Flight of the Bumblebee

I love you, how.

After Xing Yan played the song, he played it. The host wanted to talk to them, but seeing that Xing Yan had ignored him before, he just picked up the microphone and said something, "It's so sweet." My couple", "Bless them" and stuff like that, and start looking for the next performer in the eager crowd.He Qizheng was busy talking with Xing Yan who had just come down, so he didn't notice what the host was saying.

"I'm so nervous!" After Xing Yan walked over, the first thing He Qi said was this, "Seeing that you are more nervous than me going up on stage, my palms are sweating!" They walked out of the crowd Squeezed out, He Qi spread out his palms and complained to him as he walked.

"Let me see." Xing Yan said as he was about to grab his hand to check, but He Qi hid him.

"What do you look at, it's so misleading to do anything here."

"Misunderstand what?" It seems that Xing Yan has not found out yet.

"It's a gay party, don't you see that?"

Xing Yan stood still, with a blank face, looking so inexplicably nervous, he changed his words: "I didn't know about LGBT activities before, and we were regarded as a couple."

His eyes dimmed all of a sudden, "Do you mind? We are treated as a couple."

"Of course I mind, don't you mind?"

"I do not mind."

"What do you mean? Why don't you mind?" He Qi didn't mean to press him, but just asked this sentence out of pure curiosity.

Xing Yan took a deep breath and took another step. He said: "When I was in Germany, there were many people like this around me. Everyone took it for granted and didn't think there was anything special. And the same-sex marriage law in the United States was long before I Passed in Congress before vagrancy started, I thought the whole world would be tolerant of sexual minorities."

"I thought you didn't care about current affairs."

“I met a lot of people during the two years I was on tour, and at dinner they usually talked about gossip about TV and movie stars, and occasionally politics.”

"Hmph, then you must have been shocked when you came to China, thinking that there are no two men or two women walking on the street holding hands."

"I didn't pay attention to these."

"Ha! Then you have to observe more from now on." His tone was a bit rushed, and He Qi himself didn't understand where the suffocation that had been suffocating in his heart came from after he came out of the open-air concert.He vented his anger to Xing Yan who was closest to him through words, and even he himself was baffled, wondering whether Xing Yan was innocent or the culprit.

It's no wonder that they almost "fleeed" from that scene before.

Xing Yan watched him play the whole piece of "Playing Love" with his eyes fixed and affectionate. Even though he was a dull piece of wood, he still felt that the atmosphere between the two of them was a bit delicate at that time. He was so surprised that he couldn't look away. Turned away.

That scene was so weird that He Qi couldn't even find a reason to justify it, he just tried not to think things in the worst direction. "Xing Yan likes him"?It sounds terrible, just imagining a big man living under the same roof with him and looking at him with "that" eyes every day makes him shudder.He Qi does not discriminate against homosexuals, or other sexual minorities, but like most men, he cannot accept this happening to him.

A person whom you trust unreservedly as a friend and partner, has been eyeing you, maybe every night when you are sleeping, he will look at you with colored eyes - where is the Arabian Nights coming from?

He Qi only had this possibility in his head for a moment, and soon he rejected it in his heart.Fortunately, he still has a little self-knowledge - no one who Xing Yan likes will like him.An unmotivated guy who lives in the cheapest rental house in a village in the city. He is withdrawn, has no friends, has never been in a relationship, and has never been liked by a girl when he grows up, let alone a man.

In a short period of time, his heart cleared the clouds and saw the sun, and he suddenly realized that he had never been so grateful for his own badness, and he hoped to get along with Xing Yan as a friend forever.He likes Xing Yan, no one like him has ever appeared in his ordinary life, a prince in trouble, a legendary and sad life.He felt as if he had found a treasure left behind in a dumpster, or a pearl in the desert.He treasures meeting him, no matter where the relationship takes.

But don't let it end in a pathetic way.He Qi had a vague premonition that Xing Yan would return to the original world, under the spotlight full of flowers and applause.At that time, he only needs to wave a handkerchief, say goodbye to him, and say that he will keep in touch in the future, and add each other's phone numbers to the address book, just like old friends, each embarking on the journey with fond memories, this is them The best result among them.

After He Qi figured it out, he noticed that Xing Yan's expression was different.He lowered his eyes and seemed to be very sad.He Qi pulled out a smile, patted him on the shoulder and comforted him: "I'm sorry, it's my fault. My tone of voice has always been like this, you know. If it makes you feel uncomfortable, I apologize, okay?"

Xing Yan showed a sad smile, "I don't know why you apologize."

He Qi didn't take back his hand, he just said: "I don't know why I apologize, every time I see your expression is wrong, I think it's my fault, maybe I said something wrong or did something wrong, which made you unhappy Yes. You know, I have a bad mouth, and I often speak without thinking, and I'm always rough with you, that's not my intention."

"I see."

After Xing Yan finished speaking, the two faced each other and were silent for a while.Then He Qi said: "Do you want to go back? Why don't we go back." He gave a thumbs up with one hand and pointed to the crowd behind him.

Xing Yan shook his head, he said: "Let's go back."

At this moment, Xing Yan couldn't understand better, why he didn't say anything clearly, and there was also the meaning revealed in his sentence.

"If you're part of 'over there,' fine, I don't have any prejudice against that. But, you can't like me."

At this moment, in this bustling area full of people, Xing Yan's body and mind fell into an ice cave.A quarter of an hour ago, he was self-righteous and fell into crazy fantasies and couldn't extricate himself. He Qi's expression and action could easily send him to the No.18 layer of hell, making him unable to turn over forever.

He can understand how body language, at this moment he only feels endless regret for having such a skill.He Qi was so angry just because he vaguely noticed a trace of emotion that he accidentally leaked, he still didn't say anything, everything was just an undercurrent surging under the ice layer, which made him unbearable.If one day, I fully expose my feelings in front of him, I will probably be burned to the bone by his anger by then.

He raised his eyes and concealed all his emotions: "I had a really good day today, let's go back, what the heck."

He Qi walked in front and started talking to him about another open-air concert he saw in this square last year. The stage at that time was more professional than today, and the people who came were all underground musicians. worlds apart.Of course, it doesn't mean that the people who came today are not good... I just said... college students have to take care of their studies, so naturally they can't be regarded as majors.You're the best out there, trust me, you're the best out there!Do you understand what it means to stand out from the crowd?That's right!Ramen restaurant!Let's go eat ramen, it's all here, let's eat something delicious!

He Qi had completely forgotten what happened just now, and he dragged Xing Yan's hand forward again regardless of other people's eyes, as if he was afraid that he would get lost on the road.It's no wonder that Xing Yan looked like he was out of his mind, his face was so pale that he was about to disappear, if he wasn't dragged along the street, it was hard to guarantee that he would not be squeezed out by the flow of people.

He Qi didn't see it with his back turned. A tear just fell from Xing Yan's eyes, and was wiped away in a hurry. When he turned around, he saw a smiling face.

"This one?" Xing Yan asked with a smile.

He Qi said in embarrassment: "No way...the queue is already at the door of the next door store. When it's our turn, we'll be hungry. Let's change."

They came to a rice noodle shop with a relatively large store not far away, and there happened to be an empty table.

While eating rice noodles in the store, He Qi looked at him and couldn't help but ask, "Has anyone ever told you that you are sentimental? Oh! Sentimental means..."

"I know what it means."

He Qi was silent for a while, and then he said: "Maybe what I said is not very pleasant, so don't take it to heart." He seemed to have made up his mind about what to say next, and He Qi asked cautiously in a tentative tone: "I don't know about panic disorder. Do you think the onset of this disease has something to do with your personality? It's just...how do you say...emotional? How do you say that word...sen...sensitive?" When he used When he pronounced this word with his crappy pronunciation, He Qi felt a little lucky: fortunately, he passed the CET-[-] exam.

However, Xing Yan didn't notice his untimely excitement, and replied indifferently: "Maybe."

This made He Qi feel a little discouraged, and he couldn't help but reflect on himself, did he say the wrong thing again just now.There seems to be something wrong with Xing Yan today, and he can't tell what is wrong.Thinking back carefully, it seems that since the evening, he has been hesitant to speak, as if he has a lot of words in his heart, but he can't say them.However, on the street, I may have inadvertently dispelled all his thoughts.

Yesterday, he obviously felt that the two of them were finally able to treat each other honestly, but now at this dining table less than half a meter long, He Qi still felt the sense of distance that was far away from the mountains.He is too slow, straightforward and naive at the same time. Although Xing Yan's mind has twists and turns, even if he fully reveals it, how can he understand it?Will he be persuaded by himself again, bypassing all the words he hears and the emotions he feels based on his own likes and dislikes.

It seems that he has become more and more unable to speak harsh words to Xing Yan recently, especially after seeing his true side.

Beautiful and fragile?

When he played the piano for the first time, He Qi could only think of these two words in his impoverished brain, and they were not used to describe such a man with a height of 1.8 meters.And his attitude towards Niuniu's mother and child, his past stories, his tears, his appearance when we first met... Whenever he sees his sad expression, He Qi always feels bad.Speaking of it this way, it seems that the "sensitive" person is not Xing Yan, but him.

Xing Yan's expression looked like he was about to shed tears all the time, He Qi's chest was blocked by a big rock that couldn't go up and down, and this hard-fought meal made people feel unhappy at all.

The longer the depressive time dragged on, the more bored He Qi felt. He could hardly bear to lift the table in front of him, trying to grab Xing Yan by the collar and ask him loudly: "Why are you unhappy? Tell me! Yes Is it my fault? Did I offend you? Don't keep silent! I hate it when people keep things in their hearts, and speak up when they have something to say! Idiot!"

But until he finished this unpleasant dinner and walked out of the rice noodle shop, He Qi didn't throw all these growls in his face.