lost snail

I never understood that Shen Feng looked quite normal, how could he be a pervert who likes men. —— Chi Ning's diary

Loving a man is a perverted thing.Although it's strange for me, a man with a boyfriend, to say this.A lot of people are curious, thinking that you are a pervert and gay.

However, my thoughts are one thing, reality is another.I don't like men, but for my situation, Shen Feng is at least helpful. To me, he is probably like a host to a parasite.

Hey, don't scold me for lack of ambition, my dignity and integrity disappeared with the wind when that family burned my house.In fact, having said that, I don't blame the old Wang's family. My mother, that bitch, went to seduce her husband to elope. Their family can't let go of their anger, so they can't let it out on me and my dad.My dad is also a coward. It's strange that my wife didn't even dare to fart when something like this happened to her, and then she died of grievances.I also felt uncomfortable during that time. This kind of scandalous thing is common and rare in a small city like ours, but the speed of news spread is very fast. I can feel what others think of me How to scold me, I also thought about dying.Later, when I cut my wrists, I was fainted by the blood before I could cut my pulse. I jumped from a building and was afraid of heights. I finally jumped into a river, and was caught by someone.

I later thought, it’s better to live than to die. I am neither disabled nor stupid, and I will definitely live a better life than those who bully me in the future. So with this beautiful dream, I decided to study hard and get ahead.

However, the reality is that my family was not very rich. Although I didn’t have any debts, my parents died and my mother eloped. How should I spend the next two years of high school and college? Money alone is a big problem.Fortunately, Shen Feng provided a lot of help at this time, such as food and clothing, clothing, housing, transportation, etc. Of course, I would not be so stupid as to think that this was pure alumni affection.But I thought about it again, it doesn't matter, since he is useful, there is nothing wrong with him, his family is rich and powerful, and my life is guaranteed with him, and those who bully me also know that I have a backer to help me fear.

time flies.In a blink of an eye, I have been with him for more than two years. Although we don't live together, we have everything we should have and what we shouldn't have anyway.The college entrance examination is about to come, and my grades are not bad. I plan to take the exam in Beijing, and then go to Beijing to develop.However, I didn't tell Shen Feng about this. In my future plans, I don't have any boyfriends, coming out of the closet, etc. Although according to his moderate grades, he wouldn't be able to get into any good schools in Beijing.

So, I lied to him that I was going to Shanghai to study at university, and I felt no guilt.When the admission letter finally came out, he seemed a little disappointed to see that I was admitted by a university in Beijing, but he was still very happy for me. After all, this university is better than Shanghai, and he also hoped that I would have a better future. future.

For the next four years, he was in Shanghai and I was in Beijing, studying the same major in electronic information, and then maintained a stable long-distance relationship.We only meet during winter and summer vacations, because the days we can get along are limited, and we spend most of our waking hours in bed unconscious.When the school started, I left my hometown and came to the university. I was still the good student who received a scholarship with excellent character and learning. I didn’t tell anyone that I still had a boyfriend in Shanghai.

Of course, with my superb IQ, it is easy to hide from my roommates and classmates to contact Shen Feng, and it is even easier to hide from that stupid man in Shanghai, but I still freely accept his financial support and live my wonderful college life freely .As for him, I didn't ask him much about how he was in college.

Anyway, they have to be separated, and it is useless to know so much.