soft hedgehog

In the past 20 years, Ji Tong's life was absolutely free, except for these two months.Especially this week, there is always a dark cloud in my heart, and I can't even eat and sleep peacefully.

Because of the meal last time, Ye Xiulan has been serious about finding him a girlfriend in the past few days. Zheng Beibei didn't know why the more he looked at him, the more he disliked him. feelings.

As soon as things progressed, Ye Xiulan specially called him upstairs, saying that she helped him to meet the other girl, and it would be tomorrow, at a certain coffee shop on such and such a street, and told him to be smart and not to meet her first. Just make the girl unhappy.

Ji Tong agreed.

At noon the next day he put on the new coat his mother bought him and went out with nothing in his hands and no presents.

The girl's name is Qu Han, she is not from the outer courtyard, she is studying in the normal school, the same level as him.I heard Ye Xiulan say that she has a very good personality in advance, but it was only after meeting Ji Tong that she realized that she was so.

Qu Han arrived earlier than him, sat on a high stool by the French window facing the street, waited for him while drinking, and waved to him through the glass as soon as he saw his figure, making the scene not at all like the first one. meeting.

"You are Ji Tong."

"You ever met me?"

She smiled heartily: "I've seen the photos, my mother showed them to me."

It is estimated that Ye Xiulan passed it on.

"So you are Qu Han." Ji Tong stood in front of her and saw her smiling, not like being forced to obey her parents' orders, but as if she came out to meet netizens.

"How about it, isn't it quite a lie?" He would also joke about himself casually.

Ji Tong copied it in his coat pocket with both hands, not too far away: "It's pretty good, better than the photo."

He was telling the truth, but the girl thought he was sweet-talking, and he won the jackpot invisibly.Two people who are not yet in their twenties said that the blind date is a bit too much, and today this side is at most acquaintance.According to the normal path, they should use social software to add friends to each other, continue chatting if they feel good, maybe slowly start saying good morning and good night, slowly start watching movies and eating, and look for opportunities to confirm the relationship.

But Ji Tong can't wait that long, what he needs is strong medicine.

After sitting in the coffee shop for more than an hour, watching the people queuing up to buy drinks, the two of them were in a slump.He asked: "There is a movie theater in this shopping mall. The effect of the giant screen is not bad. Do you want to watch a movie in the afternoon?"

"Ah?" Qu Han was obviously quite surprised, he hesitated before saying, "It's okay."

"busy?"

"It's all right, it's just... Forget it, let's see if there are any good movies first."

She felt that this first meeting, Ji Tong's mood was not consistent with his invitation to watch a movie, as if to complete some necessary steps.

Just like that, the two of them watched another Hollywood blockbuster for two and a half hours at Ji Tong's suggestion, and it was almost dark when they walked out of the mall again.

"Why were you a little absent-minded just now?" Qu Han asked, "Do you think the movie is boring?"

Just now in the hall, she turned her head to talk to Ji Tong. Ji Tong didn't pay attention until he was slapped on the knee.

Ji Tong said, "It's nothing, I'm thinking about something."

He was thinking about lying on the bed with Liang Yuchen and watching a movie, frame by frame was still in front of his eyes.The hand on the waist, the breath behind the back, the memory is like an evolved film, which preserves all the senses of hearing and touch intact, and then jumped out so untimely.

Obviously didn't think it was special at the time, but thinking about it now, it makes my heart palpitate.

Both of them were students who didn't make any money, so they ate some casual dinner at a fast food restaurant, and then walked towards the bus station under the shadow of the street lamp.

Laba is approaching, and the wind is still not too cold.

"Hey, why did you agree to meet me?" Qu Han wrapped the red scarf around his neck tightly, "Before I came here, I thought you were particularly ugly or lied about your age."

Otherwise, why do people in their early twenties ask their families to introduce girlfriends?

Ji Tong also took a box of Oreo Wheat Xuanfeng in the cold weather, and ate it with a heavy heart. He didn't feel cold hands at all, and after swallowing a mouthful, he began to make up nonsense.

"It's boring to stay at home, and my mother wants me to make more friends, saying that it's not bad. What about you?"

"I did it purely to annoy my dad." The smile on Qu Han's face stopped when he mentioned this, "I had a boyfriend in the third grade of junior high school. My dad refused to let me know, saying that I was young and shameless. But later I stopped looking, and told them that I would never get married in my life, but my father disagreed."

She turned her head and smiled at Ji Tong: "It's really hard to serve, isn't it?"

"My mother is looking for someone to introduce me to a boyfriend, and my dad is also involved. Just get involved. If he is not satisfied with you, then I have to come out to see you."

After listening to it with a spoon in his mouth, Ji Tong let out a hey: "Why is he dissatisfied with me?"

"I don't know," Qu Han laughed at him being bored, "Maybe it's because you don't like it."

"how about you?"

"I think you are quite pleasing to the eye."

The conversation between the two is completely like a conversation between playmates, and they are playmates who have known each other for a long time.Today's Yang Xiao has no time to talk to Ji Tong, Zheng Beibei doesn't bother to talk about these things with Ji Tong, Qu Han is like a compromise between the two of them, falling from the sky.

When sending the girl to the bus, Ji Tong turned to say goodbye to her and said, "Then we will meet often in the future, especially recently."

Qu Han didn't ask why, he just said yes, it's not bad to just talk to someone.

After seeing her off, Ji Tong walked for a while on the street alone, his jacket zipped up to the top.

Two winters have passed and he still doesn't remember wearing a scarf, and he can't count on one hand the quarrel he had with Liang Yuchen over this.It was annoying at the time, but now it feels very close.

Now he wants to see Liang Yuchen but dare not see him, forgetting the scarf and can only freeze by himself.

I walked back to the community in a restless mood, and it was already nine o'clock in the evening.Liang Yuchen should not come back today. There are extra classes in the school, and the tutor tutors thesis. He heard from another senior in the English department.

That's why he dared to come home.

The property owners of the family courtyard are not skilled but bold. There are so many wall-climbing plants, but they have to choose Fujimoto rose.This kind of flower has long branches and many flower heads. When it blooms in summer, it is full of flowers, and when the flowers die in winter, the dead branches are horizontal.

Vermilion bricks, the moon is lonely and clear.It used to be a fire cooking oil, with flowers blooming like a brocade, but now it is lonely and quiet.

Ji Tong walked in slowly, but a person suddenly appeared in front of him, standing under the withered flower wall, wearing glasses, his tall body leaning against the wall, opening and closing a lighter in his hand, there is a rhythm in the quiet night ringing.

He recognized just such a distant outline.

It was Liang Yuchen.

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The event ended early tonight, Liang Yuchen drank some wine during the banquet, felt unwell, and wanted to see Ji Tong again, so he went home.

In the kitchen, Hu Aihua told him like sharing gossip about his family that Ji Tong went out on a blind date with a girl.She said: "Tongtong has also reached the age when it's time to fall in love. Thinking about him holding the girl's hand, he still feels weird."

He smiled to himself for a moment, then said, "I don't know if he will fall in love."

Liang Yuchen couldn't even give a perfunctory smile.My stomach felt like it was being pierced by fire, and I couldn't breathe because of the pain.

When Hu Aihua was tidying up the kitchen cabinet, he turned his head inadvertently, was startled, and asked him what was wrong.He said no, and suddenly remembered that there was an urgent matter at school, so he was anxious to go back.

So out the door.

Ji Tong will be 21 soon, how could he not fall in love?Not only will he fall in love, he will also torture a person's heart, exhaust a person's endurance, make people full of hope and taste despair.

He really wanted to ask Ji Tong why he did this, why he had given him so many illusions and made him realize that it was a misunderstanding, so he kept standing outside and waiting.

Ji Tong's voice didn't appear until his feet were covered with cigarette butts.

"Brother, why are you here?"

It is still some distance away from Building 5. It is always secluded, but it is the only way to return at night.Liang Yuchen had been waiting for a long time, his cheeks were pale, and his ear bones were flushed.

He looked up at Ji Tong in handsome new clothes, closed his eyes and stood up straight, put away the lighter: "Wait for you."

"Wait for me?" Ji Tong looked surprised and guilty, "What are you waiting for?"

I have been suffering for a long time, but the person waiting for me doesn't even know the reason, which sounds ironic.

There was no one around, Liang Yuchen stood in the shadow of the high wall: "I heard that you went on a blind date today."

Ji Tong didn't look at him: "Well, I'm gone." He noticed the cigarette butts on the ground while dodging his eyes, and couldn't help being startled: "Are you smoking?"

Liang Yuchen didn't answer, but asked him instead: "Why did you go?"

"What why?" Ji Tong pretended to be confused with understanding.

"Why are you going on a blind date, and why are you avoiding me recently?"

He also learned to ask the truth knowingly, forcing the person he likes to face the love in his heart.

Ji Tong was flustered by his question, and his nails were deeply embedded in his palm, pretending to be relaxed: "In order to make a girlfriend. Aren't you always laughing at me for being a chicken, so I'll find it for you—"

"Ji Tong." Liang Yuchen no longer allowed him to pretend to be stupid like before, "There is still the second half of the question, why are you avoiding me?"

Why else, Ji Tong withdrew his gaze: "I didn't avoid you."

"No?" Liang Yuchen asked, "At home and at school, you always run away when you see me, but you feel uncomfortable when I'm alone with you. Why are you guilty?"

Ji Tong was confused: "I'm not guilty."

Liang Yuchen was disappointed: "I don't care how you leave me alone or hide from me, but if you use your feelings to be self-willed, have you ever thought about how difficult it is for me?"

The wound on his hand that day, the secret on the roof, all his frustrations and depravity were all related to Ji Tong.

Ji Tong lowered his eyes, still wanting to escape: "What do you mean, I don't understand."

Liang Yuchen clamped his arm: "How could you not understand?"

The person he loves is 20 years old, not two years old, entangled in lust, obsessed with love and hate, and has learned everything thoroughly.

"Brother..." Ji Tong was flustered, and immediately fled with his hands, calling his brother in a very embarrassed way: "I really don't understand..."

"Tongtong." Liang Yuchen's hand tightened, as if he was afraid that he would run away.

"Let me go," Ji Tong began to struggle and beg for mercy, his face was so anxious that he was about to cry, "I really don't understand, don't force me..."

The next moment, his arms were suddenly free, and his face was touched with both hands. The smell of alcohol was approaching, and two cold thin lips pressed against his mouth, crushing and sucking hard.The thunder crushed the hypocrisy, and Ji Tong was forced to open his mouth. The cold wind slid in with his tongue, recklessly attacking the city and plundering the land, greedily demanding the sweetness in his mouth.

Liang Yuchen had thought about this kiss for too long, endured it for too long, and once his wish was fulfilled, his soul was burning with it, holding his face firmly and not being able to refuse, his lips and teeth were clenched tightly, and he refused to leave for even a moment.

"Uh, uh!"

Ji Tong panicked, his eyes widened in vain, but the face in front of him was blurred due to being too close, so close that even the lens was pressed against his face, the metal frame was piercing painfully, and ambiguous voices filled his ears.

"Hmm!" He was trembling in the cold wind, his rationality collapsed in the licking and kissing, he came back to his senses and began to struggle desperately, pushing Liang Yuchen's chest with both hands, but he couldn't push it or smash it, so he could only bite his mouth hard suddenly In the middle of the tongue, there is a fishy sweetness in the mouth in an instant.

Liang Yuchen was in extreme pain, he let go for a moment, and received a solid punch on the face.

"Are you crazy?!" Ji Tong looked at him in horror, covered his mouth, as if afraid of his heart jumping out of his throat, and kept looking around, afraid of being seen.

This punch was not light, Liang Yuchen's body was skewed, although he didn't fall off his glasses, he fell straight to the ground, with blood on the corner of his mouth, looking extremely embarrassed.He put his hands on his knees to stabilize his body, his eyes were blurred and hurt, but his expression was still strong when he turned his head to the side.

"Do you understand now?"

"You..." Ji Tong subconsciously moved away, as if the person in front of him was just a prodigal son who underestimated him, "Do you know what you are doing?"

"I always knew," Liang Yuchen straightened up, staring at him like a hook, "You didn't know."

No matter how deeply you hide your concern for someone, there will always be clues. Ji Tong's acting skills are clumsy.Liang Yuchen loves him and understands him, so he is willing to wait and endure.But after waiting for so long, not only did he fail to be honest with each other, he even planned to use his feelings to escape.

"I don't want to know, and I don't need to know." Ji Tong shook his head.

Liang Yuchen saw how disappointed he was, and wanted to see his expression clearly, so he could only struggle to find his glasses in the dark.

There is still touch and blood left in the mouth, and there is a broken wall in the heart after the huge earthquake.Ji Tong looked at his back, didn't dare to stay any longer, turned around and ran towards home.

Stepping up the stairs step by step, the sound of the footsteps was as rapid as the beating of the heart, pounding against his body.

Behind him was Liang Yuchen's call, but he didn't dare to listen, he could only run more and more hurriedly, until he ran back to his room and closed the door with a bang, then quickly locked it, and then threw himself on the bed and became startled.

In a trance, everything was empty and chaotic, his heart was like a pot of boiling water, and the scene just now was repeatedly replayed in his mind.

Liang Yuchen was his elder brother, but he kissed him like crazy.It's not a joke, it's a kiss with lips and teeth intertwined, saliva exchanged, tongue scratching, panting.

He could no longer lie to himself that it was a joke.

His fingertips brushed the corner of his mouth, wiping off a few wisps of blood, which was the blood from Liang Yuchen's tongue being bitten by him.None of this is hallucination, not imagination.

why?

Why on earth is this so, why does everything have to change for his best brother.

His limbs were numb, but his heart was tight.

A kiss made the long-term ambiguity clear, and exposed the dark feelings to the moonlight, but he was not ready yet, unable to bear the impact of this kiss.

In the midst of the chaos, someone knocked on the door, but the force was not heavy.

He stiffened suddenly.

"Who?" His voice was hoarse.

But no one answered him.

His heart, which had just calmed down a little bit, suddenly jumped again. Ji Tong knew that it must be Liang Yuchen, and suddenly lost control of his emotions.

"Don't come in," he shouted, "I don't want to see you."

The knock on the door disappeared, and the surrounding was quiet again, but there was no footsteps at the door for a long time.Ji Tong just buried his face on the pillow, neither daring to stand up nor raise his head, desperately facing an ostrich.

He used to like staying with Liang Yuchen the most, when Liang Yuchen went abroad, he was the most reluctant, when Liang Yuchen was kind to others, he liked the most, but now everything has changed.

He hoped that Liang Yuchen would stay away from him.