[Comprehensive] God's joke

My name is Zhaoyun. It's been too long since my original name, and I was severely injured by a demon, so I can't remember it.

And in that blank space, the only thing left is a woman, or in other words, a banshee, and all the memories of the banshee's appearance are as clear as engraved into the depths of the soul.I think this memory of mine must be so precious that even if I forget everything, I don’t want to forget it.

The only memory involving my past was watched by me over and over again, I watched me run away from the claws of demons, I watched me throw gadgets that I didn’t know what to do for a long time, I watched me again and again Survived.

Then there was a bright light, and under that bright light, a girl Ting Ting was standing in front of her with raging white flames all over her body. She had wings on her back with animal ears and a tail, and easily blocked the monster. Then she turned around and rescued me. Send me to someone else's house.

I still remember that I desperately wanted to follow her thoughts at that time, but when I was seriously injured, I almost relaxed and passed out, and when I woke up, I had already entered Tianyong City.

The master said, I was invaded by the bad luck of demons, and I was completely irrational. I almost killed the kind villagers who took me in. He passed by and took me away. , he can only forcibly expel the bad luck for me, but what is destroyed at the same time is the memories of my past.

Although I couldn't hide the fear of losing my memory, I didn't indulge in it for long. Not long after, my master took pity on me for this calamity when I was young, and accepted me as an apprentice. The slow path of practice.

I have lost all my memories, except for me who has a little memory of the monster girl. I have no distracting thoughts, and my talent has been affirmed by the master, and my practice has progressed by leaps and bounds.

Hard work no matter how hard, in my spare time, when I recall her, I can't help drawing on paper, but no matter how I paint, I always feel that it is not as perfect as her.

After five years like this, I suddenly felt heartbroken and unbearable, and I almost went into a madness by accident, and even my black hair turned white overnight. I was puzzled and asked to see Master. Sighed Nie Yuan, told me that nothing happened, just go back to practice.

Although I didn't understand, what Master said was never wrong, so I went back and continued to practice.

After this, it was another two years.

On this day, Master suddenly summoned me and the important disciples in the faction to go. He was dressed like the wind, and his whole body was filled with an indescribable aura, as if he could go away against the wind like a fairy at any time.

"You are here." Master watched from a distance in the direction of the main hall of Tianyong City, and then turned to look at us.

"The reason why I invited you here today is that I have a feeling of heaven recently, and I am afraid that there will be a catastrophe in the near future...After the matter is over, no matter if I succeed or fail, I will not stay in this world anymore. It should be passed on.”

"Zhaoyun comes out."

I stood up in a daze. Although the master's age could not be verified, his appearance was still like a young man in his twenties. He was serious and neat.

... The head of Tianyong City, who is only as young as the crown, is not sure if there is a newcomer, but it must be unprecedented.

It's just that I grew up on Tianyong since I was a child, and the atmosphere in Tianyong City is good. At the moment, it is only a small sect with more than a hundred disciples. No one from the elders to the disciples resists me as the head. Take the position of master.

"Zhao Yun, the teacher is about to leave... If you meet fate in the future, you must keep in mind that everything will be good if you take it easy."

Before Master left, he only left me this sentence, but I didn't quite understand what it meant.

I have been a beginner for many years and never went down the mountain, because the master said that my nature is gentle and simple, and if I go out easily, I may be deceived.But I think that since I have been recognized by the master to take over the position of head, maybe I can also travel down the mountain.

From the disciple's neat outfit to the headmaster's wide robe, it took me a month to get used to it, and I could be tripped into a ditch after just two steps, and even if Yu Jian was flying in the air, I wouldn't be caught by the strong wind Scrape away from the sword.

...After a long time, when I was free and took my disciples out, I realized that the protective cover can actually be propped up when flying.

Cough, in short, I was able to go down the mountain, and I am very happy. This means that the woman in my memory that has taken root in my mind long ago can be searched hard.

No, it's not just a life-saving grace.

I think of her innocent smiling face when she took me away that day, the weird ways she did when she coaxed me, the hidden innocence and gentleness and kindness, which were engraved deeper and deeper in each memory, and I finally discovered it a year ago , which has become an obsession.

The days of going down the mountain can be described as colorful, and all kinds of troubles in the world are imprinted in my eyes. I watched the world live for life, live for greed, live for what you can't get, live for others, live for yourself... So many lives, short but extremely splendid, each one is enough to shake my fragile heart.

I suddenly realized why the master didn't let me go down the mountain. Even though my age has grown, my heart has always stopped at the time when I was 14 years old. When I was rescued by the banshee, there was no trace of the past. Although Dao Xin is the purest, it is also the easiest to be stained again.

Only by sticking to your heart in this world of mortals can you go on.

I realized it, and simply put away my Taoist appearance, turned into an ordinary person, became an inn boy, busy in the world for a few pennies, met all kinds of people in the inn, and fought with all kinds of people Making friends, getting deeper and deeper day by day, collecting those interesting and interesting gadgets day by day, thinking in my heart, if I can meet her in the future, I will send these together with one of my most satisfying paintings , give her...

But at the same time, with the passage of time, the banshee in the deepest memory has become more and more profound.

Two years later, I saw a Taoist disciple in the inn, who was wearing clothes similar to her at that time, which really touched my Gujingbubo heart.

After I inquired a few times, I finally found out that this Taoist robe came from Qionghua, and she was Su Lan, a disciple of Qionghua. There were countless casualties, and he also got the name of Su Lan from the Feijian biography of his elders, not from Qionghua.

I suddenly remembered that my heart ached so hard that day, my hair turned white all night, it seemed to be the day after the battle of Qiong Hua's Illusion...

In a hurry, I immediately returned to the sect and asked the elders.

The elder is old, but he is not approaching the catastrophe like his master. He always said that he has obsessions in his heart, and it is difficult to see through it in this life. He cannot usher in the catastrophe. Just getting old.

I respectfully saluted and asked for advice, but the elder looked at me for a long time, his clear eyes seemed to see through my heart thoroughly.

After a long time, he said: "Zhaoyun, do you know that you have become obsessed with it?"

Obsession?

I thought about the banshee in my mind, shook my head and smiled slightly: "How could Zhaoyun have such delusions?"

"Fool... Forget it, that Su Lan you mentioned, we will meet again when the chance comes, but now, the fate has not come." The elder said indifferently: "Remember what your master said before he left."

...Although the latter sentence feels a bit weird, I still sincerely write down what the elder said.

I still don't give up inquiring about Sulan's news, and I'm still traveling around to increase my knowledge. Tianyong City can't be regarded as flourishing in my hands, but at least it hasn't lost its original scale and declined.

A few years later, I happened to realize that I was going back to the sect to practice. When I came out of the closed door, I felt a faint monster in the air approaching. Although there was no malice, the monster swaggered past me in the sky of Tianyong City , is always bad, so he immediately warned with sword energy.

I never thought that this monster would be the banshee I've been looking for for several years, it's Sulan from the Qionghua sect...

No, her name is Kong Lan, and she also allows me to call her Kong Lan.

My heart was surging, and I didn't know whether what I said or did was disrespectful, so I just looked at her closely.

She seems to have grown up, but the expression between her eyebrows and eyes is the same as before. Although her appearance is more beautiful and more refined, but in the end, I can see that it is her, I know her, she has not changed...

I thought she was married, and my heart ached like twists, and then I learned that there was a misunderstanding, and my heart was full of joy. I couldn't help it, and wanted to express my heart immediately, but was interrupted at that time.

Although I stayed in the mortal world for a few years, I was a bit dull by nature, and I never noticed Brother Yun's guard against me. Thinking about it in the future, my reaction at that time was really stupid...

In fact, think about it, when did I meet her who was not stupid, weak and dull?If not so...if not so...

Alas, even if it wasn't the case, I'm afraid she wouldn't like me either.

After I ran into her that time, Huipai couldn't help but be overjoyed immediately, and prepared all the things I had collected over the years, waiting to go to Qionghuapai to find her, and give it all to her.

I couldn't even wait until the stable Dao heart fluctuated, and the exhilarating joy was something I had never experienced before.

The elder summoned me, and after a long silence, he finally said: "No matter what, you are the head of Tianyong City, a disciple of Tianyong City."

I didn't understand what the elder meant by what he said, but I didn't think too much about it anymore, and went to Qionghua sect on my own, but obviously she had some hidden secrets when she left Qionghua that day, although Suyao's sect leader is well known among fellow cultivators The beauty of the iceberg will not openly expel the visiting comrades...

I was puzzled, but I obediently left Qionghua.

I never thought that this departure means that I will not be able to enter the Qionghua Sect for more than half a year. It seems that last time I really did not know which words annoyed the head of Suyao... Sigh.

The encounter in Hangzhou was really just a coincidence. At that time, I heard the rumors about the Dragon King of the West Lake, so I came here to explore. I saw her eloquent words, and forced that Mr. Lin to retreat. .

I went up to talk to her, this time was the second time we met, even if I was excited, I was not as dull as last time, more or less, I felt the hostility and unkindness from several men.

I realized it in my heart.

But compared to them, I am far from her. I know that although I admire her extremely, her impression of me is just like an acquaintance I have met a few times.

It's like a rich man giving a steamed bun and a windproof coat to a person who is about to starve to death in the snow. It's easy for the person to forget it in a blink of an eye, but for the rescued person, it is a lifetime. It is also a kindness enough to remember.

The grace of saving life is a million times more important than that, and the feeling of yearning is also a million times more important.

But that's just how I feel about her.

Therefore, I must fight for the opportunity to show my feelings in front of her.

It's just that maybe we missed each other... When I got to the crowd and the crowd had cleared up, I didn't even meet her.

I was extremely disappointed, but I saw her again at the door of the inn.

How exciting is it to see new hope in times of disappointment?I think the smile I've been keeping must have turned into a smirk.

It's a pity... In any case, no chance is no chance.

She didn't even have a chance to say a word to me, she simply rejected me without any hesitation...

So... so straightforward, I don't even have the chance to deceive myself, and I don't even have the courage to tell myself that I still have a chance...

I even felt that maybe I was like a self-entertaining clown, screaming and jumping in love there, but no one wanted to see me at all...

For a moment, I lost all hope.

The long-standing obsession and persistence were broken, and I was so weak that I couldn't believe it. The only thing I thought of was to escape.

Yes, I can't face her anymore, my Dao heart trembles every time I see her, it seems that it may shatter at any time, making me bewitched, I can't...I can't do this, I have to leave her, stay far away Far……

Until I can face her again.

'No matter what, you are the head of Tianyong City and a disciple of Tianyong City. '

I suddenly thought of this sentence, I suddenly missed Tianyong City, it is my home, there are my elders, the elders may be able to explain my doubts...

I went back to the sect and asked to see the elders, hoping to be relieved.

It was only a mere day, but I already felt as if the vicissitudes of life had passed forever. The pain and exhaustion radiating from all over my body made me almost unable to hold on.

obsession... obsession...

She is my only obsession. Once it is suddenly broken, it will be like pulling out my spine. What's more, I actually don't want to break this obsession, not at all.

"Zhaoyun, it doesn't matter what I say, what you think, ask your own heart."

How do I see it?

I don't want to forget, I don't want to forget, I don't want to forget, even if she doesn't have the slightest affection for me, I still miss her and love her to the point of madness, I don't want... I don't want to resolve this obsession at all, and I don't want to let go open.

I can watch her happy, but I can't forget my love for her.

"Elder, Zhao Yun understands."

I chuckle.

Obsession... just hinders the promotion of immortality.

Is becoming a fairy important?Not at all... I practice Taoism, just as my teacher expects.

So this love, I will put it away little by little, and bury it deep in my heart, no one will know.