memory hole

Surprised, he almost jumped up from his seat.

"After so many years, you still found it. You forgot what you wanted to forget, and I helped you. I thought I couldn't tell you that I refused to be the savior because I couldn't even save myself, not because The reason I said - I have no feelings for you."

Zhong Xian's tears welled up.Memory is like a blurred red mist, the shadow that moved his heart overlaps with Deng Qian in front of him.

"It wasn't because of Deng Yi..."

"So you thought it was him?"

Zhong Xian feels that the truth of life is like a cloud without roots.He was blown by different wind directions and couldn't help himself.

"But now..."

"You don't have to be in trouble." Deng Qian said. "It's my regret for many years."

"I……"

"If you want to stay with him, I will help you. Even let you go away."

"But what about the fourth brother?"

"Lucky, I'm going to lose everyone I've poured my love into." Deng Qian smiled lightly, but Zhong Xian's heart was broken.

Deng Qian picked up the phone: "About this video, I will help you find the source. To prevent future troubles, you can leave together. Go abroad freely."

At the beginning

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When the car stopped at an uninhabited beach, Zhong Xian's heart was already in a mess.It seems to be lost at the crossroads where thousands of arrows pierce the heart, unable to find the right direction.

Deng Qian opened the car door. "Go down for a walk. You said before that you have never seen a tropical sea."

Zhong Xian followed Deng Qian to the side of the road and looked at the sea. "In the first year of college, I went to SZ to see the sea once." Zhong Xian thought of Deng Yi at that time, and couldn't help feeling sad again.In the memory of Deng Yi's few successful hypnosis, there is no shadow of other people.

"It has changed a long time ago." Deng Qian looked into the distance. "It's been many years, and I still think about it."

Zhong Xian only had immediate memories, so he chose to be blunt: "A few months ago, Deng Yi came to me, and he pretended to be a policeman to investigate that incident..."

A trace of doubt flashed across Deng Qian's side face.

"I think he's been investigating me. He happened to find a missing colleague beside me." Zhong Xian looked for the answer by himself.

Deng Qian nodded: "He doesn't like business. He really worked as a policeman when he came back from abroad, for a short period of time. He knows about you, so you should leave earlier."

"Ten years ago, why did the fourth brother go to school to find me, just to find him a musician teacher?"

"Deng Yi was closed in his own world at that time. The astronomical telescope I bought for him, he doesn't look at the sky, but uses it to look at your campus every afternoon. He can tell exactly when you will show up and when you will appear. Over the wall, when to go to class and when to skip school. You made him active. So I went to you."

Zhong Xian listened silently.

"I, introduced you into his life. This decision is right. You are his key, which changed him, made him speak gradually, and slowly become normal."

"Did you give me money? Help me set up a band? In exchange, I must have put forward conditions at that time."

"You are a little hooligan. It is not unreasonable to ask for a lot of money. The most fundamental problem is that you are because of me—this is what you said to me. You take pleasure in pestering me." Deng Qian put his hands in the In the pocket of his trousers, a smile appeared on his face.

Zhong Xian was a little puzzled: "I probably didn't realize it at the time. Probably just doing something wrong. How did I pester you."

"As you said yourself, you just wanted to be my little brother at the beginning and get some benefits. Until..."

"until?"

Deng Qian turned around: "You said that you can do whatever you want. You don't remember anything now. I remember...you won't feel any more in your heart."

"No. That's not the case." Zhong Xian shook his head.

"I still remember those little wishes, you want to have a yacht. And want to take you to do the things I want to take you. But, you are not the same. I should send you back to SZ. Like we just As promised. I should be happy for such a change. Isn’t this the result I want? Although you have forgotten it now... I shouldn’t let you know about it. Why is it me now, doing something inexplicable I should never let you forget, so you will be much happier."

"Will it be? Will I be happy in confusion? Although I can't bring myself to think of anything. But my heart is already hopelessly on the side of the fourth brother. If I didn't go in the wrong direction... But, I really insisted He took that step. Mistake or not, I've..."

"You don't need to explain it clearly," Deng Qian said. "I know it's time to say goodbye to you."

They were silent for a while.Zhong Xian whispered: "There is no mentor, is there?"

Deng Qian stared at the sea.

"There's no such thing, right?" Zhong Xian knew in his heart that this was a veritable excuse for a tryst.But I still want to confirm again.

"Yes, but we need to re-determine the time. Maybe tomorrow. Deng Yi is coming?"

Bell nodded.

Deng Qian looked around. "HQC's seaside holiday villa is just not far from here. Let's go there and have a rest first."

The car restarted and drove along the coastal road.They sat in their respective seats and were silent for a long time.My heart is in pain.

It is easy to make a rational decision, but it is quite difficult to have a wish suspended.

"Fourth brother should have had... a woman." Zhong Xian said indiscriminately.He was still reminiscing about the brief intimacy with Deng Qian just now, those skills convinced him.

Deng Qian took out his sunglasses and put them on: "Yes."

"Then..." Zhong Xian hesitated to speak.

"Do you want to ask me if I have tried anything else besides women?" Deng Qian spoke out for him.

Bell nodded.

Deng Qian turned his face to the car window: "You probably want to know if I treated you..."

Zhong Xian shook his head hastily.

"It's very innocent." Deng Qian's brows changed slightly, "At the last time... At that time, you begged me to hug you. For many years, I always saw that scene uncontrollably every night. There is no comparison There are worse things to regret." He put his finger under the dark glasses where one eye would be. "If I could go back in time, if I was willing to give you a hug, maybe the result would be..."

"I'm still here." Zhong Xian stood up impulsively.He could imagine how sad Deng Qian's eyes must be behind the sunglasses.He wanted to heal the grief.He came to a crossroads of difficult choices.His rationality made him sit down and strictly abide by the decision just now, but the scene in front of him made him want to reach out to Deng Qian again.

"Can you forgive me?" Deng Qian said slowly, "My ruthlessness hurt you. I owe you an irreparable debt. I didn't have time to tell you. I was too afraid to lose the useless title of 'excellence'."

"Even if I think of everything, I won't blame you. To meet you at that time, I must feel extremely lucky."

Deng Qian stretched out his hand, Zhong Xian grabbed it without hesitation.I don't know if the car is not stable.He fell into Deng Qian's arms.

"Just treat it as what you wanted to give me at the beginning. You don't have to blame yourself anymore." Zhong Xian said.They hugged so tightly, cheeks together, then lips.The repressed desire began to erupt, a kind of comfort of getting what you want, as difficult to control as a flood.

"Just once. Just once. Let us get rid of this torture." Deng Qian whispered in his ear.

What else can I say.I finally understand that the torrent can break through all obstacles.Even if you have to face the danger of being smashed to pieces, even if you will go to hell.

The car quickly arrived at their destination, leading them into a spacious villa courtyard overlooking the sea.

Deng Qian let go of his hand and tried to tell them to get out of the car and continue inside.

Although the luxurious and beautiful scenery of the villa is amazing, Zhong Xian's mind is full of passion.

With Deng Qian, Zhong Xian knew for the first time how skills can make people sink.

Walking to the porch of the villa, the robot automatically scanned Deng Qian's face, and the ivory white door was already opened when they walked up the steps.

A young man came face to face from inside, followed by Zhao Qi with an anxious face.

"Fourth brother." The young man smiled. He is not tall, only about 1.7 meters five.The face is slightly round, and the dress is very fashionable. The watch on the left hand is exaggerated and attracts attention.He stuck out his tongue at Deng Qian. "Fourth brother really came here, Ms. Zhao guessed right. Keke," and said close to Deng Qian's ear, "She came to you and turned SZ and Hong Kong upside down. She forced me to bring her here again. , since you're here. I still have something to do. Let's go first."

Zhong Xian guessed who the person talking to Deng Qian was.It is probably Deng Xin who is ranked fifth. I heard that Deng Xin is in charge of Hong Kong affairs. He lives in Hong Kong all year round and rarely participates in family activities.His figure is not as tall as the other brothers, and his personality is also different, giving people the impression that he is brainless and heartless.

When passing by Zhong Xian, Deng Xin glanced at him. "This one is quite special." Leaving aside the nonsensical sentence, he jumped into a blue Ferrari that was driving in front of him and drove away.

Zhong Xian subconsciously stopped.

Zhao Qi, who came out of the porch, looked confused, her eyes flicked between Deng Qian and Zhong Xian.

Zhong Xian was worried that Zhao Qi would 'misunderstand' - seeing him with Deng Qian, wondered if her head would be thinking wildly.He had to find a way to dispel her possible suspicions.Otherwise, she might notify Deng Yi immediately.

Zhao Qi wanted to say something but stopped talking, she seemed excited and almost lost control of her emotions.

"What's the matter." Deng Qian stepped forward and hugged Zhao Qi's shoulders, "Did that boy Deng Yi ask you to clean up the mess again? Let's go inside and have a chat, shall we have a drink first?" Deng Qian said softly Whispering, Zhao Qi quickly calmed down, obediently followed