After the Cannon Fodder's Rebirth

Jiang Zecheng has always felt that he is a monster, ever since the kidnapping case when he was young.

After being rescued from that kidnapping case, he still looks as good as ever on the surface, like a favorite son of fate, a son who makes his father proud, a talking point for his mother and friends to show off, and nothing seems to be missing, but Jiang Zecheng knew in his heart that things were different, everything was different.

When his father was negotiating with the kidnappers, he gave up on him for his own political future, and his mother ignored him...and the three days of darkness, lightning and thunder became a scar and an injury forever in his heart.

On the surface, he looks the same as in the past, but after that, Jiang Zesheng couldn't feel the slightest feeling when his mother's concern, his father's strictness, and his friends' closeness... the death of his beloved pet at home. Indifferent, cold...

Looking at his mother who was crying and hugging his father because he was having an affair with someone outside, Jiang Zecheng couldn't feel any sympathy, and he didn't even want to say a false word of relief.

Facing the father who once felt pressured by the strict requirements and wanted to be a good son who would make his father happy, he no longer wanted to please the other party and express his desire for fatherly love, but he was very calm. He was very indifferent, and he was not only not happy about the other party's concern, but also developed a feeling of impatience.

Even when his grandfather passed away, looking at the mourning and crying relatives around him...he couldn't feel the slightest bit of grief, he just felt very depressed.

He was impatient to appear in the mourning hall, but he had to be there, even the formulaic hypocritical greetings...he was unwilling to say a word.

From then on, Jiang Zecheng knew that he was sick.

Although alive, it is no different from walking dead.

Only when the darkness and thunder sounded, he would stop being numb and feel the emotions of fear, panic, fear, and rapid heartbeat similar to when he was a normal person when he was a child.

His mother was the first to discover his fear of thunder, but after being discovered by his mother, what Jiang Zecheng greeted was not concern and worry.

It was the mother's cold and almost cruel accusation: "Afraid of thunder? What do you look like as a boy afraid of thunder? You are so hypocritical! From then on, you will never turn on the lights to rest during thunderstorms, and turn off the lights for me when there is thunder and rain. , I still have to cure your problem!"

Since then, he has been deprived of the right to turn on the lights in thunderstorms to avoid fear.

Jiang Zecheng clearly realized that his mother didn't love him, all she needed was a perfect mechanical son that she could show off to others.

But when he realized this, he no longer felt sad, but only felt indifferent...

The only thing he felt, the only thing that frightened him was the night of thunder.

But he can no longer escape.

Because of his mother's selfishness, he could only suffer silently and painfully...

Jiang Zesheng originally thought that he would spend his whole life in such a numb, indifferent, mechanical pain, and chose to commit suicide as the end of his life because he couldn't bear it.

Such a colorless and walking dead life made him feel painful and boring.

Until he met He Ziming——

Only then did his life have a little different brilliance, which made him feel that besides numbness and unbearable pain and fear, there can also be love and expectation in his life.

Even if the intertwining of love and hate made him painful, it was painful and happy at the same time.

Because of He Ziming, he had infinite expectations for living, for the length of life.

The first time I saw He Ziming was at the banquet held by He's family. At that time, Jiang Zecheng didn't have any feelings for He Ziming, he just gave him a few extra glances because of He Ziming's appearance.

To be honest, He Ziming didn't look like an orphan from the countryside at all. On the contrary, he was too beautiful and exquisite, almost with a coquettish aura, even better than many beautiful city children.

Even Jiang Zecheng, who was used to seeing handsome men and beautiful women, couldn't help but keep his eyes on him for a while longer.

But it was only for a while. Although He Ziming was too beautiful in Jiang Zecheng's eyes, he was also very stupid and clumsy...

Almost everyone who attended the banquet at the He family knew that the He family had adopted this child to find a mobile blood bank for their youngest son, but the child himself didn't know it, and thought that the He family was very stupid and naive. He really wanted to adopt him, the He family brothers really wanted to become a family with him, they tried their best to please him, and wanted to blend into their circle, but they didn't know him well, but he was totally treating him as a fool, waiting for him Watching his jokes.

Jiang Zesheng doesn't like silly, naive, and simple things.

Because, in their circle, the more stupid and sweet they are, the sooner they die.

It's just too flimsy, too vulnerable, and there's nothing to like about it.

During the banquet, the youngest son of the He family, He Xiyue, stayed by He Ziming's side all the time. His good-natured appearance made the fool trust him very much, but Jiang Zecheng saw at a glance that the sickly young son of the He family was waiting for an opportunity. Tackling He Ziming made him laugh.

Sure enough, after a while, under the instigation of He Xiyue, the stupid boy walked towards him who was allergic to mangoes with a glass of mango juice.

"You... hello, my name is He Ziming, please... would you drink mango juice?" The boy walked up to him and looked at him with clear and innocent eyes, like a kitten begging for adoption ,Carefully.

If he had known that he and He Ziming would have those entanglements later, if he could go back in time, Jiang Zecheng would desperately want to go back to that time, even if he was allergic to mango and died, he would have drank that glass of mango juice in one gulp.

Or, even if you don't drink mango juice, you can treat him more gently, and be more gentle to give him face and make friends with him.

He could see that He Ziming had a good first impression of him.

But no...

At that time, Jiang Zesheng couldn't predict the future, and he didn't know the importance of He Ziming to him in his future life.I don't know how precious He Ziming, who has never suffered any harm or setback, is in comparison with the later one!

Jiang Zecheng just pushed He Ziming away indifferently, without even an explanation for his mango allergy, just replied coldly: "Thank you, I never drink mango juice!"

After speaking, he turned around and left, not even giving He Ziming a chance to say another word.

This caused a group of people to have the opportunity to ridicule and laugh at He Ziming: "Haha, you see, Jiang Shao didn't give him any face, so he turned around and left."

"He thought he was something, and wanted to curry favor with Young Master Jiang... Let's put a cold ass on his hot face."

"..."

Jiang Zecheng knew that he was also responsible for turning He Ziming into the hideous look he later had, and was even one of the main reasons!

He can't break free, only bear, atone for sin.

But he didn't think so at the time. Jiang Zecheng could imagine how those people would ridicule He Ziming at that time, but he didn't do much to help him. His thoughts of saving He Ziming didn't sympathize with He Ziming at all... He even felt that I should be more indifferent and ruthless to him...

In his opinion at the time, Silly Baitian couldn't last long in such an environment. Even if it wasn't him, someone else would make him suffer and stumble, and he indirectly taught him to recognize the reality and do good deeds.

There are so many pitiful people in the world, how can he be sympathetic if he is asked to sympathize with him one by one?

What's more, he has no such thing as sympathy.

But he is completely unaware of his own mistakes and stupidity.

Later, Jiang Zecheng and He Ziming rarely met each other. Although they studied in the same school, they had never met each other. Jiang Zecheng almost forgot that he had met such a person. There is such a person in the world, only in the presence of other people. In the small talk, he vaguely heard that He Ziming, as he expected, was "taught to learn how to be a man" by a group of rich second-generation people. He lived a miserable life, became more restrained, and matured a lot.

But what did it matter to him?

However, everyone has their own destiny, and so does he, he can't break free.

Intersecting with He Ziming again was when he was forced by his mother to turn off the lights and feel the thunder and lightning. After waking up the next morning, a second personality appeared, which really scared his elegant and noble mother .

After the doctor diagnosed him, he had mental and psychological problems, suffering from split personality and bipolar disorder.

His mother turned pale with fright, not because she felt sorry for his son, but because she felt that her son was no longer outstanding, which made her ashamed and made her no longer able to show off... For the sake of face, Jiang Zecheng's parents The news was blocked for a while, and Jiang Zecheng began a long and depressive psychotherapy...

His parents couldn't accept that their proud son was an empathetic, empathetic monster without the slightest introspection or the slightest idea that it was their fault.

They themselves also have this problem, but it's not as serious as Jiang Zecheng's.

During the treatment process, Jiang Zesheng was very depressed and painful, especially when he was disappointed and indifferent to his parents, but he had no face of love at all.

In order to relieve this pressure, he chose to surf the Internet in an anonymous forum, and poured out his troubles.

He concealed his lack of empathy, sympathy, split personality, and bipolar disorder. He only talked about the great psychological trauma caused by the previous kidnapping to him, the indifference of his parents, and the relationship between himself and his parents. The problems existing in the room, and deeply expressed his hatred of this kind of indifference...whether it is to himself or to his parents.

Maybe it was because the subject of the post was not attractive enough, he waited for several days and no one responded to him, Jiang Zecheng didn't care, he just thought he was just entertaining himself.

The first and only person who replied to his post was a netizen named Wuming.

That person comforted him, persuaded him, and put many of his problems to the point, which made Jiang Zecheng empathize with him, so he started talking with that person.

The man told him that he was an orphan and was adopted by a rich family because of his special blood type, because the son of that family had a serious blood disease and needed a mobile blood bank, and he lived very well in that environment Depression is painful, but one cannot give up hope after all...

For some reason, after the netizen shared this information, He Ziming's face inexplicably flashed across Jiang Zecheng's mind.

But after thinking about it, I felt that it would not be such a coincidence. I and the other party may not be in the same city. Country Z is such a big country. It is really normal to have people in the same situation, so I dismissed this idea.

Jiang Zecheng chatted very speculatively with that netizen, and chatting with that netizen became his daily routine.

At that time, Jiang Zecheng didn't know that the person sitting at the other end of the network cable was actually He Ziming.

The second time I saw He Ziming in real life was after school one day, he wanted to go to the bathroom urgently, but in the school toilet, he saw a group of playboys from the fair party who were about to bully He Ziming and another boy from an ordinary family. .

On that day, Jiang Zesheng had just undergone psychotherapy, and the psychiatrist kept forcing him to ask: "Why don't you have compassion? Seeing others suffering and suffering, don't you want to help others? Seeing your former pet die, Won't you be sad?"

"You should be sad. You should help others when you see others needing help. That's a normal person." I was also forcibly indoctrinated with this concept.

His mother also chased him and kept asking: "Why do you have no expression at all? Your father found a mistress and gave birth to a child. That child may replace your position in the future. Are you not sad at all? You don't want to let yourself Have you become normal? Why don't you have any expression at all, just like a wooden stake!"

His mother beat him, and the psychiatrist brainwashed him, but instead Jiang Zecheng developed a rebellious mentality.

He thought, why?Why should I follow the trajectory they want?He just doesn't, he just doesn't have empathy, so what about empathy?

Who dares to say that he has a problem and cannot be considered a normal person?

He doesn't.

When Jiang Zecheng walked into the toilet, the second generations all slowed down when they saw him coming.

He Ziming looked at him with a pair of big black and white eyes, which were wet and full of hope.

Jiang Zecheng knew that he was asking himself for help, but that was when he was most rebellious because he was accused of having no empathy and empathy. The more he looked at He Ziming's eyes, the less hesitant he was Go to the toilet door.

"Jiang...Jiang Zecheng, save me!" Hearing He Ziming's scream for help from behind him, he quickened his pace instead, cutting off He Ziming's last hope.

No one can save you, only you can save yourself...

Anyway, anyway, these rich second generations won't really kill him.

Thinking like this, Jiang Zecheng walked faster and faster as if he was throwing off something, but he kept thinking about He Ziming's screams and cries for help at that time.

When he reached the school gate, he paused, wanting to go back.

But in the end, instead of doing this, he chose to notify the school's security and guards to rush to the toilet.

Looking at the backs of those security guards who rushed to the toilet after hearing his report... Jiang Zecheng thought, this is probably enough.

He has shown the utmost benevolence to He Ziming.

But at that time, he didn't know that it wasn't enough, it wasn't enough.

The author has something to say: After the previous chapter Fanwai in the world of immortals and demons ended, I said I would write it.It's not the same as the previous content. Copying cheats subscription. What I wrote is different. If you don't believe it, you can go back and read it.

I don't get it, is it wrong to keep promises these days?