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In the composition class in elementary school, the Chinese teacher will tell the students the six elements of a composition.

Time, place, person, cause, process, result.

She told me how to write a high-scoring composition, what kind of rhetorical techniques should be used, how to highlight the central idea of ​​the composition, how to express hope and expectation at the end, and hope that everything will be good in the future. It is possible to quote one or two famous quotes from famous people in the text for extra points.

For example, you wrote that you rescued a stray kitten, how indifferently people walked past a wounded kitten in winter, and that kitten wandered alone in a human city, using Living with rubbish, curled up under the eaves where there is no rain, every time before going to bed, I wonder if I can eat a clean small dried fish tomorrow. In short, it is just like a cat version of a little match girl.When you came out in the composition, you wrote that Lu Xun once said—"There is a little heat and a little light, it is like a firefly, and you can also shine a little light in the dark, you don't have to wait for the torch. If there is no torch after that, I am the only light."

Of course, this sentence has almost nothing to do with this composition. The teacher who corrects the composition will never read your composition seriously. Even if you say that this sentence is said by the famous philosopher Socrates, it will not change it. The composition teacher will question you, and its only function in this composition is simply to add points.

The degree of fucking in life is probably that the "teacher" who gives you propositions and asks you to write your own life composition will not question all the absurd things that happen in your life.

I very much agree with the diversity of a person's personality, it is not a flat six elements of composition, I will regularly donate to the public welfare project of free lunch on the Internet every month, but I will also secretly I clenched my fists thinking that one day I would stab this grandson to death, and when I was bored, I once made a wish that the end of the world is coming soon and mankind will be extinct together.

Qiushui's real character, perhaps one of his many personalities surprised me, but this kind of surprise did not have any unexpected impact on me.

My implication is that no matter what kind of child Qiushui is, it will not have any unexpected impact on me. This is something I have been convinced for a long time.

If I have to quote some famous quotes at this time, then it is——

The train in my body never goes off track, so snow, storms, mudslides, and absurdity are allowed. *

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And I donated the money that was supposed to be donated to the Free Lunch Charity Project to Qiushui, and it didn't make any difference to me.Qiu Shui's grades are good, and he is applying for the best university in Shangmian City, and he is going to study a popular major. If he agrees with the help I give him, then he will pay me back the money. To me, it is a profit .

If most people in this world can think like me, I think there will be a lot less trouble in this world.When I was very young, my mother used to hold me and sit at the gate of the courtyard to enjoy the evening breeze. She waved away the mosquitoes around me who were about to have a big meal. At that time, there were still many stars in the sky. I sat with my mother. On the bamboo chair, my mother loved to complain to me about many trivial things in life at that time.But after a long time I remembered that she came not when she wanted to pour laundry detergent on me, or when she committed suicide because I was gay, but when she hugged me and the summer evening wind gently brushed my skin during the many nights.

Human beings are so good at self-soothing, and I am one of the best. I think if my biological mother can be as good at self-soothing as I am, she should be much happier in her short life.

I am good at self-soothing, money is not too important to me to give up, and Qiushui's true character will not have any substantial impact on me for the time being.

So the sentence "I can give you the money you spent in four years of college, write an IOU and pay it back to me after graduation" is not a touching act of me shining like a torch.

Qiu Shui didn't understand the inner logic of this, so he knocked on my door after taking a shower wearing a pair of underwear. He was really thin, with long hands and feet and looked like he had no flesh at all. He pushed open my door , stood at the door and looked at me silently.

I hesitated for a long moment, then laughed: "I will be Liu Xiahui."

Qiu Shui stepped on the door of my room with bare feet, he stared at me silently and calmly for a long time, and after a long time he smiled at me with the corners of his mouth raised.

Because I wear glasses to read a book, I can see his expression clearly, and I can see that he, who has always had a faint expression on his face, almost smirked: "Aren't you good?"

I couldn't help but tilted my head slightly, and saw him licking my lips nervously.

I thought that this kid had experienced many battles, so he was also nervous.

As we all know, a man can’t say no. I want to be a calm Liu Xiahui, and I have always been in the stage of being a gentleman when I treat Qiushui, but his jumping appearance seems to be really I'm a man with a certain dysfunction, and I don't think he should try to provoke a strong adult man, the consequences of that may not be good.

I waved to Qiushui: "Come here."

Qiu Shui seemed to be thinking for a while on the spot, but he still picked up his steps and walked over. He stood still when he was about two arms length away from me. His hair was very long, and he tied it in his head with a rubber band Finally, at this moment, some untucked hair scattered on the cheeks is still wet and dripping.

I reached out and patted the edge of my bed: "Come, sit."

Qiu Shui hesitated for a moment.

I laughed: "What are you doing here?"

Hearing this, Qiu Shui walked over, and he sat gently on the edge of my bed. I looked at the spine on his back, and there was still water dripping down his back slowly. , The ends of his tied-up hair were also wet.

I teased: "It looks like a girl from behind."

He tilted his head slightly, but didn't look in my direction.

I said, "You have to turn around and look in my direction."

Qiu Shui turned to look at me. There was an open book in front of me. I said to Qiu Shui, "Turn around and bend your legs onto the bed."

Qiu Shui asked me back without any ups and downs in his voice: "Why?"

I looked at him with a smile: "Let you see if I can do it."

Qiu Shui's Adam's apple rolled slightly, and he directly refused: "No."

"..." I began to think about whether he said that I can't do it or that I can't do it by letting him come to bed.

Qiu Shui was quiet for a moment and told me: "I don't know how to do it."

I said, "I know." I lifted my hand from the book and reached out to touch the hair tied behind his head. I could clearly see goosebumps on the man's back, and I raised my eyebrows. I stretched out my hand to press his shoulder, the body under my hand seemed to shake uncontrollably, I reached out to rest his chin, and continued to tease, "Come on, I'll teach you how to do it, if it's not possible, put me on the computer over there Move here and I'll find a few movies for you to watch."

Qiu Shui pursed his lips, I leaned forward, his eyes stared at my approach very seriously, and slowly drooped when I was about to press him.

Then the phone I put next to him rang, I let go of my hand holding his chin, and took the phone I put next to me.

It was a call from the food delivery service. I came back this afternoon and slept until ten o'clock in the evening. I knew that Qiu Shui had ordered a birthday cake for him after his birthday today. It was rather troublesome to deliver the birthday cake tonight. It was already time to deliver it downstairs. It was almost past twelve o'clock, and I thought it would be a waste of cake if I had to go to bed too late.

I answered the takeaway call, opened the downstairs door for the deliveryman, stood in the living room and opened the door, and waited for the deliveryman to deliver the items for a while. He even apologized for keeping me waiting, so I told him He said it was okay and thanked him for his hard work. After closing the door, Qiushui was still standing at the door of my bedroom wearing only a pair of underwear. I held the birthday cake in my hand and raised my hand to him: "It's not over yet."

I put the cake on the dining table and unpacked the box. Because the delivery may be bumpy and the weather is hot, the cake has become different from the photo, but it doesn’t matter, the cake itself is not the meaning.

From the things I sent, I found the two numbers eighteen inserted on the cake, and I stared at these two words for a while.

Qiu Shui said: "I haven't celebrated my birthday since I was five years old."

I found a lighter that I hadn't used for a long time from the drawer and lit these two numbers, and said casually: "Didn't you just say that a girl wished you a happy birthday and bought you a birthday present?"

Qiu Shui said, "Then I haven't eaten birthday cake."

I turned my head to look at him: "I bought all the expensive gifts and still need a birthday cake?"

Qiu Shui's eyes were shining with the light of candles, but he didn't speak.

I laughed at him: "Little liar."

Qiu Shui stared at the numbers on the birthday cake and asked me, "Do I want to make a wish?"

I said oh, he was still looking at the two numbers with his eyes open, and I said, "Then blow out a candle."

Qiu Shui stared at the candlelight for a long time, closed his eyes and blew out the candles on the cake. A small part of the two numbers of eighteen had been burned in the past few minutes, and a small corner of the eight was missing, and the melted candle Muddled badly around.

I reached out and took off the two numbers above, and asked Qiu Shui slowly: "If you haven't brushed your teeth, maybe you want to have a bite of cake before going to bed?" As soon as the words fell, Qiu Shui scratched a finger on the cream For a moment, I also want to remind that there should be a fork and knife delivered together. His soft fingertips directly scratched my face with sweet cream.

I froze for a moment, then turned to look at him, he looked at me and suddenly his eyes curled up: "Thank you."

I raised my eyebrows slightly, he raised his hand, raised his thumb and wiped the cream on my face that he had just scratched with cream, he might want to wipe the cream off my face.

He withdrew his hand and took a piece of paper from the dining table, and wiped the cream off his thumb quickly.

I stared at his slightly drooping eyelashes for a moment, and occasionally some insignificant little surprises happen in life. After a whole day of rain, it suddenly clears up after you get off work; The elevator in the building was repaired for 10 minutes, so I was not late. It was this small surprise in life that was so subtle that I might need to use a microscope to observe it, which slowed down my thinking a little.

I looked at Qiu Shui and said, "Qiu Shui, raise your head."

He turned his head to look at me, I leaned over to touch his lips, reached out and pinched the back of his neck, and said to him: "Open your mouth, be obedient."