i go to utopia

I went back to Shangmian Market in early August, and I took a taxi back home. I didn’t care about anything, took a shower, and fell asleep at the end.

I arrived at home around three o'clock in the afternoon. When I woke up, the bedroom was completely dark. I sat up from the bed and turned on the lamp beside the bed. Before I recovered, I saw light leaking in from the living room under the gap in the bedroom door. I was still wondering if I turned on the light when I entered the door and forgot to turn it off, when I heard the sound of the bedroom door being slightly pushed.

I focused my attention: "Qiu Shui?"

No one answered, the door opened a small crack, I took my glasses from the drawer, put it on, and looked carefully to see that the kitten had entered my room. I haven’t seen it for half a month. It seems to be growing very fast. , the injured foot has fully recovered, it walked to my bed and glanced at me, wagging its tail slightly as if it wanted to jump onto my bed, I reached out to touch its head, and reached out to pick it up from the ground , put on his shoes and came out of the room, Qiu Shui was wearing a loose T-shirt and ** a pair of casual five-point pants, and he was cooking in the kitchen. The movement of him turning the spoon made me suddenly feel that there seemed to be a small thing in my life that I didn’t arrive in time Changes in resolution.

I put the restless cat in front of me back on the ground, and it ran to the kitchen very quickly. Qiu Shui glanced at it and then turned around: "Are you awake?"

I said, "It's time for me to wake up too." I said as I walked towards the kitchen, "Have you been cooking at home a lot during this time?"

Qiu Shui said: "I will come back to cook when I have time in the evening."

I looked at the pot he was stirring, and was about to reach out to take it: "Shall I come?"

Qiu Shui said: "Just sprinkle some salt." After he finished speaking, he glanced at me and asked me suddenly, "Why are you wearing glasses?"

I laughed, "I've always been a little short-sighted."

Qiu Shui turned his head to look at me, then looked away, he took out a plate from the cupboard, turned on the water, briefly passed the clear water, and then looked at me again.

I tore off a kitchen paper towel and took the plate in his hand, wiped off the water droplets on it and handed it to him again: "What's wrong?"

Without any expression on his face, he carefully put the dishes in the pot on the plate, and said in his mouth: "Did you become short-sighted when you were studying?"

I said "ah": "Yeah, I was a little short-sighted when I was studying." I stretched out my hand to compare with him, "I was not tall when I was studying, and I sat in the front few rows all the time, so I didn't wear glasses."

After he put the dishes on the plate, I reached out to take them: "Is there any more dishes?"

Qiu Shui's eyes drooped: "I made mung bean soup at noon, and put it in the refrigerator to freeze."

I hummed and asked him to take out the mung bean soup that was in the refrigerator. Qiu Shui let out an oh, followed me and asked me, "When did you grow taller?"

I said, "After entering high school, I suddenly grew taller."

Qiu Shui dressed and went to the refrigerator to bring out the mung bean soup he made at noon. He held the tableware containing the mung bean soup and walked towards the dining table. ?"

"Then is it fun for you to go to high school?" I felt a little funny about the question he asked casually. If my high school life ignores the time of graduation, it can actually be counted as good.I am tall, so to some extent I have known myself, and I have also met people who are really worth knowing. Even if the ending is already determined, I cannot deny the whole process.

Qiu Shui sat down opposite me: "It's not fun."

**

Qiu Shui said that he lived on campus since junior high school, and he didn't like most of the people around him, he even hated them, when he went to Changkang No.

I said I saw him on the old bridge playing with his friends on the bridge.

Qiu Shui pouted: "I'm not friends with them, she likes me and let me hang out with her every day."

I was puzzled for a while: "Don't you like others talking to her like that?"

Qiu Shui stared at me for a while with black and white eyes, and then told me: "She brings me breakfast every morning."

I have to admit that I was a little surprised, Qiu Shui can always tell me what he is like in a more real way after I think I may know him a little bit.

I felt a little funny again for a while, reached out to take his bowl and filled him with a bowl of mung bean soup, put it in front of him and sighed: "So you are a bad boy."

Qiu Shui said: "She brings me breakfast every morning, and invites her classmates out for dinner or play on weekends."

"So you don't accept her but you don't reject her." I tried to recall the few young and lively students I met on the bridge a few months ago, but such irrelevant memories are always deleted in my brain the fastest Yes, I don't remember at all what Qiushui said about the girl who was passionately in love with him.

Qiu Shui said: "I don't like her, and I don't like going out with her. I'm annoying her."

I said, "Qiu Shui, you are terrible."

Qiu Shui didn't speak. After a long time, I saw him pursing his lower lip and raising his eyelids to look at me: "She gave me a very expensive gift on my birthday, and she was taken away by her parents during self-study and class that night. I went home, and when I came to school the next day, my eyes were swollen from crying."

"..." I was silent for a moment, I think I really don't understand what kind of person Qiushui is. I am a stranger to him, and he is also a complete stranger to me. He can present himself in front of me. Everything the tower wants to present.

For example, when I see Qiushui from time to time, I imagine that he is indeed a young and beautiful body. I am an adult man and have normal sexual needs, but I am sitting across from him and chatting with him in neat clothes. A girl who likes him should be treated like this.

And all the nervousness and bewilderment he felt when facing me, and the inexplicable crying after I approached and then appeared in front of me again, everything may be the one he wants to present in front of me.

I never spent any extra time to think about this kid, firstly because he was young, and secondly because I really didn't care much, he actually had a side with me on the bridge in my life Zhiyuan's friends are no different, and I don't think it will have any impact on my personal life.

"And then?" I asked, I think it must be that the girl stole money from the family to buy things for him and was found and scolded at home, so she came to class the next day with swollen eyes.

Qiu Shui still had no expression on his face, and he continued without emotion: "Then I asked her why she was crying, because she was unhappy about something."

"..." I stretched out my hand to pick up a piece of Qiushui stir-fried vegetables, but didn't answer.

Qiu Shui continued: "She cried after I finished speaking, and she cried very sadly, so I hugged her, and she said there was nothing wrong, so I told her not to cry. I said I hope she can be happy every day."

"..." I frowned.

Qiu Shui lowered his head and took a sip of the mung bean soup. He still had no expression on his face. I found that most of the time his face was expressionless, as if most things that happened in this world had nothing to do with him. He had no expression or emotion. Without any emotion, Qiu Shui continued with lowered eyes: "After she finished crying, she brought me breakfast the next morning."

I was a little puzzled: "What do you think I am thinking when you tell me this?"

Qiu Shui looked at me, he pursed his lips, and the corners of his mouth slightly turned up: "You think I'm a very bad person."

I nodded, Qiu Shui put down his chopsticks, bowed his head and softly called out to the kitten squatting not far away: "Mimi, come here."

The cat walked over obediently, and Qiu Shui picked it up and placed it on his lap. He hung his head, and his hair hung lazily by his face.

I was a little curious: "Why are you telling me this all of a sudden?"

Qiu Shui petted the cat with his head down, and looked at me when he heard this: "You asked me if high school was fun."

"Because others like you, and you treat others like that because others like you, so you don't think it's fun?" I really don't understand the thoughts of children nowadays.

Qiu Shui said: "It's not what I asked for when she liked me, right? It's not what I asked for when she bought things for me and gave me breakfast every day, right?"

I think it's a little funny, Qiu Shui has a very complete set of logical theories that he can persuade himself, he didn't do anything wrong, he just didn't do anything.I even began to understand how he could contact me after getting my mobile number and then come to me. In his logic, maybe this is what you should do. At least you did the first step, then you Of course it should go on.

Then he would say disappointment to me after I did something beyond his logic, his complete logic of life was hindered by me, and he left.Let me think about why he came back...

I stared at this very interesting kid for quite a while, he was still stroking the kitten in his arms with his head down, I was amused: "Qiu Shui, are you trying to trick me with the tricks you used to deal with little girls at school?"

Qiu Shui glanced at me when he heard the words, and the kitten lying on his lap jumped down from his lap with a "meow" after lying down enough: "What?" He seemed a little confused.

**

I beckoned to him to signal him to come to me, Qiu Shui stood up from the chair hesitantly, I moved the stool and moved back a little distance, Qiu Shui stood in front of me, he looked down slightly at the chair on me.

I tapped my fingers on the dining table: "Qiu Shui, what do your parents do?"

"..." He didn't speak, and moved his fingers at the seam of his trouser legs.

I thought about it: "If you live on campus from junior high school, will the school bear the cost of board and lodging, or you borrow it yourself?" He didn't directly reject the girl because he brought him breakfast.

Qiu Shui was silent for a moment: "There are poverty subsidies, and you can ask your teacher to apply for a student loan when you go to high school."

I said oh, and suddenly remembered: "Did you treat me to dinner and eat a hundred quickly, did you feel so distressed?" I thought of the kid who ate until he squatted at the door of the store and vomited, and suddenly I was a little stunned.

Qiu Shui still had a calm expression on his face, he lowered his eyes as if he was looking at me, but he didn't look like he was looking at me.

I thought for a while: "Some time ago I asked you if you were short of money, why didn't you say so?"

Qiu Shui pursed her lips.

I looked up at him slightly, amused: "Come back to me suddenly, did you suddenly figure out what I said before?"

Qiu Shui licked his lips, and I couldn't help raising my eyebrows: "I suddenly talked to me about the girl who liked you when I was studying because I figured out what I said to you before?"

I thought about it, maybe I thought I would be the same as the girl who liked him?Giving him no complaints, giving an insignificant sweet date to eat after things might go nowhere?

Qiu Shui really impressed me, I stared at Qiu Shui twice, he really looks good, but I don't think I can be a high school girl who is not yet an adult.

I asked him, "So my watch was sold long ago, and how much did it cost?"

Qiu Shui replied vaguely: "It's not much money."

I nodded: "Then you are at a loss."

I stared at him for a moment, then reached out and patted my thigh: "Come, sit."

Qiu Shui opened his eyes, his expressionless eyes were a little dazed: "What?"

I put my arm on the table, amused: "Isn't it a lack of money and a desire for money? Haven't you realized this yet?"

"..." Qiu Shui opened his mouth, and after a long while he said, "But I'm sitting on your lap and pressing you, so there's no loss for me."

I couldn't help laughing, held back, and told him slowly: "You are wrong, the relationship here is that I let you sit here." I added, "It means you do what I say, There is a relationship between issuing instructions and receiving instructions, and it has nothing to do with the specific actions."

Qiu Shui let out a slow "Oh" slowly, but he didn't move.

I raised my eyebrows: "Didn't you figure it out?"

Qiu Shui slowly spread his legs and sat gently on my thigh, because his force point was almost on his own feet, so the force on my leg was not very strong, he hung down facing me With his head down, I saw his ears turn red for a while.

— shy.

I paused, feeling that I was indeed bored, I raised my arm on the dining table to support my head: "Qiu Shui, raise your head."

Qiu Shui raised his head obediently when he heard the words, his pupils were indeed larger than normal people's, and he looked at me calmly, neither dodging nor dodging.

I said to him, "I can pay for your four years of college."

Qiu Shui's eyes blinked slowly.

**

If things continue like this, then there must be a bloody story in the future. I have experienced many strange things in my life that most people will not encounter. It's glorious to add such a boring addition.

I stared into Qiushui's eyes and asked him with a smile: "Then is there still contact with that little girl in high school?"

Qiu Shui blinked, and he slowly uttered a word: "Yes."

Me: "Huh?"

Qiu Shui said, "She texted me today."

Me: "Well."

Qiu Shui blinked: "She wished me a happy birthday."

I said oh and wished him with a smile: "Happy birthday."

Qiu Shui's eyes drooped, and he let out a sound from his nasal cavity. I stretched out my hands and pinched his cheeks: "Get up, next time you can't treat others' sincerity towards you like this."

Qiu Shui stood up from me, he looked down at his clothes, and I stood up from the chair: "I can give you the money you spent in four years of college, write an IOU and pay it back to me after graduation."

I got up to go to the kitchen to clean up, when Qiu Shui's voice came from behind me: "Okay."