I can't climb higher than you [Rebirth]

Qiu Xingzhi blocked the door: "You stay here."

Wei Yu never thought that one day Qiu Xingzhi would force him to do something, and the suppressed anger flooded his heart like a tide. He knew that his current situation was not suitable for talking, and if the stalemate continued, conflicts would definitely erupt. He just wanted to leave now , stretched out his hand to push him: "I want to go back!"

Qiu Xingzhi turned his head slightly to avoid Wei Yu's strength, and instead grabbed his wrist and dragged him toward the living room. Wei Yu's strength was not as strong as his, and his body was still in extreme pain from the previous intense exercise. Pulled forward and almost fell down.

He was completely angry, and raised his foot to kick Qiu Xingzhi's knee: "Get out!" At the same time, he went to break Qiu Xingzhi's hand.

Qiu Xingzhi never refused the strength of his hands and feet, as if he didn't feel pain. He looked back at Wei Yu who was full of anger for a few seconds, then suddenly turned around and walked in front of Wei Yu, supporting Wei Yu's back with one hand, and supporting him with the other. Kicking up his knees, he strode like a shooting star and turned to another direction.

Wei Yu was stunned for a while by Qiu Xingzhi's unreasonable behavior of playing cards. He didn't wake up until he got up in the air and was put on the bed in the bedroom. He had already stepped back to the door, cast two deep gazes on the bed: "I'm in the living room, you can call me anytime."

"Qiu Xingzhi!"

With the loud sound of "dong", Wei Yu watched helplessly as the bedroom door closed in front of him, he twisted the handle reflexively, and remained motionless.

Locked from the outside.

Wei Yu was stunned for two seconds, slammed on the wooden door vigorously and shouted: "Qiu Xingzhi!"

All independent spaces in the apartment have been well-insulated, and Wei Yu's knocking and shouting cannot be heard in the living room—even if he heard it, Qiu Xingzhi would not open the door for him at this time.

Wei Yu stood behind the door panting, if Qiu Xingzhi appeared at the door now, he would give him two kicks.

Realizing that Qiu Xingzhi really intended to leave him alone in the bedroom, Wei Yu gave up the idea of ​​smashing the door with a chair—looking at the texture of the wooden door, a chair would not be able to break the door.

There is a large bed, a built-in wardrobe that occupies the entire wall, a set of sofas by the window, and a separate toilet. The spacious room looks a little lonely, which is in line with Qiu Xingzhi's habits. I like complicated things, these should be the original configuration of the apartment.

In the middle of the night, the traffic outside the window cooled down a lot. The floor here is high, and the movement of the wind increases exponentially. The window is halfway opened, and the sound of the wind outside is in groups looking for a warm space, whistling in. Wei Yu felt a little cold, stretched out his hand When the window was closed, the cold wind hit my face.

After the coolness passed, some things in his mind seemed to disappear. Wei Yu took advantage of the situation and sat down on the sofa, with his legs crossed on the ground. Only then did he find that there were many marks from the root of his thigh to his knee, which he didn't see when he was taking a shower. This will be very obvious under the illumination of the light.

The obsessive appearance of Qiu Xingzhi pressing on him and whispering his name flashed in his mind, Wei Yu's breathing paused for two seconds before recovering.

In his memory, Qiu Xingzhi didn't even speak harshly to him, he always said every word and did everything gently and patiently, Pan An was seen in his lover's eyes, and he felt that the person he liked was good for everything, everything was That's right, if you follow the principle of "nothing, no difference" that has no bottom line, no principles and no consequences, everything about the other party will look the best in your eyes.

The Qiu Xingzhi just now was the Qiu Xingzhi he had never met before. His expression was dull and his eyes were dark. When he looked at himself, he obviously suppressed some kind of emotion. For a few moments, he really felt that the person in front of him was Strange, but he is not afraid, just angry and wants to avoid contact with him for the time being.

In fact, most people are not so generous. When they are extremely angry, they want to kill people. Not long ago, Wei Yu wanted to punch a few holes in Qiu Xingzhi's good-looking face, including when he was just thrown in, he thought about smashing the door. , rushed out to fight Qiu Xingzhi to the death, and in just a few minutes, most of the anger that boiled against Yingtian had disappeared, leaving a little misty anger swirling in his heart.

Wei Yu was so angry that Qiu Xingzhi insisted on forcing himself to stay here, but as his anger dissipated, he began to think about what happened that night.

He has been very busy recently and has no time to think, or he deliberately avoided thinking. The relationship with Qiu Xingzhi has just begun. It stands to reason that it is the time when the relationship is the warmest and strongest, but he has not seen each other for a day. After three autumn troubles, he even subconsciously breathed a sigh of relief when he learned that Qiu Xingzhi was going to inspect the company in other places.

Every time we meet, it is not unhappy, but every time we get along, Wei Yu always feels that there is something lying between the two, invisible and intangible, so he blindly blocks between the two, even if he hugs, he feels that there is something between them , You can't devote yourself wholeheartedly and release all your love and enthusiasm to the other party.

All this is different from Wei Yu's fantasy of being with Qiu Xingzhi. According to his own evaluation, they are a pair of actors living with a lover's script.

While worrying about how to solve it, the scandal came out in front of Wei Yu, and the moment he saw the familiar side face on Qiao Qi's phone screen, Wei Yu was not sad at all.

He trusted Qiu Xingzhi, and a scandal about playing with his age would not make him act childishly jealous, but he felt another uneasiness from the scandal.

The heart was slightly sore, and it only lasted for three seconds before returning to silence. Wei Yu was also at a loss for his silence. It is impossible for any lover to be indifferent when seeing such a thing. He loves Qiu Xingzhi so much, why does he feel nothing at all? ?

It's trust, it's disdain for low-level gossip, all of them, but more seems to be - From the photos, Wei Yu seems to see that one day in the future, he and Qiu Xingzhi have gone through the first passionate years , are very familiar with each other, the days are normal, they will no longer be happy for each other's smile, will not be anxious because of each other's sad face, there is no throbbing and obsession when hugging now, they just continue to be together as lovers At the same time, the shell is already like a crab in winter, and only the shell is empty.

At that time, will Qiu Xingzhi still love him, will he be tired of the life he has lived and the face he has faced for many years, and want to seek a more exciting and fresh life, and he will be in a What awkward position?

When he was young, the vigorous secret love and passionate love had come to an embarrassing ending. Wei Yu didn't know if he would be as free and easy as he was away from Qiu Xingzhi after rebirth.

It was also at this time that Wei Yu finally realized what was between him and Qiu Xingzhi.

It's inferiority complex, mistrust, or——his suspicion of this rash relationship made him dare not dedicate himself to Qiu Xingzhi. He was afraid that something irreversible would happen in the future. If you can't take back yourself, you will be completely reduced to a resentful husband.

Wei Yu knew that his thoughts were ridiculous, hypocritical and forced, but he couldn't stop his thinking from diverging. Every time he faced Qiu Xingzhi's smiling face and close kisses, he felt a little ashamed and uneasy, and he hid himself from Qiu Xingzhi's eyes. Xingzhi discovered that what happened to Jin Ning only made him fully realize and admit his fear.

Thinking of this, Wei Yu curled his lips in a self-deprecating way. Parents are always worrying about their children. He has been worrying about this relationship for a hundred years. Life should be fun when you are alive. He just misses it because he thinks too much, but he can't change it. My own character, which is deeply rooted in the bone marrow, can be changed just by talking about it?

What he was worried about was the future, and in the end it was just worrying. Qiu Xingzhi asked him to think about it. He thought about it, but how should he explain it to Qiu Xingzhi?

Legs were numb after sitting for a long time, Wei Yu got up to relieve his muscles and bones, and wandered to the closet. There were only a few pieces of clothes in the big closet, most of which were shirts, suits and trench coats, which were more formal, and the main colors were gray, white, blue and black. It was very monotonous, Wei Yu glanced at it casually, and saw a red spot, which seemed to be worn under a windbreaker.

His brain twitched, and he reached out to take the windbreaker in a strange way. There was really a red T-shirt inside. It was red. It was a solid color T from a well-known fast-selling brand. You can see it everywhere on the street, but Wei Yu stared at it. stand up.

More than a year ago, Qiu Xingzhi celebrated his birthday, which was the year of birth. Wei Yu bought him a big red T-shirt. When he gave it to him, he joked that he bought it at random, and if he didn't like it, he could put it in the closet to keep him safe.

On his birthday that day, Qiu Xingzhi wore a T-shirt under his coat, and Wei Yu never saw this dress again, thinking that Qiu Xingzhi had forgotten about it.

The color of this kind of clothes faded a bit, not as bright as when I first bought them, they were ironed neatly, and there was no wrinkle at all.

Wei Yu frowned slightly, slowly hung up his clothes, went to the head of the bed, lifted the quilt, and lay down quietly.

The bedding and pillows were all stained with Qiu Xingzhi's clean scent, Wei Yu reached out to turn off the light, the curtains were wide open, and the outline of the chandelier could be vaguely seen.

I don't know how long I lay there, but I still didn't feel sleepy at all. Wei Yu turned over with a big movement, and his body turned twice on the mattress.

There was a little conflict today, Qiu Xingzhi locked him in the room, and after careful calculation, he also had something wrong, maybe he should take this opportunity to untie the knot, they want to be together, and they can't treat those who will affect getting along Turning a blind eye to obstacles, avoiding for a long time becomes a habit, and he will become more and more tired.

With a sound of "click", Wei Yu immediately opened his eyes, the door was gently pushed open, a familiar figure stood at the door, his tall and well-proportioned lines and the messy pile of hair on his head were outlined by the backlight, looking a little silly .

Qiu Xingzhi probably didn't expect Wei Yu to fall asleep so anxiously. He was stunned at the door for a few seconds, and walked lightly to the bedside with the help of a little light that was barely projected from the window. Seeing Wei Yu's side facing the door, he He bent down and squatted down to meet Wei Yu face to face, and looked at him with a good eye.

They were very close, and the shallow breathing was like a soft feather scratching Wei Yu's nose, it was very itchy, but he didn't want to open his eyes now, so he could only pretend to sleep.

Qiu Xingzhi said: "You actually fell asleep, I thought you would hit me with a chair after opening the door."

"..." The moment he realized that he was locked up, Wei Yu really had this idea.

"I didn't mean to do something to you." Qiu Xingzhi couldn't hold back, and was afraid of waking Wei Yu, so he touched Wei Yu's forehead very lightly, "I was afraid that you would keep something in your heart and not say it, and just digest it by yourself." , I think you can communicate with me about anything, no matter what, the two of us can solve it together."

Wei Yu's eyebrows moved.

"I'm afraid that you still don't want to communicate after you go back. I'm afraid that you will avoid me and hide from me. I'd rather you hit me in the face with gossip media news and ask why there is such a thing..."

Speaking of this, Qiu Xingzhi's tone was a bit more serious, and he added, "It was the celebrity and the gossip reporter who joined forces to pull the trick. I have checked everything out. I don't know her, and I don't know her name."

"..." There are quite a lot of scenes, but he is now asleep.

"You have promised to be together, you should treat me as your other half, don't say nothing, our life has just begun, if there are problems that are not resolved, more and more Wei Yu will accumulate."

"Do you remember going to sing with Qin Rong and the others when you were in senior year? You fell asleep in the clubhouse after drinking, and I watched you talk to you like this. You couldn't hear me. I would tell you anything I didn't dare to say to you. you said so."

"??" Wei Yu remembered that time, he drank too much and stayed overnight in the clubhouse, sharing a room with Qiu Xingzhi. That night, he vaguely felt something dangling on his face, and he couldn't see anything when he opened his eyes. When he realized that his head was so dizzy, he thought it was a hallucination caused by drinking too much.

It turned out that this person did it.

"For so many years, every day I want to hug you openly and tell you everything I want to say."

Wei Yu's blood boiled for two seconds, and his skin gurgled and went numb.

"Every time someone confesses to you, I am anxious, afraid that you will agree to them."

"..."

"It's been so long since I can really be with you. I really don't want to affect us because of other people or other things, so I can solve anything."

Qiu Xingzhi's hand covered Wei Yu's forehead, it was cold and dry, "But you can't leave me."

Wei Yu didn't want to listen anymore, his body became numb after lying on his side for a long time, and the other was that he was afraid that Qiu Xingzhi would pretend that he couldn't sleep any more, so he moved his shoulders, let out a squeak, and turned over naturally body.

Qiu Xingzhi leaned over and touched the corner of his mouth: "I love you."

Quietly and without a sound, he left the room, the same as when he came in, thinking that he was the only one who knew about this soliloquy.

Wei Yu slowly opened his eyes and sighed inwardly.

After sleeping in a daze all night, when he got up, he found that the bedroom door was open. When he walked to the living room, Qiu Xingzhi was not there. His clothes were neatly folded on the sofa, and there was a post-it note on it.

[There is breakfast in the kitchen, leave after eating, I'm sorry, what happened yesterday was because I was too impulsive, I shouldn't force you to do it]

Wei Yu put the note in his jacket pocket, and Qiao Qi sent a message early in the morning saying that he would fix the things in the store and drive him there, so that he didn't have to worry about it. I was so happy to miss Shu that I didn't go back.

If he knew that he had been locked up by Qiu Xingzhi for a whole night, he wondered if he would jump and swear at others. Before yesterday, Wei Yu didn't know that Qiu Xingzhi had this side, playing this kind of play.

There was shredded chicken porridge kept warm in the kitchen pot, and it seemed that Qiu Xingzhi bought it. Wei Yu quickly finished his breakfast and sent a WeChat message to Qiao Qi to say that he would go back later. After hesitating for a moment, he went downstairs. He didn’t go to the subway station immediately. Instead, he walked towards the tall office building separated by two roads.

Statutory holidays begin on New Year's Eve, but many companies don't really delay until that day. At the end of the year, most employees don't want to work and just want to spend the holidays with peace of mind. The inefficiency is horribly low. In addition to the busy year, the work that should be done is almost the same. Two or three days of vacation is more or less a benefit.

Watching the red light jumping to green, Wei Yu moved among the crowd. The facades of shopping malls and supermarkets were decorated with Chinese New Year elements. Just looking at the fiery and lively ones made me feel warm in my heart, and I heard "Congratulations on getting rich, congratulations on getting rich" ", suddenly turned into "The God of Wealth Comes to My House", a tradition that has not changed for many years, when you hear these songs, you can smell the breath of the Spring Festival.

It's too busy to pass the time, and it's the Spring Festival again in a blink of an eye.

The older he got, the more he felt that time flies. Standing outside the Risheng office building and looking up, the floor was extremely high, and he felt a little dizzy with his neck raised. He thought for a while, and went straight into the building.

"Hello, I want to find Mr. Qiu."

The girl at the front desk smiled politely: "Which Mr. Qiu are you looking for?"

Wei Yu laughed, and almost forgot that there were a lot of people surnamed Qiu in this building: "Mr. Qiu Xingzhi, my surname is Wei."

According to Risheng's rules, appointments must be made in advance to meet managers above the manager level. Just as the girl at the front desk was about to tell Wei Yu, a person walked by and said, "Let me do it."

Wei Yu turned his face away, his eyes lightened, and he looked at the girl who was approaching him.

Dressed in a smart business attire, the long curly hair from the last time we met is tied into a bun, and the thin powder and daisy is also a delicate and beautiful face, very familiar, I have seen it before.

Hu Yun called out a professional smile to Wei Yu: "Hello, do you still remember? We have seen it before."

Wei Yu nodded, although it was only one side, but he was deeply impressed. At that time, he, including Qin Rong, thought that Qiu Xingzhi invited Hu Yun to dinner, and made a lot of jokes in the box: "Hello."

Hu Yun made an inviting gesture towards the corner of the hall: "You wait a moment in the reception area, I just go upstairs and tell Xingzhi for you."

Wei Yu looked at the smiling Hu Yun for two seconds: "Thank you." His mobile phone hadn't been charged all night, and it was turned off on the way here.

Hu Yun turned and walked towards the elevator room. This afternoon, Risheng also entered the Spring Festival holiday time. Many employees who had finished packing came down from each floor excitedly with their bags and mobile phones. The people in the lobby were coming and going very lively. The sound of pattering footsteps is interspersed with people's intentionally suppressed but uncontrollable laughter, a long-lost scene.

Wei Yu sat on the sofa and watched all this with great interest. He had only worked outside for two years, which was very short. When he was in it, he was very annoying and wanted to relieve himself. He told himself countless times that if it wasn't for the money, He doesn't know how to go to work, but the fact is, no matter what you do, whether you start a business or work as a freelancer, each has its own troubles. Nothing is really easy and does not require hard work. In the past few months, he has understood this more and more .

Now looking at the excited people immersed in the holiday light, Wei Yu inexplicably misses the days of being a working class.

People came in waves one after another. When the fifth wave of people left, the hall returned to a short period of silence. Wei Yu scanned the clock on the wall and found that more than half an hour had passed.

Qiu Xingzhi hasn't come down yet, isn't it very busy? The employees are on vacation, and their management still has a lot of things to deal with. It must be too busy.

Wei Yu went to the front desk and asked if he could talk to Qiu Xingzhi. The girl said that if there was no appointment, they could not announce such things at will. Her expression and tone were embarrassing. Wei Yu had no choice but to leave first.

Things like mobile phones seem to run out of battery or shut down or break when you need them most, so you can’t contact others. Wei Yu is a little unhappy after all. He understands that Qiu Xingzhi is busy, at least find someone to go downstairs Tell him, it won't be in vain to wait so long.

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Qiu Xingzhi returned to the office after a small meeting. At the door, Hu Yun was holding a folder in one hand and coffee in the other: "Director Qiu, there are a few documents that need your signature."

Hu Yun came to Risheng for experience. In the company, he always called the director and boss in a proper manner, just like ordinary employees.

When Qiu Xingzhi entered, Hu Yun followed, first put the coffee on the table, and then spread out the folder: "Our team has checked these data, and the manager has also signed it."

It was all discussed and finalized before. Qiu Xingzhi signed it with a cursory glance. This matter is the end of this year's work. His work has come to an end and he is about to welcome an extremely precious holiday.

Qiu Xingzhi didn't have any concept of holidays before, and he stayed at home during the holidays, especially during the Spring Festival. Qin Rong and other good brothers had to behave like filial sons at home, and he had no time to talk to him, a lonely family. Need to make a difference to the company.

But it’s different now. He told Chu Chengyu that he would go to Wei Yu’s place to help during the Spring Festival. Although it was work, he could spend the New Year with Wei Yu. It was the first time in his adult life that he was looking forward to the holiday and the Spring Festival. The computer took the clothes very quickly, and turned to leave only to find that Hu Yun hadn't left yet, standing in front of the desk and looking at him.

Qiu Xingzhi: "What? Is there anything else?"

"Well, grandpa is hosting a banquet tonight, and I still lack a male companion." Hu Yun brushed the broken hair that he had deliberately cut, "They are all acquaintances. It's the end of the year, let's get together."

Qiu Xingzhi put on his coat: "Sorry, I have something to do, I'm afraid I can't go, sorry."

I knew it would be this answer, but Hu Yun still didn't give up: "Mr. Qiu said that you usually have nothing to do during the Spring Festival. I just want to go to Milan..."

Qiu Xingzhi is quite contradictory. He expresses the most indifferent rejection with the most thoughtful manners. The face that seems to have been rubbed from a cartoon just smiled symbolically for two seconds, and took the car keys and mobile phone: " I have arrangements for the Spring Festival, and I wish you a happy New Year in advance."

No matter how determined Hu Yun was, he couldn't do anything in the face of such a cold Qiu Xingzhi, so he could only leave the office angrily. Qiu Xingzhi went downstairs feeling uneasy, wondering what was going on with Wei Yu, and he didn't know if he would be locked up overnight Will be angry, go back and apologize first, and then the two have a good chat, he doesn't want to avoid all possible problems between the two of them, and he doesn't allow Wei Yu to escape.

The elevator slid to the first floor and was stopped by the girl at the front desk when walking out through the front desk of the hall: "Director Qiu, there is a card for you."

Qiu Xingzhi was inexplicable: "What card?"

"A gentleman surnamed Wei came to see you in the morning and left a card for you when he left." The girl handed it over.

The corners of Qiu Xingzhi's mouth twitched violently, and Wei Yu came to him: "Didn't he say anything?" He knew the company's rules, and he couldn't go upstairs without an appointment.

The girl was surprised: "Miss Hu seems to know that gentleman, and said that she will help him convey it to you."