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Qu Qiuyi's name is quite poetic, but he's not that kind of person at all, he's very rude. I still remember this person playing basketball games with people from other classes in high school, slapping with people in the other class. Beat up.It should have been when we were just in our second year of high school, in the late summer and early autumn, Qu Qiuyi was playing basketball with others on the basketball court. I thought the sun was too high and hid on a ping-pong table near the basketball court to memorize English words. The class should be an English class, and the English teacher would always ask someone to write words silently on the blackboard. I was very keen on cramming because of my good memory in high school. At that time, my immediate memory was pretty good, and I could memorize that unit very quickly. Of course, I will forget those words very quickly after the dictation in class is over. I will always start cramming half an hour before the teacher wants to check.

When I was studying in Changkang No. [-] Middle School, my grades were considered very good. I didn’t make it to the top [-] on the list. Because I was a little clever, I looked down on those "nerds" who were serious about studying. I felt that I could surpass them as long as I worked hard casually. They, when I was in my teens, had a bad temper, a little exaggerated but also mean, I didn't have a good habit of speaking, and I really liked to take advantage of others verbally.Facts have proved that if human beings do not suffer a lot from their bad habits, they will never be able to correct these bad habits.

The basketball court where Qu Qiuyi played with others was not far away from where I was cuddling. When playing basketball, there were usually a few girls watching and cheering. The girls' shouts interfered with my reciting words. I saw two groups of people gathered together, I was a little short-sighted, and I couldn't tell who was who from a distance. I jumped off the table tennis table and approached, only to find that people in our class were beating each other with others. Among them, the bravest one is Qu Qiuyi.

Qu Qiuyi took the high school entrance examination in the town below and came to the county seat to attend high school. According to him, there is a mountain near his home. When he was young, he went up and down the mountain every day to touch mud loach, tree, and bird eggs. His movements are flexible and he can directly participate in the action piece.They fought hard on the basketball court, Qu Qiuyi was a ruthless striker, I could see the nosebleeds of the people who were beaten by him, I put my pocket dictionary in my pocket and called Qu Qiuyi.

"Earthworms, bugs!"

I gave Qu Qiuyi a nickname when the teacher asked the students to introduce themselves when they were in the first year of high school. He was called by this nickname in our class for three years. In the second year, I called him by his name. Separated from other people's titles, and another nickname was separated from this nickname.Qu Qiuyi protested to me many times for this, but I suppressed them all authoritarianly. When I was a teenager, I had a lot of inappropriate pride, and these weird personalities became more obvious in Qu Qiuyi.

I called Qu Qiuyi three times outside the crowd, but he didn't hear him. This made me feel very bad. I didn't care about the random punches that would hit me. I walked into the crowd and grabbed Qu Qiuyi's wrist. This man fought He was so happy that he couldn't distinguish friend from foe. He turned around and greeted my face with a fist. After his eyes met mine, the movement of punching slowed down. He blinked twice blankly, and someone reached out and grabbed me. The collar of his basketball jersey, he pushed me away and turned around to fight someone.My pocket dictionary rolled out of my pocket under my stagger, and was then stepped on by the soles of my feet.

That English word dictation was the most dictation word mistake in my life, and when I handed out the corrected homework book in the next English class, the English teacher took out my book and criticized me by name.

At that time, our reading teachers didn’t pay much attention to issues such as students’ self-esteem. If you regressed, you were playful and didn’t work hard. You had to criticize in front of many people to spur your progress.

I wrote seven words by mistake, and I had to copy each one a hundred times as a penalty, and I had to teach the English teacher to check it before class the next day.

Of course, this is not Qu Qiuyi's fault in essence. It can only be said that I did not finish memorizing the words and wrote the wrong words because of my cramping. But when I was a teenager, I didn't look at things so rationally and objectively. I think it was Qu Qiuyi's fight that made me worry. As a result, I was fined to copy the words if I didn’t memorize them. After class, I went to his desk and asked him to copy half of the words for me, a total of 350 words.

Qu Qiuyi was rude, and quickly refuted me: "I copied a fart, it's not that I wrote it wrong!"

I sat back on the seat in front of him and asked him, "Why did you fight with someone yesterday?"

Qu Qiuyi frowned: "That grandson was playing badly. When others tried to snatch the ball, he used his elbow to slap him. He refused to listen to the warning several times. I was so angry that I took the ball and threw it directly in his face."

The teenage Qu Qiuyi is a hot-blooded boy, who will throw the basketball out of his hand without thinking about it because others do things he doesn't like.

And when I was a teenager, I was a little weirdly proud and conceited, and I was bold enough to move forward. In the next second, I slowly asked Qu Qiuyi: "Are you hurt?"

Qu Qiuyi smiled so confidently that she could only see her teeth but not her eyes: "How is that possible?"

I looked at him with a smile and said: "That's good, otherwise I will feel bad."

His face suddenly turned red: "Why are you talking such nonsense every day lately—!"

I walked away from the chair in front of him: "Remember to copy 350 words for me, and I will give you the exercise book later. You copy the wrong ones in the front and I will copy the wrong ones in the back." After giving the order, I got up and returned to my seat, and turned to look at him before the class bell rang. He was holding a pen in his hand and looking at me. I sat on my seat with my chin on my hand and blinked in his direction. He was very quick. Withdrew his gaze.

The ambiguous period between me and Qu Qiuyi is not too long. On the National Day when the last sliver of summer heat has not escaped, I called him and said that I would go to his house to play with him. I took the bus for an hour and got off at the roadside of their town. After getting out of the car, the rice fields on both sides of the country road are growing brightly in October. Occasionally, I can see a few people with their trousers rolled up busy in the rice fields. I am waiting at a small intersection with my schoolbag on my back. The sun overwhelms the whole world. Bright yellow, like a painting, Qu Qiuyi is wearing a straw hat and walking out of this painting, he is standing on the other side of the path and waving at me, my eyes are a little short-sighted, so Qu Qiuyi looks like a blur The little dot, when the little dot was approaching, he took off the straw hat he wore on his head and put it on my head. There was still a slight thin sweat on his face, and the sun shone on his face like a layer of light. He smiled and said, "Why does such a big sun come to play with me? Shall I take you to the river to touch fish?"

I straightened the crooked hat he put on my head, smiled at him and said, "Of course I miss you and come to see you~"

Qu Qiuyi looked at the sunny and healthy young boy, and when they fought, each punch was harder than the next, his face was unexpectedly thin, slightly reddened, and he stretched out his hand to hit me: "You don't talk so strangely in front of me!!"

I moved two inches to the side and then dodged. It can be seen that this person is also unavoidably disliking his integrity. It is obviously very easy to punch me who does not like sports with his vitality things.

I said that I was full of self-confidence that I rarely saw when I was a teenager, and I had an intuitive self-confidence about many things. Guoqing lived in Qu Qiuyi's house for three days. His parents, cousins ​​from the same village, and brothers who grew up together They are very hospitable. On the evening of the second day of my stay, Qu Qiuyi took me to pick a small wild fruit near his house to eat. When I came back, it was already dark. His parents went to visit the old people in the village and left food on the table. While it was still warm, Qu Qiuyi washed the freshly picked fruits and put them in my hands, and put the bowl of rice aside.

When he was eating, he told me that he had two older sisters above him, and a younger brother who was three or four years old below him.When he said this, he babbled to me in a low voice like a rant: "Your brother is old enough to be a child. He was born in poor health when he was old, and my mother was not in good health after giving birth. I found a fortune teller to tell me that I am a child." The cub was born with Shakemum, and was born to be raised by my uncle, and they would visit each other every now and then, and sometimes they would come back to live for two days, but they couldn’t stay longer.”

I was just a little surprised at the time. First, I was surprised that their family could have so many children during the family planning period. Second, I was surprised that people still practice these feudal superstitions, so I asked Qu Qiuyi in surprise: "So uncle and aunt are going to see your brother today." gone?"

Qu Qiuyi, as an educated teenager, curled her lips: "Feudal superstition, if you say it many times, you will take it home to raise it, and if you are sick, you will go to the hospital to see it, but you won't listen."

At that time, there was no one in Qu Qiuyi's house, and the food on the table was extremely delicious, and the washed wild fruits were also very red and beautiful. At that time, I only thought that Qu Qiuyi was cute, and I didn't think about so many problems, so I just said this sentence He said it with a smile.

Qu Qiuyi blushed again: "Li Cu, are you disgusting—"

I leaned over and kissed him, and his voice swallowed.The night wind blew in slowly from the window of his dining table, and a few lost insects saw the light in the house rushing to the light bulb. Qu Qiuyi didn't make a sound for a long time. I felt slightly nervous and inexplicably swollen. Confidently and calmly said to Qu Qiuyi: "Congzi, say something."

He didn't answer.

I continued cautiously: "If it doesn't work, I'll leave, let's pretend nothing happened."

If I look at it now, the scene at that time is really not good. I am so arrogant that I even confess my confession. With - who are you pretending to show someone.

But Qu Qiuyi is not me. He is a very good person. When he was studying, he was so passionate that he couldn't see anyone being bullied.I have tried my best to put him in a good direction, because his boyhood is indeed very important in my memory. Let him always be the beautiful teenage boy in my memory.

It’s just that there is a kind of kindness and weakness in his bones that can never be discarded. When he is desperate, he doesn’t want to hurt anyone. When he was here, he didn’t jump to the Cambridge Bridge to die with love. When he was 23 years old, he was threatened by his elderly parents. Married to a woman, I went to him and asked him to come with me.He was wearing a suit with the groom's flowers pinned to his chest. He was standing at the door of the restaurant to welcome the guests. When he saw my face turn pale, I said, worm, will you follow me? Starving to death, be more courageous.Qu Qiuyi forced a smile and said, "Are you coming to my wedding?"

When I was in my 20s, my life was chaotic, and I was a bit cynical, and I would say that he was disgusting.What he likes is me, and he wants to marry a girl, how innocent other girls are to be ruined by him like this, he told me that if you don't attend the wedding, you will leave.

Then I left, I thought about whether I would regret my decision later, thinking about dreaming about him in the middle of the night, dreaming that he jumped the Changkang Bridge alone on the night of his wedding night, I went to fish him and said he Crazy, said he can swim, didn't he tell me that human beings have the instinct to survive, he never responded to me.

After a long time, I came to my senses. I gave him a way of life and he didn't want it. He was going to walk a way of death. No one could save anyone.