have always loved He, 30 years, 50 years... I will always love him!' I don't know who this 'he' is talking about?"

"Yes, yes!" Asen coughed twice, and said in a strange tone: "I don't know who this 'he' refers to?"

Ajie... Is that what you said?

I looked at myself in the mirror getting younger and younger under the hands of the makeup artist. The wrinkles around my eyes seemed to be smoothed out, and there seemed to be a smile on the corners of my mouth.Can I... still have hope?

The TV station invited me to do an interview, and we talked about the interesting things about shooting martial arts movies at Zhao Film Company.

"What do you think is the most interesting thing about shooting martial arts movies?"

"It's very romantic, you can ride a horse with your partner..." The words in my heart blurted out, and by the time I realized it, it was too late to take them back.

"Who are you riding with?" The hostess continued to ask with a smile.

"Uh...uh, just some old friends, Yue Hua, Huang Dong, and...Feng Xiangjie..." My palms were sweating, especially afraid that the host would ask about topics related to Ajie.

Fortunately, the hostess just smiled with satisfaction and didn't continue to ask further questions.

Recently, my mind is always distracted, and my words are always careless.

I hope that others will mention Ajie in front of me, but I am also afraid that they will mention it.I want to see him, but when I think of him, my expression will become very serious, so few people around me dare to mention him in front of me.

"I heard that you were very reluctant to shave your hair for the first time?" the reporter asked during an interview with the crew on the set of a Qing Dynasty costume drama.

"Yeah, at that time, I loved my hair like my life." Thinking of Ajie personally shaving my hair, I feel melancholy: "But I don't regret shaving my hair. In order to pursue the real historical effect, I always advocate shooting related themes shave their hair during film and television dramas."

"I heard that you learned a lot of skills when you were making movies, and you learned them very quickly, such as driving, playing drums, and playing the flute?"

"Yeah," the scene of Ajie learning to drive and falling into a ditch for the first time appeared in front of my eyes. His flustered appearance once made me laugh out loud: "I am smarter, Feng Xiangjie is stupid! I am lazy, and he is more persistent! "

The reporter stared at me in surprise, but I couldn't remember what I had just answered.I didn't remember until the interview appeared in the newspapers.

Numerous questions and confusions float in my mind along with the memories of the past, making me often fall into chaos.

If Ajie refuses to see me because he hates and resents me, then I can explain to him that back then I thought he cared and cared for me like a brother, and I was afraid that my love would frighten him, so I dare not Confess to him.How many times have I tried him, but each time the result disappointed me, so I missed him.I hope he won't punish me more for this, and don't hide from me for the rest of his life, even if he treats me as an ordinary friend, as long as he is willing to see me.

But he said he still loves me!Why do you love me and hide from me for the rest of your life, and you can't even do it when you're nodding acquaintance?Don't care about my feelings at all, is this his "love"?Does he know that this kind of "love" makes my life worse than death?

If he loves me, why did he say "marry in five years"?Why don't you try to be with me, but choose to marry Su Anran?His "love" is two people who are separated from each other and forget each other in the rivers and lakes?

Did he really want to be with me?If you don't want to be with me, why do you hate and blame me when you break up?If he wanted to be with me, why didn't he make it clear and tell me what he wanted?If he never intends to be with me, then his "love", I would rather not!If you don't even have the courage to be together, what kind of love is that?Do I still have to suffer for this kind of "weak" love for the rest of my life?I don't want it, I don't accept it, and I won't forgive it!

Ajie, what are you thinking?I don't understand, I don't understand!

I can not be reconciled!I am not willing to live my whole life in such a muddle-headed way!

I need to see him and ask for clarification!

Both Xiaonan and Xiaoxi found jobs in Hangcheng after graduation, and my main place of work is also Hangcheng, so I asked Yushan to move back to Hangcheng with her son.Er Ge and Xiao Er were very happy, saying that the family was finally reunited.

At the end of the year, the Hangcheng Film Bureau held a New Year's dinner.When I arrived at the venue, I heard that Ajie sneaked away after learning that I was also attending the dinner!Again... hide from me like the plague!Not long after, the news reported that he would go to the mainland to attend a fan meeting. I wanted to find him, but unfortunately I was recognized by passers-by along the way, so I had to go home.

How can I meet him?Who would have thought that the person he used to get along day and night would be incomparable to see him now!

Feng Xiangjie

Xiaoyi moved back to Hangcheng!I was pleasantly surprised and happy.But when I learned that he would also attend the New Year's Eve dinner, I hurried away.Of course it's good for him to come back, but seeing him makes me nervous, sad, and lose my composure, so it's better not to see him.Does Xiaoyi know what I mean?Anyway, whether he knew it or not, I couldn't face him.

In the second year, the Golden Inlaid Awards invited me to be an award presenter with him to present the Best Actor Award, but he and I refused to attend.A few months later, the mainland invited me to a fan meeting and screened the movie "Allure" starring him and me.Seeing the familiar voice and smile on the screen, my eyes were a little moist.

In my eyes, he will always look like when he was young: flamboyant, eccentric, innocent, lonely and stubborn, melancholy and fragile... Even the vicissitudes of life will not change his appearance in my heart.

"Lei Yi is a wonderful person!" I praised sincerely at the press conference.

In fact, I really want to add: that boy's smile is the most beautiful in the world!

Why did you let me see it, but couldn't get it?If I hadn't seen it, I wouldn't have such greed and obsession, and I wouldn't be so attached to it!This is "Once the sea was too difficult to be water, except Wushan is not a cloud"?

I spent most of my life trying to forget him, but in the end, I was back to the starting point.

Maybe traveling in mountains and rivers can relieve the mood.While I was still able to walk, I made an appointment with my friends to travel to Tibet together.A living Buddha in Tibet once wrote a poem: "How many secrets does a person need to hide in order to spend his life skillfully? This Buddha-shining plateau, three steps and two steps is heaven. But there are still so many people, because of their thoughts Heavy, but unable to walk (Cangyang Gyatso)." I walked to the Potala Palace, but as the poem said, I couldn't enter heaven.

The living Buddha who wrote poetry once had a lover who couldn't stay together.The Living Buddha keeps reincarnating, but his lover is nowhere to be found. Those who cannot stay together in this life will be unable to stay together in the next life!

If there is a next life, will Xiao Yi and I still meet?I don't know, and I don't want to think about it.Maybe I will be an eagle in my next life, and I will never understand what is affection and what is love, that would be even better!

After Wang Zhan passed away, the Hangcheng music world lost a genius, and the "Four Great Talents" in Hangcheng also lost one.He was very down and out for a period of time. His girlfriend who had been with him for more than ten years broke up with him. The entertainment company he ran went bankrupt and closed down.I invited him to drink, chat with him, let him vent at the wine table.Afterwards he said that he wanted to commit suicide that day, thanks to me being by his side.In this world, everyone may encounter sad trials and hurdles, and no one can have smooth sailing.At this time, the help of friends is very important, but the most important thing is to rely on yourself.Wang Zhan finally cheered up, met a new girlfriend, and with the help of the new girlfriend, he got out of financial difficulties and made a comeback in his career.He is grateful to me, and I don't need much gratitude from him.When my friend is in trouble, I really want to help; but if my friend is doing well, I am not willing to bother him.He died of lung cancer last year, and he has always been taken care of and accompanied by people around him, and his evening scene is considered complete.I didn't expect friends of the same age to pass away so quickly by my side!

Not long after, news came from a friend that Wang Yu also died of cancer.When he was young, he and A Sheng were both rising kung fu comedy stars of the Zhao Film Company, but because of racing with A Sheng, he indirectly caused A Sheng to die in a car accident.For this reason, he has been regretting and guilty, becoming increasingly depressed and decadent, and addicted to drugs/addictions. His relatives and friends have tried their best, but they still can't cheer him up. They can only watch him walk on the road of self-destruction.Sometimes, the turning point of a person's fate is often in the blink of an eye.

After the age of sixty, it's like a floodgate is opened. Every once in a while, there will be news of the death of an old friend.I was very sad, I would never go to the funeral attended by Xiao Yi, I didn't want to double the painful memories.

"Ajie, I found out that I have advanced lung cancer, and the days are numbered!" Brother Ma Wu invited me to his house for dinner and said that he had something to discuss with me.But as soon as he opened his mouth, I was so surprised that I knocked over the teacup, and the tea spilled all over the table.

"Brother Ma Wu!" I grabbed his shoulder, feeling indescribably sad.

"Don't be sad, people are getting older, sooner or later there will be a day, think about it! We are friends, you have helped me a lot, and I have helped you. I hope you will do me one last favor this time!"

"What's the matter?" I asked, holding back my tears.

"At the funeral, I want you to be my spirit supporter! Of course, Xiao Yi will also be my spirit supporter. But if you don't agree, I will die with regret!"

I looked at him helplessly and sadly, and after a while, I nodded and said, "Okay!"

Lei Yi

Opening this "Ask the Buddha" is like talking to the Buddha with your own soul.

"I asked the Buddha: Why are there so many regrets in the world?

Buddha said: This is a whirling world, whirling is regret.No regrets, no matter how much happiness is given to you, you will not experience happiness.

I asked the Buddha: How can people no longer feel lonely in their hearts?

The Buddha said: Every heart is born lonely and incomplete, and most of them spend their lives with this incompleteness, just because when they meet the other half who can make it complete, they are either negligent or miss it, or they have lost the qualification to own it.

I asked the Buddha: What should I do if I meet someone I can love, but I am afraid that I will not be able to grasp it?

The Buddha said: How much love is left in the world, to welcome the thousand changes in the floating world, and to do happy things with lovers, don't ask whether it is a robbery or a fate! "(Cangyang Gyatso)

If I had reached out and grabbed Ajie earlier, would our lives have been completely different?Now, he is my destiny and my calamity.

Day by day, year by year, I waited hard and endured slowly.Is he really going to put me in the ground?

My old friend Hong Bao, whom I hadn’t seen for a long time, invited me to a circle party held in his villa.I had no intention of chatting with people I didn't know very well. Holding a glass of wine, I wanted to go to a secluded place. Unexpectedly, the balcony was already occupied by several young actors dressed in trendy clothes.

I was about to leave when a young actor said:

"That 'Old Antique' is starting to make sense again?"

"Yeah, I just called him a senior, and he took advantage of his old man to sell his old man. He dragged me to lecture for a long time, and even recited some poems that I didn't understand. The name 'Old Antique' is really well-deserved!"

"Who told you to get involved with him? He is famous in the film and television industry for being preachy. Last time I just quarreled with the prop master, he stood up and taught me, saying that young people should know how to respect their seniors and not Because he is a behind-the-scenes worker, he bosses around the old senior. Isn’t he just a prop master, what’s wrong with scolding him? He’s really a dog and a mouse, meddling in his own business!”

"I heard that he is very pedantic. He helped people to make cameos for free. The producer gave him a red envelope, but he said that the red envelope is equivalent to film salary and needs to be taxed. The producer couldn't laugh or cry. He wanted to help him avoid taxes. He didn't appreciate it. Tell young actors not to evade taxes, I will die laughing! He has money to push out, but don't hinder other people's money."

"Yeah, what he said is to maintain the image of an actor and not create a bad impression on the public. These days, the image of an actor depends entirely on the company's packaging. Who would take it seriously in private? If you follow his requirements, you must be decent and behaved Moment, duty, and duty, will anyone still hang out in the film and television industry?"

"Haha, I heard that he once fought and went to prison when he was young, and his conduct is not necessarily good, right? He has his own flaws, and he likes to teach others!"

"Crack!" I smashed the wine glass on the edge of the flower pot.

Startled, several young actors turned and looked at me in astonishment.

"What's the matter?" Hong Bao happened to pass by, and came to the balcony with a big belly.

"The quality of young actors nowadays is really not as good as the previous generation." I stared coldly at the few young people with stunned faces: "There are seniors who are willing to mention them, but they actually ridicule them. They evade taxes themselves and laugh at others for paying taxes normally. Hmph , When people from the tax bureau come to the door one day, they are just waiting to cry! I don’t pay attention to character, and there are too many stains. If competitors play tricks and just find someone to use, they can ruin a person’s stardom. Don't understand the complexity of the world, don't listen to the advice of people who have experienced it, don't know how to manage contacts and word of mouth, and start playing big names with a little bit of fame, do you think you can be popular for a long time?"

Hong Bao looked at the expressions on everyone's faces, and guessed the point: "Yes, the young people nowadays are really too impetuous, and they don't have the fine qualities of respecting teachers and hard work of our generation. If you weigh yourself, you can get The achievements of the seniors? A group of brats who don’t understand anything, and I brought them into the industry, really disgrace me! Why don’t you thank Brother Yi for your guidance?”

Several young people hurriedly nodded and bowed to me to admit their mistakes, and then slipped away one by one.

"Don't be angry, don't be as knowledgeable as these brats." Hong Bao patted me on the back and said with a smile: "Strange, I rarely see you haggling with the younger generation. They don't know good from bad, so you just ignore them. Why are you so angry today?"

I didn't answer.

They are laughing at Ajie, how can I not be angry?Especially when they also mentioned that he was imprisoned in a fight.

As soon as I closed my eyes, I seemed to be able to see the bruises and swollen scars on Ajie's body.Back then, he beat someone and went to jail because of me, almost ruined his star career, and was still beaten severely in the detention center...

My heart ached and I felt suffocating. I quickly took out the medicine bottle and swallowed a tablet.When I think about Ajie, I tend to have a heart attack.

Whether you hate him or blame him, you can't erase the fact that I owe him too much!If I knew the ending would be to leave decisively, why did he treat me so well in the first place?Why let me fall and make me unable to extricate myself?How can I pay back what I owe him?Paying off debts, severing love, and being tortured for a lifetime, do I owe him, or does he owe me?

In the dream, there was the roar of car motors and the clatter of leather shoes.I opened my eyes, and I was actually sitting in an old car—the old car I sold!Ajie walked in front of the street, with his hands in his pockets, without looking back.I followed him slowly in the classic car.This street is very long and has no end.This is a scene from our first film, The Blind Spot.

I shouted Ajie's name loudly and honked the car horn vigorously, but there was no sound, only the sound of the motor and the leather shoes under Ajie's feet.I also couldn't jump out of the classic car to chase Ajie, and we always kept a fixed distance between us.Isn't this scene a metaphor for our lives?

I silently prayed in my heart: Ajie, look back at me, look back at me!When will you turn back?Do you know how many years I have been waiting for you?Can I only look at your back forever?

Brother Ma Wu has passed away!

When it was detected, it was already in the advanced stage of lung cancer, and it didn't last for a few months.According to family members, he passed away without much pain.

Director Zhang is from the generation of the father, but brother Ma Wu is from the same generation as us.In fact, we are all half-buried in the loess, and he just took a step first.

Brother Ma Wu was very popular during his lifetime, and many good friends in the circle came to see him off.Hong Bao, Fang Shijie and I are all spirit supporters.Unexpectedly, Ajie also agreed to help Ling.

We did not communicate in the mourning hall, and there were four or five people separated in the middle.I deliberately didn't look at him, but the back of my head seemed to have eyes, as if I was always paying attention to his movements.My whole body can't calm down, I always want to do some small movements, and my heart is like a drum beating, and I can't be at peace.

How long has it been since we last met?It's been nearly ten years... In these years, my two daughters have been married, and I have added a few grandchildren and granddaughters.Yushan fell seriously ill and walked through the gate of hell.I have also had heart surgery.

How much time do I have?How long can we wait for Ajie?

Does he really want me to die?

He stood on the left side of the coffin, and I stood on the right side of the coffin.Our hands are on the coffin at the same time, and we are touching death at the same time.He was standing slightly forward and I could see him out of the corner of my eye.His figure is still so tall and straight, but his head is slightly lowered, his face is more vicissitudes and older, as if he has been ravaged by wind and frost, and has never gained ease and comfort.Why doesn't he take good care of himself?Isn't everything carried out according to his wishes, shouldn't he be satisfied?Why do you look so unhappy?How can I hate him like this?

When we were parting, he came up to me to shake hands with me, and said in a low voice, "Be careful, pay attention to your body!" After speaking, he quickly raised his head, and strode away with the same restraint and clumsiness as when he was young.

For a moment, my heart was full of grievances, bitterness and unwillingness.My eyes were sore, and it took all my self-control to keep myself from crying on the spot.

I didn't expect... Wait for such a sentence!He can ignore me for decades, why say such caring words now?What should I do with him?Neither love nor hate!What should I do with myself?

When I was on the island, I was fortunate enough to meet a Buddhist master who devoted himself to promoting Chinese culture through Buddhism.The Great Compassion Hall of a temple in a Buddhist holy place in the mainland was completed, and a Buddha statue consecration ceremony was held at the same time, and he was invited to watch the ceremony.He asked me if I would like to go with me.He said that I have been burdened by the fate of the world, and I feel uncomfortable in my heart. It is better to walk around more, let my eyes wander, and my heart is open, and I may encounter a chance to turn around.Under his persuasion, I took Yushan and followed him to the temple with a tourist mentality.

The temple is full of incense, and there are many tourists watching the ceremony.Afraid of crowds, I took Yushan to visit another adjacent temple.There are relatively fewer pilgrims and tourists here.Yu Shan went into the main hall to burn incense and worship Buddha, while I sat in the resting pavilion and watched people come and go.

There are two pilgrims behind them talking about whether worshiping Buddha is effective.One of them suddenly said:

"I heard there is an ancient legend in this temple: a couple lived in love for a lifetime, accumulated good deeds, and died together. When they were dying, they begged the Buddha to allow them to be husband and wife in the next life. The Buddha shook his head and said that their fate in the next life was already After hearing this, they begged each other bitterly, willing to exchange the goodness of this life for meeting and knowing each other in the next life. The Buddha sighed and warned: goodness can only be exchanged for "Fate" can't be exchanged for "share". Changing fate against the sky will make them experience the eight hardships of life, "love and parting, resentment and hatred, can't ask for it, can't let it go". After hearing this, the two still insisted on changing, Buddha So they agreed. In the next life, they turned into two men, destined to hit it off, know each other, love each other, and then separate, and look at each other from a distance for a lifetime, and suffer for a lifetime. At the end of life, the Buddha asked: Are you begging for yourself in this life? Hardship, have you ever regretted it? They said..."

"The consecration ceremony seems to have started, let's go and have a look?" Yu Shan walked up to me after she worshiped the Buddha, and patted my shoulder.

I made a smart move and recovered from the daze.Turning their heads, the two tourists also packed their backpacks, ready to watch the consecration ceremony.

Did not hear the ending.Do you regret it?Do those two regret it?

Feng Xiangjie

I plucked up the courage and said to Xiao Yi, "Pay attention to your body", he should take care of himself, right?You won't be hurting your stomach by drinking cold water, getting angry by eating spicy food, or blowing cold wind with wet hair like before?Oh, why do I still worry about this!He is not a child, everyone is old...

Xiaobang became more mature and stable after getting married, and he has more common language with me.He quickly added a granddaughter and a grandson to me, and I am very happy.Xiaobang let me take care of my life at home and have my grandchildren, but I don't want to rely on him to support and become his burden, so I still take guest roles in some movies and TV series, which is considered old.In order to take care of me, An Ran became my manager and assistant.

I want to continue filming for another reason: the actors and colleagues who have worked with Xiaoyi, and the people he recognizes, I think they must be friends.Getting in touch with these people is like getting in touch with Xiao Yi.For so many years, I don't know if he understands my heart.Sometimes when I think about it, it's better to be a director. I can arrange some plots in the play, express my heart implicitly, and pass it on to him.Do you have to wait until you are dying, and then call him to confess your love?Oh, I don't know either!

Recently, some young movie fans will come to visit the set.They are obsessed with the Twins movie that director Zhang made decades ago, and they often ask me to sign stills of me and Xiaoyi.I couldn't bear to dampen the enthusiasm of these little girls, so I signed one by one.

When I checked in a still photo of "Unknown Heroes", there was a small line of poem under the photo, which was the Qing Dynasty poet Nalan Xingde's "Painting Spring": "One generation, one couple in a lifetime, two places of ecstasy. Lovesickness, longing, not blind date , Who is spring for?"

The little girl looked at my face timidly, maybe she was afraid that I would turn my face and get angry.I sighed and swiped my pen to sign my name.They are obsessed with the combination of twins, the friendship that goes through life and death, I can understand, but unfortunately the facts are not as perfect as imagined, and this poem is only half correct.I am the only one who is in ecstasy, thousands of rivers and mountains, I am the only one who walks alone...

Ah Rong's boyfriend, Atang, went to attend the consecration ceremony of a temple in the Mainland. When he came back, he told me that he heard a legend about a couple who begged the Buddha to grant them fate in order to reunite in the next life. the evil consequences.As a result, they all became men in the next life. Even if they met and fell in love, they still could not be together and were separated for life.

"Tell me, they won't regret it later?" Ah Tang said to himself.

There is no fate, but I have to force...

Do not regret later?I don't know either……

On this day, I received an invitation letter. It was a martial arts film seminar jointly held by a folk martial arts association in the mainland and film and television enthusiasts. I was invited to participate, and all board and lodging were arranged by the organizer.Although it was just a non-governmental organization and activity, I thought it was a good opportunity to promote Chinese martial arts, so I happily went to the appointment.

The venue of the meeting was set at a resort named "Jiangnan" in the Mainland.The villa covers an area of ​​several thousand acres, with a large area and beautiful scenery, with mountains, water, lakes, and golf courses.The organizer picked me up and Ann at the airport, and then drove to the gate of the villa.The access control of the villa is relatively strict. Without an invitation letter, idle vehicles are not allowed to enter.After entering the gate, we went up the mountain and drove for more than ten minutes before we arrived at the hotel where we were going to stay.The receptionist Xiao Chen said that the meeting lasted for two days.During my conference, An Ran can rest in the hotel. The hotel has hot springs, swimming pools, private theaters, massage treatment rooms and other entertainment facilities. You can also take a sightseeing car to play in the villa.The climate here is pleasant, the air is fresh, and it is indeed a good place for recuperation and recreation.

No media reporters participated in this meeting, it was just a non-governmental activity, so I was very relaxed.The organizer prepared rich refreshments for everyone, and everyone chatted while eating, a bit like a gathering of old friends.An Ran has service staff to take care of her in the hotel, which is very pleasant.

On the second day, the organizer informed that the meeting room was double-booked due to the hotel staff’s misoperation, and another group occupied our meeting room, so we had to change to another hotel one kilometer away for the meeting.Xiao Chen drove me to the new meeting place, but suddenly told me that the meeting would be delayed for one hour, and asked me to rest and wait in the lounge.

"There are tea and snacks in the lounge, and the door is the most advanced voice-activated electronic lock. If you need anything, just call the intercom next to the seat, and the service staff will come immediately." Xiao Chen let me into the rest room, nodded and smiled, then closed the door and left.

There are several massage chairs in the room, facing the large LCD TV screen.There is a martial arts movie playing on the TV, it is... "The New Single Swordsman"!

Only then did I realize that there seemed to be a person sitting on the massage chair with its back facing me.

Lei Yi

Click on the video on the phone and play the song "The Love of My Life". This song is the theme song of Zhou Chixing's movie more than 20 years ago:

Once upon a time, the past will never come again.Red and fallen leaves, long buried in the dust.The beginning and the end are always, unchanged, you are drifting in the sky, outside the white clouds.

After the lover leaves, he will never come again.Sitting alone without a word, looking beyond the world.Flowers always wither, but will bloom again.The love of my life is vague, outside the white clouds.

The sea of ​​bitterness turns up love and hate.In this world, it is difficult to escape fate.The blind date is not close, or I should believe it is fate!

Fate?Is it a fate that came from hard work and shouldn't exist?

After returning from the temple in the mainland, I have always wanted to know the ending of that story: did those two people regret it?

Modern technology is changing with each passing day. If you want to listen to a song, you can directly search it on the Internet with your mobile phone. If you want to say something private to others, you can also send a short message. 40 years ago, how could there be such a convenient tool!If you can send private text messages at that time, even if Ajie doesn't see me,