Flight of the Bumblebee

When he woke up the next morning, Xing Yan was still sleeping, and it was rare that he slept so sleepily.Usually, when he opened his eyes, this side sat up from the bed as if inspired, and looked at him sleepily.Here He Qi brushed his teeth, washed his face, dressed and ready to go to work, Xing Yan was still lying on the bed with his eyes closed, soundly asleep.He Qi felt that there was no need to wake him up, took the briefcase from the table, went around his bed, and closed the door for him.

When Xing Yan woke up, he didn't know what time it was, anyway the sun outside was very high.Why, there was no one on the bed, and he was the only one left in the whole room.

After he got up and washed, he took something to pad his stomach, and then, as usual, he began to sit on the balcony in a daze.

Xing Yan occasionally uses He Qi's computer to watch some movies online.He found that He Qi usually browsed some video websites, clicked into the favorites, and there were many foreign movies and TV series in it.Before going to bed at night, He Qi must watch a video on the bed before he can fall asleep. At this time, he will be called together.Xing Yan thought that he was just watching movies to pass the time when he was bored, but he didn't expect that this was really his hobby.There are many black and white old movies in the favorites, including those from the silent period. He even saw black and white short films from 100 years ago.But when Xing Yan clicked in, he couldn't watch those movies for some reason.

He also has a 2TB black hard drive in the cabinet, which he occasionally takes out to watch movies.Xing Yan has also seen it. There are all kinds of things in it. There are hundreds of folders classified by the director's name alone. It can be said that he is a hardcore old movie fan.Opening the hard drive is like entering a private museum, which is full of favorites.Collected from various places on the Internet, some old movies even took him several months to find resources.He Qi once pointed to a silent film Hamlet and told him with great interest that he had been looking for this film on the Internet for a long time, until one day he found the seed on a website by chance, and he was so ecstatic that day that he almost If you didn't jump off the bed board in the dormitory, you really had nowhere to find it, and it didn't take much effort to get it.

Of course, these movies were all collected by him when he was in college.He said that during those four years at school, he had nothing to do every day, did not seek to make progress, and spent a lot of time on hobbies.After work, there is no such thing as Beijing time, and when I come back from work, I am exhausted into a puddle of shit, so I don’t have the energy to find a new movie to watch.These are enough.

After Xing Yan listened to it, he felt very moved.He is really a man who is easily satisfied, and it is true that, as he himself said, he is a man who does not seek to make progress.These movies are not only He Qi's collection of hobbies, but also represent his youth. The time and energy he spent on it are all preserved in a hard drive.

He likes to hear He Qi tell him about himself - his roommate in college, the beautiful girl he accidentally saw on the subway, and his bad friend Lin You who still keeps in touch with him.When he was playing games with Lin You, Xing Yan would also go up to him, watching the villains on the screen wandering around the map in a daze, and He Qi died when he was completely confused about the situation, and then listened to him talking there. scold.

Yesterday was the first time I heard He Qi talk about his hometown, which sounds like a very Chinese place.Temples, stage building, opera singing, and Huadan are all new terms for him, and he only has a general impression in his head.He was probably talking about the Chinese classical drama, Huadan—the heroine on the stage.In his memories, the ex-Hua Dan who suffered from mental illness and wandered to his hometown may remind He Qi of himself.Xing Yan had to admit that he and that woman had something in common. They had also shined on the stage, were also displaced, and were rejected by everyone.It's just that he met He Qi, and finally had a place to settle down.

If I hadn't met him back then, where would I be now?

Did he disappear into the vast world along the river, or did he not jump in the end, and is still living in a hurry like a walking dead on the street?

He recalled the Baishui Bridge at that time, the lights on the other side dazzled his eyes, the blurred world was all on the other side.He Qi rolled a small boat to his feet and extradited him.Looking at the Baishui Bridge that was drifting away, he felt that he could finally let go of the past, and the other shore was no longer the other shore of the past.

One night, He Qi came back early, after eating, taking a bath, brushing his teeth and washing his face, it was only nine o'clock.Lying on the bed, he turned on the computer excitedly, called Xing Yan to sit down next to him, and opened the movie "Gone with the Wind".He said that he had watched this movie three times before, but recently he couldn’t find the time to rewatch it. Fortunately, he got off work quickly today and went to bed after [-] o’clock when he saw it.Xing Yan was also very happy, sitting next to him excitedly waiting for the movie to start.As a result, Scarlett had just returned to her devastated manor after going through hardships and hardships through the war-torn areas, and He Qi fell asleep. A hairy head fell heavily on Xing Yan's shoulders until the end of the movie in Scarlett's tears He didn't even wake up after speaking the last line with a face full of hope but full of hope.

"After all, tomorrow is another day!"

"Anyway, tomorrow is another day!"

A slight smile appeared on Xing Yan's face.He stood up from the stool and was about to turn around and go back to the house to wash the clothes left yesterday when Niu Niu's voice came from the balcony below.

"Brother Ayan! Brother Ayan!"

Xing Yan said not to call him that on the balcony, it would let passers-by know that there is a little girl who missed the order in this house, if someone has malicious intentions, it would be bad.He taught her to tap something hard, like a broom or a coat hanger, on the anti-theft net so that he would come down as soon as he heard it.

Today Xing Yan woke up late, he had already left when he woke up, he even forgot about Niu Niu, it was really wrong.Usually at this time, he would go down and talk to Niuniu for a while before coming back to do housework.Wait until after lunch to go down, put her to sleep, go to the supermarket to buy vegetables, and then sit on the balcony or take a nap on the steps downstairs until Niuniu wakes up from a nap, and calls him softly from the door: "Brother Ayan... In the evening, he would go back to make dinner for He Qi, and every time He Qi reluctantly finished the food in the bowl, and to encourage him, he would say, "You can do better next time!" When Xing Yan heard this, he couldn't help but sigh in his heart, and burst into tears.He is so nice that Xing Yan feels that every time he enters the kitchen it is a crime, but He Qi is the one suffering from Stockholm syndrome.

When he heard Niuniu calling him, he ran downstairs without saying a word, and rang the doorbell through the security door.After a while, the wooden door inside opened a hole, and a small head silently poked out from behind the door panel, and after seeing Xing Yan, he shouted happily: "Brother Ayan!" Then he opened the door completely, and Xing Yan rushed to her. She waved her hand with a smile and said, "Good morning! Niuniu."

When Niuniu heard his words, she pouted her mouth in anger, and said sullenly, "It's getting late now, it's almost noon..."

"Sorry, I got up late today." Xing Yan said apologetically.

"Brother Ayan is so lazy..."

Xing Yan lay on the anti-theft door, and said to her through the gap in the railing: "I'm sorry, please forgive me?"

"Okay, I forgive you." Niu Niu easily forgave him.

"So what are we playing today? Is it still Snow White and her Prince Charming?"

Niuniu has a Disney Snow White toy, which her mother bought for her birthday this year.She also has an Ultraman, I don’t know where I picked it up, it’s a little dirty, but it’s been washed by her mother, so it’s a little faded.This Ultraman is Snow White's "Prince Charming" Niuniu sitting on the floor, holding her beloved Snow White in one hand, and Ultraman in the other. She is responsible for dubbing Snow White, and Xing Yan is standing outside Voice over Ultraman.

"Hello, are you a prince?" "Bai Xue" asked the heroic Ultraman in red armor with some embarrassment.

"Hello, dear princess, I am your Prince Charming." "Ultraman" said confidently, puffing out his chest.

"It's not like this!" Niuniu stood up, put her hands on her hips, and explained to him angrily: "You are Prince Ultraman, not Prince Charming!"

And so on, they've been playing games like this for the past two days.Xing Yan couldn't remember the name that was a bit awkward for him.He always described Ultraman as Prince Charming, which made Niu very angry.But the child quickly dissipated, and she can still play with you happily in the next second.She held up Snow White and said to Ultraman: "Prince Ultraman, I like you, can I marry you?"

At this time, Xing Yan will replace "Ultraman Prince" and answer her: "No, you are too young, you can marry me when you grow up."

Of course, his answer would annoy Niuniu again, after all, the little girl's sincere girlish heart was ruthlessly rejected by him just now.Niuniu snorted angrily, turned her back, pretended to be angry, and waited for Xing Yan to apologize to her.After Xing Yan finished apologizing, he went to play as if nothing happened.

But she said that she didn't want to play that anymore, and looked at Xing Yan mysteriously, and laughed.Xing Yan smiled and asked her what happened.Niu Niu said you open the meter box of my house on the wall outside to have a look.With a look of suspicion, Xing Yan found the green meter box with her house number written on the wall, opened the box door, and found a silver key lying quietly in the dust.Niuniu shouted from the door: "Brother Ayan, have you seen it?"

Xing Yan came back to his senses, took out the slightly rusty key from the box, and said to Niuniu blankly: "This... this is your house key... right?"

"Mom said that if you want to come in, you will get the key from the electric meter box outside. But don't tell anyone, this is a secret between Ayan and us."

Xing Yan's fingertips trembled a little, and he asked the five or six-year-old child uncertainly again: "Your mother really said that you can let me in? What if she comes back and sees me and drives me away with a broom? "

"No way!" Niu Niu's tone was obviously anxious, "Mom said it's a pity that you stand outside every day, it's better to let you in. Because you are Niu Niu's friend!"

Xing Yan smiled.He was a little touched and felt accepted.I'm also a little embarrassed, except for He Qi, he hasn't been trusted by anyone, and he's somewhat unaccustomed to it.He lowered his head and touched his nose unconsciously.Niuniu yelled inside: "Ayan, open the door for me! I don't want to stay at home alone!" He opened the anti-theft door while smiling foolishly. Niuniu rushed out and hugged his thigh, lifted his At first he said pitifully: "Let's go out. Take me to see my mother, who said she works nearby."

Xing Yan originally wanted to say hello to her, but when he saw the clock in the living room, it was already 11:30, so he squatted down, touched Niu Niu's head and comforted her: "Mom is coming back soon, shall we wait for her at home? Otherwise, mother will be anxious if she doesn’t see Niuniu when she comes back.”

Although she was not very willing, Niuniu nodded obediently.She ran to the sofa in the living room and took out her own Snow White and Ultraman, and said to Xing Yan: "Then let's play Snow White and Prince Ultraman!"

Xing Yan corrected her: "Snow White and Prince Charming are a couple, and Prince Ultraman should be called Prince Charming."

Niuniu retorted him: "But it's called Ultraman. I picked up Ultraman beside the trash can. He is not Prince Charming, he is Prince Ultraman! My Snow White just likes Ultraman." Prince! A Yan, you don't understand anything!" She turned around angrily, and deliberately let out a groaning sound, as if she was afraid that Xing Yan would not hear it.

Xing Yan took off his shoes and took out the pair he wore last night from the shoe cabinet. He felt a little nervous, but he still walked over and said to Niu Niu: "Prince Ultraman, Prince Ultraman, anyway, I I don't even know what he does."

Niuniu's anger disappeared immediately, and she turned around and explained to Xing Yan with a full face: "Ultraman is an alien, very powerful. He fights against big monsters to protect the earth." , can drive the monster away every time!"

Xing Yan took Ultraman from her hand, touched the slightly rough plastic surface, and said lightly: "Oh, is he so powerful? Who is better than Superman?"

"Much better than him!" Niuniu replied firmly.

"Compared to Batman?"

"Also stronger than him!"

Xing Yan couldn't help laughing, he said to Niu Niu: "Do you know who they are?"

"I don't know! But Ultraman is better than them! Ultraman is better than everyone, he is a hero!"

"These two are also heroes."

"Ultraman is the best hero in the world!"

Xing Yan knew that no matter how much he argued, he and Niu Niu would not reach a common conclusion.So he had no choice but to raise the toy in his hand and said to Niu Niu: "Let's play with this."

Niuniu is not interested in "Snow White" and "Ultraman Prince".She dragged Xing Yan's hand, pulled him up from the sofa, dragged him all the way into the room, and said to him with some embarrassment: "I want to learn the piano..."

Xing Yan was pulled by her to sit down on the little pink desk. At first he was puzzled, but after he understood, he reached out and touched Niu Niu's head, and said to her, "That shouldn't be the one I'm sitting on." Here." He stood up, picked up Niuniu with a "hey" and put it firmly on the chair.Niuniu twisted happily on the chair, and said to Xing Yan with a smile: "Do it again! It was so fun just now!" Xing Yan tapped her on the head with a hand knife, pretending to be stern and said: "When learning the piano, you must be serious, and you can't talk casually, and you can't move around on the chair."

Niu Niu touched his head, which didn't hurt at all, and asked him a little wronged: "It's so boring not to move, A Yan, did you do the same when you were learning the piano?"

Xing Yan said: "Yes, it was much worse when I was learning the piano. I remember that I was younger than you at that time, and if I played a wrong note, I would be kicked by the teacher. It hurts."

Niuniu frowned, and she said sadly, "I don't want to be beaten on the soles of my feet..."

Xing Yan smiled and said, "I won't hit you, you just have to learn the piano happily."

"Can you really play the piano happily?" The little girl looked at him with bright and innocent eyes and asked this question.Xing Yan seemed to be hit, unable to answer her for a long time.

Can you really play the piano happily?

He has also asked himself this question countless times, and has not come up with an answer for more than 20 years.He felt pain, felt it unbearable, and finally escaped from the imaginary prison, plunged into the abyss that cannot be added, and sank silently.

In retrospect, the pain in music was greater than the pleasure, and he never even played for himself.He has always been instigated and encouraged by others to go to competitions, hold concerts, record records, and finally tell him: "Become a celebrity, Xing Yan! We will definitely succeed!"

No one told him how to play happily.The sound of his piano is bitter, like the cry from the depths of the soul of a prisoner carved out of a cliff in the Middle Ages, desperate and sharp.

He received honors and applause for such a piano sound, but he didn't feel happy at all.

Only when playing can he temporarily forget everything around him and his own pain.But when the music stopped and the lights went out, and he was alone on the stage, the unbearable reality would come to him again, wrapping him like air.

Yesterday, after a long absence, I touched the keys and played a piece of Mozart's "Little Star Variations" for He Qi.For the first time in his life, he felt an uncontrollable excitement, and his fingers were trembling uncontrollably, not just because of nervousness.It was only then that Xing Yan realized that he missed the sound of the piano so much. Even though the electronic organ was far from the real piano, he still felt unparalleled happiness from the bottom of his heart while playing it, which he had never felt before. passed.

"Can you really play the piano happily?" Niuniu asked.

"Of course!" He replied with great certainty: "The piano should be played happily, because the existence of music itself makes people feel happy."

Now he can answer that question.