lost snail

I thought about it for a while, how to break up with him, should I choose to stimulate him with a radical derailment, or calmly say that we are not suitable?Later I found out that it doesn't matter what you say, anyway, according to his personality, he will probably do what I want and won't be too entangled.

—— Chi Ning's diary

In a blink of an eye, it was another four years, and graduation was approaching.

I received the postgraduate qualification, and also received an offer from one of the world's top [-] companies.I thought about it for a long time, and thought that for my major, academic qualifications are obviously not as good as experience and ability in society, not to mention that it is not so easy to get into that company.

So, in the summer of that year, Shen Feng came to Beijing to look for me, and told me excitedly that he was going to study in another school in Beijing.I congratulated him hypocritically and told him I was going to work.

He seemed very happy to hear that I was still working in Beijing.

But, I told him that I want to break up with him, because I just want money and protection from him for more than six years, and I have no feelings, and I don't like men, I don't need such a relationship in the future up.

From my heart, I don't feel any guilt. I trade my body for money, and he doesn't suffer a loss.Although it was quite novel to see him break down and cry, I still didn't choose to look back.

As I expected, he is a very good person. I did not block or delete his WeChat or QQ contact information, but he was not entangled either.

That winter, I pursued a female colleague of mine.She is two years older than me. She comes from a scholarly family. She comes from a very good family in Beijing. She looks average, and her thinking and personality are traditional and simple. I have to say that all her conditions are just right for me.

I don't need a father-in-law who is very supportive of my career development, but this kind of woman who can stabilize the rear and manage the house easily.Not to mention, to me, her family background is equivalent to directly stepping up several social classes.

Everything went well, I had a few setbacks at work, but overall it was fine.And that woman is almost vulnerable to my superb deceiving skills, not to mention that I look like a handsome guy from a poor background but with high aspirations.

Later, on a date at a movie theater, I met a person I didn't want to meet at the entrance of the movie theater.

At that time, Shen Feng was wearing the costumes of theater staff, and was handing out glasses at the entrance of the theater. When he saw me, he even smiled, but didn't say much. He handed me two glasses and then lowered his head and continued to work.

I guess, if he is not mentally retarded, he should be able to see our relationship from the interlocking fingers of me and that woman.He should, not talk nonsense.

Of course, this is indeed the case.

At that time, I thought, maybe I didn’t know him well enough. In the homosexual circle, there is nothing that can stay together for a lifetime. Since everyone is passing by each other, it’s no big deal to look at it.

Not long after, I saw Shen Feng again.

This time I was in the coffee shop. Because of a joint development project with my work, I used my work email to contact the project leader at the school. We called each other by surname. Our project team held a joint meeting, and then decided to select important memories and ask their responsible person for feedback.After making an appointment, I took the materials and computer and met the person in charge of the other party in that coffee shop, that is, Shen Feng.

When we met for the first time, we were very surprised. His face was flushed and he seemed a little embarrassed. Looking at me sitting at the table drinking coffee, he didn't know whether he should sit down or not.

Looking at him like that, I felt a little funny, but luckily I didn't laugh.I signaled him to sit with my eyes, and said it didn't matter.

Since there was no love in the first place, where did the hate come from, and when we meet again, there is really nothing to be embarrassed about.

This time was different from the last meeting, only the two of us met alone for a few hours, although it was for business.Looking back now, before we broke up, if we were alone together like this, we were probably doing that.

I began to explain in detail on the laptop the conclusions of our project team's research on the issues they developed.Then he took over the computer and began to address those problems, and briefly explained the principles and background control to me.In such a seemingly simple process, we still spent several hours communicating on many issues, talking dryly and constantly refilling the glass. I guess the owner must be very desperate.

When it comes to what he is good at, he is very focused, and he does not have the embarrassment of the first meeting.Concentrated, I glanced at him secretly, but he didn't notice.

It was only then that I discovered that my ex-boyfriend looked like this, and I hadn't looked at it carefully before.Then I was thinking again, wasn't he an ignorant little bastard, when did he become obsessed with studies?

After that meeting, when we separated, we kept contact information for each other due to work relationship, and then found that the contact information of the two people has not changed.Then we walked to the intersection and said goodbye politely, as if it was an ordinary work handover.