she is not in the cloud
Chapter 3 Lessons.
let out a sigh of relief.
I... um, ahem, ahem, of course I would like to be "bitten" by her again, but in her confused situation, if I agree, it will appear that I disrespect her.
And...just treating my lips like jelly again.
Zou Yun closed his eyes again, with his eyelashes laid quietly under his eyes.
See it.
How should I agree in this situation?
Of course, if she is awake, I will also refuse.
I can accept being close to her, but I can't accept such an intimate behavior.
When I was young before, I thought it was okay to even have a kiss between good friends, but not anymore, only couples are allowed.
I shook my head, bent my legs, and hugged my knees.
Anyway, I will never agree to such a request again.
I was caught off guard last time, but this time since she spoke first, I can also refuse.
Rejection is the best option.
I rested my chin on my knees, looking at Zou Yun's peaceful sleeping face.
Her forehead, her eyebrows, her nose, her lips, her chin.
I saw her unconsciously sticking out her tongue and licking her lips, maybe she was thirsty?
I've been to her several times, I thought about it, stood up, went to boil hot water for her, then turned it into warm water and put it on the tea table.
I hesitated, looking at her slightly dry lips, should I call her up to drink some water?
I called her softly, "Zou Yun."
Didn't wake up.
forget it.
She... be thirsty now.
I stood up, went back to my room to write a note, and brought a thermos and a bottle of mineral water.
Fill the thermos cup with hot water, and I put it and the note on the table.
The note said that there is hot water in the vacuum flask, if you are thirsty, you can mix it with mineral water and drink it as warm water.
After a while, I checked the time, it was past eleven o'clock.
I have to get up early tomorrow morning to go to the playground. I tucked her in the quilt. Fortunately, the sofa here is big and long enough for her to fall asleep like this.
I looked at her in a daze, my throat moved, I slowly bent down, and when my lips were only a few centimeters away from her forehead, I slowly stood up again.
What am I doing?
I can't accept her saying "I want to bite you" when she is unconscious, how can I kiss her forehead when she is unconscious?
I still can't do this kind of behavior of taking advantage of others' danger.
I pursed my lips and smiled, said "good night" softly, and finally tiptoed out of her room.
I thought a lot that night, and then I had a dream after I fell asleep.
I dreamed that Zou Yunyun smiled at me, and she called me: "Senior sister!" It was a voice I was familiar with with joy.
Then I heard her say with a smile: "Do you want to hear a joke? I'll tell you."
In the dream, I lowered my head and kept laughing, "Okay."
Later, just when Zou Yunyun opened his mouth to tell me a joke, I woke up.
Alert rings.
I rubbed my eyes, rubbed my head again, and stretched myself before I started to get dressed.
After packing everything, the time was a little earlier than I had planned.
I put on my bag and went out, standing still at the door of Zou Yun.
I didn't turn off the lights when I left, for fear that when she woke up, all she could see would be darkness.
Now the light is still coming out from the crack of the door, just because it is already early morning, not as obvious as at night.
Did she wake up?
Will she remember what happened last night when she wakes up?
Holding my clothes in my hands, I waited until I heard the sound of other doors opening before I turned around and walked out.
What can happen last night?
It's just that Zou Yun wanted to eat jelly after drinking too much.
It seems that I will have to keep some at home later, in case this happens in the future, I will take out the jelly and give it to her.
Hahahahahaha.
After a few awkward laughs in my heart, I fell into boundless sadness.
What should we do?
I found that my mentality has changed significantly.
I used to think that it didn't matter whether she was with someone else or not, anyway, I just liked her, but seeing Zou Yun's quiet appearance last night, my thoughts were quickly overturned.
How could he not want to be with her?
It used to be just out of fear.
What I'm afraid of is not that she will know, but that she will pretend not to know after knowing, or... more simply reject me and stay away from me.
I really don't have much confidence, because I myself have experienced same-sex relationships, so I don't think it has anything to do with same-sex or opposite-sex, but... Zou Yun doesn't necessarily think so, does he?
The probability that the girl you like also likes you is much lower than the probability that the boy you like also likes you.
What if you distance yourself from me?What if you stop sweetly calling me senior?What if you don't want to go to and from school with me anymore?
There are even more uncomfortable thoughts, which are all held in my heart, making me even more sad and lost.
I was thinking, I will tell her when I find a chance, even if she can't be with me, it's okay, because being able to like someone already makes me feel happy enough.
But as things stand now, I can't do it again.
If I say it, then I will lose her before I have her, maybe even the relationship of good friends will not be there, just ordinary school girls and neighbors who no longer say hello .
After thinking so much, how can I control my desire to tell her that I like her and want to be with her?
It's still early, I'm wearing a sweater and a coat, and I let out a sigh as I rub my chin against my scarf.
I'm so lost and don't know what to do.
Wouldn't it be better to keep a distance from her?
When she asked me if I wanted snacks, she just said she didn't want it?
When she asked me if I want to go to school together, she just said you go first?
Like last night, when you say you want to bite me, it's fine if I refuse.
Before she distanced herself from me, before she stopped smiling at me, before she stopped seeing me.
I'll just keep my distance from her.
In this way, maybe I can also restore myself to the previous state where I just liked her and had no other thoughts about her, or... I don’t like her anymore, and soon end my short crush of less than a month.
Even though I know it's unlikely.
I pursed my lips and saw Lu Qing and the others at the school gate.
Our departure point is the school gate, and Chen Ziqi is still here, but there is still time, so don't worry.
"Wei Ning!" Lu Qing took my hand, let go after touching it, and said with disgust, "Your hands are colder than mine."
"Hahahahahaha." I temporarily put aside those dull moods, and was amused by Lu Qing's actions.
I clenched my hands into fists and put them in my pocket, but the inside was not as warm as Zou Yun's bag, so I lowered my eyes and sighed again.
Zhang Wenxi was shaking his legs beside him, his mouth was trembling, "Dad is freezing to death."
Qi Yu put on her clothes and hat, only her face was exposed, her lips trembled, "When you come out to play, you have to be conscious of being shivering from the cold, and you suggested it, Xixi."
"alright."
After a while, Chen Ziqi arrived.
The bus is also here.
Fortunately, it was still early and there were still plenty of seats in the car, so we sat down at the back.
I leaned against the window, folded my arms, and looked out the window.
Lu Qing sat next to me, she touched mine with her elbow, her eyes were concerned, "You're in a bad mood?"
"No." I shook my head and smiled, then closed my eyes, "I didn't sleep enough."
"Sleep, I will call you when I have to transfer."
"Ah."
If you want to come out and play, just have fun, this is the rule I have always followed.
It was Saturday, and there were still a lot of people, even in winter.
I sat on a chair to rest, Lu Qing and the others entered the haunted house.
I said I'm not going.
The wind blows a little bleak, I don't know if it is the influence of my state of mind.
Children are everywhere, some of them are acting like a spoiled child to their parents, and I think of the time when Zou Yunyun hugged me in Qicheng to avoid the bear children.
There are many items in the playground. I looked at the jumping machine that was slowly rising not far away. After a while, many players on it screamed.
Lu Qing and the others would not come out in the haunted house, so I sat there for another 2 minutes, sent them a message, and threw the hot coffee in my hand into the trash can.
I got on the carousel.
Surrounded by children, there are also people who are as old as me or older than me, and there are one or two couples talking and laughing.
I took out my phone, turned on the camera, and showed a smile that I thought was bright.
After the carousel was finished, I went back to where I was just now, but the chairs were already taken, so I just stood outside the haunted house and waited for them.
Why don't you want to go in?
Probably from the moment Zou Yunyun said that she likes haunted houses the most, I just wanted to be with her.
But looking at the current situation, the possibility is very small.
I lowered my head and played with my phone, it's almost a little faster now.
Did Zou Yun wake up to drink water last night?Has she eaten now?Have you noticed that I'm not here?
After thinking like this for a few seconds, I felt a vibration in my palm.
Zou Yunyun: [Sister, when are you coming back? 】
I told her that I would go to the playground with Lu Qing and the others on Saturday.
Zou Yunyun: [I want to return your thermos~]
It's just returning my thermos, I chuckled.
I touched my cold ears with my cold hands. I'm afraid of the cold. I don't wear as much as before today, and I feel even colder.
My ten fingers were already a little stiff, and my nails were a little purple from the cold. I resisted the urge to reply to her, so I thought I was being self-willed again. Now I don’t want to reply to her messages. If she asks, I will continue to slander. A lie, and it's not like I haven't told it anyway.
But what's wrong with her?
She didn't.
It is my own reason.
I also set the WeChat vibration to mute, then turned off the phone, and took the gloves out of the satchel.
I laughed at myself, I was too gutless, I only dared to wear it when Zou Yun was not around.
After a while, Lu Qing and the others came out.
Laughing while walking.
"Hahahahahahahaha Ah Ning, you don't know if you didn't go in. Lu Qing was so scared that she kept grabbing my arm hahahahahaha."
"A ghost popped out, Qi Yu was very calm, went up and asked my elder brother, are you cold today hahahahahahaha, last semester I asked if it was hot, and now I am asking if it is cold hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha"
"The bridge keeps shaking, and Qiqi is also timid, screaming ahhhh."
I listened to the content of their chat and laughed. Although I didn't go in, I could imagine the picture.
We went to line up to ride the roller coaster again.
In the end, I finished playing many favorite projects to my heart's content, finished my meal, and got on the bus back to school.
I didn't go to the haunted house today, and I participated in everything else they wanted to play.
After walking for a long time and playing for a long time, I am physically and mentally exhausted.
Fell asleep in the car again.
When I got to the school gate, I said goodbye to them, and I walked to the community.
There was a store selling candied haws. I habitually bought two bunches, but when I got them, I realized I had bought too much.
It gets dark quickly in winter, and it's already past seven o'clock, the streets outside are brightly lit, and I walk more slowly than before.
"Wei Ning!" I heard someone calling me, and I followed the voice and looked over.
It was Song Yuan again, he was with his friends.
He came over alone and asked with a smile, "Have you had dinner? We are going to dinner, do you want to come together?"
"I've eaten." I smiled again.
He scratched the back of his head again, and continued, "I met you unexpectedly."
Holding the bag of candied haws in my hand, I thought for a while and said, "Song Yuan, I think we should delete the contact information." My intuition should be correct.
"Ah? Why?" Song Yuan couldn't believe it, "I..."
I picked up the bag containing a candied haws, handed it to him and interrupted him, "Because there is no result, hey, I'll give you a candied haws."
Out of politeness, I won't not reply to his message, but I don't like him, so it's better not to contact him.
Song Yuan said "Oh", paused, and reached out to take it. He looked very disappointed, "But I haven't said that I like it..."
"Thank you." I interrupted him again, smiling at him.
It wouldn't be fair to him to be friends with him, even though I don't think I have the kind of charm that would keep people liking me.
Talked to him for a while, and finally said goodbye.
I don't like to eat while walking, but I've now unpacked the candied haws.
I took a small bite of the top hawthorn.
The boss said that the hawthorn is sweet, but I just feel sour after eating it.
I was so sour that I shed tears.
The author has something to say: ask quietly, is this considered abuse...?
I don't think so hahaha =_=
☆, 43.
On Monday, Qin An really came back.
The complexion looks the same as before, but I feel some changes, indescribable changes.
He still sits behind me and pokes my back with a pen during class to make me study hard.
But don't you have something to say?I didn't ask on the first day, and I didn't ask on the second day. My gossip attribute is now fully developed. Finally, during the break after class on the third day, I turned my head and said: "Squad leader, today is Wednesday."
"Yeah." Qin An said with a smile, "I'll treat you to dinner on Friday night, and I'll tell you when the time comes."
"Just..." I pointed to him and me, "The two of us?"
"Wow! Squad leader! Do you want to do this!" Luo Qin made an exaggerated expression at the side, and she looked like she was watching the excitement.
"Luo Qin, let's go and talk about your love." Qin An waved his hand and answered my question, "Yes."
"Tch." Luo Qin snorted.
I said, "Okay then."
I turned my head, my eyebrows jumped, I opened the last page of the notebook, and wrote No. 14 days.
Today is the No. 14 day when I realized that I like Zou Yunyun.
I was still thinking about less than a month on Saturday, but this is more than less than a month, it's a lot worse.
After I finished writing, I looked at the number of days and ran my fingers through the dry notes.
These three days...
I deliberately avoided Zou Yunyun, as I planned.
When she asks me if I want to go to school together, I always say that I have already left.
Originally, I planned to let her go first, but then I thought about it, what if she stayed and waited for me again?So I got up earlier than before, and I didn't go to the breakfast shop I used to eat. I was afraid that she would come later, and if I ran into her, I didn't know how to deal with it calmly.
I have nothing to do during the week, but Zou Yunyun has. I asked Lu Qing, and the program of their department changed again. The secretary said that their aerobics time was too short, and asked them to make a longer program, and finally discussed it again. Yes, it's finalized to play a sketch, so people in their department have to leave half an hour to an hour to practice every noon and afternoon, so when we go back, Zou Yun can't be with me.
Of course, this is the best.
I turned on the phone again and checked out the chat history with her on the top. The latest news on it was last night. Zou Yunyun asked me again if I wanted to be together, and my answer was: No, I'm leaving first.
Just six words, I feel a little breathless looking at it.
What am I doing again?Wouldn't it be nice if he could pretend that he didn't have that kind of thought about her?Why do we have to do this to cool our only friendship?
I closed my notebook, closed my eyes and let out a sigh.
Since going back on Saturday night until now, we only saw each other when Zou Yunyun returned the thermos to me, and we never saw each other the rest of the time.
I really want to ask, why did you drink that night?
I finally chose not to ask.
What if I ask?
The plan that is going on now is to have less contact with her, so maybe it will make me feel better.
I'm still too selfish, and I still think about myself at this time.
What about Zou Yun?Would she be upset by my apparent nonchalant attitude?
Surely it will.
But I feel that I have nothing to do, after all...if she finds out that I like her, maybe she should just distance herself from me.
It's going to make it harder for me.
And early is estrangement, and late is estrangement, so why not earlier?
Anyway... it makes no difference.
Originally, I thought that maybe I could get away earlier, but I didn't expect that now I seem to like her more and more.
I can't deny that I have become pessimistic now. The joy and happiness that I had when I first realized that I liked her have dissipated a lot, and now I am surrounded by "depression".
I brushed my hair, took out my gloves and put them on again.
I can wear this pair of gloves anytime, anywhere without her around.
Because the gloves are half-fingered, I can still play with my phone normally.
I clicked on Weibo, then clicked on Zou Yunyun's homepage and looked through it.
She hasn't updated any content for four or five days, not even forwarding it.
The only one was posted on Friday, and the content is: [Oh Doc. 】
It means "how to do" in Korean.
So what to do?
I don't know.
I muffled a laugh and pressed return.
Tomorrow's solar term is heavy snow, I thought about it and posted a Weibo.
Xiaowei Benwei: It will snow heavily tomorrow, and the snow will come soon hahahahahaha.
After school, I clicked to open it and found that I received more than ten comments from my friends.
Zhong Keyi's comment: [I admit that I'm really envious of #今天的婚城雪了吗#]
Zhao Xuming's comment: [Wei Wei, can you send us some snow so we can see the world. 】
Luo Qin's comment: [The elderly are watching solar terms again today]
From another high school classmate: [Please send Xue’s ID number]
……
I replied one by one, and the last one was commented by Zou Yunyun.
Yun Zhongli: [Then what was said at the time still counts?]
what did you say?
I frowned and thought about it, and went into the community to buy fruit.
Could it be referring to the snowball fight?
Zou Yunyun also said excitedly that he would help me.
But in the current situation, it seems impossible.
I stood in front of the fruit section, put the basket down, and replied to her message: [? 】
I'm really... a liar, just pretend not to know.
Back in the house, I dared to take out my phone to read the reply.
However, Zou Yun did not reply to me.
Has she also felt that I am keeping a distance from her?
Yes, she is so smart.
I smiled and stuffed a piece of orange into my mouth. Why is this orange sour than the hawthorn I ate last time.
Winter feels like time goes by so slowly, and finally it's Friday.
After I took a nap first, I went to the shop that Qin An made an appointment with me.
Tonight, I will eat instant boiled mutton.
When I went, Qin An had just arrived, and we sat down at the seat he had reserved by phone.
After adjusting the ingredients of their respective dishes, the mutton soup in the pot has begun to steam and smell.
Qin An poured me a cup of hot soy milk, and he said while pouring, "Would you like to drink?"
"Quit." I smiled.
"Trust you big head ghost."
I took the soy milk, took a sip, looked at the people coming and going outside the window, and asked, "It's a holiday on the 11th, are you going home on the 11th?"
"I don't know yet." Qin An followed me to look out the window, and turned around after a few seconds.
I also looked away, "I bought a ticket on the 12th."
The soup in the pot has started to boil, and I use chopsticks to hold the mutton in the pot.
With this posture, I spoke first, and I said: "Squad leader, I didn't expect you to be a..." I thought about it, and said with a smile, "Man of the hour?"
Qin An was also holding mutton, he looked at me, "You already know?"
"No, what can I know? I just asked Zou Yunyun. She used to be in Yuncheng No. [-] Middle School. I casually asked her if she knew you. She said she knew, but you changed schools later."
After speaking, the mutton seemed to be ready to eat, so I put it in the dishes.
"Wei Ning." Qin An also retracted his chopsticks, but he kept looking at me, "You used to have a friend who was..."
"What is it?" His hesitation made me ask.
"Gay."
"Cough cough cough."
I lowered my head and coughed, which made my face turn red.
I calmed down and drank all the soy milk in the cup before recovering.
I replied: "Of course there is." Not only my friends have it, but also myself.
But sometimes I don't think so, maybe I just like Zou Yun?And she just happened to be a girl.
"I am." Qin An said.
"Ahhh?" I started to feel incredible.
Qin An? ? ? gay? ? ?
No wonder... No wonder Zou Yun said that if I like Qin An, there will be no results.
"That's what I'm going to say. I haven't told anyone since I've been here."
"Um……"
I don't know what to say now.
"I didn't think to talk about it, but last week the incident of Yunli jumping off the building next door affected me."
"Why did it affect you?"
"Are you interested?" Qin An smiled.
Me: "...don't talk about it if you have the ability."
"All right, all right, I was wrong, let me tell you! Otherwise, I will suffocate to death."
I raised my eyebrows and poured myself water.
"The first time I knew I liked the same sex was in the second year of junior high school."
sophomore...
I didn't know until my sophomore year!
I nodded and raised my eyebrows for him to continue.
Qin An continued, "I was staying at the time, and I liked a roommate of mine. He played basketball very well."
"And then?" I asked.
"When I graduated from the third year of junior high school, I confessed my love."
"Then he said I was disgusting." Qin An described it calmly.
"This..." I frowned, trying to say something, but in the end just kept listening to him.
"Later on in high school, that is, Yuncheng No. [-] Middle School, I gradually fell in love with another boy, who was also in our class." Speaking of this, Qin An rubbed his forehead and chuckled, "I couldn't hold back this time and didn't want to confess my love." Yes, I was afraid of being called disgusting again, but I didn't expect him to say that he likes me."
I boiled another piece of meat, "That's pretty good..."
Qin An nodded, "It was pretty good at first, and that's how we started."
I asked: "Then what happened later? Why did you transfer school?"
"Because those good things are all fake." Qin An's expression finally looked a little more painful, just like last week, sweat began to break out on his face again.
He took out a piece of paper himself, then wiped his sweat, "He has always known that I am gay, so he just wanted to try what it's like to fall in love with a boy, and after a short time together, he made this matter public , All the students in our class knew about it, and then all the students in our grade knew about it, and finally my head teacher also knew about it, and my family also knew about it.”
"The school was quite noisy at the time, so Zou Yun knew that I was also normal."
The movement of my hands has stopped, only my eyes are wide open.
The corner of Qin An's mouth was bleak, "Just like the case of that man Yunli, I was also arranged by my parents to see a psychiatrist. They said it was wrong. How can people of the same sex be together?"
"Later, I was forced to transfer to another school, and my parents also strongly demanded that I not let others know that I was gay, otherwise they would transfer me again."
"Since the second year of high school, I have changed schools three times one after another. When I filled out the volunteer form for the college entrance examination, I only wanted to stay away from Yuncheng."
The mutton has fallen into the pot. I scoop it up and put it in a dish.
I thought about my words, but I didn't know how to say them.
Qin An continued: "When I was making money, I had a fight with my family, but I still won. My mother told me that I like girls, no matter who is older or younger than me. , I should be glad I didn't go crazy."
"I seldom disobey their decisions, even when I go to see a psychiatrist, and not choosing the university they want is already the most rebellious thing I have ever done. Later, during the military training, when you interacted with Lu Qing, I I noticed you, I think you look very deceiving, a little girl in an unfamiliar place should be easier to fall in love with, as long as I pretend to like you."
I:"……"
It's not an illusion that I think he likes me.
I don't know what to say again.
"But I didn't expect you to be so determined, and you didn't show any emotion. I couldn't continue to act in the end."
"roll."
"I'm sorry." Qin An said with a serious expression, "I now apologize for my behavior back then."
This store has private rooms, but we sat outside, but the tables were separated by curtains, Qin Anyu's words were not loud in this noisy store.
I waved my hand, "...it's okay."
The shock in my heart has not subsided.
I turned my head and looked out the window again, and I asked: "If I liked you at the beginning, what would you do?"
"With you, I have lied to my parents."
I frowned, "What about now? Have you ever lied to..."
I won't finish the sentence, but Qin An must know what I'm asking.
Have you ever cheated on other girls?
Qin An's looks are undoubtedly handsome in my eyes. Apart from Lei Yao, I also know that there are people in our class who like him, from seniors to juniors.
But now it seems that there will be no results.
"No, I can't lie to myself, and this behavior is also wrong. To tell you the truth, I'm currently having an affair with a boy from the journalism school. I don't want to care about the attitude of my family now. I can't live too tired."
"puff……"
"Master Wei, please pay attention to your image."
"roll!"
After chatting for a while, Qin An asked, "Why weren't you moved then?"
"Tch..." I said disgustedly, "You are not RMB, so everyone has to like you."
"No."
"Okay," I said, "because I'm like you, I like girls."
This time it was Qin An's turn to be shocked, "I'm lying down, I can't tell!"
"I didn't know before." Now I think of Zou Yun again, and various appearances of her appear in my mind.
I went on to say, "I only found out about it recently."
"Zou Yun?"
"... Are you a fortune teller?"
"Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, you're always saying her name every day, how can you hide when you like someone alone." Qin An shook his head and smiled, "The two of us... one Ji and the other Ji."
He said and picked up the water glass, "Long live friendship."
"..." I clinked glasses with him blankly.
After drinking this cup of "Friendship Soymilk", Qin An returned to a serious look, and said, "Wei Ning, although I don't even have contact information with Zou Yun, my instinct tells me that Zou Yun must like you too, you come on."
I sneered: "You have a p instinct."
Immediately I was sad again.
Yes, how could she like me so coincidentally?
The author has something to say: Our little Zou: Oh Doc, senior sister is so straight
The squad leader's affairs are also quite realistic.
Updated earlier today (it seems too early)
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I don't even know when it's time to update T^T
Second update, it does not exist!!!!
(●_●) This is me who stayed up all night writing
☆, 44.
On Thursday morning, just before school was over, the snow still started to fall.
Because of the cold, the windows in the lecture theater were only opened, and the curtains were drawn. Some students sitting on the side bowed and opened the curtains, and then slowly sat back.
"Ah Ning, have you seen You Who Came From The Stars?" Luo Qin asked me softly while looking out the window.
"Of course, it was very popular at that time, and I followed suit."
"Do you still remember the line about Chuxue?"
I asked: "Which sentence?"
"When the first snow falls, any lie can be forgiven."
"Hahaha I thought it was about fried chicken and beer." I laughed.
I retracted my gaze and continued to listen to the teacher's lecture.
After eating, I put my hands in my pockets and walked outside.
When passing the ginkgo tree, looking at the bare branches, I gathered my scarf.
The snow is still falling, but it is not very big. It falls to the ground and melts quickly.
I stretched out my right hand, and a few pieces fell into the palm of my hand. I raised my head slightly, looked at the still dark sky, and then continued to walk outside.
I pursed my lips tightly and clenched my fingers into fists in my pockets.
I had my period yesterday, probably due to the weather, I have been suffering from dysmenorrhea.
In the afternoon, I took the physical education test again. After I insisted on running 800 meters, I couldn't do it anymore. After the end, I quickly returned to the rented place, drank hot water and took medicine, and then lay on the sofa with my hot water bottle in my hands.
So uncomfortable.
Dysmenorrhea is now in the top three of my pain list.
With the air conditioner on, my forehead slowly started to sweat, and the pain gradually eased.
The phone rang, and I picked it up to see that it was Lu Qing who called.
Lu Qing: "Hello? Wei Ning, are you there?"
Me: "You say."
Lu Qing: "It's snowing today! Come out and play!"
I laughed: "I can't come, the dysmenorrhea girl is very weak now."
Lu Qing was surprised: "Ah? Didn't it hurt before?"
I was helpless: "How do I know, this time the pain is so painful that I feel like I'm going to gg."
Lu Qing: "Alright then, can you do it by yourself?"
"Well, it's just dysmenorrhea, nothing else, just don't move, I'll sleep later." I touched the hot water bag.
"All right, next time."
"Bye-Bye."
The phone hung up, I lowered my hands, pulled the blanket, and fell asleep in a daze.
When I woke up again, it was already dark outside. I didn't turn off the lights before going to bed, and the lights are still on now.
I went to the toilet, washed my hands and came out after a while, and sat for a while, and I started to cook porridge.
While waiting, I was bored watching TV, holding a hot water bottle, I sat very well, I dare not sit cross-legged at this time.
I took the phone, and after playing around, I clicked on Zou Yunyun's Weibo homepage.
She started retweeting some jokes again, and it looked the same as before.
She posted a Weibo with pictures today.
Liyu in the cloud: [It's snowing [picture]]
The accompanying picture is the snow falling on the grass in the school.
After thinking about it, I pressed return.
I don't have the courage to like or comment.
You've done a good job of keeping your distance from her, haven't you?
Last week plus now, more than ten days, I have very little contact with her.
Oh no, or not at all.
I purposely avoided seeing her, and I never saw her again, and she never texted me again, nor did she ring my doorbell.
The tacit understanding is outrageous.
Thinking of this, I covered my eyes.
It's too bad.
It's worse than dysmenorrhea.
The notification bar above shows @ with a WeChat group message, I click to open it.
It's Zhang Wenxi and the others that belonged to me. I flipped through the chat history and replied: [Are there enough people? 】
They were about to play a case-solving word game that required six people.
Zhang Wenxi: [Qinqin can’t come now, Qiqi can’t come, and Qi Yu can’t come, it’s just the three of us now]
Lu Qing:【Then find three more, we must play!】
I laughed: [Who are you looking for? 】
Zhang Wenxi: [Um...Qin An?Lin Mingming?Who else? 】
Lu Qing: [Cloud. 】
I can't stop laughing.
Zhang Wenxi: [Then you ask Zou Yunyun, I ask Lin Mingming, Ah Ning, you ask Qin An. 】
After assigning the task so simply, I looked at Zou Yunyun's name on the phone screen.
I scratched my hair and sent Qin An a message.
Me: [Squad leader, are you playing games?The text version of the crime-solving game, six missing and three. 】
Qin An quickly replied: [Come on! I happen to be fine now. 】
I went back to the group and replied: [OK, Qin An is coming. 】
Zhang Wenxi: [Lin Mingming said he was playing games and couldn't come]
Lu Qing: [Yun Yun said she could]
Zhang Wenxi: [Then there is still one short]
Lu Qing: [Let me ask another member of our department, Zhang Anjia, do you know each other? 】
【Um. 】
After a while, a message came from Lu Qing:【She can do it! It's done! All six of us are here!】
Zhang Wenxi: [Come, come, come, come
I... um, ahem, ahem, of course I would like to be "bitten" by her again, but in her confused situation, if I agree, it will appear that I disrespect her.
And...just treating my lips like jelly again.
Zou Yun closed his eyes again, with his eyelashes laid quietly under his eyes.
See it.
How should I agree in this situation?
Of course, if she is awake, I will also refuse.
I can accept being close to her, but I can't accept such an intimate behavior.
When I was young before, I thought it was okay to even have a kiss between good friends, but not anymore, only couples are allowed.
I shook my head, bent my legs, and hugged my knees.
Anyway, I will never agree to such a request again.
I was caught off guard last time, but this time since she spoke first, I can also refuse.
Rejection is the best option.
I rested my chin on my knees, looking at Zou Yun's peaceful sleeping face.
Her forehead, her eyebrows, her nose, her lips, her chin.
I saw her unconsciously sticking out her tongue and licking her lips, maybe she was thirsty?
I've been to her several times, I thought about it, stood up, went to boil hot water for her, then turned it into warm water and put it on the tea table.
I hesitated, looking at her slightly dry lips, should I call her up to drink some water?
I called her softly, "Zou Yun."
Didn't wake up.
forget it.
She... be thirsty now.
I stood up, went back to my room to write a note, and brought a thermos and a bottle of mineral water.
Fill the thermos cup with hot water, and I put it and the note on the table.
The note said that there is hot water in the vacuum flask, if you are thirsty, you can mix it with mineral water and drink it as warm water.
After a while, I checked the time, it was past eleven o'clock.
I have to get up early tomorrow morning to go to the playground. I tucked her in the quilt. Fortunately, the sofa here is big and long enough for her to fall asleep like this.
I looked at her in a daze, my throat moved, I slowly bent down, and when my lips were only a few centimeters away from her forehead, I slowly stood up again.
What am I doing?
I can't accept her saying "I want to bite you" when she is unconscious, how can I kiss her forehead when she is unconscious?
I still can't do this kind of behavior of taking advantage of others' danger.
I pursed my lips and smiled, said "good night" softly, and finally tiptoed out of her room.
I thought a lot that night, and then I had a dream after I fell asleep.
I dreamed that Zou Yunyun smiled at me, and she called me: "Senior sister!" It was a voice I was familiar with with joy.
Then I heard her say with a smile: "Do you want to hear a joke? I'll tell you."
In the dream, I lowered my head and kept laughing, "Okay."
Later, just when Zou Yunyun opened his mouth to tell me a joke, I woke up.
Alert rings.
I rubbed my eyes, rubbed my head again, and stretched myself before I started to get dressed.
After packing everything, the time was a little earlier than I had planned.
I put on my bag and went out, standing still at the door of Zou Yun.
I didn't turn off the lights when I left, for fear that when she woke up, all she could see would be darkness.
Now the light is still coming out from the crack of the door, just because it is already early morning, not as obvious as at night.
Did she wake up?
Will she remember what happened last night when she wakes up?
Holding my clothes in my hands, I waited until I heard the sound of other doors opening before I turned around and walked out.
What can happen last night?
It's just that Zou Yun wanted to eat jelly after drinking too much.
It seems that I will have to keep some at home later, in case this happens in the future, I will take out the jelly and give it to her.
Hahahahahaha.
After a few awkward laughs in my heart, I fell into boundless sadness.
What should we do?
I found that my mentality has changed significantly.
I used to think that it didn't matter whether she was with someone else or not, anyway, I just liked her, but seeing Zou Yun's quiet appearance last night, my thoughts were quickly overturned.
How could he not want to be with her?
It used to be just out of fear.
What I'm afraid of is not that she will know, but that she will pretend not to know after knowing, or... more simply reject me and stay away from me.
I really don't have much confidence, because I myself have experienced same-sex relationships, so I don't think it has anything to do with same-sex or opposite-sex, but... Zou Yun doesn't necessarily think so, does he?
The probability that the girl you like also likes you is much lower than the probability that the boy you like also likes you.
What if you distance yourself from me?What if you stop sweetly calling me senior?What if you don't want to go to and from school with me anymore?
There are even more uncomfortable thoughts, which are all held in my heart, making me even more sad and lost.
I was thinking, I will tell her when I find a chance, even if she can't be with me, it's okay, because being able to like someone already makes me feel happy enough.
But as things stand now, I can't do it again.
If I say it, then I will lose her before I have her, maybe even the relationship of good friends will not be there, just ordinary school girls and neighbors who no longer say hello .
After thinking so much, how can I control my desire to tell her that I like her and want to be with her?
It's still early, I'm wearing a sweater and a coat, and I let out a sigh as I rub my chin against my scarf.
I'm so lost and don't know what to do.
Wouldn't it be better to keep a distance from her?
When she asked me if I wanted snacks, she just said she didn't want it?
When she asked me if I want to go to school together, she just said you go first?
Like last night, when you say you want to bite me, it's fine if I refuse.
Before she distanced herself from me, before she stopped smiling at me, before she stopped seeing me.
I'll just keep my distance from her.
In this way, maybe I can also restore myself to the previous state where I just liked her and had no other thoughts about her, or... I don’t like her anymore, and soon end my short crush of less than a month.
Even though I know it's unlikely.
I pursed my lips and saw Lu Qing and the others at the school gate.
Our departure point is the school gate, and Chen Ziqi is still here, but there is still time, so don't worry.
"Wei Ning!" Lu Qing took my hand, let go after touching it, and said with disgust, "Your hands are colder than mine."
"Hahahahahaha." I temporarily put aside those dull moods, and was amused by Lu Qing's actions.
I clenched my hands into fists and put them in my pocket, but the inside was not as warm as Zou Yun's bag, so I lowered my eyes and sighed again.
Zhang Wenxi was shaking his legs beside him, his mouth was trembling, "Dad is freezing to death."
Qi Yu put on her clothes and hat, only her face was exposed, her lips trembled, "When you come out to play, you have to be conscious of being shivering from the cold, and you suggested it, Xixi."
"alright."
After a while, Chen Ziqi arrived.
The bus is also here.
Fortunately, it was still early and there were still plenty of seats in the car, so we sat down at the back.
I leaned against the window, folded my arms, and looked out the window.
Lu Qing sat next to me, she touched mine with her elbow, her eyes were concerned, "You're in a bad mood?"
"No." I shook my head and smiled, then closed my eyes, "I didn't sleep enough."
"Sleep, I will call you when I have to transfer."
"Ah."
If you want to come out and play, just have fun, this is the rule I have always followed.
It was Saturday, and there were still a lot of people, even in winter.
I sat on a chair to rest, Lu Qing and the others entered the haunted house.
I said I'm not going.
The wind blows a little bleak, I don't know if it is the influence of my state of mind.
Children are everywhere, some of them are acting like a spoiled child to their parents, and I think of the time when Zou Yunyun hugged me in Qicheng to avoid the bear children.
There are many items in the playground. I looked at the jumping machine that was slowly rising not far away. After a while, many players on it screamed.
Lu Qing and the others would not come out in the haunted house, so I sat there for another 2 minutes, sent them a message, and threw the hot coffee in my hand into the trash can.
I got on the carousel.
Surrounded by children, there are also people who are as old as me or older than me, and there are one or two couples talking and laughing.
I took out my phone, turned on the camera, and showed a smile that I thought was bright.
After the carousel was finished, I went back to where I was just now, but the chairs were already taken, so I just stood outside the haunted house and waited for them.
Why don't you want to go in?
Probably from the moment Zou Yunyun said that she likes haunted houses the most, I just wanted to be with her.
But looking at the current situation, the possibility is very small.
I lowered my head and played with my phone, it's almost a little faster now.
Did Zou Yun wake up to drink water last night?Has she eaten now?Have you noticed that I'm not here?
After thinking like this for a few seconds, I felt a vibration in my palm.
Zou Yunyun: [Sister, when are you coming back? 】
I told her that I would go to the playground with Lu Qing and the others on Saturday.
Zou Yunyun: [I want to return your thermos~]
It's just returning my thermos, I chuckled.
I touched my cold ears with my cold hands. I'm afraid of the cold. I don't wear as much as before today, and I feel even colder.
My ten fingers were already a little stiff, and my nails were a little purple from the cold. I resisted the urge to reply to her, so I thought I was being self-willed again. Now I don’t want to reply to her messages. If she asks, I will continue to slander. A lie, and it's not like I haven't told it anyway.
But what's wrong with her?
She didn't.
It is my own reason.
I also set the WeChat vibration to mute, then turned off the phone, and took the gloves out of the satchel.
I laughed at myself, I was too gutless, I only dared to wear it when Zou Yun was not around.
After a while, Lu Qing and the others came out.
Laughing while walking.
"Hahahahahahahaha Ah Ning, you don't know if you didn't go in. Lu Qing was so scared that she kept grabbing my arm hahahahahaha."
"A ghost popped out, Qi Yu was very calm, went up and asked my elder brother, are you cold today hahahahahahaha, last semester I asked if it was hot, and now I am asking if it is cold hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha"
"The bridge keeps shaking, and Qiqi is also timid, screaming ahhhh."
I listened to the content of their chat and laughed. Although I didn't go in, I could imagine the picture.
We went to line up to ride the roller coaster again.
In the end, I finished playing many favorite projects to my heart's content, finished my meal, and got on the bus back to school.
I didn't go to the haunted house today, and I participated in everything else they wanted to play.
After walking for a long time and playing for a long time, I am physically and mentally exhausted.
Fell asleep in the car again.
When I got to the school gate, I said goodbye to them, and I walked to the community.
There was a store selling candied haws. I habitually bought two bunches, but when I got them, I realized I had bought too much.
It gets dark quickly in winter, and it's already past seven o'clock, the streets outside are brightly lit, and I walk more slowly than before.
"Wei Ning!" I heard someone calling me, and I followed the voice and looked over.
It was Song Yuan again, he was with his friends.
He came over alone and asked with a smile, "Have you had dinner? We are going to dinner, do you want to come together?"
"I've eaten." I smiled again.
He scratched the back of his head again, and continued, "I met you unexpectedly."
Holding the bag of candied haws in my hand, I thought for a while and said, "Song Yuan, I think we should delete the contact information." My intuition should be correct.
"Ah? Why?" Song Yuan couldn't believe it, "I..."
I picked up the bag containing a candied haws, handed it to him and interrupted him, "Because there is no result, hey, I'll give you a candied haws."
Out of politeness, I won't not reply to his message, but I don't like him, so it's better not to contact him.
Song Yuan said "Oh", paused, and reached out to take it. He looked very disappointed, "But I haven't said that I like it..."
"Thank you." I interrupted him again, smiling at him.
It wouldn't be fair to him to be friends with him, even though I don't think I have the kind of charm that would keep people liking me.
Talked to him for a while, and finally said goodbye.
I don't like to eat while walking, but I've now unpacked the candied haws.
I took a small bite of the top hawthorn.
The boss said that the hawthorn is sweet, but I just feel sour after eating it.
I was so sour that I shed tears.
The author has something to say: ask quietly, is this considered abuse...?
I don't think so hahaha =_=
☆, 43.
On Monday, Qin An really came back.
The complexion looks the same as before, but I feel some changes, indescribable changes.
He still sits behind me and pokes my back with a pen during class to make me study hard.
But don't you have something to say?I didn't ask on the first day, and I didn't ask on the second day. My gossip attribute is now fully developed. Finally, during the break after class on the third day, I turned my head and said: "Squad leader, today is Wednesday."
"Yeah." Qin An said with a smile, "I'll treat you to dinner on Friday night, and I'll tell you when the time comes."
"Just..." I pointed to him and me, "The two of us?"
"Wow! Squad leader! Do you want to do this!" Luo Qin made an exaggerated expression at the side, and she looked like she was watching the excitement.
"Luo Qin, let's go and talk about your love." Qin An waved his hand and answered my question, "Yes."
"Tch." Luo Qin snorted.
I said, "Okay then."
I turned my head, my eyebrows jumped, I opened the last page of the notebook, and wrote No. 14 days.
Today is the No. 14 day when I realized that I like Zou Yunyun.
I was still thinking about less than a month on Saturday, but this is more than less than a month, it's a lot worse.
After I finished writing, I looked at the number of days and ran my fingers through the dry notes.
These three days...
I deliberately avoided Zou Yunyun, as I planned.
When she asks me if I want to go to school together, I always say that I have already left.
Originally, I planned to let her go first, but then I thought about it, what if she stayed and waited for me again?So I got up earlier than before, and I didn't go to the breakfast shop I used to eat. I was afraid that she would come later, and if I ran into her, I didn't know how to deal with it calmly.
I have nothing to do during the week, but Zou Yunyun has. I asked Lu Qing, and the program of their department changed again. The secretary said that their aerobics time was too short, and asked them to make a longer program, and finally discussed it again. Yes, it's finalized to play a sketch, so people in their department have to leave half an hour to an hour to practice every noon and afternoon, so when we go back, Zou Yun can't be with me.
Of course, this is the best.
I turned on the phone again and checked out the chat history with her on the top. The latest news on it was last night. Zou Yunyun asked me again if I wanted to be together, and my answer was: No, I'm leaving first.
Just six words, I feel a little breathless looking at it.
What am I doing again?Wouldn't it be nice if he could pretend that he didn't have that kind of thought about her?Why do we have to do this to cool our only friendship?
I closed my notebook, closed my eyes and let out a sigh.
Since going back on Saturday night until now, we only saw each other when Zou Yunyun returned the thermos to me, and we never saw each other the rest of the time.
I really want to ask, why did you drink that night?
I finally chose not to ask.
What if I ask?
The plan that is going on now is to have less contact with her, so maybe it will make me feel better.
I'm still too selfish, and I still think about myself at this time.
What about Zou Yun?Would she be upset by my apparent nonchalant attitude?
Surely it will.
But I feel that I have nothing to do, after all...if she finds out that I like her, maybe she should just distance herself from me.
It's going to make it harder for me.
And early is estrangement, and late is estrangement, so why not earlier?
Anyway... it makes no difference.
Originally, I thought that maybe I could get away earlier, but I didn't expect that now I seem to like her more and more.
I can't deny that I have become pessimistic now. The joy and happiness that I had when I first realized that I liked her have dissipated a lot, and now I am surrounded by "depression".
I brushed my hair, took out my gloves and put them on again.
I can wear this pair of gloves anytime, anywhere without her around.
Because the gloves are half-fingered, I can still play with my phone normally.
I clicked on Weibo, then clicked on Zou Yunyun's homepage and looked through it.
She hasn't updated any content for four or five days, not even forwarding it.
The only one was posted on Friday, and the content is: [Oh Doc. 】
It means "how to do" in Korean.
So what to do?
I don't know.
I muffled a laugh and pressed return.
Tomorrow's solar term is heavy snow, I thought about it and posted a Weibo.
Xiaowei Benwei: It will snow heavily tomorrow, and the snow will come soon hahahahahaha.
After school, I clicked to open it and found that I received more than ten comments from my friends.
Zhong Keyi's comment: [I admit that I'm really envious of #今天的婚城雪了吗#]
Zhao Xuming's comment: [Wei Wei, can you send us some snow so we can see the world. 】
Luo Qin's comment: [The elderly are watching solar terms again today]
From another high school classmate: [Please send Xue’s ID number]
……
I replied one by one, and the last one was commented by Zou Yunyun.
Yun Zhongli: [Then what was said at the time still counts?]
what did you say?
I frowned and thought about it, and went into the community to buy fruit.
Could it be referring to the snowball fight?
Zou Yunyun also said excitedly that he would help me.
But in the current situation, it seems impossible.
I stood in front of the fruit section, put the basket down, and replied to her message: [? 】
I'm really... a liar, just pretend not to know.
Back in the house, I dared to take out my phone to read the reply.
However, Zou Yun did not reply to me.
Has she also felt that I am keeping a distance from her?
Yes, she is so smart.
I smiled and stuffed a piece of orange into my mouth. Why is this orange sour than the hawthorn I ate last time.
Winter feels like time goes by so slowly, and finally it's Friday.
After I took a nap first, I went to the shop that Qin An made an appointment with me.
Tonight, I will eat instant boiled mutton.
When I went, Qin An had just arrived, and we sat down at the seat he had reserved by phone.
After adjusting the ingredients of their respective dishes, the mutton soup in the pot has begun to steam and smell.
Qin An poured me a cup of hot soy milk, and he said while pouring, "Would you like to drink?"
"Quit." I smiled.
"Trust you big head ghost."
I took the soy milk, took a sip, looked at the people coming and going outside the window, and asked, "It's a holiday on the 11th, are you going home on the 11th?"
"I don't know yet." Qin An followed me to look out the window, and turned around after a few seconds.
I also looked away, "I bought a ticket on the 12th."
The soup in the pot has started to boil, and I use chopsticks to hold the mutton in the pot.
With this posture, I spoke first, and I said: "Squad leader, I didn't expect you to be a..." I thought about it, and said with a smile, "Man of the hour?"
Qin An was also holding mutton, he looked at me, "You already know?"
"No, what can I know? I just asked Zou Yunyun. She used to be in Yuncheng No. [-] Middle School. I casually asked her if she knew you. She said she knew, but you changed schools later."
After speaking, the mutton seemed to be ready to eat, so I put it in the dishes.
"Wei Ning." Qin An also retracted his chopsticks, but he kept looking at me, "You used to have a friend who was..."
"What is it?" His hesitation made me ask.
"Gay."
"Cough cough cough."
I lowered my head and coughed, which made my face turn red.
I calmed down and drank all the soy milk in the cup before recovering.
I replied: "Of course there is." Not only my friends have it, but also myself.
But sometimes I don't think so, maybe I just like Zou Yun?And she just happened to be a girl.
"I am." Qin An said.
"Ahhh?" I started to feel incredible.
Qin An? ? ? gay? ? ?
No wonder... No wonder Zou Yun said that if I like Qin An, there will be no results.
"That's what I'm going to say. I haven't told anyone since I've been here."
"Um……"
I don't know what to say now.
"I didn't think to talk about it, but last week the incident of Yunli jumping off the building next door affected me."
"Why did it affect you?"
"Are you interested?" Qin An smiled.
Me: "...don't talk about it if you have the ability."
"All right, all right, I was wrong, let me tell you! Otherwise, I will suffocate to death."
I raised my eyebrows and poured myself water.
"The first time I knew I liked the same sex was in the second year of junior high school."
sophomore...
I didn't know until my sophomore year!
I nodded and raised my eyebrows for him to continue.
Qin An continued, "I was staying at the time, and I liked a roommate of mine. He played basketball very well."
"And then?" I asked.
"When I graduated from the third year of junior high school, I confessed my love."
"Then he said I was disgusting." Qin An described it calmly.
"This..." I frowned, trying to say something, but in the end just kept listening to him.
"Later on in high school, that is, Yuncheng No. [-] Middle School, I gradually fell in love with another boy, who was also in our class." Speaking of this, Qin An rubbed his forehead and chuckled, "I couldn't hold back this time and didn't want to confess my love." Yes, I was afraid of being called disgusting again, but I didn't expect him to say that he likes me."
I boiled another piece of meat, "That's pretty good..."
Qin An nodded, "It was pretty good at first, and that's how we started."
I asked: "Then what happened later? Why did you transfer school?"
"Because those good things are all fake." Qin An's expression finally looked a little more painful, just like last week, sweat began to break out on his face again.
He took out a piece of paper himself, then wiped his sweat, "He has always known that I am gay, so he just wanted to try what it's like to fall in love with a boy, and after a short time together, he made this matter public , All the students in our class knew about it, and then all the students in our grade knew about it, and finally my head teacher also knew about it, and my family also knew about it.”
"The school was quite noisy at the time, so Zou Yun knew that I was also normal."
The movement of my hands has stopped, only my eyes are wide open.
The corner of Qin An's mouth was bleak, "Just like the case of that man Yunli, I was also arranged by my parents to see a psychiatrist. They said it was wrong. How can people of the same sex be together?"
"Later, I was forced to transfer to another school, and my parents also strongly demanded that I not let others know that I was gay, otherwise they would transfer me again."
"Since the second year of high school, I have changed schools three times one after another. When I filled out the volunteer form for the college entrance examination, I only wanted to stay away from Yuncheng."
The mutton has fallen into the pot. I scoop it up and put it in a dish.
I thought about my words, but I didn't know how to say them.
Qin An continued: "When I was making money, I had a fight with my family, but I still won. My mother told me that I like girls, no matter who is older or younger than me. , I should be glad I didn't go crazy."
"I seldom disobey their decisions, even when I go to see a psychiatrist, and not choosing the university they want is already the most rebellious thing I have ever done. Later, during the military training, when you interacted with Lu Qing, I I noticed you, I think you look very deceiving, a little girl in an unfamiliar place should be easier to fall in love with, as long as I pretend to like you."
I:"……"
It's not an illusion that I think he likes me.
I don't know what to say again.
"But I didn't expect you to be so determined, and you didn't show any emotion. I couldn't continue to act in the end."
"roll."
"I'm sorry." Qin An said with a serious expression, "I now apologize for my behavior back then."
This store has private rooms, but we sat outside, but the tables were separated by curtains, Qin Anyu's words were not loud in this noisy store.
I waved my hand, "...it's okay."
The shock in my heart has not subsided.
I turned my head and looked out the window again, and I asked: "If I liked you at the beginning, what would you do?"
"With you, I have lied to my parents."
I frowned, "What about now? Have you ever lied to..."
I won't finish the sentence, but Qin An must know what I'm asking.
Have you ever cheated on other girls?
Qin An's looks are undoubtedly handsome in my eyes. Apart from Lei Yao, I also know that there are people in our class who like him, from seniors to juniors.
But now it seems that there will be no results.
"No, I can't lie to myself, and this behavior is also wrong. To tell you the truth, I'm currently having an affair with a boy from the journalism school. I don't want to care about the attitude of my family now. I can't live too tired."
"puff……"
"Master Wei, please pay attention to your image."
"roll!"
After chatting for a while, Qin An asked, "Why weren't you moved then?"
"Tch..." I said disgustedly, "You are not RMB, so everyone has to like you."
"No."
"Okay," I said, "because I'm like you, I like girls."
This time it was Qin An's turn to be shocked, "I'm lying down, I can't tell!"
"I didn't know before." Now I think of Zou Yun again, and various appearances of her appear in my mind.
I went on to say, "I only found out about it recently."
"Zou Yun?"
"... Are you a fortune teller?"
"Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, you're always saying her name every day, how can you hide when you like someone alone." Qin An shook his head and smiled, "The two of us... one Ji and the other Ji."
He said and picked up the water glass, "Long live friendship."
"..." I clinked glasses with him blankly.
After drinking this cup of "Friendship Soymilk", Qin An returned to a serious look, and said, "Wei Ning, although I don't even have contact information with Zou Yun, my instinct tells me that Zou Yun must like you too, you come on."
I sneered: "You have a p instinct."
Immediately I was sad again.
Yes, how could she like me so coincidentally?
The author has something to say: Our little Zou: Oh Doc, senior sister is so straight
The squad leader's affairs are also quite realistic.
Updated earlier today (it seems too early)
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☆, 44.
On Thursday morning, just before school was over, the snow still started to fall.
Because of the cold, the windows in the lecture theater were only opened, and the curtains were drawn. Some students sitting on the side bowed and opened the curtains, and then slowly sat back.
"Ah Ning, have you seen You Who Came From The Stars?" Luo Qin asked me softly while looking out the window.
"Of course, it was very popular at that time, and I followed suit."
"Do you still remember the line about Chuxue?"
I asked: "Which sentence?"
"When the first snow falls, any lie can be forgiven."
"Hahaha I thought it was about fried chicken and beer." I laughed.
I retracted my gaze and continued to listen to the teacher's lecture.
After eating, I put my hands in my pockets and walked outside.
When passing the ginkgo tree, looking at the bare branches, I gathered my scarf.
The snow is still falling, but it is not very big. It falls to the ground and melts quickly.
I stretched out my right hand, and a few pieces fell into the palm of my hand. I raised my head slightly, looked at the still dark sky, and then continued to walk outside.
I pursed my lips tightly and clenched my fingers into fists in my pockets.
I had my period yesterday, probably due to the weather, I have been suffering from dysmenorrhea.
In the afternoon, I took the physical education test again. After I insisted on running 800 meters, I couldn't do it anymore. After the end, I quickly returned to the rented place, drank hot water and took medicine, and then lay on the sofa with my hot water bottle in my hands.
So uncomfortable.
Dysmenorrhea is now in the top three of my pain list.
With the air conditioner on, my forehead slowly started to sweat, and the pain gradually eased.
The phone rang, and I picked it up to see that it was Lu Qing who called.
Lu Qing: "Hello? Wei Ning, are you there?"
Me: "You say."
Lu Qing: "It's snowing today! Come out and play!"
I laughed: "I can't come, the dysmenorrhea girl is very weak now."
Lu Qing was surprised: "Ah? Didn't it hurt before?"
I was helpless: "How do I know, this time the pain is so painful that I feel like I'm going to gg."
Lu Qing: "Alright then, can you do it by yourself?"
"Well, it's just dysmenorrhea, nothing else, just don't move, I'll sleep later." I touched the hot water bag.
"All right, next time."
"Bye-Bye."
The phone hung up, I lowered my hands, pulled the blanket, and fell asleep in a daze.
When I woke up again, it was already dark outside. I didn't turn off the lights before going to bed, and the lights are still on now.
I went to the toilet, washed my hands and came out after a while, and sat for a while, and I started to cook porridge.
While waiting, I was bored watching TV, holding a hot water bottle, I sat very well, I dare not sit cross-legged at this time.
I took the phone, and after playing around, I clicked on Zou Yunyun's Weibo homepage.
She started retweeting some jokes again, and it looked the same as before.
She posted a Weibo with pictures today.
Liyu in the cloud: [It's snowing [picture]]
The accompanying picture is the snow falling on the grass in the school.
After thinking about it, I pressed return.
I don't have the courage to like or comment.
You've done a good job of keeping your distance from her, haven't you?
Last week plus now, more than ten days, I have very little contact with her.
Oh no, or not at all.
I purposely avoided seeing her, and I never saw her again, and she never texted me again, nor did she ring my doorbell.
The tacit understanding is outrageous.
Thinking of this, I covered my eyes.
It's too bad.
It's worse than dysmenorrhea.
The notification bar above shows @ with a WeChat group message, I click to open it.
It's Zhang Wenxi and the others that belonged to me. I flipped through the chat history and replied: [Are there enough people? 】
They were about to play a case-solving word game that required six people.
Zhang Wenxi: [Qinqin can’t come now, Qiqi can’t come, and Qi Yu can’t come, it’s just the three of us now]
Lu Qing:【Then find three more, we must play!】
I laughed: [Who are you looking for? 】
Zhang Wenxi: [Um...Qin An?Lin Mingming?Who else? 】
Lu Qing: [Cloud. 】
I can't stop laughing.
Zhang Wenxi: [Then you ask Zou Yunyun, I ask Lin Mingming, Ah Ning, you ask Qin An. 】
After assigning the task so simply, I looked at Zou Yunyun's name on the phone screen.
I scratched my hair and sent Qin An a message.
Me: [Squad leader, are you playing games?The text version of the crime-solving game, six missing and three. 】
Qin An quickly replied: [Come on! I happen to be fine now. 】
I went back to the group and replied: [OK, Qin An is coming. 】
Zhang Wenxi: [Lin Mingming said he was playing games and couldn't come]
Lu Qing: [Yun Yun said she could]
Zhang Wenxi: [Then there is still one short]
Lu Qing: [Let me ask another member of our department, Zhang Anjia, do you know each other? 】
【Um. 】
After a while, a message came from Lu Qing:【She can do it! It's done! All six of us are here!】
Zhang Wenxi: [Come, come, come, come
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