Mountain rain

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I bought a lot of books and piled them at home. I plan to stop thinking about other things until I go out at the end of the month. It is also good to concentrate on doing something.With all that said, I'm officially planning to go out and buy food.

It's not the first time I've heard people say: "Shen Yu is quite troublesome and difficult to get along with."

I've always considered myself unlucky about it, and it's not difficult to get along with, I just don't especially like going out.

Often, I go out once, walk for 5 minutes to go home, and then go out again. After a while, I will find something I forgot, and I have to run back again.I usually go out once, struggle for two and a half hours, go back and forth for an hour, return more than three times, plus a stay of no more than five hours...Of course, if I meet friends or have a good coffee, I can go from Sit from noon to evening.

But what Tang Feixing said to me the most is, "You should go out more."

I agree with what he said, but I don't believe that I can do it myself.Then he dragged him and asked, why am I so tired from life?

He grabbed my wrist and often said lightly, "It's not easy to live as tired as you."

He has a very light masculine fragrance on him, similar to the bottle I gave him for his birthday last year, I forgot the name.When I found it in the store, I thought it smelled like hell, so I gave him three bottles in one go.He was presented with the title of [Second Goods].

Naturally, none of us can predict the future.I remember a passage when I read "Journey to the West" with Tang Feixing in the university library more than ten years ago: Jin Chanzi shook his head: "If someone tells you that he can predict your future, then he must be a liar. No one can predestinate you future." He looked up at the sky, but there were no stars in the darkness. "I don't know the ending, but I'm never afraid of its coming."

At that time, I was full of admiration: If I can think so logically, it doesn't matter even if I want to become a monk!

I also hope that I am not afraid of the future, not afraid of going nowhere, not afraid of proving that there is no way.Everything is difficult, and those who complete it will take one out of ten thousand, and the rest will die on the way, so that the successor can go on.How fearless and brave!But I still dare not know whether I am the one in ten thousand, or I died on the way for the one in ten thousand.

It sounds good, but, who doesn't want to live vigorously?I want to change the world, change my destiny, and become the winner of life in people's mouth.And who is really willing not to fight?

When I graduated from university, I also thought about how to introduce myself if I was looking for a job.Finally, it was decided like this: Hello, my name is XXX, and I graduated from XX major.Although I was not as successful as others in college and did too many projects to earn millions of dollars, I read a lot of books, learned a few languages, and wrote essays.Although what I do is not something that others will admire and praise, but I have a clear heart, because I don't have to live the same way as other people.

At that time, I always felt that these words were creative and could reflect the values ​​of life, with a little spirit of being neither humble nor overbearing, and not following the world, um, how wonderful.Does the result matter?unimportant.

This is naturally the most secondary thing I can do as a secondary school boy.When I was young, I didn't care about anything, and I didn't feel that I was entangled and unable to live.Thinking about it now, that was the privilege of young people, and it wasn't suitable for me.

I pushed a shopping cart, moved forward slowly, and threw the goods into the cart at will. My mind was always blank, and I even forgot my plan when I was at home.In the end, carrying a big bag of food, I somehow made a detour to buy a vase.

——I didn’t grow flowers in the first place.

Even the lady clerk was extremely worried and advised me to call a car, but I declined because I believed that my solid body shape could be carried home successfully... Of course, if I hadn't bought three cars on a whim on the way. The words of this magazine.

I struggled to change the things I carried, and I also worried that the handle of my bag would break.

But such worries didn't last long. On the side of the road not far from my house (not far from Tang Feixing's house, of course), Tang Feixing was walking side by side with a tall beautiful woman.

Although I had heard about it before, I was shocked when I actually saw this scene with my own eyes.Almost subconsciously, I put away my sunglasses, put on my hat firmly, and rushed forward.

I didn't breathe a sigh of relief until the gate of the community.To be honest, I don't know why I have to hide from these two people, and I have to be full of embarrassment and grievances-in fact, he told me, but I just didn't dare to take it to heart.

I remember that the temperature suddenly dropped during that time.I dragged my sick body to work and was sent home by my boss to take sick leave. I coughed for several days and had a fever until I became unconscious. Finally, Tang Feixing arrested me and took me to the hospital for water.

"Tang Feixing, you are crazy!" I scolded him on the road, "I don't want to go to the hospital!"

He ignored me.Usually he speaks very little when driving, maybe because he can't be distracted, but from my point of view at that time, it always feels more like the reason why he is full of thoughts.He is very serious, with a stagnant expression and a serious expression. I wanted to ask him several times, but I didn't know what to say, so I just thought of scolding him for being active, but the effect seemed to be worse, and I never asked him again. Dare to speak.

Maybe it's the wrong season, and the temperature difference between morning and evening makes people have all kinds of thoughts in vain, but they can't solve them, and they don't want to tell others.

When I arrived at the hospital, I firmly refused to let him accompany me, "Are you not going to work?"

"Don't go." Tang Feixing turned to look at me, frowned, and his tone was a little serious, "You take care of yourself. Depressed, I warned you a long time ago."

"what?"

"If you dare to do this again, believe it or not, I have a hundred ways to prevent you from moving out again."

What he said was true. I knew that he was in direct contact with my mother, who was the undercover agent who had been exposed to me ten years earlier, so I had to beg for mercy, "I'm afraid of you."

In fact, it's just a matter of having a fever. Who hasn't had a fever?I felt relieved after the injection. Tang Feixing took me home and parked the car downstairs, but he didn't open the door for me.

I looked at him curiously, but he refused to speak for a long time.

My luck has not been very good recently, and I am always worried about the people around me. With his appearance, I am even more anxious. Various scenes of bloody dramas flashed in my mind, such as incurable diseases, leukemia, and for a moment I thought I wonder if he is planning to leave the city and bid farewell to me.

He sighed and called my name, "Shen Yu, I'm going on a blind date."

……

The blow was more severe than the fever, and I could hardly breathe, but I still happily patted his shoulder, opened my mouth for a long time, and couldn't say a word of blessing.

"Good job!"

Maybe I know him well enough to know his family.Know that the word "blind date" means "to be married" and "married" at the same time.In addition, I have some knowledge earlier. Tang Feixing and I have been bad friends for 17 years. He didn't have to tell me everything about what he did.

The things in my hands felt heavy in an instant. I woke up, and before I took two steps forward, the phone rang. It was Tang Feixing.

what?How is this going?Call me on a date? ?

So I tremblingly put things at my feet and picked them up.

"……how?"

Tang Feixing seemed to be in a bad mood, he directly dumped me in a low voice, "Why are you running?"

"Where did I run? Did you see me?" I said.

"I see." He paused, as if thinking of something, and added, "It's hard not to see."

"……Ha ha."

It was inconvenient to hold the phone, so I took out the earphones from my pocket with one hand, and pulled the shopping bag from the ground with the other, "That person is Miss Wu?"

Tang Feixing hummed, I didn't know what words to answer him, and we both fell into silence for a while.

The earphones couldn’t be taken out, the wires got tangled up in a ball, and even got hooked on the keys, and I stuffed them back into the bag in annoyance, “There are too many things, I’m going home first, you and Ms. Wu have a good time shopping, I hang up .”

I stood on the spot with my mobile phone in my hand, thought for a while, bent down to pick up my things, got up and walked forward.

This action didn't last for a long time. At the turning point at the intersection of the community, I looked back in a strange way.

Tang Feixing was standing not far from me, with his hands in his pockets, his eyes lowered, facing my direction and he didn't know what he was looking at.I froze in place, watching his movements with a blank mind, each of which seemed to be slowed down a million times.

He raised his eyes slightly, was surprised for a moment, and put them back on me.It didn't seem like I expected to look back at him at all, nor did I ever want to put myself in such a situation.

And I only have the word "death" in my head, and I know that I will lose everything.

I walked up to him with (almost dragging) the bag, and kicked him, "Hurry up, this thing's dead."

He stretched out his hands and made a gesture as if he wanted to hug me, but in the end he just took the heavy bag and asked me with a frown, "Have you brought the supermarket home yet?"

"Walking around, I always felt that everything was missing, and I didn't have anything, so I bought it back. No matter whether I really need it in the future, it's better than regretting it."

Tang Feixing laughed at me, "Do you have regrets too?"

I walked side by side with him, turned my head and glanced at him, "Regret, how can I not regret it."

For the original sentence, I regretted it for eight years.

In fact, if a person can regret all these years for something, then he has nothing to be proud of at all.

It's ridiculous here: Tang Feixing and I are both born with pride in our bones.

He didn't speak any more.

There are many children playing in the garden of the community, and the parents are sitting together in the gazebo, watching them play, boasting about each other's children over and over again, and chatting about the past.This has almost become the habit of adults, forgetting about themselves, giving everything to the family, forgetting from dreams, removing adventure from the growth roll of life, in exchange for stability and health.

"Tang Feixing, will you ever marry Ms. Wu and have children?"

"What do you think?"

"It's not that I married her, is it interesting for you to ask me?" I never liked him playing Tai Chi around with me on major events.Obviously speaking without showing mercy.

He took the keys from my bag with ease, tore off the knotted earphones, and opened the door for me neatly, "Yeah, are you interested?"

I looked at him suspiciously, but he started the next topic, "Didn't you say you want to go shopping? When will you be leaving?"

"Casual!"

"The day after tomorrow?" Tang Feixing said, "I'll be with you."