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"So where's the watch?" I asked him.

After Qiu Shui stared at me earnestly for a while, he smiled at me, like a small animal that had played a prank, showing his teeth slightly, and said, "Guess."

I cooperated with him very much, walked inside and put the rice balls I bought from the convenience store on the dining table, and said back to him: "I guess you are not going to give it to me now, are you?"

Qiu Shui didn't speak, and closed the door, he stood in my living room with some hesitation on his slippers.

After Yan Lan came out of the washroom, Qiu Shui hesitated for a while, and then stood in front of a decorative painting hanging in the living room. He put his hands in his trouser pockets, and stared at me as if he was looking at a work of art in an art gallery. The decorative painting on the wall.

I took out two freeze-dried slices of lemon from the refrigerator and put them in the water glass. After walking back, I asked by the way: "Autumn water, lemonade?"

Qiu Shui turned his head very quickly when he heard the voice, and he nodded hesitantly. Yan Lan walked over: "I don't drink, I drink Coke."

I looked at him, slightly puzzled: "When did you change your name, why didn't I know?"

Yan Lan completely ignored my teasing, turned over the convenience bag I put on the table, and said disgustedly: "Fantuan! I want to eat the beef noodles at the door!"

I ignored him. After filling both water glasses with water, I got up straight and sat on the sofa. Qiu Shui walked over slowly. He walked to the dining table and picked up the transparent water glass. Lan glanced.

Yan Lan stared at Qiushui while unpacking the rice balls, and asked vaguely, "You are so young, have you just finished the college entrance examination?"

Qiu Shui stared at Yan Lan with black and white eyes for a long time, and told Yan Lan, "I will be eighteen soon."

Yan Lan moved back exaggeratedly after hearing the words: "God, you are still a minor." He reached out and patted his chest, then pointed at me, "Do you know how old he is?"

His set of movements was so exaggerated that I couldn't help raising my eyebrows while leaning on the sofa, and asked him very patiently: "How old am I?"

Yan Lan clicked her lips, and sat on a chair with an expression of "the world is getting worse and people's hearts are not old", eating in silence.

Qiu Shui glanced at him, and then turned his head to look at me again. He walked up to me, sat on the single sofa next to me, and drank water with his eyes downcast.

I turned my head to look at him for a while, and saw that he paused while holding the water glass. After a while, I even saw his fingers holding the water glass began to tremble slightly.

I'm making him nervous, I'm a little confused about this, I ask myself whether it's someone I've just met or a friend I know, if they compliment me on my good temper in front of me, I can take it calmly, I know very well There are some elements in my personality that I don't like to cause trouble to others, and I am indeed not the kind of aggressive personality that can make people nervous.

I fell down on the sofa to widen the distance between me and Qiu Shui, and let the safe distance calm his tension.

Qiu Shui quickly turned his head and glanced at me, then withdrew his gaze and stared at his fingers holding the water glass.

Under his gaze and psychological hints, my trembling fingers, which were only slightly trembling, trembled more violently. I looked away and suddenly thought of an interesting thing.

"I had a wisdom tooth in my mouth when I was 19."

Qiu Shui turned to look at me, and I glanced at him: "Because of the pain, my classmate at that time suggested that I go to the hospital for tooth extraction," I said, "I have never gone to the hospital for tooth extraction. I was very scared, I asked several of my classmates, and they all told me that tooth extraction hurts."

Qiu Shui stared at me.

"During the holidays, I mustered up the courage to go to the hospital to extract my teeth. After my number was called, I went to the cubicle where the teeth were extracted, and lay on the operating table where they extracted the teeth." I thought it was a little funny at the time, "Because I have been thinking about how painful tooth extraction is that my classmate told me, so when the doctor asked me to open my mouth, I was shaking on the operating table. While shaking, I told myself not to shake anymore, nothing to be afraid of, It's just a tooth, but the more you persuade yourself, the more violent it becomes."

Qiu Shui pursed her lips and asked me, "Does it hurt to pull out the tooth?"

I told him: "It hurt a little during the anesthesia, and then I lost all feeling in the mouth. When the doctor put something into my mouth, I didn't shake at all. I was very calm, as if nothing happened. Same happened."

The corners of Qiushui's mouth twitched, and after a while he said, "I also have wisdom teeth, four of them, but they don't hurt."

I glanced at him, his hands holding the water glass had calmed down, and I said, "Then you have to take some time to pull them out. Although it doesn't hurt now, no one can guarantee that they will always be so good."

Qiu Shui answered me in a low voice from the nasal cavity: "Mmm..."

**

At 11:30 noon, I took Yan Lan and Qiu Shui out for dinner.Because I promised Yan Lan to invite him to eat Japanese food a long time ago, I booked a box in advance last night. Several people in our department at the Japanese food shop liked it very much, so we decided to have a dinner there. I said this restaurant is very good. I don’t have a strong appetite. I can barely distinguish between good food and bad food. I don’t know much about these restaurants. After hearing it from the department, I barely remembered it. The next time I want to invite someone to dinner, I will go there. Yan Lan mentioned this last night, and I suddenly thought of this restaurant.

It took 10-[-] minutes to drive to the restaurant. It was not yet twelve o'clock when we arrived. Qiu Shui and Yan Lan were sitting in the back seat of the car. After I parked the car, they opened the door and came out.

Qiu Shui still doesn't like to talk, he hesitated to open the door of the back seat when getting in the car, Yan Lan was all chattering along the way, and he especially asked Qiu Shui from time to time, I think he really thinks of people and children as me Man, I politely called him several times in the car to shut up, but he still didn't receive my hint at all.

Qiu Shui was very quiet as usual when it was time to eat, and he carried out the sentence of eating, sleeping, and sleeping very thoroughly. Yan Lan was still nagging, and he never closed his mouth after a meal. After a meal, I said several times that Qiushui is so obedient, so obedient. If I have a younger brother, I hope Qiushui is so obedient.Qiu Shui raised his eyes and glanced at him while he was eating. I could see his impatience in his eyes, but he still didn't make a sound to tell Yan Lan to shut up.I was worried about Yan Lan's ability to observe words and demeanor, and I didn't know how he got stuck in the job, so I complained casually: "I also hope to have a younger brother like Qiushui instead of you."

Qiu Shui raised his eyes and looked at me again.

I didn't quite understand this glance, and it seemed impossible to say that it was impatient or disgusting.

He glanced at it quickly, and then lowered his eyes very quickly. In order to prevent Yan Lan from talking too much nonsense, I had no choice but to chat at the dinner table about the fact that the real economy is getting worse and worse and the price of meat has risen. This topic is too high.

**

After lunch, Yan Lan must have said that he must take a stroll, and that he would take pictures next to the famous coordinates and check in to post on Moments. When he mentioned posting to Moments, I could clearly feel Qiushui’s eyes looking towards me. I glanced at him, and I didn’t know what it was at first, so I returned him a very puzzled look, and he silently looked away, then I gave Yan Lan the car keys and asked him to take Qiushui to play, and told them that I was working I won't take them to play when something happens, it just so happens that the two of them can be company.

Yan Lan rubbed her hands, he wanted to drive my car a long time ago, I was always afraid that with his unrestrained nature, I would be able to drive around Shangmian City and lose all [-] points on my driver's license, so I never agreed He, he is satisfied now, and he doesn't care that I, as the host, don't take him to play.He hooked the expressionless Qiu Shui with one hand and got into the car. I stood by and waited for his car to start and then turned around and entered the subway station.

The place where we ate was not too far from where I live, but I had to change trains if I took the subway, but I figured I'd be fine anyway, not in a rush, and I kind of like crowds a feeling of.

I like the lively flow of people and the noise of the crowd. Occasionally, the movement of the crowd will give me a feeling of ebb and flow, and I will feel very peaceful when I stay in the crowd.

It was nearly three o'clock in the afternoon when I got home, and the weather in June had already brought some uncomfortable heat. I had already soaked a thin layer of sweat on my clothes after walking in the sun for 10 minutes.After entering the house, he simply went directly into the bathroom to take a shower. After coming out, he felt a lot more comfortable. After wiping his hair, he sat down at the small coffee table by the window, and the phone vibrated.

I glanced at it, and it was a text message from Qiu Shui.

I haven't put a name on Qiushui's mobile phone number until now, but I knew it was him when I saw the big sentence sent by a string of numbers. I let go of my hand holding the towel, reached out and picked it up. On the mobile phone on the small coffee table, click on the text message he sent

"Yan Lan has been asking me to take pictures of him." Followed by a rolling eyes.

When I inexplicably saw this sentence from him, I thought it was funny, wiped the water droplets on my fingers, and sent him a message back: "Don't talk to him."

After sending it to him, send Yan Lan a WeChat message to reprimand him-don't ask other children to take pictures of you, don't you know what you look like?

Yan Lan didn't respond to my message, I guess he might be driving.

Qiu Shui sent a message very quickly: "You said you don't have WeChat."

Me: "Adult lies are generally not suitable for being exposed."

He asked me, "Is it all a lie?"

I was joking, but I didn't expect to get such a serious reply. I didn't know what to reply to him for a while. After a short time, Qiushui sent another text message: "I slept near the station last night. The hotel, the hotel is so small, the bed looks dirty, the toilet looks like it hasn’t been cleaned, and a single bed costs 198 a night.”

Me: "There are really no good hotels near the station, but there should be a chain of cheap hotels, and the sanitation environment may be slightly better."

He: "I don't know, I don't even know the way."

I type slowly: "Maybe you can use the map to search?"

There was a pause there for a while, and he changed the subject directly: "I can go to the University of Finance and Economics. I read that I can study accounting. They said that this major will make it easier to find a job in the future."

I typed—it was really good... After thinking about it, I added: Now the brother next to you studied accounting in college, and now works in the tax bureau of Changkang City. You can ask him about this.

After a while, he called me a few words—he was so wordy.

I couldn't help holding my phone and laughing.

I figured it out, Qiushui might really prefer to communicate with people through the phone, I doubt that he might have some barriers to face-to-face communication, he would jump out word by word when talking face-to-face, chatting on twitter for a long time on the phone, no Just ignore him and he can talk.He sent me a lot of messages during the whole afternoon when he was out with Yan Lan, from a small bug he took on the side of the road to Yan Lan's ugly photo, he would tell me everything in detail.

At six o'clock in the evening, Yan Lan had enough of wandering around, and the two entered the house together. After Yan Lan entered the house, she went straight to the sofa and began to complain: "Qiu Shui is too quiet, I will tell him ten words If he can say a word, he was playing with a mobile phone and Internet addicted boy along the way, this is it."

Qiu Shui came in after him, and started looking through schoolbags as soon as he entered the door, took out his mobile phone charger from his backpack, found the charging plug, and immediately charged his mobile phone, and looked up at me during the process, kindly Explained to me: "The phone is out of battery."

I stood up from the chair, covered my computer, walked from the window to the living room, and asked casually, "Where did you go shopping today?"

Yan Lan collapsed on the sofa and began to snap his fingers to talk about the places he had been to, and complained about several Internet celebrity attractions, which he thought were false advertisements at first glance.

Qiu Shui squatted on the ground and stared at his dead phone, showing no intention of speaking at all.

I glanced at the two of them separately, and started to care about the dinner tonight: "What's for dinner tonight?" While talking, I suddenly remembered, and said to Qiu Shui, "By the way, after eating, I'll take you to a nearby hotel to open a room. "

As soon as my voice fell, Qiu Shui was still squatting on the ground to react, Yan Lan asked very quickly: "Why are you staying in a hotel? It's really impossible to share a bed with me, and the sofa can also sleep."

Qiushui turned on the light of his mobile phone because of no power. He squatted on the ground and looked up at me. Yan Lan's two hundred and five: "It's not convenient."

"Where is the problem..." Yan Lan refused to let go.

I glanced at him: "Where is it convenient?"

Yan Lan received my signal, jumped up from the sofa and said, "I'm sweating all over my body, I'm going to take a shower." He quickly entered the guest room, found his clothes, and then walked into the bathroom.

Qiushui was still squatting on the ground fiddling with his newly charged mobile phone. I took the ingredients and walked into the kitchen to take a look at him: "There is a charging socket next to the sofa, so you don't need to squat on the ground to charge it."

Qiu Shui hummed.

I asked him again: "Are you allergic to seafood?"

There was a bit of a cold nasal sound in his voice: "No."

I asked him, "Do you have a cold?"

He said no, and did not speak again.

**

After dinner, I took Qiushui to a nearby hotel while we were eating, and he followed me with his backpack on his back. We walked all the way for 10 minutes, but he didn't say a word.

When I arrived at the hotel, I asked him to give me his ID card and I opened the room for him. He put his hands in his pockets and looked at me, and told me in a calm voice, "I will open the room myself."

I stared at him for a while, his expression was very calm, and his eyes looked at me very calmly, I sighed: "I like you very much, you know, Qiushui."

But, that's the but.

You are not yet full. You just graduated from high school and came out of Changkang City. You have never seen anyone or anything happened. You are very cute, with a lot of enthusiasm that has nowhere to diverge, and courage that matches your age. In the future, we will meet many different people. No one can be young forever. It is precious and beautiful, and it will pass soon. Everyone hopes that their life will be happy and beautiful forever. The person who arrives is the person who has been with him for a lifetime.

To put it bluntly, I am a good person, and when a good person is selfish, I can take you home and have a short relationship with you, but it may not be the kind you want, but I like you very much Yes, you, deserve to experience a relationship worthy of your own.At least that shouldn't be me.

Some people may laugh, I am too worrying, or too narcissistic, you may not think so much, I am destined to be a pessimistic optimist in the composition of my character, to imagine the best kind of worst scenario Possibility, that kind of possibility makes me think a lot involuntarily, that kind of possibility keeps me energetic and rational, and keeps moving forward.

I didn't say anything, and neither did Qiu Shui.

I said two words to him like the night I first met him: "Let's go."

I turned around and walked out the hotel door.

**

When I got home, Yan Lan spread out on the sofa and drank coke. Seeing me enter the door, she sat up excitedly and asked me, "Why are you coming back soon?"

I sat next to him and looked at him with disgust.

Yan Lan: "Could it be that I came here at the wrong time?! Brother, you are too old!"

It made me laugh out loud, I think I haven't mentioned him yet, but he has the strength to talk about me: "I think it's time for me to call your mother."

Yan Lan shrugged cowardly, and continued to say after a long while as if she couldn't hold it back: "Isn't he a good person? He would ask me about you if he didn't talk or talk all afternoon. Anyway, you are in this situation. I can't get a certificate, I don't need to get married and have children, I just want to enjoy myself in time, what else are I thinking about? , and then this child grows up, and his math scores can't even calculate what one plus two equals, so I have to die of anger."

I laughed: "One plus one is equal to what you can't figure out. That's because you have inherited your IQ. What's more, you can discuss with the woman about not wanting to have children. Many girls don't want to have children now."

Yan Lan took a deep breath and condemned my tone of indifference: "When you give birth to a child, it is a matter between the man and the woman. It is a matter of two entire families, and it may even involve this matter." The seven aunts and eight aunts in the family are not prepared to be related to dozens of families..."

"Exaggerated..." I despise him.

Yan Lan sighed: "It's not an exaggeration, brother, I really feel that I am now a fertility machine without a clear price tag."

I have no sympathy: "Your ideological consciousness is quite high."

Yan Lan raised his middle finger at me, and I reached out and slapped his hand away.

He leaned his arm over and bumped me: "Seriously, why did you come back so soon? I still have to be you for a while?"

I glanced at him: "Go and look in the mirror now to see if you look wretched or not?"

Yan Lan: "Sexy, I can understand. I don't have one, and I dare not make an appointment. It would be embarrassing if we meet an acquaintance in our place. Masturbation is a waste of paper."

"..." I began to marvel at Yan Lan's increasing obscenity.

Yan Lan blinked at me innocently.

I thought about it and told the truth: "I'm too young to do it."

Yan Lan made a very shocked look: "You are not young, won't you be eighteen in a month or so?"

I made an analogy with him: "If it's a female student who just graduated from high school and follows you, and she doesn't mean that, maybe she's just young and ignorant, just a little curious about you, and she doesn't do anything in bed. I know, can you do it?"

With an expression of painful experience, Yan Lan said solemnly and determinedly: "Why don't you do it?"

I stared at him earnestly for a while, then slowly raised my hand and gave him a thumbs up to praise his shameless spirit. Yan Lan is good at everything, but she has a very strong ability to slap her.

Yan Lan exaggeratedly said: "No, no, it's okay for girls, now a few male high school students don't watch island country love action movies, can they not know what to do?"

I glanced at him and asked gently: "Then you are 27 now, do you know what's going on?"

"Of course I know the one with hundreds of Gs in my computer..." He was stunned in the middle of speaking, "Oh, you are talking about yours, I am not the one, how do I know..."

I slapped him on the head and told him to quickly buy the ticket to go home tomorrow.

**

At night, when I was laying down after taking a shower and reading a book, my phone vibrated. I took off my glasses and put down the book to get ready for sleep. Then I took the phone aside.

A message from Qiu Shui.

"Guess what this is?"

The next photo, I clicked on it, and it was a spider crawling on the wall. The spider was quite big, like the kind that eats cockroaches. I quit the text message chat box and didn’t plan to reply.

The phone vibrated again, and I glanced over.

"There are no stars at night here."

I was about to lock the screen of my phone, and he sent a photo in the next second. It was a photo of the night sky standing under a sycamore tree. It was backlit and taken by a mobile phone. The photo I sent looked like nothing but a yellow mass of street lights. bright light.

I clicked on his phone number and called him: "Hello?"

"Hmm..." He picked up the phone, dragging his throat.

"Are you out there now?" I asked.

After a while, Qiu Shui asked me like a prank kid, "Guess."