[Comprehensive] God's joke

I was very happy and complicated to see her again, but when I met her for the first time, I could only talk coldly according to the regulations.

Her dislike and rejection of me is undisguised, that's of course, no matter what the situation, she loves freedom the most, and I, the existence of the system, is not so much a factor for her powerful ability. To help is actually to restrict.

That's right, the meaning of my existence now is to restrict her. The gods can no longer tolerate her destroying the whole world because of small unhappiness again and again.She is ruthless and reckless, full of surly, more terrible than the devil.

The gods sympathized with her and wanted to help her, but they were also worried about what she did, so my existence appeared.

Even though I'm already dead, she has nothing to do with me, but I still want her to live well, and it's fine to reject and disdain everything, at least now I am one with her.

In fact, I am very relieved that before I merged into her, Nuwa told me that she had talked with her and that she might change.But I didn't expect that she would save others without hesitation.

It's not that she is selfish by nature or something, but because she, who never believed in the frailty of human beings, would actually save others...

She has really grown up.

In fact, I can't talk to her often, and I shouldn't talk to her often. I'm afraid I can't help but recognize her, and everything will become out of hand.

Her hatred for the whole world, for all living beings, originated from me. Since I am dead in her memory, I should not exist anymore.Only when she forgets me will she live a better life.

I let her join the Qionghua faction, and gave her some missions like saving others. She was actually very impatient every time, but she never refused any mission.

"System, what is the reason for your existence?"

She often asks me so unpredictable in her mind, but all I can give is a long silence.

"Heh... No matter who is behind you, sooner or later, I will kill you."

Yes, yes, how proud she is, even though I have tried my best not to let her feel that I am dominating her, but me existing on her is already the greatest insult to her.

I understand, but I can't deny the sadness.

She rarely turns on the system to take a look, and rarely pays attention to me, and she doesn't know that I can see everything she sees, and at the same time, I can feel every change in her heart.

We are one, I know that very well.

But at the same time, I am the assistant, and she is the master. If she dies, I will die, but if I die, she will be unscathed.

I also know this.

So I abide by my duty. If she really wants to kill me, I have no ability to resist, but I have paid a lot to get the chance to be with her again. How can I be willing to leave so easily?

She said that she would forge a sword and give it to her senior brother. Without saying a word, I listed the eight methods of making a sword, and she immediately took a fancy to the method of blood sacrifice.

Deep down in her heart, she still doesn't care about herself, whether it's life or body, I don't know how much effort I have put in to make her peculiar flying fox body blend into this world, and I don't know how much I have worked together with the gods and gods in the sky to hide it from the heavens , but she can spoil it casually.

For a moment I was angry.

She used her phantom self to cut open her back, implanted a sword embryo, clinging to her spine, and then applied a special ointment, making her back as smooth as flat. After that, she could not bend over for seven to 49 days, and any movement made her feel like a thousand It was painful, but she was still bouncing and laughing as usual.

This is a long sword, if it is a dagger, you only need to put it in your forearm...

I regret it, I shouldn't have put this sword-making method on it.But in this world, there are only a few ways to forge swords that are harmless to the person holding the sword. To forge divine weapons, the sword must have spirituality.

At this point, I can only time her according to what she said.

I always feel that she seems to be very familiar with this world, and she always has complicated feelings towards someone, especially when I send out a task of saving Qingxiao that I have listed in advance step by step, her slight entanglements Perceived by me.

Does she know something?

I have been separated from her for too long, even though for me, this period of separation is just a time of closing and opening eyes, but for her, how many spaces and worlds have been turned around, and how long has it been? I don't even know the time.

Maybe she has seen the projection of the general trend of heaven in a certain world.If this is the case, is it right or wrong to let her contact these people who have their own way of life?What kind of changes did the gods want to see her make?Or just want to eliminate this scourge...

As soon as I thought of this, I couldn't help laughing mockingly, when will even me, who fears the gods of heaven and earth, stop trusting the gods?

It's just that I know everything, so what?As far as I am a system and a restriction, she will not communicate with me much.

I think what Nuwa said to her may have really changed her a lot. Every day when I go to sleep, I hear her admonishing herself over and over again in the depths of her heart.

She said, I am human, sentient, and loving, not a bloodthirsty and brutal monster.

She said, these people cannot be killed, I have to be patient, I have to love them.

She said they were good to me and I couldn't kill them.

She said, I promised, I want to learn to protect...

I listened to her forcing herself like this every day, and then, I noticed her changes little by little.

The content of what she said changed, and a lot of trivial things were mixed in.

She said, I saved a child today, not because of the task, but because I wanted to save it in my heart, which is really great.

She said, today is another day, I have been very happy, and I have not been manipulated by killing thoughts.

She said, it turns out that you and Nu Wa have never talked badly, bright, warm, kind...everything is so good.

She said, even for you, I will persevere...

I listened to her talking to herself day and night, and her murderous feelings were suppressed in the deepest part of her heart day by day, and there was no longer any threat to her sanity. I have to say that I am very relieved , but also extremely sour.

If I hadn't misunderstood her and gave her up, maybe she would have been able to control her own murderous thoughts freely.

I saw Suyu through her eyes, as if struck by lightning.

Before seeing Suyu, I would never have imagined that someone in this world could be so similar to me, not in appearance, but in demeanor.Cold and alienated, indifferent but also with a touch of tenderness, it is really too familiar.

I felt that her heart was flustered instantly, she panicked and talked incoherently to Suyu, she wanted to get close to Suyu, even made a series of jokes and wanted to live in the same room with Suyu...

You remember those things, you do after so long, don't you?

I couldn't say anything, not even to show a connection to the past.

I can only watch because I am the system, I am a bystander, a conditioning, nothing more.

It's just that she has done too much protection.

When she was drunk that day, she actually went to help him when Xuanxiao's meridians were retrograde, and I could feel the pain of the flames burning my body.

I'm actually not stopping her from saving people, but just like the time when she sent the sword, this time she gave Xuan Xiao the true energy she had cultivated regardless of her own body. I don't see or know, but I hear it clearly!

Every sound is like a knife in my heart.

why are you so stupidYou clearly know that Suyu won't just sit idly by!She will come to help Xuan Xiao when the time comes, isn't it all right?How can you bear such suffering...

That's right, that's right, meridian retrograde, even if the two swords practice together, it will cause pain for both parties.If Suyu came to save Xuanxiao, wouldn't the current state of burning pain and burning Yang Yan appear on Suyu's body?

I don't know if she is aware of this, that's why she didn't listen to my advice, and even sneered at me coldly, insisting on treating Xuan Xiao's injury, but I couldn't help but think so.

I couldn't help but smile wryly, the old delusional thoughts grew up and cherished her more and more in the long-term relationship and seeing her steadfastly doing good every day.I have also thought more than once, if I hadn't brought her out at the beginning, maybe although she lived a miserable life, wouldn't she not suffer so much later?

But if I hadn't brought her out in the first place, then she wouldn't be able to get the freedom she is now, and there wouldn't be a day when she gradually understands what she thinks in her heart.

The feeling of complexity is really hard to describe in words.

She was burned so painfully that I exhausted all the power I could use to help her suppress the firepower. The only thing that comforted me was that Xuan Xiao was not a wolf-hearted person. When he woke up, he cared about her first. , rather than the majestic true energy that grows by itself.

I watched coldly as he went to call Suyu, carried her into the disciple's room, and tried to slow down his expression and tone, begging Suyu to take care of her, and then disappeared, although I knew in my heart that these mistakes had nothing to do with him relationship, but I can't stop the resentment in my heart.

From a long time ago, I vaguely felt that the little fox demon who was innocent and ignorant back then was already more important in my heart than anything else.It's just a pity, at that time, I was blinded by some bullshit, axiom, and heaven. I didn't really understand how important she was to me until I saw her suffering for me before I died.

But everything, if you miss it, you miss it, and there is no room for recovery.

After she woke up, I couldn't help but to teach her a lesson, but although she seemed to be more kind and talkative day by day, she was still that indifferent, paranoid, cruel and violent demon to people who disagreed with her. No matter what I said, she They all just replied to me with their hippie smiles indifferently.

We even quarreled, and I couldn't restrain the fear in my heart that she didn't care about me so much, so I couldn't help but yelled loudly.

No one is as important as you, do you understand? !

If, if you didn't have such good luck one day, you actually came across something that could kill you, would you do the same?Would you still risk your life to save others?But do you really get peace of mind from it?

I'm sure, I'm sure, if one day she encounters something that can kill her when facing these people, she will indeed rush up and save them.

Wasn't that how I was?

You force yourself to accept, but in the end it becomes a sincere acceptance.

I should be happy about this change, because she really did what I thought, and what the gods hoped for. She is changing from an irrational monster to a human being who can communicate and get along well...

I understand all this, but I can't control it.

I yelled at her, I screamed, all my fear, panic, and worry exploded, and I even wanted to reveal my identity and everything about me desperately.

It's just... I can't.

Finally she was silent and asked me why.

can i tell her

I said, because I am your master?

I said, because I feel guilty towards you?

I say because I want to be nice to you and make up for you?

Or is it because we supported each other for 17 years?

Oh, I can't say anything, I can't say anything.

In the end, I was just full of oppressive heaviness, and every word was admonishing myself.

I say because we are one.

Yes, the relationship between me and her is nothing more than that now... There is no friendship, just me on her, I am the system that restricts her, that's all.

I suddenly realized that after I became this so-called system, I lost something.

Her current master guides her and enjoys her acting like a baby and presenting treasures. The position used to be mine.

Her current senior brothers and senior sisters love her, bully her quietly, and take pleasure in seeing her colorful expressions. The position used to be mine.

Her current junior and junior sisters love her, fight with her, get into trouble together and be punished by the elders together, get along like relatives, the position used to be mine.

But now, I am just a system, a restriction, watching everything about her, but I can no longer participate in it.

I realized that I had completely lost the right to stand beside her.

Everything is like a smoothed sand table, I am the system, I am only the system, and I can only be the system.

I provide her with negligible help, clear away the rejection of her by heaven, and let her enjoy the love she has never received from people other than me. I know that she is getting happier every day, and I listen I got her voice, and I witnessed all her growth.

But when she really understands what the gods want her to understand, I... will disappear completely.

I used the most complete disappearance in exchange for the chance to meet her again, but I can't let her know who I am, otherwise, depending on her character, the days to come may turn into chaos again...

So endure!Tolerate!Tolerate!

For her, I must endure.

The author has something to say: I think everyone has guessed about the identity of the system. Yes, the system is actually very good. It is the system that is recorded by the immortals.

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