memory hole

into the mist.This feeling is completely different from when Deng Yi was together.Far surpassed those other bad experiences.

With Deng Yi, it all depends on the bell string to play a guiding role.Because Deng Yi has no other experiences other than his for reference.

But the fourth brother Deng Qian is obviously a master of sensory creation.He can carry out everything calmly and gracefully, as if this is a kind of performance art.Not impatient and never hesitant.He must be the leader.

Like throwing a match on an oil drum, the bell strings would burst into flames.I don't know how I left my seat and threw myself into Deng Qian's arms.All the previous repression and self-control made the release more intense now.

When he was tasting the feeling with Deng Qian, all the self-blame and guilt flew away.There was a time when I felt willing to give up everything.In the face of passion, morality becomes increasingly insignificant.

Deng Qian's skills far surpassed all his previous experiences.It may also be due to his inner admiration and desire being too strong.Make his brain stop thinking.

How he rolled down on the seat like an impatient cat, and when he was a little conscious, Deng Qian had already peeled off his shirt.The box of condoms in his pocket had fallen on the carpet of the car early in the process.

Passion floods the carriage.Zhong Xian's heart was filled with an indescribable masochistic desire to surrender to the other party.The eruption of emotion turns into a burning kiss on the lips of the new lover.And Deng Qian's hand walking on him is also giving him an unprecedented feeling.

future trouble

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The ringtone of the mobile phone is specific, a short melody with a sense of rhythm - it was specially created by Zhong Xian for Deng Yi.

Driving in the interlaced forests and seaside roads in the suburbs of Hong Kong, the signal was intermittent, and the song appeared suddenly in a state of stuttering.

'No...no, meaning, without you, no meaning. '

The continuous vibration appeared at the same time as the singing, in the pocket of Zhong Xian's pants, even the people around him felt it.

Such double reminders are set because Zhong Xian doesn't want to miss any call from Deng Yi.This moment also effectively interrupts his intimate scene with his new lover.

Zhong Xian hesitantly let go of his right hand and subconsciously took out the phone, and Deng Yi's name jumped on the phone screen.The atmosphere was interrupted, Deng Qian's eyes turned into deep pools, and he sat back on his original seat.

Zhong Xian picked up the phone and said without waiting for the other party to speak: "I passed the test, just, just got in the car..."

Deng Yi's voice hesitated for a moment: "Everything went well?"

"Yes. Something will go wrong."

"At the gate, I don't know if it was an illusion—you looked back at me... I felt like you were asking for help. I had to call you to confirm."

Zhong Xian turned his face to the scenery outside the car window: "Why? I, maybe I was a little uneasy at the time... I think you don't believe me anymore."

"No." Deng Yi said hastily.

"You still believe me?"

"Ah."

"Why do you still believe me?"

Deng Yi paused for a while: "In Hangzhou, you said that without me, you would die."

Zhong Xian's tone fluctuated: "Have you thought about it? There is a more terrible result than death. I... Will we become enemies one day."

"Never." Deng Yi said, "I'll go to Hong Kong tonight to accompany you. You won't be thinking like this when I'm here."

"You don't need to come. I don't have time to see you... I have to study with my tutor very late."

"You don't need to see me, I'll wait for you at the hotel you booked."

"What about your urgent work?"

"Just explain it."

After the call ended, Zhong Xian covered his face with his hands.It was as if a whip was whipping his heart. He felt ashamed, how could he allow himself to be so selfish and shameless, there were no words to describe it.

There are several WeChat messages from Deng Yi on the phone. I don’t know if it’s a bad signal. These messages were obviously sent when he passed the test, and now they jump to the screen one by one.

—[The thing I wanted to tell you last night.Not yet. ]

——[You have been restless recently, if you are only under pressure because of money, it is unnecessary... Maybe you will blame me for meddling in your affairs after all, I promise not to despise you at all because of this, I just Want to eliminate your troubles. "

Zhong Xian replied: [You mean?]

——[I asked the fourth brother to give you a check, I guess that money is enough to solve your troubles.You didn't get any easier and probably thought you were in debt.I have to tell you, the money is mine.you should not……]

Zhong Xian turned his head to look at Deng Qian, who also looked at him with great interest.

Zhong Xian said to Deng Yi through WeChat voice: "How can you have so much money?"

Deng Yi quickly replied: [I borrowed it from my father.He is quite satisfied with me now.I haven't spoken to him for many years, and once in a while he won't refuse.I assured him that by participating in the company as he wished, I would make the money back. "

[Why don't you give it to me yourself.Why don't you just tell me. ]

[If I raise you up, you won't love me so much—how resounding are your words.I don't have the ability to support you, you have to promise to pay back my money in the future, with your ability, you will earn it back sooner or later. ]

"You are a fool!"

[Does this really make you feel at ease? Is it just money that has made you so distressed lately?] ]

"...Yeah, just because of the money. I shouldn't be bothered. You really want to come to Hong Kong?"

[Yes.Be with you soon. ]

Zhong Xian slowly calmed down.After pondering for a while, he sat back on the seat opposite Deng Qian and fastened the buttons of his shirt.Fortunately, they didn't go to the point of no return.

"Now you should know..." Zhong Xian said with difficulty.

Deng Qian didn't respond.

"I'm actually with..."

Deng Qian interrupted him: "The weather is so nice today." His expression was rather lonely, which made Zhong Xian feel sad.yes.Why do you need to tell the truth.

"The fourth brother has helped me so much, and I can't repay it."

Deng Qian murmured, "About the check..."

"I know it's Deng Yi who won't let you tell." Zhong Xian has made up his mind to protect Deng Yi, so he doesn't want to expose more things.

"Father won't give him a penny no matter what happens, but let me investigate why he needs it."

"So?"

Deng Qian was silent.

"The money still belongs to the fourth brother?" Zhong Xian sighed in his heart, he probably would never be able to fully calculate the help the Deng brothers gave him.He can only choose whom to owe.

"When Deng Yi asked for the 500 million, he told his father a reason." Deng Xi laughed, "He wanted to hold a marriage proposal ceremony. My father always wanted him to get married as soon as possible—he didn't expect him to inherit anything. Bear it. He thought that this reason could shake his father."

Zhong Xian was silent for a moment, then said angrily: "If you are so rich, you can use whatever method you want to have as many offspring as you want."

"Of course there is a reason. The previous generation only accepted wedlock. It is best to have an equivalent and prominent father-in-law. Zhao Qi is barely qualified."

"You have so many brothers, are you still worried about incense?"

Deng Qian wanted to say goodbye.

The scenery outside the window becomes monotonous.The car has been driving on the seaside road.

"I can't even replace them, let alone the others. Even though my father said repeatedly, he regards me as the eldest son." Deng Qian looked calm. "In your whole life, in your memory, what is the worst thing you think."

He looked out the window into the distance.

"It's your mother, isn't it?"

Zhong Xian seemed to have been struck in the heart.

"Or when you nearly froze in that glacier?"

"Deng Yi told you?"

"Which one is it?"

"No matter how cold the ice river is, it's not as cold as the coldness in my heart. When I was about to freeze to death, I didn't forget that my mother left... But why do I mention this now."

"The bad things in life all come from the loss of feelings." Deng Qian said. "The superiority brought about by wealth and status can't fill those gaps. No matter how hysterical, the irreparable shame can't be undone. It wasn't Deng Yi who told me about you. It was you."

"I?"

"When you pestered me."

"You mean ten years ago?..."

"The age when you lost everything, I lost it too. In one day, I was nothing. All that I was, all that I was proud of, all that I gave was suddenly not mine. Never knew again Who you are. No chance to choose to be angry, only gestures of understanding, because when people you love abandon you, they don't think it's a big deal. I watch you at 16 break all the rules and hang around every day Among the social bastards, taking revenge on the world with mischief. You're doing things I can't do."

"There is still a way to let go." Zhong Xian tried to calm himself down. "When I met Deng Yi, I just..."

Deng Qian interrupted him: "Ten years ago you said that I was your savior."

"I, what did you say?" Zhong Xian bowed his head in surprise and thought hard.He is not trying to remember, but thinking about what if he met Deng Qian first.

I was attracted to Deng Yi precisely because of the vague shadow in his heart, the vague person in the dream.

"Want to know the reason why you lost this memory?" Deng Qian asked again.

Zhong Xian looked up at him in surprise. "Don't you know?"

"The weather in that afternoon was very good. The sunlight and white clouds on the roof made me think that what you said was just talking—you said, you want to forget all the people who moved you, including me. After finishing speaking , you jumped down. I tried my best to save your life. When you suffered a severe concussion and temporarily lost your memory, I hired the best hypnotist to completely hide me from your memory. I arranged to send you to Go to college. Let you start a new life. I thought I could let it go."

Zhong Xian Jing