Tibetan love

Life still has to go on, after all, a person's life is very long.I also try to fit into the lives of people who share my sexuality.I met some people on some dating apps, and I met and chatted with them.You will also learn some of their stories.Most of these friends are not out of the closet, and occasionally one or two come out, but the family members don't understand it very much, and they can't accept it for a while.I said that there is no way, after all, in this circle, there are really too few people who agree.But basically I still only chat with them, and I have not been able to do it yet for a real in-depth understanding.

When I am free from work, I will also go to the bar to drink with these people.In the bar, I met a boy named Zhang Yue, who was the resident singer of that bar.

I remember he sang a song at that time, which was very nice.So I asked the person next to me what the name of the song was.The person next to him said he didn't hear clearly because he didn't pay attention.So, I walked up to the boy and asked him: "What's the name of this song?" He didn't seem to respond at first, and looked at me blankly.So I asked again.

He told me it was Song Dongye's Zebra Zebra.I said I hadn't heard of it.He said that I like him very much, his voice is very vicissitudes, and he feels a lot of stories when he sings.

Then, I asked how long he had been working here.He said that it has only been more than a month, and he is also a part-time singer, and now he is studying in university.I asked him where he went to college.He hesitated for a moment, then told me that he was a WL major.

I smiled and said alumnus, I am your senior.

He looked like he couldn't believe it, and I didn't say anything.

Later, whenever I had time, I would go to this bar.I often see that boy, every time I see him, I will smile at him, and he will smile at me, and then after he finishes singing the song he is singing, he will sing the zebra zebra he said before.I just sat there and listened to him sing quietly.Because only at that moment, I feel that I am relaxed.

One day, I went to the bar, only to find out that it wasn't him who was singing.Suddenly, someone patted me on the shoulder.I turned around and was taken aback: "Why are you here?"

He smiled at me and said, "I'm asking for leave today, I won't sing anymore, just take a rest."

"Then you..." I wondered.

"Why, I won't sing for a while, so I can't let me out for a while." He smiled and asked me back, and then I found that his eyes were very beautiful when he smiled.

"Then let me buy you something to drink! What do you... want to drink?"

He was also very generous, saying, "Okay, let's have... Long Island Iced Tea!"

Then we started chatting a lot, from study to life, from life to relationship.His name is Zhang Yue, and he is a sophomore now. Because the school was strict in his freshman year, the sophomore was relatively looser than the freshman, so he came out to sing and work, and he was also the president of the guitar club.

I also told him in detail that I was also a student of WL University, and then told him a lot of things that happened in school before, but I didn't talk about feelings.

"Where's your girlfriend?" he asked.

"I don't have a girlfriend."

He should have such an expression, "Seeing that you often come to bars, I also feel that you should not have a girlfriend."

"What about you? Didn't you fall in love?" I asked back.

"No!"

"You can have a relationship in college, otherwise...it would be too regrettable." I paused, and suddenly something in my heart was touched, but it was really only a little bit.

"What about you, did you fall in love when you were in college?"

I shook my head.

"Why? No one you like?"

"Yes! But...it's impossible for us."

"why?"

I thought for a long time, and drank a glass of wine, "Because he is a man."

Sometimes people are very strange. They obviously have a secret hidden for a long time, and even the closest friends around them have not told it, but they always tell it to some strangers easily.

He looked at me for a long, long time, then said "oh", and started talking to me about other things.

Later, I went to the bar more frequently.I used to go after get off work on Fridays, and then I also went on Saturday nights.We also kept contact information with each other, and he often sent me some messages.Sometimes it’s about his school, sometimes it’s about his encounters in bars. For example, he often likes to send me some videos of him playing guitar and singing, asking me how I sing and how well I play.

That's how we keep in touch.I even took him to the house I rented in N City. Of course, I can guarantee that I had absolutely no other thoughts at that time.It was proposed by Zhang Yue. He said that all the classmates had gone home, and he didn't want to live in the dormitory by himself, so he asked if he could live in my dormitory.Without any hesitation, I agreed.

In those few days, he didn't go to the bar to sing, and I didn't go to the bar to drink.He took his guitar and would play it for me.In the evening, when I was cooking, he praised me, but he didn't expect that I could cook.I smiled wryly and told him that it was all tempered by work.

For some reason that day, Zhang Yue suddenly asked me what the person I like was like.I was stunned for a while, and told all my feelings towards Zhu Yujie during my college days.Zhang Yue was there quietly listening to me talking about my secret love in the past few years.

In the end, he said to me: "You are really persistent."

I smiled and didn't speak.

"I really envy him!" Zhang Yue said this sentence in a low voice, but I heard it clearly, and the softness somewhere in my heart was inexplicably touched at that moment.

I have been very busy recently, and things are very complicated, and I have to work overtime until very late every time.Therefore, there is no energy to drink and do other things.It was almost eleven o'clock when I got off work that day, and I dragged my exhausted body back to my residence.

It was past 11:[-] when I got back to the residence. When the elevator came out, I saw a person squatting in front of the house. Looking carefully, it was Zhang Yue.

"Why are you here?"

He stood up immediately and said, "Come and see you!"

I opened the door, let him in, and asked him if he wanted a late-night snack.He nodded, and I cooked some noodles casually, and the two of them ate a little.After eating, he rushed to wash the dishes, and I watched him tidy up the dishes at the kitchen door. When he turned around and saw me, he smiled shyly at me.

I laughed and teased, but it was pretty cool.He smiled, walked past me and started watching TV.I went over and sat down beside him.Ask him what he's been up to during this time.He said it's still the same, why don't you come to the bar?

I said that there were a lot of things during this period, and I was very busy with work. As you can see, it's time for me to come back from get off work today.

He asked, will you come back later?

I said, let's talk about it after the busy period.

He didn't speak, and I didn't know what to say.

Suddenly, he kissed me on the face, I didn't react at once, I just stared at him blankly.

He said: "The other day I said that I envied that person, and I was really envious. I knew your concerns, so I didn't tell him. But I don't have any concerns, so I want to tell you: I like you." So straight looking at me, very firm.

I haven't spoken for a long time, and I don't know what kind of answer I should give.I admit that I have a crush on him, but how do I respond.

Seeing that I have not spoken for a long time, he sighed, and then said that I will leave first.When he walked to the door, he said again: "Do you know why I am there at that time every Friday? Because I know you will come."

Just when he was about to open the door, I rushed over, grabbed his hand, hugged him, and whispered in his ear: "Don't go, stay!"

The night went fast, we kissed, and it was done.Both of us are first-timers and neither have much experience.I remember it took me a long time to get in, but when the whole desire was really inside him, the male instincts started to show.My desire ran rampant inside him, a pleasure I had never experienced before.He kept hugging my shoulders, and the cock in his mouth was mixed with crying, intermittently begging for mercy, please slow down and be gentle.

But at that time, a man's rationality has long been washed away by desire. At this time, begging for mercy is no different from an aphrodisiac, and it will only make me work harder.That night, I remember that I did it many times, and I didn't think about whether he was not suitable for it. A desire and emotion that had been suppressed for a long time burst out at that moment.

I didn't wake up until 12 o'clock the next day, and when I woke up, Zhang Yue was still asleep beside me.In the middle of the night, Zhang Yue started to have a fever, accompanied by diarrhea.I put him on medicine and watched him until the early hours of the morning when he fell asleep.

Seeing him sleeping soundly, I can't express the feeling in my heart.I think I like him, although that kind of liking is different from the intensity of my feelings for Zhu Yujie.The moment the elevator door opened and I saw him squatting at the door, I thought I was touched; today I cooked noodles and ate with him, and then watched him wash the dishes. I was looking forward to that moment.I really want to have someone by my side.The moment he turned to leave, I panicked, and the boundless loneliness began to spread at that moment. I didn't like this feeling.And he is the light that can take me away from loneliness.The moment I held him, I told myself I was going to try to start a new relationship.

So, Zhang Yue and I started living together.I also gave him the keys to the house and he comes over almost every day.Sometimes I get off work late, and every time I go home, I see that he has cleaned up the house and prepared meals.Except that he will go to the bar to work part-time for two days on Friday and Saturday and will come back very late, and he can be seen as soon as he returns home at other times.Although I asked him to quit this part-time job many times, he didn't agree. He said it was his interest and he didn't want to let it go.I later compromised.

In his free time, he would take me to visit some places in N City.Like the old street in N City, this is the first time I have been in N City for so many years.Sometimes I suddenly feel that I don't know what I have done in the past few years in N City.Maybe I'm really too boring, I don't like shopping, I don't like traveling, I just like to stay in my room quietly.The appearance of Zhang Yue undoubtedly added a colorful touch to my life.

I used to think that I was not strong, but some things really need to be experienced by myself to know.I want Zhang Yue almost every night, maybe a man will really show his true nature only in bed.I like to listen to Zhang Yue's incoherent rants, and watching his blurred and lax eyes because of cumming, it will give me a strong sense of accomplishment at that time.

After one time, I hugged him and asked him why he liked me.He said he just liked it, he liked it the first time he saw it, there was no reason.He also told me that when I went to the bar before, no matter how many people there were, he could see me with just a glance. At that time, I could only hold him tightly in my arms.I know that feeling, I know what it's like to be able to see the one you like in a crowd.

The author has something to say: Hey, Xu Jiayi is finally in love.Don't have any friends who came to see?so sad