Tibetan love

He returned to City W, while I chose to stay in City N.I chose to work in a foreign trade company in N City.The basic salary is not high, and overtime is required almost every day.Many of the interns who came with me left, but I chose to stick with it.Wang Ziteng did not go home, and found an advertising company in N City to do finance there.The two of us often come out to get together, drink and chat together.

During the period after graduation, we were in frequent contact at the beginning.But then slowly, contact is not so frequent.I sent him a message and he was very slow to reply.I know, after all, everyone is working now, and the time cannot be as free and sufficient as when I was studying.Although my heart is a little lost, I still understand.

Later, Wang Ziteng also made a girlfriend, who was planned by their company.I've seen her twice, the girl is small, very cute, and treats Wang Ziteng very well.Of course, these are all from Wang Ziteng's mouth. He often brags to me about how his girlfriend treats him so well.Sometimes I would tease him, saying that you are so powerful, such a good girl can be deceived by you.Wang Ziteng laughed very happily, saying that this is fate, and it can't be stopped.Then he would also ask me, why haven't you found a girlfriend yet? Seeing that your qualifications are good, are you really so picky?

I said no, I wanted to wait for my career to stabilize, and now my career has just started, and I was afraid that people would look down on me by then.

Then Wang Ziteng asked me viciously, did I never have a girlfriend?

I looked at him and shook my head.

At that time, Wang Ziteng, Mimi's small eyes suddenly stared like tops, and he said loudly that he couldn't!I said I don't need to lie to you.

He kept catching me and asking me why I did this, whether I was too high-sighted, what kind of genre I liked, and if I wanted a buddy to introduce it to you.

I was too annoyed by him, so I said: "There is someone I like, but I dare not say it because I am afraid that they will look down on me!"

Wang Ziteng began to twitch and falter.

"Say something!"

"You still like Peng Xi, don't you?"

I almost spit out my mouth when I heard it, "It's not her! I've never liked Peng Qian!" I picked up the glass, took another big sip, and said, "It's an unlikely person."

Wang Ziteng seemed to want to say something again, but he still didn't say it.

I don’t know if it’s the sweetness of Wang Ziteng’s girlfriend that infected me. When I saw him smiling and telling me how his girlfriend treats him every day since he got a girlfriend, I was very envious and also very envy.One night, I had a dream. In the dream, I was confessing to Zhu Yujie. In the dream, I told all my feelings for him in the past few years. At the moment I was waiting for his answer, my body suddenly With a shock, the person woke up.When I learned that this was a dream, I suddenly felt a sense of loss. Even in the dream, I didn't wait for his answer.At that moment, I suddenly wanted to fall in love, and at that time, I missed him especially.It was also at that time that I made up my mind to confess to him and tell him my thoughts face to face.

I called him and told him that I was going to W City and I had something very important to tell him.He readily agreed, he said, I also have something very important to tell you.I am apprehensive, but also looking forward to it.

When we arrived at the station, he was already waiting for me there.He said let's go eat something first, and sit down and talk about something, and it happened that he also had something to tell me.I have no objection. When I see him now, it seems that I have returned to the mood when I first chatted with him. My heart was raised in my throat, and my whole body was trembling nervously. I hardly ate the food I ordered, but kept drinking. water, to lower my tension.He seemed to sense my uneasiness and asked me what was wrong.I shook my head, at this moment, I couldn't say a word.I secretly scolded myself for being so useless, why I couldn't say anything if it was just a one-sentence thing.

When I was still struggling with how to speak, Zhu Yujie said: "Jiayi, let me tell you about me first."

I looked up at him, my heart beating abnormally fast, and asked him what was the matter.I want to wait for Zhu Yujie to finish talking about him before I tell him how I feel about him.

He looked at me, then took out a red notebook from his handbag and gave it to me.I took it, opened it, and the words wedding invitation came into my eyes.I suddenly raised my head and looked at him in disbelief. I tried my best to lower my voice, but my voice still couldn't help trembling: "You... are getting married!"

"Yes!" He smiled, picked up the cup on the table, took a sip of tea, and said, "My wedding will be on the 15th of next month. It's very sudden."

Before I could react, he went on to say: "I was thinking of finding time to send you the invitation, but now I can send it to you face to face. When the time comes...you can be my best man."

I still haven't reacted, this invitation is like a jack, weighing me down so much that I can't breathe.

"By the way, what are you going to tell me?"

During this period of time, I was very annoyed, and I was also annoyed at work. Foreign customers kept urging orders, but the factory could not deliver the goods, and I had no choice.Go home after work, stay in the room when you get home, and don't go anywhere.

The red invitation card on the table is particularly eye-catching, and I still can't remember the woman's name.I actually knew all along that he would get married and have children.I never expected it from the beginning.

That day, only I knew the feeling I felt when I heard the news, it was so uncomfortable.That day, I was in a daze. I remember that when Zhu Yujie asked me what I wanted to tell him, I told him that there was nothing wrong, that Wang Ziteng had a girlfriend.Then, I don't even remember how I got home.I rejected Zhu Yujie's request to invite me to his house, and also rejected his proposal to accompany me to visit W City.I just told him that something happened suddenly and I had to go back.I don't know if he will notice such a clumsy lie, but this is my last dignity, and I cannot lose it.

Sitting on the car back to N City, I finally couldn't help it, and tears flowed down silently.I didn't expect him to agree, but why, why did he tell me this at this time, when I was finally about to take that step.This is what it feels like to be disheartened.This feeling should never have existed from the very beginning.

Zhu Yujie, I like you!But so what?Now, that's the only way to go.

But I still decided to go to his wedding.Over the weekend, I went to order a pair of wedding rings, which cost me several months' wages.I specially had someone write ZYJ on the inside of one ring, which is the abbreviation of his name, and the other had nothing.I think, at the moment of his marriage, I still want to pass on my heart to him.

But God just likes to play tricks on you sometimes.A few days before his wedding, my grandpa had a serious stomach problem. He underwent surgery and had half of his stomach removed.I went home to take care of grandpa.When grandpa's condition stabilized, I told my parents that I had something to do, and then hurried to City W.But the wedding was over the day before.I found his home according to the address Zhu Yujie gave me before, and I called him and told him that I was at his door.The moment the door opened, I saw the surprised look in his eyes when he saw me.

"Jiayi!" He looked at me, "You...how...how is your grandfather's body...you" he was a little incoherent, I think he must have been frightened by me.

I forced a smile and said, "My grandfather had surgery, and the situation is stable now. I'm sorry, but I promised to be your best man." Then, I took out the prepared ring and handed it to him , "A wedding present for you."

He took it blankly, opened the box, and the moment he saw the ring, he suddenly raised his head and stared at me. I couldn't tell what it was like with that look.I was wondering if he would be a little moved?It should be... yes.

I pinched my nose and said: "I don't know what to give. Although this ring is not particularly good, it is also my heart. I thought I would give it to you when you get married, but I didn't expect that there would be accidents. I didn't participate. But since I'm ready, I still want to give it to you. I think... it's better to give it to you in person. It's a pity that I didn't see you as the groom. Happy newlyweds!"

"You..." He frowned, not knowing what he wanted to express.I didn't let him speak, and held his hand: "Be a friend, don't be polite to me!"

"Who is here?" A woman's voice came from the room, I guess it was Zhu Yujie's newly married wife.Then, Zhu Yujie seemed to react and said: "My friend!" Then he looked at me and said to me: "Come in and sit down! Let's have a good chat."

I waved my hand and said, "No, I still have something to do and I'm leaving later. I'm giving you something today. I also brought the gift and told you my blessings, so I don't feel guilty about it." , I will contact you later when I have time."

"You...remember to contact me!" For the first time, I knew that he would stumble like this when he spoke. I thought he should be scared by me, or moved by me, but no matter what the reason is, I now Don't care anymore.To be precise, I am not qualified to care or not.

"I will!" I said firmly, but only I knew that my palms were already sweating a lot because of tension, "Then I'll go first." I patted his hand, and just as I was about to turn around and leave The moment I hugged him, I stopped, only for a moment, really only for a moment, I turned around, hugged him very tightly, this was the second time I hugged him, but it was completely different from the first time Different, because I know that from now on, he and I can only be friends.Then, I used my greatest courage to whisper in his ear, and said softly: "Yu Jie, do you know? I hope you live a happy life more than anyone else." After finishing speaking, I let him go, Turned around and left.

You ask me why I ran?Hehe, why don't you run?If I don't run, I don't know what I will do.At that time, I was even a little glad that I didn't attend his wedding.I can't imagine what it would be like to attend the wedding of someone I have loved for so many years, because I am not sure whether I will lose control.So, so be it, this time, he and I are really over.

Back in N City, I found Wang Ziteng and asked him to have a drink at a bar.Wang Ziteng seemed to know that I was in a bad mood, so he didn't make any jokes with me.I didn't want to talk either, I just kept my head down and drank.I want to numb myself with alcohol, but the more I drink, the more I feel sober.

Later, Wang Ziteng couldn't stand it any longer, and stopped me from drinking it: "Jia Yi, don't drink like this, be careful to hurt your stomach."

I shook my head and continued drinking.Wang Ziteng snatched the wine glass from my hand and shouted: "Jia Yi, what's wrong with you!"

I looked up at him, didn't speak, and continued drinking.Wang Ziteng must have been frightened by me, so he stammered and asked me what happened.I stabilized my emotions and told him: "I'm broken in love."

Before he could say anything, I continued: "Do you know, I feel really uncomfortable right now. I have loved him for so many years..."

I don't know how much I drank that night.I only know that Wang Ziteng seemed to ask me to drink later, and I insisted on drinking.Then I seemed to laugh again, and then I seemed to cry again.I remember throwing up again, I remember talking a lot in a daze, and I remember someone asking me what was wrong.I said that I was broken in love, and I felt very uncomfortable.The person who had been in love with him for several years suddenly got married. It was really too sudden. I got married when I was about to confess to him...

I don't remember how I got back myself, because I woke up the next morning and I was in the rented room.After waking up, I also thought about it for a long time.Later, I also figured it out.Now that Zhu Yujie is married, this can be regarded as a hint from God to me. Fortunately, I didn't tell him at that time, otherwise he will be in trouble when the time comes.At that moment, I felt that I had really figured it out, and I should and really let go.After so many years, now that he has found his own belonging, I should live my own life well.Just keep this secret.