The Queen of the Prairie and I

To be honest, the road from Danning Mansion to Guihuguan is even more unfamiliar to me than from Weining Haibei to Baishan.Although I don’t know how many great rivers and mountains, high mountains, and lush forests in the Central Plains have been missed by the life of being taken away, but at least it is much more humane than the uninhabited grassland.Silver and a piece of paper, a tall horse that can gallop, relying on these to protect themselves, hide themselves, and continue to go north among all kinds of people, including soldiers in armor, traders with carts, and vagrants. , In the various life conditions that I have never seen before, I really feel the meaning of the world of mortals. I keep going north, returning to the land that only exists in dreams.

The closer the entry is to Guihu Pass, the tighter the interrogation will be.Although a piece of paper stamped with the second brother's military seal is a sharp weapon for life-saving and traffic, it is only a thin piece of letter paper, and even a hole will be broken when the wind blows.Never in my life have I bet my entire life on something so fragile like this.After staying in the grassland for too long, an obvious fact has been difficult for me to accept.Although I have always reminded myself of everything before the age of seven to chastise myself and let myself remember where my roots are, it was only when I really lived in Tanning Mansion that I realized that I was already a stranger in this hometown.Every minute, every second, every moment of every day is compared with the prairie, with the previous life, only in this way can we find the correct attitude towards it, just like a panicked guest trembling in the host’s house It's the same as standing or sitting.

The attitude of the old housekeeper still surprised me, he didn't stop me and didn't say any words of persuasion.Just a look, and the attitude when he prepared the necessary things for me, let me see that he seemed to have felt the same way.Maybe he also had such a moment when he was restless because of a simple sentence of news, eager to see someone, and the thousands of miles of mountains and rivers in between became an obstruction to the eyes.Maybe he failed to grasp that moment, maybe he didn't believe that what he felt at that time was from the heart, so he ignored the hot throbbing, or he gave up putting his attachments into action because of the heavy life and reality. I regret it for the rest of my life.There is no way to ask about his past, but I am no longer willing to leave any regrets for myself.Why am I so eager to see that poor girl, that heartless king, that child who can't get along with people?I can't figure out what kind of emotion it is, but it is in my heart, which makes me restless day and night, unable to eat or sleep.After going through those ups and downs, and the ups and downs in my life, I have long since given up on the simple pursuit of food and clothing and the days of doing nothing in Danning Mansion.My parents are gone, and Li’s house is also occupied. For me, Danning’s mansion is no longer a place that can give me peace of mind. No matter how many nights, when I close my eyes, I always feel that I am in a yurt, still staying in the vast on the prairie.

Dronatia was captured alive, perhaps, but could have been put to death, or she chose not to live.Her life is already a candle in the wind, and it may become a farewell anytime and anywhere.The last scene she left in my heart was the figure who pushed me out of the yurt, that cowardly and pitiful look.If I saw her for the last time, maybe some things would be clarified, and some things could be clarified.I can get the truth I've been seeking all this time, the truth about myself.Then maybe this strange bitterness will no longer exist.

It was snowing heavily when I came to Qianghuguan, and the snow at night was a strange orange color, which covered my sight and put me in a cage of several steps. Although there was no wall, I couldn’t get out no matter how I walked. No change.Bit by bit, time seemed to slow down in the wild dance of snowflakes, as if it had stopped at that moment.Under the extremely low temperature, my body seemed to no longer belong to me, and the cold and stiff paralysis ran through my entire spine.If this continues, maybe I will die soon.Dying in the wilderness outside Qianghu Pass, on the thin black line between the Central Plains and the grassland, just like my own short life, no ups and downs, paradoxical, no one can bury the bones.

Such a natural death is something I have been dreaming of for ten years. If I hurt myself, timidity will block my way.I cut off water and food for myself, but I couldn't resist the strong drive of instinct.For a weak and incompetent person like me, the only best destination I can seek is to die naturally under force majeure, without complaints or regrets, because losing my life under such circumstances is the only destination.

But it’s different, no matter what, I have to meet the white eagle again. Such thoughts are now filling my heart. With the heartbeat, it flows into the warm blood all over my body, driving my body to continue to lead the horse step by step. forward.Under this kind of belief, death has become an unacceptable result no matter what, but it is not like a person who is greedy for life and fears death and fears it and becomes hysterical, it is more like a person in a hurry negotiating calmly with the god of death.I still have things to do, please don't take me away now if you can, I still have things to do, if you can, please let me be satisfied before taking me away.Suddenly I remembered what my mother said when I was a child, those who pass through are like a broken shackle and unlocked, and those who are persistent return to heaven like an old turtle shedding its shell.The only impression left on me by that description is that the latter is supposed to be an unforgettably severe pain.But now I understand the meaning of this sentence in a snowstorm at night.Only when you have attachments do you know about attachments, and only when you know what attachments are, you can't let go of attachments.

There was a gleam of light in the orange snow cage, and finally saw the border city inn in Qianghu Pass.It's not far away, maybe it's just that the wind and snow covered my sight so I didn't see it close at hand.If he fell here, he might be the one who died at the door of the inn.Just a little bit, almost achieved a regretful life.

Not long after I got out of Guihu Pass and continued to walk on the white plain, I recalled the fact that I didn’t know how to ride a horse just half a year ago, and I couldn’t help sighing to myself.No wonder those big men were amazed at why I walked such a long way alone at the Huohu Pass, amazed that I dared to go in and out of this dangerous border alone.I don't know why I'm not living like I am.Maybe I have been like this for a long time, but I always thought it was not.According to what the old housekeeper said, I lead the army to print common texts, so the officers and soldiers can't do anything to me, but the bandits and thieves don't care about it.Guihuguan was attacked by Zhuonatia's army, so the guards have been strengthened along the way, and it is the safest place for me.I also listened to his advice, and as expected, it is indeed safe to go all the way to the present.The only disappointment is that I couldn't see any traces of the battle left by Zhuonatia's iron chariot army at the Huguan Pass. In fact, it happened more than half a year ago, and there is really nothing left, but I can't see Zhuo Natia with my own eyes. The traces left by Natia's decision that day are still somewhat disappointing.

Shortly after leaving the Huohu Pass, I met Lu Jun officers and soldiers, and I could find the camp where the second brother was located by passing through the official documents all the way.But my goal is not to visit the second brother again, but to find the camp of Lu Jun where Wen Liangyu is located through the second brother.There must be one imprisoned there who I've always wanted to see, Queen Dronatia.

"Little sister, do you want to see her no matter what?" The second brother washed the dust for me in the military tent, but he still didn't quite understand my purpose, "Isn't life in Danning mansion very good?"

"I have a lot of unexplainable grievances and grievances with Dronatia, because I have been a slave to her day and night for a year. If I don't see her for the last time, I will have no peace in my life."

"General Wen didn't even allow me to go and see Dronatia. I've been waiting for General Wang Zhan to join up with some bandits in the east. But you have a special relationship with Dronatia. General Wen should use you. After I write a letter, the little sister should see her in all likelihood."

"Really?!" I was a little excited. Although I went all the way back to Weining Haibei, I still didn't have much hope for actually seeing Zhuonatia.

"Second brother has never lied to my younger sister. Since my younger sister wants to see you, there must be your own reasons. If my second elder brother blocks it, it will be unreasonable." The second elder brother laughed.We actually didn't talk much after meeting the second brother, but we didn't feel like strangers.

"Thank you so much, brother."

"No, my little sister is helping my second brother if I can help you with something." He said, as if he was very pleased with my initiative to ask him.

The next day, he set off with several Lu Jun entourages, and went all the way from Li Weiyi's barracks to Wen Liangyu's Chinese army barracks.After telling various officers all the way that he wanted to see General Wen, he finally handed in official documents and letters written by his second brother outside a large tent.After a long time, the soldiers told me that I could enter the tent.

General Wen sat kneeling at a small table, without armor but could tell that he was tall and straight. His black hair and mature but beautiful face reminded me of the elder sister of the An family.She waved me to sit down, and I knelt down opposite her.

"You have been a tent slave for Jonatia for a year, and you get along day and night?"

"Yes"

"Are you serving her daily life?"

"No."

"Teaching?"

"Neither"

"...Is it that kind?" She made a strange gesture, "That kind of relationship?"

"No...no, no, you're overthinking. Although we share the same bed, we haven't even seen each other's body."

"Huh?" She became more and more confused, "What the hell is that for?"

"It's just getting along day and night." I said, "Actually, I don't know what it is."

"Then Dronatia really lacks love, that's all, let me take you to meet her, maybe she will have something to say."

She said, picked up the key and asked me to get up too, and came to a large military tent, with a circle of guards standing outside and another circle of guards standing inside, the inside of the big tent was covered with wooden boards, and was locked by a big copper lock Deadlocked.General Wen unlocked the brass lock, and the stairs below were covered with wooden boards. I followed her step by step and creaked down. Suddenly, a cold dampness hit me and made me shiver. There was also a stinky damp smell, and said Not sure what it smells like.

The dungeon was completely dark and nothing could be seen. Only General Wen lit the oil lamps on both sides of the dungeon with a torch, only to see that there was a lot of hay in the middle of the dungeon, and a very large log was inserted.On the log, a woman without a piece of cloth covering her body was curled up there, her hands were wearing a big shackle in front of her, her long hair was tied up like a rag and tied to an iron ring nailed to the log.She was dying, and wanted to lower her head to rest, but she hung her head and closed her eyes in pain because her hair was tied on top. Seeing the light, she slowly opened her eyes, and they opened them wide in surprise when they caught sight of me.

"Sheng...you...don't...don't look at me..." She whispered weakly, curled up tightly again, and closed her eyes as if she couldn't avoid it.As soon as she moved, I saw blood on the hay, all the way up to her thigh.She noticed my gaze, and quickly closed her legs to hide those traces.

General Wen also saw those traces and laughed, which made me feel extremely pierced.

"That's what happened. Our Dronatia has been imprisoned in the dungeon for too long, I don't know how long it is in a month!" Her words were stinging, but they made me feel viscous and disgusting To no avail.Seeing that I didn't move, she didn't respond, but Dronatia was still very ashamed, so she simply inserted the torch into the slot in the wall, and started to attack Dronatia.

She wanted to say something and stared at Wen Liangyu, I could tell.But she hid her eyes everywhere, turned her eyes away, screamed in a low voice, and wailed softly.Looking at Wen Liangyu's attitude as if seeing a new toy, we can know that Zhuonatia didn't face insults like this before, and she behaved like this because I saw her.

Did you come here from Danning Mansion just to see this scene?It was as if something untouchable had been smashed to pieces, and a strange emotion even worse than crying appeared in my heart.Neither happy nor sad, Wen Liangyu was still enjoying it, but I couldn't stand it anymore, turned around and walked out of the dungeon.

As soon as I got out of the dungeon, my chest hurt, and my stomach churns along with the fun, making me have to bend down, coughing and retching, and the guards rushed over to help me.

The tinnitus has not stopped since that day.

Before this moment, I still wanted to see Dronatia so much, but now I can't watch it for a second, and I can't do anything.